So I officially suck for not updating this for almost two years. I never forgot about it, I just lost the ability to write what I thought you all deserved. It's been a big two years. I graduated from high school and started college. I promise I'm going to try harder to update more frequently.

Also, thank you to everyone who kept reviewing and reminded me about this story. It was nice to see that people are still interested in it.

Enjoy!!

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Rory's voice interrupted his thoughts, "Logan?"

Logan turned to look at his girlfriend, whose head was currently nestled into the crook of his neck, "yeah Ace?"

"I just want to…I don't know how to…"

Logan brushed her cheek with the back of his hand, "baby what is it?"

She took a deep breath and quietly said, "thank you Logan."

He looked back in shock, "thank you? What are you thanking me for?"

Rory blushed and tried to hide her face. Logan stopped her and turned her chin so she had to look at him, "hey, no hiding. Look at me Ror, what are you thanking me for?"

"For making that so perfect for me…"

Logan was stunned at what she said, "Rory, you don't need to thank me. You deserved nothing short of spectacular, it's my job to make you happy, to make you feel amazing. And besides, I loved every second of it.

Rory smiled and rested her head back on Logan's shoulder, "I love you Logan Elias Huntzberger."

Logan smiled and rubbed the small of her back, "I love you too Lorelei Leigh Hayden."

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As the sun peaked through shades early the next morning, Rory slowly stirred awake in Logan's arms. She laid there for a while, digesting the enormity of what had happened the night before, the fact that she and Logan's relationship had changed forever. He had been so perfect to her, so kind, so considerate, so loving, she couldn't imagine a better "first time" than the one that she had experienced the night before. She became aware of Logan's body pressed up against hers, his arms wrapped around her waist holding her close to him. Rory carefully turned to face her boyfriend, he looked so peaceful and content in his sleep. He was vulnerable, open, something that Rory had only ever seen when they were together.

It was only then that Rory truly realized what she and Logan had done the night before. "Oh my god, I need to go home, I need to talk to Mom."

Panic swept through her, she promised Lorelai years ago that she would tell her when this was going to happen, that she wouldn't keep it a secret from her mother. This would kill Lorelai if she didn't talk to her right away. Rory carefully removed herself from her boyfriend's arms and quietly got dressed. She was about to leave the room when she remembered Logan. If she left without telling him, he would think that she regretted last night and panicked and ran away.

Rory tip toed across the floor to the desk and carefully wrote a note to Logan explaining where she was and that she would be back later. She placed it on her pillow and gently kissed his forehead before leaving the room.

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When Rory safely reached the staircase to the outside world she pulled out her cell phone and called the only person that she could think of.

"Hey it's me. Can you do me a favor? Can you come pick me up at Logan's and take me home?"

"Sure Mary, but why isn't Logan taking you?"

"I'll explain when you get here, can you please just come?"

"Yeah, stay there."

A few minutes later Tristan's car pulled up in front of the Huntzberger mansion and Rory quickly exited the side door and jumped into the car. Tristan Dugray was not a stupid person, he could see the conflict on his cousin's face and he knew that something had to seriously be bothering her if she didn't have Logan drive her home.

"So cuz, would you care to tell me why your doting boyfriend is not the one driving you home right now? Or why you are going home at all right now after what happened yesterday?"

Rory let out a sigh and leaned her head against the window of the Porsche. At first she had her eyes closed but she kept seeing images of the night before flash in her mind. She looked at Tristan, he always acted more like a big brother than a cousin, protecting her from harm, making sure that she was safe. How am I supposed to tell him that I had sex and I'm scared and need to talk to Lorelai?

"I just need to talk to Mom and I needed to do it without telling Logan since it's about him and I. I didn't want him to think I was second guessing our relationship or anything, I just…"

Tristan saw her struggling with the words and knew what she wanted to say, "You just need Lorelai."

She smiled at her cousin who knew her almost as good as Logan did, "yeah, I need Lorelai."

When Tristan pulled up to the Hayden mansion Rory visibly tensed up. "Rory, do you want me to go in with you?"

She took a deep breath, "no, I need to do this on my own. I need to face what I said yesterday and I need my mom to forgive me." She turned, gave him a hug and kiss on the cheek, "thanks Tris, I really appreciate it."

"No problem Mary, good luck!"

Rory stepped out of the safety of the car and instantly felt a chill run down her spine as she walked towards her front door. Never before had she been nervous or scared to enter her own home, she didn't quite know how to deal with this feeling. She saw that her father's car was not in the garage but her mother's was. As much as she hated it, she was glad that she only had to deal with one parent right now, otherwise she might have broken down before she even got to talk to her mother.

When she opened the door she was instantly greeted by Anna, the maid that they had had since she was a small child.

"Miss Rory, I'm so glad that you're ok! I do not know what's wrong but your mother has been very upset since she returned from the business trip yesterday…"

Stricken with guilt for making Anna worry about her, Rory hugged the woman who was like another mother to her. "Anna, where is my mom?"

"She is in the movie room Miss Rory. She's been there all night, watching home movies and Willy Wonka."

"Thanks Anna."

Rory slowly made her way to the stairs that lead down to the basement where the infamous Gilmore Girl movie room was. Before she knew it Rory was standing outside the room and was scared to go in. Hesitantly, she raised her hand and knocked on the door.

A soft voice answered from inside, "come in…"

She opened the door and saw her mother laying on the couch, surrounded by junk food and all of their favorite movies. The sight broke her heart, How could I have been so cruel to my mom, to the woman who has given me everything I have ever wanted?

Not knowing what else to do, Rory did the first thing she could think of. In the smallest most emotion filled voice, one word escaped from her lips.

"Mommy?"

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The instant Lorelai heard her daughter's meek voice cut through the silence of the room she jumped up and wrapped her arms around her baby. She had never heard Rory sound so small or seen her face looked so scared.

"Rory? Rory what's wrong?"

When Lorelai's arms engulfed her, Rory collapsed in her mother's arms and let out the tears that she had been holding in. She felt herself being lead over to the couch and recognized her favorite blanket being wrapped around her. Lorelai stroked her hair while the tears poured down her face.

After several minutes, Rory finally regained her composure and was able to speak.

"Mom, I'm so so sorry about yesterday. I didn't mean any of it… This has been and always will be my home. You and Dad have been the best parents any kid could ask for, you love me more than anything and would do anything for me. I was so awful to you yesterday, you guys didn't deserve it!"

With those final words Rory broke down sobbing again. Lorelai did the only thing that she could, she held her daughter in her arms and tried to soothe her.

"Shh, Rory. It's ok, I know you didn't mean it. I can't say that I wasn't angry with you or heartbroken that my only daughter didn't think of her home as a home, but I do realize that something else triggered it. I was just so hurt and surprised that you said something like that to me and Dad out of nowhere like you did. What happened while we were away that triggered that?"

Rory hugged her mother tightly and looked up at her. "I fell in love with Logan and he fell in love with me. And with you gone, he wouldn't let me stay here by myself, so I stayed with him. I fell asleep in his arms every night and woke up in them every morning. Lying like that, with him, waking up with him in the morning, developing our own routine to get ready in the morning, made it seem so real."

Lorelai watched Rory's face while she talked about her and Logan, she had never seen her daughter's eyes light up quite like they were when she talked about him. My baby is truly deeply in love with a boy.

"And yesterday morning, when I woke up I realized that you were coming home, that it would be the last time that we would get to wake up together, the last time that we would get to go through our routine. And I got angry, I got resentful that you let me build this relationship with him, which was ridiculous because you didn't even know about it. That's why I clung to Logan yesterday, that's why I said those things. I didn't mean them, I was just scared…"

As she tried to absorb everything that Rory was telling her, Lorelai saw a marked change in her daughter. Rory was no longer the little girl that she left a few weeks ago, she was woman. A woman who was deeply in love with a man who loved her back. She saw in Rory what she saw in herself when she fell in love with Christopher all those years ago. Pure passion, pure love, pure devotion and dedication. It was then that she knew that Rory and Logan were going to last.

She looked into Rory's eyes and finished her thought. "You were scared that your relationship was going to change because you were going to be truly apart for the first time since you got together."

Rory lifted her chin and truly looked at her mother for the first time, she knew then that Lorelai understood. "yeah…Mom I'm so sorry."

Pulling her closer, Lorelai said, "it's ok. I forgive you. I understand what you were feeling. I felt the same thing when your dad and I got together. I didn't know what it would mean when we had to really be apart. I lashed out too, just not at my mother."

Lorelai closed her eyes and tried to absorb everything that she had just discovered and the rollercoaster that she had just been through. After a few minutes Rory's weak voice broke the silence once again with that one word. "Mommy?"