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Chapter 6

"so Sookie wants to infiltrate the fellowship of the sun?" Cailen asked thinking about the plan Eric just informed her of

"Then I'm going with her, I can protect her during the day" she said looking at Eric

"what makes you think that, you're no stronger than any human," he said dismissively, Cailen rolled her eyes, yes she had been weaker the last few days she hadn't used her powers either knowing it would drain her. She was half human so yes she could live of normal food, she was stronger however when she drank blood every now and then. I just so happened she hadn't in a couple of weeks.

"Get me a true blood or two and I'll show you" she said angrily, she didn't like to be underestimated though it did proof to be useful sometimes. Eric looked surprised but walked to the kitchen just the same.

"You get weaker when you don't drink blood, right? So do I. I just choose not to drink it unless necessary" she explained to Eric, he was curious to what kind of difference a bit of trueblood could do to her. After she gulped down two bottles she smiled feeling invigorated. It always surprised her how she could feel the blood running through her body, it was like little electrical charges went off over her body. She lifted her shirt smiling when she saw her cuts and bruises were all healed. She slowly lowered her shirt as she moved her gaze to Eric. She was eyeing him like a hunter would his prey. He stood still, he still underestimated her. She smirked at him just before she pounced on him effectively throwing him over the couch. Not a second later she was straddling him, her hands pushing his shoulders to the ground. Instinctively her fangs popped out surprising Eric. It didn't take long for him to come to his senses and he threw her across the room, smiling a little. It seemed he was impressed, Cailen laughed. She landed on a beautiful wooden dressoir, such a waste, she thought. She knew he was coming for her again but she stayed slumped against the wall till he was just close enough. Extending her arm in front of her she flicked her wrist towards her left and instantly she saw Eric fly across the room and into the wall. She stood up smirking, taking a piece of wood that had broken off the dressoir. She held him still against the wall, she could feel him struggle against her hold. She slowly walked up to him, twirling the long piece of wood in her hands. Pointing the stake like piece of wood at his chest as she looked him dead in the eye.

"and remember, Eric Northman, you ain't seen nothing yet" Cailen said dropping the stake and her hold over him as she smiled at him sweetly and turned to walk away.

"Imaging what you could do when you drink vampire blood" he murmured, Cailen caught it though and turned to look at him

"I have never tried it nor will I ever want to, I don't care what state I'm in, I don't care if I'm bleeding out, or already dead or undergoing insufferable pains, you will never, ever, make me drink yours, or any vampires blood. Got it?" she said dead serious.

"Why would you prefer to die?" Eric said surprised, how could anyone chose death over living.

"You could be so strong, stronger than anyone!" he looked at her disbelievingly

"well I don't want this! I don't want any of it, I never did. All it got me was a shitload of trouble and pain." She screamed hysterically, why everyone always insisted she should live was beyond her. They had no idea what they were talking about. What happened to her would always stay with her, it haunted her nights making sure she would never forget.

"But" Eric started…

"NO! You do not know what you are talking about! You have not lived my life nor will you ever truly know what I went through! All I want is death, it is all I seek and all I desire. Only death will set me free." Cailen whispered the last sentence as tears were falling down her cheeks. Eric remained quiet, not knowing what to say after her outburst. They stood staring at each other, not moving for a couple of minutes. She had successfully calmed herself down and pulled herself together.

"I'm going to bed, I'm leaving for the fellowship with Sookie tomorrow morning" she whispered quietly as she walked over to the bed, not even caring enough to change her outfit.

"And you better not tell anyone about anything that just happened" Cailen said before she fell in a restless sleep.

"Where are you taking me?" she screamed, tears were clouding her vision as she felt her feet scraping over the floor, she had a bag over her head so she had no idea where he was taking her, she realized there was no point in yelling. He would never let her go, this he made very clear. He was beyond angry when he found out she could never truly be his. She smirked as she thought back to that day..

It must have been over somewhere within the first two weeks after he kidnapped her. He had just raped her when he went to bite her neck, the moment his fangs penetrated her skin she felt like her blood was boiling inside of her. She screamed out in pain as he immediately jumped back from her, vomiting. It was the strangest thing she had ever seen, a vomiting vampire. After he while he stopped vomiting though. He was angry, angrier than she had ever seen him, she could practically feel it vibrating in the air. In less than a second he pounded in on her putting in a few good punches before he tore her head off.

She shook her head trying to shake of that particular memory. They stopped moving.

"What are you going to do this time?" Cailen whispered, she knew he had to have planned something special this time.

"Why I'm so glad you asked darling" the man said cheerfully as he put his arm around her shoulders and shoved her forward. Cailen fell over bumping her head on something hard. She groaned in pain as she thought she heard the man mutter an oops. She noticed she fell down a couple of feet and was now sitting on her behind the room was very narrow.

"Now be a doll and lay down, we're gonna enjoy the show very much" Cailen didn't have a choice he was standing over her in a second pushing her down and tearing the bag of her face, she looked around and saw that she was lying in what looked like a glass casket.

"I always wondered how long it would take for a human to die when buried alive" he said gleefully, Cailen didn't even have time to process her thoughts before a glass lid closed of the tiny space she was in, it was airtight, not soundproof though.

"I do miss the dramatics of, you know, the actually burying her part." He said sadly to man looking down at her gleefully, her eyes hadn't fully adjusted to the bright light yet so she could barely make out his form.

"oh well seeing her struggle for air will certainly make me feel better about it" he was his usual disgusting cheerful self again. Cailen wasn't doing so well in the mean while, she was claustrophobic.

"NOOO! LET ME OUT OF HERE! PLEASE! YOU CAN'T DO THIS! Let me out, please!" Eric was sitting beside Cailen on the bed as he watched her have yet another nightmare, tears were pooling from her eyes as she was gripping the sheets in her fist, she was slamming around in the bed though her arms barely moved from her sides, her legs never moved either, it was like she couldn't. He tried to wake her up but she wouldn't respond to him. Her sudden staggering breaths caught his attention as he moved closer to her side, he held her face in his hand. She looked like she was suffocating, he could feel her heart losing speed as they became irregular the most. He was shaking her now, desperate to wake her up, her pulse barely audible to him anymore.

"WAKE UP CAILLEN DAMNIT!" he yelled as he smacked her in the face, in that moment her heart stopped and she sat up with a shock taking in breaths with large gulps. She was crying, near hysterics when she noticed Eric sitting on the bed with her, looking at her curiously. She just looked at him, they sat on the bed for minutes, just staring at each other. Slowly her breathing evened out and she relaxed a bit.

"Cailen, I felt your heart stop" Eric whispered disbelievingly

"What happened to you Cailen?" he took her hand in his and started rubbing her hand with his thumb reassuringly. Cailen turned her gaze down and pulled her hand back.

"I-I can't.. I w-won't.. I'm sorry Eric" she said nodding her head still not looking at him, she felt him move closer and his finger under her chin lifting her head up to face his.

"sure you can, tell me" he was trying to glamour her, fucking bastard Cailen thought angrily

"NO. This is my burden, I don't want to talk about it, I won't!" Cailen yelled looking at him with a determined look on her face.

"Fine" he snarled as he flew of the bed

"Next time you better sleep in another room than, soundproofed. If you won't tell me than don't bother me with your stupid whining in the middle of the night!" Eric stormed out of the hotel room pissed leaving Cailen alone in the room. She decided to take a shower and have her own private little breakdown before going to infiltrate the fellowship of the sun. She needed her head cleared for that.

Eric was pissed. Stupid girl, should just have told him, felt her die, so curious, those were a few things that were going through his mind as he was feeding from some bimbo fangbanger who was an absolute bore. He was waiting for his appointment to arrive though so he'd endure it till then.

He ditched the fangbanger when he heard her arrive at the front desk and straightened himself out. He lounged back in his seat as he let her come to him. He grimaced at him as she stood before him.

"Lorena.."