AN/ don't own anything you recognise.. sadly i have not found a beta reader yet, I'm still hoping someone will finally respond to one of my many messages. I hope you guys are still interested in this story and i'm curious to hear what you think. please read and review, love Cailen
Chapter 11
Sweet blissful numbness, darkness all around. No remembering, not knowing nor feeling, pure emptiness. This heaven, this numb,lifeless shell, never have I felt more at peace. Though the voices are calling me, cutting through my cloud of darkness, slowly letting all my fears seep in. How I wish I could stay, but pain arrives first, sinking it's wrenching hooks in my soft flesh, pulling me out of my shell. Remembering is next, all of the hurt and sorrow and regrets.
"CAILEN? CAILEN?" Erik yelled dumbfounded as hey quickly moved to the front of the room.
People were in shock, the invisible shield had vanished only moments before and only minor injuries were caused by the remaining items that were blown around. Godric was already leading people out, telling them to go to the vampire hotel Camilla.
Now it was only Godric and Erik that were left standing in the mess that was left of his house.
"What happened Godric?" Erik asked as calmly as he could while several confusing emotions were raging through him.
"it's difficult my childe.." Godric barely whispered "she's special even though she doesn't see it that way. She hasn't told you her secret, but you'll see soon enough I imagine" he said cryptically.
"what's your deal with her anyway, one moment you seem to care about each other yet the next you're at each others throat for some promise" he yelled displeased with his maker's reluctance to answer him straight up.
"what she asks of me my childe I cannot give her, I cannot end her life when she never took the chance of living it first" he answered sadly,
"you should rest now Erik, we will continue this conversation tomorrow" and with that Godric left without making a sound.
Erik was now in his room, alone with his thoughts, more confused than ever. Angrily he ran a hand through his hair as he decided to call Pam, he needed to ask how Fangtasia was doing and probably let her know about Cailen. It was an unpleasant call to say the least.
Hours later Cailen was having a nightmare, she couldn't see what was happening, all she could see was Godric's face. His eyes were piercing, full of pity and regret. Eyes that were locked onto hers as if he was looking straight at her soul and for a minute, she could just imagine not feeling any pain at all. Unfortunately reality hit her hard as her back felt like it was being ripped open with a thousand sharp needles. She smelled the burned flesh before she even felt the flames licking at her back and all she could do was scream.. As tears were falling from her eyes, Godric disappeared from her view and the blackness once again took over.
"What the hell Godric?" Erik yelled standing outside his hotel room, Erik actually looked shaken up, surprised, perhaps even scared.
"I went down to get some dinner and I come back some hours later and she's just.. what is she Godric?" he practically growled, curiosity as well as disbelief were apparent in his voice, but Godric made no move to answer, he had yet to see her himself. He was anxious, he was glad she was alright, but on the other hand.. He sighed as he walked past his childe and moved inside. He really didn't like thinking about it.
"Godric?" a croaky voice came from inside the room, Erik, still standing in the hallway, moved his head so fast any normal person would have broken their neck and he rushed inside. Godric was already standing besides the bed smiling at the girl lying there. You could still see she had been crying, but otherwise there were no signs of anything ever happening her.
"Is everyone.." she whispered, hoping she hadn't done it in vain.
"Yes, everyone is fine, with one exception of course.." he said the last part ruefully looking down at his hands.
"can't save them all right?" Cailen whispered more to herself than anyone else really, "How long has it been?" she starting moving wanting to get out of the bed when she noticed the dress she was wearing was mostly shredded to pieces, she decided to remain under the blankets for now.
"just a couple of hours really" Godric said surprise in his voice, Erik was standing near the doorway still, taking in everything that was being said, remembering it so that he could one day perhaps use it in his advantage.
"hmm.. must have been his blood" Cailen said shrugging, before she looked Godric in the eye, she remembered then, she knew there was something strange about her nightmare, it was an old one really, and though it was similar too the pain she felt when the bomb exploded, it wasn't the same.
Years ago, when she was still unable to defend herself, held captive by a vampire, a very old one though she did not know his name. He made sure it was never mentioned in front of her. He took pleasure in torturing her, killing her and sometimes he liked an audience. That day she was chained to the ceiling, naked, battered and bruised but still conscious. He arrived a little later with a guest, she couldn't see them very well as her vision was still blurred. She closed her eyes hoping the darkness would take her to her shell once more.
"Let's get this show started guys!" he yelled with pleasure, as he violently shook Cailen awake, she tried to look closer at him but she couldn't see straight, she felt the pain as they were using spiked whips and a torch blower at her back and she screamed out as she stared in the distance were she knew he would be standing. That's when she saw it, those piercing eyes full of pity and regret, again.
"Cailen?" Erik asked waving his hand before her face, he moved to slap her thinking that would snap her out of it, but before he could hit her her small hand clamped around his wrist stopping him. When she looked at him he was sure that if looks could kill he would be deadder than dead.
"You knew didn't you?" she spoke to Godric, her voice was trembling, she slowly lifted her gaze to meet his "before I mean, before I somehow appeared in your garden" she said coldly. Godric didn't say anything, but chose to look down, getting on Cailen's nerves.
"I asked you a question" she grumbled through gritted teeth only now releasing Erik's hand as she was making to get up. Godric sighed and looked at her, his eyes locked with hers exactly the way they did in her nightmare, "yes, I knew" he whispered guiltily.
"Tell me," she asked him coldly "did you enjoy the show?" the words left her mouth like venom, he lied to her all those years, why, how could he do that to her. She totally forgot Erik was in the room as well, looking at the heated discussion with interest taking in a lot of new information.
"Cailen I am sorry, I should have told you but I knew you would never forgive me. I didn't know what he had invited me for, he said it was something spectacular I had never imagined.. that." Godric actually sounded remorseful, Cailen was relieved more than surprised, she didn't think Godric had anything to do with it, she saw the pity and regret clearly in his eyes as he watched her. She was more hurt by his lies, he should have told her, she always wanted to know who had kept her all that time, hurting her more than one could imagine.
"Do you know his name?" Cailen said perfectly calm, pushing down all the raging emotions inside of her. Revenge would be sweet, seven years later and that bastard wouldn't know what was coming his way Cailen thought wickedly.
"I'm not sure I should tell you Cailen" Godric answered boldly, knowing very well what the young girl was thinking of, but within a second Cailen was standing in his face, shredded dress be damned.
"You will deny me this?" she hissed angrily, her blue eyes piercing his with a fire he hadn't seen in them before, she felt her magic bubbling inside her again reacting with her anger it felt as though little sparks of electricity sizzling on her skin, ready to burn anything near.
"Cailen" Godric whispered alarmed taking a small step back, "I understand your need for revenge, your anger, but he is a very old, very powerful vampire.."
Angered by his blatant dismissal of her new found powers, that had grown amazingly over the last few years, she threw him across the room with a flick of her wrist. Her anger was taking over and not even Erik could escape her wrath as he was thrown into the bathroom. Cailen didn't want him interfering she would show Godric who he should worry for. When Godric got up his fangs were out, he never felt her powers used on him before, the shock of her strength made it hard for him to restrain himself. Before he was halfway across the room to her she stretched out her hand stopping him in midair floating him a feet above the ground.
Erik was watching from the doorway, he had felt her power and thought it weird for Godric to think she couldn't handle someone. He would step in if she would go to far, but she had made it clear he was to stay out of it and he respected that.
"You don't think I can handle him" she said quietly, slowly walking up to him "you haven't seen me for three years Godric, you told me I was nothing to you" the words laced with hurt and shame, "just a weak, broken little girl who would achieve nothing" Godric tried to respond but found that he could not open his mouth. Cailen had grown stronger than he thought and was amazed by the power she was displaying.
"I have learned so much in your absence, I stayed in those woods for 2 months, trusting only on my own capability's, my instincts, I almost died of hypothermia when my first power came to me" Cailen slowly explained, she put her closed fist in front of his face, palm up and when she opened her fist, fire was dancing mere inches from Godric's face, moving in the palm of Cailen's hand with grace, never once burning her.