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Chapter five: Why love hurts.

Sakura tapped her lip with the eraser of her pencil. In front of her lay an open book of notes, a half finished scroll, and a cup of tea. She sat in a small quiet cafe that people rarely visit anymore. Mainly the older ones come and they usually are quiet enough for Sakura to come here to read or relax while going over things. Plus she got to have some sweet bean buns and tea while doing so.

It was nice to get away from her own life sometimes. The drama people keep pushing onto her. Their life troubles that she just 'has' to 'help fix'. She was sick of it. Wasn't it good enough for them all to have her protecting the village and bringing them back from death? Why did they have to ask her to do such things for them? Why did she have to involve herself into their matters when she would rather deal with her own problems?

What sort of friends asked that of you? But Sakura did all it willingly because she knew that if she did she would gain their friendship, something she had lost in her life while trying to get stronger for the village and her teams sake. For her own sake. She didn't want to be some girl, she wanted to be Sakura Haruno, Kunoichi, medic, and genius. Yet all she was now to all her female 'friends' was Sakura Haruno, fool, and tool.

She closed her eyes and set the pencil and scroll onto the table she leaned back in the chair and rubbed her eyes. What a bother. Even her teammates didn't seem to like her as they should any more. Sasuke was mad at her because she had inadvertently 'stolen' his family's attention. Naruto wasn't mad at her, but he would be hurt, because she couldn't be with him. Kakashi was no doubt disappointed in her.

Why was it that she was such a disappointment when all she did was try her best to make Konoha a better place? How did she turn into the anti-hero of Konoha? The villain and yet savior as well? Why couldn't she be normal and live a normal life? Why couldn't she go shopping and laugh with girl friends? Sakura rubbed a hand over her tired eyes.

She couldn't do those things for many reasons. One, being she had no girl friends. All her 'friends' wanted something from her. Two, being that Sakura didn't have that much spare time. She was a doctor which means she's on call unless on a mission, and then when on missions she focuses on that and only that. Third, being that she wouldn't know how to laugh anymore. She couldn't force a laugh out of her throat, and she wondered when it would be that she would ever be able to freely have fun again with out the pressures of everything on her. Sure she could fake a laugh, Sai was a better teacher then he was a learner.

When could she ever laugh with out the knowledge of what she did on her shoulders? How could she live and laugh with the betrayal she committed against close friends of hers? How could she ever again laugh? Smile? Thus Sakura figured this would just have to be how it was.

She would smile for them, but she wouldn't be able to laugh for them. Laughter comes from happiness, and Sakura was far from happy.

She opened her eyes and was startled to see scarlet ones peering down at her. She gasped. He smiled and deactivated his Sharingan. She frowned at him for startling her, and sneaking up on her at the same time.

He sat across her while she calmed her heart. She had to wonder why he had his Sharingan activated in the first place while staring down at her.

" Stop using your Sharingan so much Shisui, you'll ruin your eye sight." He smiled at her leaning back in the chair across her as he peered at the scroll she had laid out before her and her notes.

" Some light reading on sealing jutsu is it?" He asked with a almost boyish smile. She sighed and leaned forward to roll up her scrolls and notes and stuff them into her bag.

" What do you want Shisui?" She had wanted a little peace and quiet but after all why did she think she would ever get any? His onyx eyes were light but they also hid something she still couldn't quite grab onto. He smiled at her.

" Why do I have to want something when I come see you? I could simply want to see how your doing. After all since you and Sasu-chan got into a fight you haven't been over." She winced.

" I figured I'd give him some space. I've been hanging around your family too much." Shisui clucked his tongue at her and then smirked at the middle age waitress who asked him if he'd like anything. He leered at her for a moment then asked for tea. When she was gone and Shisui turned onyx eyes back to Sakura her eye brow was raised.

" Your useless aren't you." She said as she put her head in her hand. He laughed softly.

" Not in everything." He said with that boyish grin. She wondered how he could still be so childish at almost thirty years old. (27)

" What did you need Shisui. I have things to do." She said taking a long drink of tea then setting the cup down empty with a long sigh coming out of her parted lips.

" Itachi's been watching you lately." He said after a silence that lasted all of two seconds.

She snorted and pulled her hair off her neck and quickly tied it back after looking at the cloudy weather outside.

" I know he is." She said. Shisui frowned.

" Do you know why?" He asked curiously, eyes watching her every movement as she tied all her hair back.

" I rather not encourage him that much to stalking me Shisui." He snorted, this time a laugh.

" Give him a break he's just different. Besides you must have did something very interesting to have him continuously trying to figure you out." Sakura smiled swiftly at him in half amusement part pain.

" Just teased him. Hinata came over and I made him believe she was my lover." Shisui wagged his eyes brows at the mention of some yuri, she swatted at him with her hand and he laughed.

" Why'd you go and do that?" He asked with amusement.

" He's easy to tease and I figured maybe I could have some fun with it." Shisui frowned.

" He is easy to ruffle, but I wouldn't do it on purpose anymore. Itachi's a strange one Sakura, and I don't want you getting hurt, or him getting attached." Sakura was the one who frowned this time.

" I don't see a problem with him getting attached. He is my friend too Shisui. Besides his mother and father want me into the clan they certainly aren't having me marry Sasuke, and your not a close second let alone their first choice." Shisui sighed deeply.

" That's not the problem and you know it Sakura." She sighed too.

" Right." There was a deep silence again between them again as the waitress brought back the tea, he smiled her way but didn't flirt again. She looked disappointed but he turned his head away from her to look else where.

He looked out the window they were seated next too. He frowned at the empty streets and the sudden start of rain. He was silent for a while staring out the window, it wasn't an uncomfortable silence, just an uneasy one for them.

" Do you mind if I stayed over again?" He asked softly so not to be over heard. She heard him though. She turned to stare out the window as well watching the rain with him.

" No, I don't mind."

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A month later:

Sakura sat at her chair in her office, on the second floor of the hospital. She sighed as she finally finished the last of the days paperwork. She rubbed the back of her neck to try to get out the cricks. Someone knocked on her office door. She could feel who it is before the woman even walked in. Tenten smiled at her.

" Hey Sakura. Finished up enough to chat with me over lunch?" Sakura nodded and stood smiling at the bun haired woman.

" Sure Tenten." Sakura followed the woman out, stopping only to lock her office, and sign out for the nurses to know she was leaving for the day. Someone would find her if they needed her for a sudden emergency, after all they have never failed to find her any other time.

Tenten walked at her side down the street from the Hospital, she looked relaxed but Sakura could tell she was concerned. Sakura already knew that the woman had sought her out for a reason not just for her intriguing company. They always had their own motives for seeing her. Every single one of them.

Tenten was beating around the bush however as she engaged Sakura in small talk. How was she doing? How did she like the sunny weather for the last week? Any new missions yet? Anything useful she read in any scrolls lately? Just silly things to keep the conversation and company in good spirits, for what was coming wasn't an amusing conversation. It would be a serious one. Sakura knew all too well what Tenten wanted to say and ask her. It had only been half a year from the start when she had asked the same things of her. She, of course, wouldn't be the only one to ask of her help in certain things like this. For some reason people found her to be a good help when they needed it.

Finally deciding on a small little cafe they took their table and ordered lunch, while they waited Tenten told her about a training session she had with Lee and her sensei Gai. While also telling her about getting a gift from Kiba that was a set of sharpening tools for her weapons. She teased that now the only thing she needed was a couple hundred sets of hands to sharpen all her weapons at once, since it would take days for her to do so for each of her many weapons with only her one set.

When the food came the ate in silence and when they sat drinking tea finished, then Sakura awaited when she would talk. Sakura felt the air change and knew before Tenten even opened her pale lips that now was when she would reveal her real motives.

" How is he doing?" Tenten asked her eyes were almost sad, but curious to the question.

" He failed every one of my tests." Sakura said and leaned back in her chair calmly sipping her tea. Tenten gripped her own tea in both her hands, they clenched at the cup in her sudden serge of pain.

" All of them?" She asked voice quivering.

" All of them." Sakura repeated.

" You haven't told him have you about this..?" Tenten asked. This, Sakura figured, was this testing Tenten had requested in the first place. Tenten had after all asked her to help Neji with his social skills, and dealings with women. Tenten was afraid Neji would be seduced by some hussy out in the field, since he had no dealings with women in the first place. Sakura was unsure why she wanted her to do such a thing from the start. It was so obvious that Tenten cared for Neji in a different way then just as her teammate.

So for what ever reason she had asked Sakura for help, and so Sakura had put Neji Hyuuga to the test and seduced him. He had failed and now Sakura was to report his failings.

" Do you think perhaps he found out?" Tenten asked obviously not wanting to think that her teammate was so helpless to women that he would be seduced so easily by any female who came at him.

" No." Sakura said and paused as the waiter came and refilled their tea. When he left she turned back to the woman.

" I doubt he would fail this when it comes to something like that. He is efficient when it comes to his job. He would never allow himself to be fooled so easily." Sakura said and took another think of tea. Her second cup, this conversion was lasting longer then she would have hoped.

" I'm worried though. He was after all fooled by you Sakura." Sakura looked the girl in the eyes.

" He trusts me. Why would he even question my motives when he's known me as long as the rest of the rookie twelve?" Tenten didn't look like she even believed that for a moment.

" Are you sure it's not because he wanted to be seduced by you?" Sakura was silent for a long moment. She was treading on thin ice. She knew what she had been asked to do, and she knew that this woman also loved the man she had seduced for her.

" I think that he was curious like anyone else would have been in that situation. I am sure that he only gave in because he had never had such a thing happen to him before and he was curious enough to want to see what it was like to be with a woman." Tenten looked almost relieved and so Sakura figured she had wormed her way out of a potentially bad situation.

" How do I know that he won't be seduced by anyone else when it counts?" Which she meant when he was on a mission out side Konoha. She cared that much about her teammate that she didn't want him stabbed in the back, Sakura wondered if Tenten realized that as his teammate, asking Sakura to seduce him, was the same thing as betrayal if he found out about this.

" Would you like to me to ask someone else to help then? To try?" Sakura asked. Tenten looked shocked then scared.

" No! No... I don't want anyone actually falling in love with him after all..." She laughed a sound that was harsh and almost crazed. She had been in love with Neji for a long time.

" I know that you won't fall in love with Neji... after all Sakura. I don't have to worry about you, but anyone else wouldn't be loyal enough like that." Sakura wondered if she should take that as a compliment to her, or an insult to everyone else. If Tenten would just suck up her courage and had seduced him to start then she wouldn't have to worry about anyone else. Sakura knew that Neji didn't see Tenten as anything more then a friend and almost sister however, so she knew that this love was one sided and that even if Tenten had tried she would have failed and created a rift between her and Neji. Maybe Tenten had realized that from the start.

" He will not fail when it counts." Sakura repeated to the woman. Tenten nodded her head looking more encouraged now then she had. She looked to actually believe her this time when she said it.

" Then are you done with me?" Sakura asked not meaning as in lunch or the conversation, but as to ask was Tenten finished using her like this. Could she end this 'relationship' with Neji or not?

Tenten didn't look as if she misunderstood at all thankfully, though she did look concerned.

" Do you think he's fallen in love with you? I don't want to hurt him by asking you to end it." Which clearly meant that she had thought that by the time she had wanted a report on his progress she had either figured Neji wouldn't fail or that if he did that he would improve, and or break it off with her after he had his fun. In which Sakura found insulting that Tenten didn't think she was worth anything then one good shag. She however ignored it.

" He will get over it." Sakura said standing. She had just sent a subtle hint back to the woman that she had insulted her and so Sakura had warned her not to do so again. Tenten's eyes widened in sudden alarm.

" So your ending it then?" Tenten asked hoping that Sakura wouldn't be angry enough with her insult that she would keep with Neji for the hell of it.

" I will. When he gets over his pain you will then have to ease your way into his heart. Do so slowly, and if you do it right you'll gain the entrance you need, and you won't have to worry about him being seduced by anyone else." Sakura laid a pile of money on the table and left with out hearing a response. She clucked her tongue in annoyance.

She didn't like having to do this to Neji in the first place. She certainly liked him better then Tenten. Women after all were manipulative as hell. Men she could figure out easily, women were sometimes just too bothersome to deal with. She huffed. Now she sounded like that lazy pineapple head.

She was sure Neji would be upset, and even more confused then anything when she ended their secret relationship. He maybe would figure he did something wrong at the Onsen or even try to get her not to break things off. She sighed. Why had she even agreed to this anyway? Probably for the same reason she had agreed to help Ino, and Hinata. She was just that type of person and people expected things from her. Everyone did and they never expected her to say no.

Why couldn't people want to be with her just because they liked her? Why couldn't people want to be with her just because she was her? But if she had learned something from anything in life, it was that everyone no matter who it was, expected, or other wise wanted, something from you or out of your friendship.

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His silver eyes were clouded as he bent to press his mouth to hers one last time before he fell on his back panting at her side. He ran a hand over his face. He looked over at the pink haired beauty at his side her bared breasts glistened with his sweat and hers from their actions previous. Kami she was breath taking in more ways then one it seemed.

He didn't know what had gotten into her. She had suddenly dragged him out of his office at ANBU H.Q. , Itachi would kill him for skipping his paperwork, and brought him to her house and suddenly stripped him of his clothes. He wasn't complaining of course, but he was concerned. She had been silent the whole time they had been engaging in intercourse, and he thought there was something very sad about her today.

He felt like he was seeing something inside of her that she had never showed him before, and he was slightly worried why she was upset for. Because she so clearly was. Well maybe not so clearly because she was as blank now a days as a brick wall. He supposed through even walls had cracks.

He reached over and touch her cheek gently pushing stray strands away from her cheek. They were clinging. He was stiff almost sore but he moved anyway to lean over and brush her lips with his own. They tasted ripe, sweet, full and swelled from his kisses.

" Sakura...I-" he began but she cut him off with a jerk to his long untied hair.

" Don't." She said softly. He frowned at her his head titled back slightly from the force of her pull on his hair.

" Why not?" He asked unsure. She closed her eyes and sighed softly her breath played along his hard pressed lips.

" It won't help anything." She said and turned her head away from him. He blinked in surprise.

" What?" He asked confused.

" Saying it, won't help anything. Besides, you promised." She pushed at his shoulder and he moved so she could sit up, he sat up as well leaning back on his elbows, as she sat naked in her bed. Hair a mess of flowers, and skin a pale contrast to the black of her sheets. They were usually green.

Her hair blocked most of his view from her face, but that feeling of sadness returned in his gut. What was this feeling from? Her? Something wrong perhaps?

" Is this about my uncle?" he asked suddenly. She stiffened. He went tense. He knew where this was going now.

" Do you regret it then? Was all this for nothing?" He asked a sharp pain throbbing in his chest.

" For nothing? No. Regret it? Yes, every damn day." She said with a voice he couldn't quite place and not seeing her face he couldn't put the emotion together properly. It sounded vaguely upset, at least he could tell that, but not exactly what kind of emotion it was.

" Then why even start this? Why did you chose me Sakura? There are plenty of other men that you could have chosen from. You could have even chosen an Uchiha and save all the other clans from a rivalry because of them. So why did you chose to torture me and yourself?" he asked and watched her in surprise as she stood from her bed. Her long hair trailing down her bare back brushing the curve of her rear. She walked to her dresser and pulled out clothes, pulling them on she was silent but when she was dressed she turned back to him as he sat naked on her bed.

" It would seem that I'm a masochist." She didn't say anything more then that. She just left and he had a feeling that that sorrow had been because this had been her last time with him. Their last shared bed, their last shared kiss, and their last shared passion. Sakura Haruno had just ended her relationship, secret or not, with him. He winced and rubbed a hand over his eyes.

He had known it wouldn't last very long, knew they could never take this any where further then what it was, so then... why did it hurt this much?

However saying that she was a masochist... did that mean that it had hurt her to break their relationship off? If so...why did she do it? She still had time...didn't she?

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End chapter:

As I said, no designated chapter page numbers! It just so happens a good cut off spot in the one-shot is after seven pages lol. Strictly coincidental! :D Hope your enjoying the fic! :D A little ShisuiXSaku?

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