I stared at my aunt. She'd been cursed. BY whom? I didn't know, no one did. My dear, beloved aunt Narcissa Ember Black Malfoy. The aunt whom i had loved my entire life more than my own mother.

Silent sobs filled my body, making me tremble as I hovered over my aunt's hospital bed. This couldn't be happening…no, never…why was this happening? She hadn't done anything to anyone!

"It was all Bellatrix," i sobbed over my dying aunt. "It was all Bellatrix. None of this was your fault. You deserve better than this. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I replaced her shadows, I'm sorry I became the very thing you kept me from…please, forgive me one day. I love you aunt Narcissa. I always will…"

Andromeda stood silently in the room, watching her baby sister die before her eyes.

I shook terribly, as if I had the chills from a fever. I felt sick. Disgusted with myself. I wanted to die a miserable, cold death. I wanted to take Narcissa's place. I wanted to take back everything I had said. Please, let me die instead of her.

From all my sobbing, Andromeda told me to shush. I stared at her in question. I was mourning the coming death of my aunt. What could she possibly want now?

"Crucia…" a weak and feeble voice said. Aunt Narcissa took my hand in her and held it, holding on to it with her last bit of strength. "You were the daughter I never had. You filled my heart with the love I was never supposed to have…you…are…good. You are so much more than you think. I love you."

"No! No, aunt Cissa! Please, don't go, don't go, don't go! I need you! WE ALL NEED YOU. Don't you dare go. I love you. Please, please! NO, stop! Dear God! Nooo. Mummy!" the last part was unexpected. She wasn't my mum. But that was all I ever wanted her to be.

I sat all alone on top of Astronomy Tower, staring out into the Black Lake. I felt nothing. Said nothing. Was nothing, in all the rage and contempt and loneliness I felt. I was like air, and I wanted to remain that way.

"You should consider coming inside, and quit acting like a damned dead chicken." Teddy told me as he scowled.

I pulled out my wand. "I'll curse you right off of this Tower if you don't leave me alone. I don't care about you, I don't mind if you die. So, therefore, leave me alone as well. I have no feelings of loyalty nor care towards you."

Teddy scoffed. "You're so stubborn, Crucia."

And with that, he walked off.

I sat on the Tower for hours…and hours. I heard rambling from the Great Hall but I didn't bother to listen. I felt death heavy upon my shoulders. I wanted to die, or make die. I no longer scared myself with these terrible thoughts. THey had become part of me. I truly was my mother now. Not the good. The bad.

"Crucia…I've been looking all over for you." It was the voice of Fred. Weasley. Who'd killed my mother.

I pulled out my wand.