The lion and the lamb

Chapter 10

"what the hell are you doing here?" I hissed angrily. I didn't get my answer but I got something else in return. "what's wrong with mom?" he looked unbelievably concerned…please… no, no, no, NO!

"no, shadow… not 'mom'… she's not your mom, she's MY mom" I sounded really possessive. Like he tried to steal away my lolly. But I was right, she wasn't his mom unless… Unless he was tsubasa… and that's when I felt my heart tear up in pieces. He wanted to walk to the window. Away from my question so I just yelled the first thing that came in my mind.

"tsubasa wait!" he stopped in his tracks and didn't even dare to turn towards me. So I was right? He was really tsubasa? I wanted to jump in joy but then I realized.

He had been alive for 8 years…96 months….415 weeks…2920 days. He had been alive all the time but didn't bother to show his face just once? Shelly… poor shelly. She waited for him all these times while he was fooling around with that misaki girl? He pretended to be someone else? I should have seen it coming… the way he acted. Like a 'over protective' brother? Give me a break. I walked up to him as he turned around and did something I never thought I would do. I slapped him right across his cheek. He winced. Not from the pain of course. His little sister just slapped him.

"mimi-" no, no more sweet, nice, crazy mikan. "no, don't 'mimi' me. Have you any idea how I felt all those years? Or how mother or father felt? HAVE YOU ANY FREAKING IDEA? I thought you were dead tsubasa and the fact you faked you death and made everyone believe you died when it was someone else in the coffin?" he looked me with shock. He thought he could fool me?

"I noticed it wasn't you! Why didn't you come back? You left me all ALONE. Do you have any idea what I have been through. No one was out there to protect me from…never mind. Just leave. My brother is dead. Your just shadow, that's wanted you wanted right? To live further enjoying your life? Be my guest" I wanted to walk away but he gripped my wrist with a tightening grip.

"who hurt you?" his eyes made me blink for a second. They were too scary to say something. "let me go" I found myself sound strong while inside I was freaking out.

"I said… who hurt you" his demand was really really freaking me out. I just forgot for a second that my brother was a vampire.

Seriously. This Is great… I really have some awesome luck. *snort*.

"now he asks after all these years…get out shadow and never show your face to me again" I fought my tears but they still fell. I couldn't help it. He betrayed everyone around him… how can he still act cheerful and cool while we were suffering.

"mimi, please don't cry" he tried to comfort me but I just slapped his hand away. He has no right to touch me with those hands.

"I'm not crying because I'm glad you're alive and you hurt me… I'm crying because I prefer you dead" he looked broken… really broken. What did he expect? it's okay tsubasa! It were just 8 years silly! No biggie!... yeah right. This is real life and when someone leaves me… I don't need them back in my life.

Funny though. I thought I needed tsubasa but right now I realized that I was much more independent than I thought.

"you don't understand" I bloody hate that sentence. I understand perfectly! WE SPEAK THE SAME LANGUAGE!

"I don't know your reason for leaving us but was it worth losing your family and friends? Shelly still loves you after all these years. She didn't even move one and YOU have already formed a new family and a girlfriend" he tried to say something but words weren't coming out. His fist trembled and his eyes made me almost feel guilty.

"you forgot us that easy... you forgot me that easy" I wanted to hide in my bed and cry my eyes out. "NO! I didn't forget you guys at all! Mikan please understand" that's what I couldn't… I couldn't understand at all.

"all I wanted was my brother…" with that I left the room with my suitcase and tears falling with every step. I really wanted to run back and hug him to dead but I couldn't. I felt betrayed. So betrayed.

Luna was waiting outside with yuu in the driver's seat. He greeted me with a sad smile knowing what happened with my mom. Luna hugged me and we both got in the car. I closed the door and looked at my window. Tsubasa looked at me with tears glistering in the moonlight…why did it end like this? I tried to close my eyes for a second but my phone rang, matty called me.

"hey matty" I could see his smile through my phone. "hey mikan!" such a sweet kid. 'why did you call?" the sound of doors closing and yelling made me realize that he was at younchi's.

"are you okay mikan?" I fought my tears back again as luna squeezed my shoulder in comfort. "matty… I will be away for two weeks or so. A little situation back home. Try to stay out of trouble okay?" I sure made some awesome friends here.

"stay safe mikan-chan! I" my smile made my other two friends smile too. I am seriously surrounded with a few great people.

"take care matty! Bye!" I hung up with a smile. At least younchi will be at ease too…. Natsume too. I rather have them knowing I was going away than just disappearing.

It's funny how things work out. I find out my brother isn't dead and I'm among non humans.

Life seriously hates me.

"if you girls need anything, just call me" yuu sounded like a worrying dad. So nice. He gave both of us a hug and patted out heads.

"don't worry, I will explain everything to anna and nonoko… we will see about school when you both get back okay?" I nodded and tried not to cry. I was getting more and more vulnerable every second.

We bid our final goodbyes and got through the passport control and other stuff. I wanted to go back and run in natsume's arms… I still hadn't told him that I knew what he was neither did younchi tell me what his problem was. How was I going to face tsubasa when I got back? The reason I came back to this town is because here is where my brother died…. And now I find out here is actually where he lives… fine and healthy.

When they got in the plane, it felt like I was going away for a long time while it was just a few weeks or less. Luna looked at me and smiled.

"relax mikan! We're back here in no time! You won't miss anything!" pff, and natsume said my mind couldn't be read. Luna just proved him wrong. HA! HE GOT BEATEN BY A GIRL!

Me and luna fell in sleep on the plane… it was already dark and we got bored after just looking out the window into darkness… so we both just decided to sleep. I really hate food In the plane! It's so yuck! Me and luna looked at our food and gulped. We had to eat something. She breathed in deeply and dug in.

After what felt like eternity the plane landed and we got off. it was already daylight and I smiled as the sun greeted us. We both squealed like little girls as we walked out the airport. I called a cab and we got in and drove to my house first. I took a deep breath and rang the door, after a few rings the door opened and I was greeted by shelly.

She looked utterly shocked. I think she didn't think I would come like right away. She was still as beautiful as I remembered. Those blue eyes and blond straight hair. She was absolutely your super model. Beautiful and super sweet.

"OH MY GOD! MIKAN!" she lifted me from the ground and pulled me into a tight hug almost squeezing the air out of my lungs. As she set me back on the ground I breathed relieved and glared at luna who was laughing at my almost death.

"shell, this is Luna… luna this my sister Shelly" luna smiled at her and then looked curiously at me. "I thought you had no brothers and sisters" shelly smiled at me and ruffled my hair.

"we're not blood related" I pouted as we both walked in and quickly combed my hair with my fingers. I didn't want to look like a clown.

"the guest room is ready, so if you wanna sleep for a while… you can go" luna smiled gratefully and looked at me. "you want me to accompany you to the hospital?" I shook my head. She was just too sweet! She should get some rest… this was a long and I mean a very long day.

"you can sleep luna, I will be back before you know it" she smiled as shelly led her upstairs. I really missed my home! I walked around a bit…taking in the smell and sight of my lovely mansion and waited for shelly.

As she got downstairs she smiled and pulled me with her towards her car. The ride to the hospital wasn't quiet at all. She asked me how I was doing, how Assabu was, how my dad was, if I met any cute guys.

It felt different yet nice talking like this. I realized I really missed her… I felt so bad for her right now knowing Tsubasa was alive.

"well there aren't any cute boys there that's for sure" just a little lie. I didn't want her to come visit me while Tsubasa would be in the same town. Talk about major headache.

I think I will visit Sabaru later… he's gonna be mad at me. *sigh*.

"too bad, I thought about visiting you… ah well, glad you're here though" I am feeling super guilty ya know. "anyways… what happened with mom did she got in some kind of accident?" shelly hit the brakes and we flew forward.

I THINK I'M GOING TO DIE!

"SHELLY WHAT THE HELL?" I try to regain breathing. I was clutching my seat… I think I was even whiter than Natsume right now…. If that's even possible.

"there's nothing wrong with your mom Mikan! SHE'S PREGNANT" oh okay, that was- WHAT!

"SHE'S PREGNANT? I'M GONNA RIP SHIKI'S BALLS OFF" why was I angry? Because she said to ME that she never wanted to get pregnant because it wouldn't be able to fill the hole that Tsubasa left.

"don't go there with that angry scowl, mikan" shelly looked actually sad saying that. Was I the one being wrong? Damn, you go away for a few weeks and my mom gets pregnant. What's wrong with the world? I want to be happy you know, but it actually feels like I'm the only one still stuck on the past.

"whatever… so shelly someone in mind?" I joked a little, trying to get rid of the tension but that freaking blush on her face made me gape at her like a fish. Stupid slimy annoying fish.

"shell…you're in love?" I found myself hesitating in asking that. I became really afraid that I was the only one stuck in the past.

"y-yeah… I think you know him. Sabaru imai?" it just had to be my first love. Yes people, you guessed it right. The first person I fell in love with was Sabaru.

"so he likes you too?" she shrugged as we kept driving to the hospital. I'm seriously regretting coming here. "I don't know". The rest of the drive became silent… I felt like I was selfish. I mean if Tsubasa moved on why not shelly? But with Sabaru?

It's not like I still like him? I just find it weird… that's all.

"we're here!" why is she acting happy? I don't see any point in being happy at all. Stupid freaking Miami… I wanna go back to Assabu.

"great" I think she heard my sarcasm because she said nothing more.. we walked in silence towards the hospital room. Shiki was apparently sitting outside. The moment he saw me he looked utterly shocked. That makes two of us.. I swear I don't need any more surprises for today.

"mikan, I didn't knew you were coming" don't worry, I won't stick around any longer stupid pervert step-dad. "it wasn't really planned" fake smile.

"how's mom and her… p-pregnancy" I hate that word. Pfff, I even stuttered saying that. I mean PREGNANCY? Seriously people?

He gulped sensing my hate towards that word… he's so not done with me. "y-yeah.. you can go inside" I nodded and didn't even gave him a last glance. I didn't want to show him any kindness. I walked in and saw my mom lying in the bed peacefully. I thankfully didn't saw any bump on her tummy.

"mom?" I found myself sounding quite careful. She slowly opened her eyes and a smile lit her beautiful face. Even though she was … uhm…. P-pregnant… she was still pretty.

"mi-chii… you came" her voice was really tired and my previous anger disappeared. I couldn't stay mad at her. "how are you feeling now?" she smiled and reached out for my hand which I obviously took.

"I'm better now you're here… mikan I am so sorry I didn't tell you sooner" how can I stay mad at my mom? My 'brother' was the one I hated this moment.

"it's okay mom… I'm glad you found something to smile for again" my smile was partly fake because I felt a little sad. Why is my life so fucked up?

"so how is Assabu? Meeting any cute guys?" her eyes gleamed as I playfully rolled my eyes at her remark. Silly mom.

"there really interesting people there" what could I say? yeah, I met my brother and some really sexy vampires.

"mikan… you met him didn't you" the sadness was evident in her eyes yet she tried to smile… please no, not this time… please don't tell me…

"your brother… you met your brother didn't you"

she knows.

omg i am sooo gonna kill myself! i didn't upload for so long! pleaseeee forgive me, my exams just finished so now i have enough time to update my stories!

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