Chapter 6

Unforeseen

Copyright: I do not own Mortal Instruments or it's characters, those belong to Cassandra Clare. All original ideas and concepts are the intellectual property of myself

Hello my lovely readers! First I want to thank everyone who reviewed, favourited, and alerted, it made my bad day a really good one. They're like Christmas presents in November. Another Christmas present was how fast my beta got this to me from the moment I sent it to her. The woman is a genius for working this chapter out. Anyway, here's Chapter 6. It's really long but I hope you all like it. Thanks for reading. Enjoy.

Songs:

Lean on Me- Bill Withers (Glee version's good too.) - Alec and Magnus (End of scene 1)

Human- Jon McLaughlin

Stranger- Secondhand Serenade

Alec woke, the sunlight blinding him as he opened his eyes. He placed the palms of his hands against his eyes, trying to soothe them from the onslaught of the sunlight. Finally he removed his hands to see the ceiling swirling above him. He blinked again to focus before turning his head to Magnus's bed.

Memories of the night before flashed through him, ripping through the peaceful sensation that sleep had brought him. He remembered waking in the middle of the night to Magnus panting and shaking. He remembered trying to get him to speak, to listen. But he got nothing. He got nothing but the pained lost look swimming in Magnus' eyes. Magnus' pain was so real Alec felt it like a hot iron scorching his soul. He felt Magnus' pain as he had never felt anything before. He didn't understand it. He never thought pain like that was possible, yet he had seen it. He had seen it in Magnus' eyes and he had seen it in his drawings.

Alec didn't know why he had taken Magnus to him, but in the moment, it felt like the perfect thing to do. He looked lost, like he was groping for something he couldn't find. Alec just wanted to ground him, to offer him comfort through the pain. He wanted to be there for Magnus, to help him find that light beneath the water. Being there with Magnus against him, Alec felt something inside of his heart come to life. A fire ignited inside of him, telling him that everything was okay and that it would all work out. He felt safe there with Magnus. He felt something with him that he had never felt before. He felt like he never wanted to let go of Magnus and that he would be okay in that spot for the rest of his life. He felt something for Magnus in his heart that he had never felt for someone before.

Alec watched as Magnus' hand flew across the page, his pencil creating an image of the pain in his heart. Alec just watched him, too scared to speak in fear of ruining the peaceful state of mind he seemed to be in. Magnus looked so serenesitting there, the sunlight reflecting off his bare features. He was even more alluring without the glitter as he was with it. Without it, Alec could see every line of his face and every uncombed strand of his hair. Alec felt like he was seeing beneath a mask to a vulnerable piece of Magnus. Here he was without anything to cover him up doing the one thing that he truly poured his soul into. Alec almost felt like he was intruding on something.

Minutes passed as Alec watched Magnus. He knew it was wrong to stare but he couldn't help himself; Magnus captivated him in every way.

Suddenly Magnus' hand went still and dropped onto the paper. Alec felt his heart jump at the sudden movement.

"Have you enjoyed watching me?" Magnus' tone wasn't angry or agitated but rather like he was amused.

Alec blushed, feeling about a million words roll on his tongue. "Oh…Yes…No…I…" He fumbled over the words as he watched a smirk crawl onto Magnus' face.

Magnus laughed. "It's okay. I can be pretty captivating in the morning." He turned his gaze from his drawing to Alec. Alec met Magnus' eyes and felt the air leave his lungs. It had been so dark last night that he had barely seen Magnus' eyes, but now in the light of the morning they were crystal clear. He could see the pain buried within the irises, swimming like long lost ghosts in the pit of his soul. The pain seemed to be etched into his eyes like scars. But what Alec didn't get was why Magnus was being so casual. Clearly he must have remembered what happened the night before, so why was he acting so happy? Was he just really good at not letting things affect him?

Alec felt more blood rush to his cheeks as embarrassment flooded through him. Magnus' smile got bigger as he stood up, putting his sketchbook on the bed. "I'm going to go and take a shower. I'll be out in a few." Magnus crossed the room, passing Alec's bed as he entered the bathroom. Alec caught Magnus' scent as he walked by, savouring it on his senses. It was so foreign, so masculine, and extremely intoxicating.

The door closed behind Magnus and Alec heard the tap being turned on as the water hit the tile. He looked over at Magnus' sketchbook, seeing that he had left it open to his most recent drawing. Alec looked from the drawing to the bathroom door, feeling a sharp tug inside of him to cross the room and look at Magnus' latest work. He knew he shouldn't; it was an invasion of privacy. But then again, he had left it open right there.

Alec gave in and he quickly got out of his bed and crossed the room to Magnus'. The drawing caught Alec off guard. It was a picture of a boy, his small figure silhouetted in the frame of an open window. There was a storm raging outside, rain falling thick onto the ground below as lighting cracked in the distance. Water landed on the boy's skin and it appeared to be leaving scars in his flesh. The scars seemed to go on forever, deep pits into the boy's skin, into his soul. Tears fell from his face but they were coloured, dark, almost like the boy was crying blood. The boy looked broken, hurt, and he looked lost. He looked like Magnus. Did this have something to do with Magnus' dream the night before? Was this an illustration of the life he was hiding?

Alec jumped as the door to the bathroom opened behind him. Alec turned around quickly to see Magnus standing in the doorway, leaning out so only see his head and shoulders were visible. Steam wafted out of the doorway, curling at Magnus' feet and head. He was dripping with water and Alec was once again, caught off guard. Seeing him there soaking wet ignited something in Alec he had never felt before. The feeling knocked his breath away as he tried to gain control of his emotions. But gaining control seemed impossible. Alec felt the heat rise in his face as he tried to avert his gaze.

"Hey, can you grab my conditioner? You fail to have the sense to buy one."

"Oh, yeah." Alec put on a smile trying to cover up the fact he was looking at Magnus' drawing and the fact that he was looking at Magnus. Jesus Alec, get yourself together. You look like a damn fool. He mentally slapped himself for it. "Where is it?"

"In the bag under my desk. I keep forgetting to bring it in here."

Alec went over to the desk, pulling Magnus' bag out from underneath it. He undid the zipper, planning to find the bottle and give it to him so he'd go back to the shower and allow Alec to stop thinking about him without his clothes on. But that was not a plausible option. There were about 10 bottles and Alec didn't even use conditioner let alone know which one it was.

Alec looked at Magnus, once again feeling that tug within him. "Which one is it?"

Magnus laughed. "Blue one, silver writing."

Alec rifled through the bottles, finding the blue one at the bottom. He picked it up and stood up quickly. He walked over to Magnus, taking deep breaths as he got closer. It was in those steps that he was cursing the physical and hormonal attributes he was given. This was not the time or place to be feeling like this. But Magnus did that to him. He brought something alive in Alec; something emotional that he had never felt for someone before. And now, now he was feeling the physical aspect. He had always been attracted to Magnus since the first moment he saw him, but something about him being wet and naked had just sparked something new in his physical feelings for Magnus.

Alec gave Magnus the bottle, shivering as their skin brushed. A small inkling in the back of his brain was telling him Magnus had done the whole thing on purpose just to tease him.

"Thanks darling." And then he disappeared, gone back into the shower. Alec let out a long breath, continuing to breathe slowly as Magnus' singing filled the dorm. Alec tried to breathe, the bulge against his jeans doing nothing to calm the emotions running through him. These feelings were so foreign, so unknown, that Alec didn't know how to handle them. He had never been with someone before, never kissed anyone, or even felt the way he did about someone. He had felt for Jace, who over the last few days Alec had started to forget about. He felt his feelings for Jace like an itch he couldn't scratch, an itch that burned at his skin but wouldn't go away. But his feelings for Magnus were like a searing iron, coursing across his skin. His feelings for him were hot, intriguing, unbearable and exotic. His feelings for Jace were safe, soft, and numbing. Now that he had met Magnus, his feelings for Jace were small. They felt like nothing compared to the wave of emotion Magnus sent through his body.

Alec's eyes drifted back to the drawing as his mind flooded with thoughts of Magnus. He felt like what had happened last night had changed something between them. He knew it had changed everything for Alec. He felt like he knew a whole part of Magnus no one else did, and that fact made him even more intriguing and captivating than before. He knew the vulnerable Magnus, the Magnus who wasn't sarcastic and charming… the Magnus beneath the mask.

Alec walked over to his dresser to change, his mind enveloped by Magnus. As he changed, he thought about what Magnus could be hiding. Why had he been screaming for someone to stop? Why did he say it wouldn't be ok?

As Alec threw a sweater over his head, the door to the bathroom opened. Alec popped his head through the collar to look at Magnus, fully dressed, intently looking him over. He suddenly felt self-conscious and was relieved that he had chosen a sweater to wear.

"I really need to take you shopping."

Magnus' words caught Alec off guard for the third time that day. He never ceased to surprise him.

"My clothes are fine." Alec hugged his sweater closer to himself.

"To you maybe but I don't even know what colour that used to be."

"It's black." Alec looked down at his sweater mournfully. It used to be black, but now it had turned a very worn brown colour. "Well, at least it used to be."

Magnus grinned. "You need to spice up your wardrobe a little bit. Maybe some blue or green to bring out those beautiful eyes, because sweetheart, that is so not your colour." Magnus met Alec's eyes with a smile as he walked past him over to his dresser. Alec felt his insides flip. Why did Magnus make him feel this way? Why was he so damn attracted to him?

Well, he could name about 100 reasons.

Alec watched as Magnus walked over to his dresser. Alec didn't want to ask about last night but he knew he had to. Magnus was too calm and it just didn't feel right.

"Magnus, what happened to you last night?"

Magnus fell silent at the dresser, his hands falling to his sides as his shoulders hunched. "Nothing."

"It clearly wasn't nothing."

"Well I don't want to talk about it okay? Thank you for everything but that's it. It happens. It's not that big of a deal." Alec could hear the pain in Magnus' voice, the pain that was fighting its way through him. Alec took a few steps towards Magnus, finding the need to comfort him again. He put a hand out to touch Magnus' shoulder, feeling Magnus' muscles flinch beneath his head. But slowly they relaxed, moulding to Alec's hand. The contact sent an electric shock through Alec's body.

"Magnus." Alec's voice was soft, reassuring. He didn't judge Magnus for what happened the night before, or for what had happened to him to cause that.

Magnus turned around slowly as Alec dropped his hand. He met Alec's gaze and Alec could see the battle waging within him. Alec had the urge to take Magnus to him again and hold him there and comfort him. He wanted to silence the battle and end the fighting. He didn't know why Magnus fought but he didn't care, Alec just wanted to save him. He wanted to be the one to free him, to help him.

Magnus sighed and Alec saw something flicker in his eyes. "I can't explain to you what happened last night and I may never explain, but I don't want you to think anymore into it. These are my battles to fight and I don't expect anyone else to fight them with me. I will always be grateful to you for helping me last night but I will never ask you to do it again."

"But if I want to?" Alec searched Magnus' eyes seeing a light grow within them.

"Then you're a fool Alexander."

"That's fine with me." Alec felt a shock run between them, an electric current that was attracting Alec to Magnus with each passing second. He felt himself move closer towards him, his eyes trailing to Magnus' lips. They were full, curved in a slight smile and asking. They were just asking. Alec wanted to. He wanted Magnus. Alec felt Magnus being pulled towards him too and the connection between them was intoxicating. Magnus smelled like apples, and his dark hair hung in curtains around his face. It framed his gold-green eyes with ferocious intensity and Alec fought the urge to touch his hair, to touch him. He had never wanted anything as bad as he wanted Magnus at that moment.

Inches away from Magnus, a meow interrupted both of their thoughts as Chairman Meow circled around their feet. Magnus smiled as he picked up the small cat. Alec didn't hear the words Magnus said to him because he was too distracted. He was lost in Magnus' features, lost in the emotions flooding through him. He knew he'd only known Magnus for three weeks and lived with him for one, but to put it simply, he had a crush on him. He felt for Magnus how he thought he felt for Jace. He felt for Magnus the same way he was scared of feeling for a guy. The fear swept through him at the same moment as the realization and he felt his heart tighten in his chest. A part of him felt like it was so wrong and yet another part was telling him it was right. A part of him wanted Magnus and yet another wanted to not feel the way he did and just crawl away into a hole. He just wanted to hide. He wanted to hide from his feelings so he could figure them out, and he wanted to hide from the world to avoid its glares and harsh words.

Magnus looked up from the cat to Alec. The moment was gone, flushed away as quickly as it came. "So are you going to the party at Delta Phi tonight?" Way to change the subject Magnus, Alec thought.

Alec had actually completely forgotten about it. Anna had invited him on Thursday since it was her sorority. "I got an invite, but I'm not sure if I'm going to go."

"Well then it's settled." Magnus smiled at Alec and they held each other's gaze for a few seconds.

"What's settled?"

"You heard me Alexander. You're going. I will not let you mope around here all night when you could be out there having fun."

"I do not mope." Magnus looked at Alec with a look that said, 'Yes you do, so stop denying it.' Alec couldn't help but think of Jace when Magnus looked at him.

Magnus laughed as he put down the cat, grabbed his cosmetics and disappeared into the bathroom for what Alec timed to be two hours. Alec had spent many days waiting for Isabelle in the bathroom and had become accustomed to the waiting process. But something about waiting to see Magnus leave the bathroom took an even bigger toll on Alec's patience than waiting for Isabelle. Waiting for Magnus was excruciating. He wanted to see his face again. He wanted to touch his skin, to kiss his lips. He wanted to hold Magnus again like he did the night before.

The music was an onslaught against Alec's ears. The people swarmed about him in masses as he and Magnus made their way through the front room over to the drink table. In all honesty, Alec had never been to a party before. He'd been invited, been called anti-social by Jace, but parties had never been something he was interested in. Looking at Magnus, he knew he was in his element.

Magnus moved seamlessly through the crowd while Alec bumped into every other person on the floor. He knew just the level to talk at while Alec found himself yelling. He talked to the people he passed with grace, commenting on this person, or this couple, or this song, but Alec didn't know what to say to anyone. He just kept with Magnus as he searched the crowd for Anna, the only other person he knew on a level more than acquaintance.

He looked up at Magnus as they stopped near the far side of the main room. Magnus had chosen to straighten his hair, his eyes were rimmed, once again, in black and glitter, and his lips were coated in some colour Alec couldn't distinguish. He wore rainbow pants held up by a belt with a studded 'M' belt buckle. He had on black boots, and a black glittering top accented with a purple tie under a black vest. Magnus knew how to stand out in the crowd, but in a good way. He was the captivating man who brought a light into each room. He was the one who you appreciated for his originality and his style. He was the one that Alec knew everyone liked.

As for Alec, well, he looked like a nothing compared to Magnus. Alec had thrown on a dark t-shirt, which he was sure used to be black, and black worn jeans which fell around his sneakered feet. His hair was messy, as per usual, and he was one of those people that others overlooked; especially when he was standing next to Magnus.

"Here." Alec looked up at Magnus who held a glass of yellow liquid in his ring studded hand.

"Oh, no. I don't drink." He had dealt with drunken people enough in his life to not want to drink alcohol himself.

"Imagine it's apple juice."

Magnus' comment made Alec laugh. He felt bad to say no again so he took the drink, his fingers brushing against Magnus'.

Alec went to say something when he felt a tap on his shoulder. Alec turned around to see Anna standing there looking as vibrant as ever. She had on a light blue dress that fell about mid-thigh and her hair was held back on her head by a small white headband. She had a smile on her face as she met Alec's gaze.

"Hey, I didn't think you'd show." Anna smiled.

"Well, I got convinced otherwise." Alec glanced back at Magnus who had adapted a leaning pose against the table, which Alec found extremely attractive.

"I see. Magnus does have that ability." Alec couldn't quite distinguish the underlying tone to her voice.

"Damn right I do, honey." Magnus took a drink, glancing over at Anna from underneath glittered eyelashes.

Alec looked from Magnus to Anna. "You two know each other?"

"We know of each other, yes." There was distaste in Magnus' voice.

"I'm a friend of his ex-girlfriend." Alec figured out what it was that he couldn't distinguish before. It was a hatred that was in her voice, a hatred that was directed at Magnus.

"Oh." Alec was out of words. Looking from Anna to Magnus he thought he saw daggers shooting between their gazes. Whatever had gone on between them was filling the room like oxygen. Alec felt like he was the rope in a tug-of-war. He felt pulled between the two of them, the tension stretching him.

Alec felt relief flow through him as Magnus moved his gaze back to him. "I'm going to go. I'm not in the mood to be bitched at tonight by people with bad manicures. And besides, this party needs a little more entertainment, which is why I'm here. I'll talk to you later." Magnus glanced at Anna one last time before pushing himself up from his position and walking away, his hips swaying to the beat of the music.

Alec felt the tension fall away, like the rope being dropped, as he looked at Anna.

Anna took Alec's drink from his hand, taking a long gulp before handing it back to Alec. "Who the hell invited that asshole?"

"Uh, I don't know." Alec was extremely confused right now and wasn't sure whether he would have been happier if Anna had left, leaving him with Magnus.

Anna turned her gaze on Alec. "I'm sorry, I just don't like him."

"Why?"

"Because of what he did to Camille. He broke her heart, many times."

"What did he do?"

"He knocked her up and then forced her to have an abortion when she didn't want to."

Alec felt the floor drop beneath his feet. "He what?"

"You heard me. He's an asshole Alec. My word of advice would be to stop hanging out with him while you can. He's not safe to be around. Camille said he's troubled and she always lived in fear that his past would catch up to him."

"What past?" Alec felt the world around him swim and looking down at the glass in his hand he was compelled to take a drink.

"She didn't say, but it was bad. Look Alec, I'm just looking out for you. He may seem charming but he's got some dark skeletons in his closet."

"We've all got skeletons in our closet Anna."

"Not ones like him. His aren't dead yet." Anna smiled slightly. "Now come, I want to introduce you to some people." Anna took Alec's hand and a surge of heat rushed through him. He downed the last of his drink in one gulp, putting it back on the table as Anna pulled him away.

Alec searched the room for Magnus but he couldn't find him. Was what Anna said true? Was Magnus' past really that bad? Alec had formulated ideas from last night's events but was one of them it? What had happened to Magnus as a child that was so terrible? And the baby. Not that it was his business to know anyway, but what was Magnus' side of the story? Had he really forced Camille to have an abortion?

These questions, and more, flowed through Alec's thoughts as Anna pulled him through the party. He barely registered the people he met or the drinks that passed through his hand. He barely registered his own consciousness. Now, more than ever, he wanted to know the answer to the one desperate question he had been asking from the beginning. Who was Magnus Bane?

"Not now sweetheart, try him." Magnus pushed the drunken brunette away into another man's arm, his smile falling away as he turned his back. His mood had been ruined ever since Anna had shown up. It wasn't that she was there, Magnus could deal with that, but it was the fact that Anna knew Alec well enough to want to invite him to the party. Magnus knew the kind of things Anna was spinning to Alec, and most of them were probably true. Magnus had done some things he regretted, but he did them because he had to. But given that Alec was hearing this from Anna, Alec would be hearing the side that painted Magnus terribly.

Great job Magnus. Not only did you leave him in her horribly manicured clutches, but you screwed up any chance with him. You're such an idiot.

Magnus liked Alec. It wasn't just a simple attraction anymore; Magnus actually liked Alec. He liked the way Alec didn't know about conditioner, the way he snored softly when he slept, the way he blushed when Magnus spoke to him while naked, and most especially the way he held Magnus when he was in the most need. And then he liked the way Alec said he'd do it again, that he didn't care if he told him about it all, he'd still be there.

Magnus almost thought he was dreaming. He didn't deserve that. He didn't deserve someone to hold him in the night when he was broken. He didn't deserve to know someone so pure and amazing as Alec. The electric connection he felt towards Alec was something he had only felt once before, and that was a long time ago. He never thought he would feel this way again. He never thought he would want to hold and kiss and be with someone as much as he wanted to be with Alec.

But his past would ruin it. Alec probably already knew what had happened with Camille and had already made his judgment. That was why Magnus never told anyone about his past unless he had to. Normally, people just judged him and thought he had problems and needed help. He didn't need help. He had been given all the help in the world when he was younger. He just needed to be looked upon without pity, without judgment. He just wanted someone to accept him for everything he was, but in this world, that was a hard thing to ask for.

Magnus fell into a chair, kicking his feet up onto the coffee table. Two people were making out on the couch next to him but he didn't register any of it. He was too distracted in his wallowing. Would Alec ever feel the same way he did? Could Alec accept him? What if he didn't? What if Alec got spun in the web of lies Anna was telling him?

Magnus thought he knew the answer to all those questions when the crowd in front of him dispersed. On the other end of the room, seated together on the couch were Alec and Anna. Anna had her hand on his leg and she was moving in slowly. Alec looked almost confused but he didn't move away. Magnus watched as Anna kissed Alec and thought he could feel his heart being ripped from his chest. The one person he wanted more than he had ever wanted anything would never want him too. Magnus wasn't worthy of that. Camille never loved him. She only stayed with him because he was good in bed. His parents never loved him. His teachers never loved him. No one ever loved him. Magnus was just an outcast, a tool to be used until the nail was unscrewed and he wasn't needed anymore. That's how it had always been his entire life.

Magnus hated himself for falling for Alec. It was a stupid fantasy of an idea and clearly he was wrong in his judgment of Alec. Alec wanted nothing more than to be a friend and everything Magnus thought he saw in Alec's eyes was wrong.

Alec pulled away from Anna, his heart skipping a few beats. It felt wrong. He had never kissed a girl, or anyone for that matter, and the experience was exhilarating. But, it still felt wrong. He met Anna's eyes, seeing the concern in hers. He didn't like her that way. He didn't like any girls that way and that kiss had officially closed that door forever.

"Did I do something wrong?" Anna's blue eyes searched his.

"No. I…I just can't do this."

Anna's brow creased. Alec knew Jace would be smacking him upside the head at that moment for being such an idiot, but he didn't care. He tried to quiet Jace's voice in his head as he averted Anna's gaze.

"What do you mean?"

Then he saw it. A glittered figure stood up from a couch, walking away faster than Alec thought possible. It was Magnus. Magnus had seen them. That created a pain in Alec's heart that ripped through him. He hadn't wanted to kiss Anna; she had come on to him. It had happened so fast Alec hadn't any time to think. He had only just managed to get his brain cells working 10 seconds through the kiss, meaning Magnus had probably seen the whole thing. If Magnus was just a friend, that wouldn't have bothered him, but Alec felt for Magnus more than he felt for a friend. He wanted to kiss Magnus, not Anna.

Alec was still bothered by what Anna had told him but he saw something in Magnus that seemed to explain all of Anna's comments. Alec didn't think Magnus was a bad person and he had seen it in his eyes, the skeletons in his closet. He didn't care what had happened to Magnus in his past, because the past was the past. He liked Magnus for who he was in the present, and if his past made him into the person he was today, then why should he hate his past? Why should he hate Magnus?

Alec suddenly got the urge to go after him. He stood up suddenly, catching himself and Anna off guard. He felt the alcohol rise to his head, off centering his balance.

"I have to go."

"Alec, what's gotten into you? You can't just leave."

"I have to. I'll talk to you later." And with that, he walked away, heading off in the direction Magnus had gone. Within seconds, Alec found himself outside, the cold September air stealing at his lungs. He looked around the yard, seeing nothing but people who looked nothing like Magnus. His world was spinning a bit but the piercing air seemed to clear his senses a bit. He stood there for a few moments trying to get his bearings and decide where to go.

He started down the steps and started following the path into the small wooded area next to the house. He wasn't sure why he started that way, but his feet just started going there on their own accord.

Alec followed the small path and finally, in a small clearing, he saw Magnus. Magnus looked small in the clearing. His face was upturned towards the sky and his arms hung limply at his side. The moonlight reflected off his tan skin and the glitter that Alec had become so accustomed to.

Alec felt his heart rise in his chest as he saw Magnus standing there. He started towards him, a twig crunching beneath his feet. Magnus' face jerked towards Alec and he saw as Magnus covered up the emotion that had been on his face just moments ago. Alec felt useless standing there. He wasn't sure what to say to Magnus and he was scared of saying the wrong thing. He wasn't good with this kind of thing. He wasn't good with emotion and he wasn't good with people; especially emotions and people that scared him as much as Magnus did.

Thankfully, Magnus was the first to speak. "I saw you with Anna."

Shit. Of course he did. A small part of Alec was hoping Magnus hadn't seen it.

"So, you like her?" Magnus looked up at Alec and he looked sad, defeated, and lonely.

"As a friend."

"That looked like friends with benefits to me."

"She came on to me. I didn't want it." Alec felt like he had to explain it to Magnus. It hurt knowing Magnus had seen it all since Alec wanted him, not Anna. He didn't want Magnus to think he had a thing with Anna. Alec had no idea if Magnus would reciprocate the feelings towards him but Alec still felt the way he did. And if in the case of some crazy miracle Magnus felt the same, Alec didn't want to ruin it.

"I see. I'm sure she told you everything about me." There was anger in his voice now.

"Depends what you mean by everything." Alec took a few more steps towards Magnus, stopping to stand two feet away from him. "She told me you're an asshole and it's not safe to be around you. Is that true?"

"Well, that's a matter of perspective."

Alec took a deep breath. "She also told me that you got Camille pregnant and forced her to have an abortion."

The silence that fell over them after Alec spoke was suffocating. Magnus straightened as he turned his face away from Alec, as if ashamed. Alec fought the urge to touch Magnus' shoulder. It felt like minutes passed before Magnus turned back to look at him.

"I did what I had to do."

"For you or for her?"

"For the both of us." Magnus sighed. "We were in the start of our relationship and we barely knew each other. Neither of us was ready to be a parent and there was a history in Camille's family of bad pregnancies. We didn't want to take the chance given the circumstance. Now I didn't force her, we both agreed that it was the best thing to do." Magnus turned away, covering up the pain in his voice. "But is that why you're here; to hear my sob stories so that you could decide how you wanted to judge me?"

"No, Magnus I…"

"I know what you're going to say and you can just forget it. I know what you're thinking and I don't need to hear it. I've heard it all already. You think I'm a bad person and I'm irresponsible and not man enough to face my own mistakes, right? And I know she told you more than that."

"She did."

"Then why are you still here?"

"To find out if any of it is true."

"Well that's more than anyone else has ever done." Magnus looked at Alec, a sadness glazing over his eyes. "I'm not a bad person Alec."

"I never thought you were." Alec closed the space between them, putting a hand on Magnus' shoulder. Their gaze met and Alec felt a wave of emotion wash over him. "I don't judge you for anything."

"You barely know me. How can you say that when you don't even know my past?"

Alec dropped his hand. "Why's the past matter? I see who you are now and I like that person. Do you think I'd ask you to dorm with me if I didn't like you? Do you think I'd be here now if I was judging you as you so believe? Yeah, I'll admit hearing what Anna said had me asking myself questions about you, but I knew that there was a reason that you did what you did. I knew that you were not that person she thought you were. I don't judge you Magnus. You've given me no reason to." Alec paused, searching Magnus' eyes for a reaction. He saw softness come over Magnus and watched as his muscles relaxed. They stared at each other for a few moments, neither making the motion to speak. Alec really didn't judge Magnus, and he honestly couldn't find a good reason to judge him. He understood where Magnus was coming from and Alec would probably feel the same, so he found no reason to feel the way Magnus thought he did. Alec just hoped Magnus believed him.

Looking into Magnus' eyes, Alec felt the same feeling he had felt last night come over him. He felt his attraction toward Magnus overtake him and his whole body was now aching to touch Magnus and hold him. He wanted to kiss him. He wanted to tell Magnus how much he really felt about him and that he felt more than just a friend should for him.

Alec was about to speak when he found his lips stopped by the warm feel of Magnus' lips against his own. Alec's heart skipped a hundred beats as it flipped in his chest. The breath was stolen from his lungs as the feel of Magnus against him overtook his senses. Magnus's right hand came up to Alec's neck, resting there softly as he took Alec's lips with his own. Alec's head was swimming, his world falling from beneath him. This was what he had wanted. This is what he had dreamt about. But then why did it feel weird? Probably because he'd never technically kissed someone before, let alone a guy.

Alec pulled away slowly, feeling the heat rush to his cheeks. He couldn't bring himself to look at Magnus as Magnus' hand dropped from where it had settled on Alec's skin.

"I don't know if…We're drunk. Maybe we…" Reasons flashed through Alec's mind for why they shouldn't be doing it; why he shouldn't be doing it.

"I get it. I shouldn't have." Alec felt Magnus move to leave but Alec grabbed his arm to stop him, biting his lip as he looked up at Magnus. Meeting his eyes, Alec felt a wave of embarrassment flow through him. He wanted Magnus, but he didn't know how to do it. He'd never felt the way he did before and he was fumbling to decipher all his emotions. He was trying to bury the fear of his feelings for Magnus. He was trying to smother every little fear that that kiss had ignited inside of him. All his questions about himself were answered in that one second of physical contact and now he didn't know what to do. He wanted it in his heart but in his mind, he was more scared than he'd ever been before.

"Magnus, I want to, I do, but…"

"But what?"

But I'm scared. I'm scared of what the world will think. I'm scared of what I am.

But Magnus didn't make him feel scared. Magnus made him feel safe.

"But, you're just getting over a girlfriend." The words fell from Alec's lips in desperation as they were the only thing he could come up with. Smooth Alec, real smooth.

Alec saw the smile that pulled at Magnus' lips and he had the urge to crush those lips with his own. "That's a bullshit reason Alexander and you know it." Magnus looked into Alec's eyes. "Give me a better reason."

"I don't know how to do this." He felt the blood fill his face as he had never felt more self-conscious in his life. Now Magnus probably thought he was wrong in kissing him. Alec didn't know how to kiss and clearly Magnus did. Magnus would probably just laugh at him. Great job Alec, great fucking job.

Magnus touched his hand lightly, brushing his fingers across Alec's knuckles. "That's ok, I'll teach you."

Alec looked up at Magnus feeling that same wonderful twinge in his stomach he got whenever he looked at him or thought about him. "You really want to do this, with me?"

Magnus laughed. "Of course I do. I've been wanting to do this with you since I first saw you."

Alec blushed as he bit again at his lower lip. It was at that moment that he buried his fears and just said 'Fuck it'. He wanted Magnus and those damn fears could wait until morning. "Me too."

"Good. But you're going to have to stop doing that." Alec's eyes shot up in surprise as he let go of his lip. Magnus grinned. "There." Magnus moved in again, capturing Alec's lips. Alec responded with intensity, moving his hand to brush against the side of Magnus's face. His hand slid under Magnus' earlobe, tracing his hairline. He had the urge to grab it and bring him closer but was stopped when Magnus' own hand touched Alec's hair. As he did, he captured Alec's lower lip and the sensation of his teeth grazing the inside sent Alec's world spinning. The ecstasy flowing through him was almost unbearable. Kissing Magnus was beyond anything he thought it would be. He moaned into Magnus' mouth and he could feel the smile that crossed Magnus' lips.

"You're better than I thought Lightwood."

"Is that a compliment?"

Magnus laughed. "Yes." He captured Alec's lips again, his hand travelling down Alec's side as he pulled Alec closer. They remained that way for the rest of the night, their lips locked together. Magnus never tried to go any farther and Alec was perfectly happy that he didn't. Alec was just happy where he was and he didn't want to ruin that. He wanted to stay in Magnus' arms in that minute for the rest of his life. He'd never felt so happy, so elated. He never thought that someone could make him feel whole and so at peace. But Magnus did that to him. Magnus made him forget the world and all his fears that he held in his heart.

There you have it, Magnus and Alec are together. Please leave a review and let me know what you think. And stay tuned for more. What will become of them? Will Alec's fears get in the way? You'll just have to see. Thanks for reading!

Be the change,

Amber