Chapter 18

Unrequited

I'm going to begin by saying how absolutely sorry I am this update took two weeks. I had planned on getting it out last weekend but a lot of stuff came up and I didn't have time. I also encountered a huge case of writer's block for about a week and a half where I couldn't focus on anything and I hated everything I wrote. But, I'm all good now and I'm back to writing. But in regards to updates. My life has recently decided to get busy for the next two and a half months. Between volunteering, work, and exam studying starting at the end of May, writing time will be scarce. But I will write, I just can't guarantee a regular updating schedule. I'm sorry about this and hopefully you can all bare with me for the next few months. By the summer school'll be out of the way so i'll have a lot more time to write and updates should be more common.

Now I would like to thank everyone who reviewed last chapter. I honestly couldn't do this without every single person who reads this story and I want you all to now that you are amazing. I can't honestly say thank you enough.

I would also like to thank my beta for getting this back to me so quickly so I could get it up to you guys as soon as possible.

One other quick thing. Finished CoFA last weekend an it was amazing. Anyone else disappointed that Magnus and Alec didn't come in until page 249 and only had like 3 scenes. Of course they were lovely and amazing, and the last scene between them was so sweet, but I wanted more. Anyway, just wanted to know, did you guys like it? Did anyone else yell at the book when it ended for that lovely yet terrible cliffhanger? Is anyone else counting down the days for CP and CoLS? Anyway, it was amazing. Cassandra Clare is freaking genius. Enough said.

Now on to the chapter. I hope you all like it. Enjoy!

Songs:

Confidence-Teddy Geiger (Alec to Magnus)

The Rock and the Tide-Joshua Radin (Alec to Magnus)

Alec lay on his bed, waiting for Magnus to finish his daily morning routine. He stared up at the ceiling as he cycled through his brain the events of the last few months. He felt like he had just met Magnus and now here he was, ready to tell his parents he was gay. Before meeting Magnus, Alec had resolved himself to the fact that he would never be able to tell them. That he would pine secretly over Jace and forever take up home in his closet. That was the easy thing for him to do. It meant never having to confront his fears and he was perfectly fine with that. He was happy hiding. It was easy and it was safe. As long as he felt for Jace he would never have to admit out loud the truth because he knew Jace would never return the sentiment. And then his parents would never know and he could just go on with life. But then Magnus came.

Magnus took everything he had planned and threw it out the window. He turned Alec's world upside down because, with Magnus, he couldn't hide anymore. Magnus wasn't the easy or safe choice because with him, Alec couldn't deny who he was. He couldn't deny what he felt for Magnus. And in his feelings for him, he lost his feelings for Jace. He realized how pathetic and pointless his fantasy with Jace was and that Jace was nothing. He was Alec's fantasy of an easy life. But now he had Magnus, and he was his reality. He couldn't deny that anymore. He couldn't deny that he was falling head over heels for Magnus and that he wanted nothing more than to have Magnus in his life. And having him in his life meant telling his parents he was gay.

The idea of telling his parents both frightened Alec and excited him. It frightened him because he feared their reaction and it excited him because telling them was one big step to admitting to the world he was gay. It was one big step to giving Magnus that public relationship Alec knew he really wanted. It pained him to see how he hurt Magnus. Magnus wouldn't admit it but Alec knew. He flaunted his sexuality like a waving flag and he didn't exactly blend in or hide, so Alec knew this was hard for him. He knew that he needed to give this to Magnus after everything he had given him. Magnus always talked about baby steps but the time for baby steps was over. It was time for Alec to muster up all of his courage and just go for it; take a big step. It was time he stopped being afraid of what he was and accept it, because he was falling in love with Magnus and he didn't want to lose him because he was too afraid to come out of the closet.

The thought of telling the whole world scared the shit out of him but he figured if he could at least tell his parents, he was one step closer to telling the world. He owed it to Magnus. If it wasn't for him, Alec wouldn't have been able to even seriously think about telling them. Magnus gave him courage; he encouraged him to go for it and, knowing he was there for him every step of the way, made it so much easier. He wasn't so afraid anymore because with Magnus, he felt like he already had everything he needed and he didn't feel like he would have anything to lose.

Alec jerked out of his reverie when his door flew open. At first he thought it was Magnus but then he thought better of it when he realized Magnus had the respect not to burst into someone's room without at least announcing himself first. And it wasn't Magnus. It was Jace.

Alec sat up as Jace strolled over, plopping himself down on Alec's computer chair. "I hate women. I hate 'em. One minute they tell you you're all they're going to need and then the next minute they're going to rip your head off."

"Clary?" Alec figured he might as well humour Jace since it was the best way of getting rid of him quickly.

"Yes." Jace exhaled, exasperated. "I offered to take her to this expensive new restaurant downtown and she said no since it was too much money. So I thought 'Okay, whatever. Works for me.' Then she asks me this morning what we're doing and I said nothing. Then she got all sad and when I asked her why she was sad she said it was because she had wanted to go to that restaurant. Now she's mad at me. Can you believe that? She explicitly tells me she doesn't want to go and then gets mad at me because I do what she says. Are you laughing at me?"

Yeah, Alec was laughing at him. Seeing Jace in such as state was a rarity and his rant was quite entertaining, to say the least. "Yes. Has living with Isabelle taught you nothing?"

"I'm sorry?" Jace cocked an eyebrow at Alec, and for once it did nothing to him. Months ago he would have got that cliché feeling of butterflies in his stomach but now he felt nothing. Instead, he got more than just that feeling when Magnus cocked his eyebrow.

"Isabelle does that all the time. Just because a girl says she doesn't want something, doesn't mean she means it. Clary's testing you."

"So you're telling me that Clary did want to go, but by nicely turning down my offer she was testing me to see if I would actually still do it?"

"Exactly."

Jace groaned, leaning back in the chair as he spun around slowly. He placed his palm to his forehead, massaging a soft circle into his skin. "God, women give me a headache. It was so much easier when the girls I was with only lasted a few days. They knew what they were getting and never asked for anything else." Jace sighed. "You know dude, maybe you've got the right idea. Not being with a woman makes life so much easier." Jace shot up from his position until he was looking directly at Alec. "Speaking of which. Did you and Anna hook up yet?"

Okay, Alec was getting tired of this. Jace's continuous pestering about his sex life was enough for Alec to tell him then and there just so he would stop. Alec was tired of being asked about what women he was sleeping with and being criticized for not sleeping with anyone. So what if he was a virgin? So Jace had slept with three quarters of the town's teenage female population that did not mean everyone else was a whore just like him. Which made Alec wonder, had Jace and Clary hooked up? He didn't take Clary for the type, but no one had ever been known to resist Jace.

"No. Jace, would you stop? It doesn't matter who I sleep with or when I sleep with someone."

"So you're still a virgin?"

Alec growled in frustration. "Would you just leave it be, please? It doesn't really matter."

Jace threw his hands up in defence. "Okay, sorry. Didn't mean to hurt your feelings. No need to be such a drama queen." Jace spun around lazily before stopping to face Alec. "So, Magnus?"

"What about him?" Alec asked through gritted teeth. There was no way this was going anywhere good. It was Jace and sometimes he could be a real inconsiderate asshole. And here he'd thought Clary was changing him. Guess some things never change, huh?

"Well, he's interesting." Jace examined his fingernail lazily before looking up at Alec from beneath his eyelashes.

"And?"

"And he wears more make-up and glitter than Isabelle."

"So?" What the hell was he getting at? What did it matter?

"So, the guy's gay Alec. And I mean like gay." Jace drew out the second 'gay', further emphasizing his point.

"And what's wrong with being gay?" Jace had always had a very flippant attitude towards homosexuality. He'd never admitted to being okay with it and took many chances to make a joke about gay people. That's why it was so hard for Alec with Jace because he never felt like Jace could understand and he feared that he would become just another joke.

"I don't know, nothing. But doesn't it bother you that he might like, like you or something? And I mean, he was totally checking you out earlier. Doesn't that creep you out?"

"No. Jace, come on just drop it, okay." He couldn't do it any longer. He couldn't pretend to not be affected by what Jace was saying. He couldn't pretend to be who he wasn't. Hearing Jace speak so easily about the issue hurt Alec. How was he honestly supposed to expect Jace to accept him if he was talking like this about Magnus? Alec knew it couldn't possibly be this easy.

"Okay. But why the hell are you getting so defensive about it? I'm just talking about the fact that he's gay, it's not that big of a deal."

"Yes it is!" Alec snapped. Yes it is Jace, because I need you to accept me for who I am. I need you to not disregard me the way you've disregarded this conversation.

"I'm sorry?" Jace looked taken aback, his playful, offhand behaviour gone.

"Jace, you should go." Alec stood up from his bed to back his point that Jace needed to go. He couldn't tell him. He just couldn't do it. Jace wouldn't accept him, he wouldn't. Who was Alec really fooling thinking that everyone would be okay with it? He was such an idiot.

"Alec, I'm not leaving. What the hell's up with you? You've been acting weird for weeks now." Jace remained in his chair, and Alec could almost swear he saw concern flash through Jace's gaze.

"Jace, go please." Alec just wanted to be alone. He wanted to wallow in his misery alone where he thought about how scared he was and how no one would accept him for being gay.

"No. Alec, what's going on?"

"It's nothing." Alec averted his gaze from Jace. He couldn't bring himself to look at him. He wanted to tell him so bad, the words were right there, hanging loosely at the tip of his tongue. But he couldn't. He just couldn't do it. He didn't have the courage to say it, to open his mouth and just tell Jace that secret he'd been holding onto for 6 years. It was so different to think about doing it then to actually face the moment and do it.

"Alec, tell me. You're my brother and I think I've earned the right to know why you're acting like this. Seriously Alec, you've been acting strange and I'm not the only one who has noticed it. Mom and Dad think something's seriously wrong with you. So come on dude, tell me what the hell is wrong with you? I don't like this Alec. I want old Alec back, even if he was boring, a little bit of a buzz kill, and completely humourless. So tell me Alec."

"Jace, no." Alec turned his back on him, trying harder and harder to push him away. Just tell him Alec. Just go for it. What do you have to lose? He thought he had a lot to lose, especially if Jace didn't accept him. He may be an idiot Alec, but he knows you and that conversation gave a lot away for even people as incompetent and brainless as Jace.That was right. Alec had no other reason to act the way he did unless he was hiding something, something Jace had clearly become aware of and was determined to get from him.

Jace sighed. "You can tell me anything Alec, you know that." He paused. "I may not be the best person to lend an ear to, but I'm still listening. I'll wait here all day until you tell me what's going on. As much as my company for any period of time is a complete privilege, I don't think you really want me hanging around all day."

"That's blackmail." And yet, Jace's words touched Alec. You can tell me anything. Could he really? People said that all the time but when they learned what it was that person had to say, they regretted ever hearing it. Would Jace regret it once Alec told him he was gay?

"That's negotiating terms harshly. Not blackmail," Jace said playfully. "I'm waiting."

Alec took a deep breath. Could he tell him, really? Was it that easy? He was sitting there, waiting for Alec to say it, waiting for him to come out. Waiting. Alec didn't need to go to him to tell him. Instead, Jace was actually sitting there waiting for Alec to dump his secret. But there was something about telling Jace that more than slightly frightened him. He figured it was because of the way he had once felt for him. His whole life he had pined after Jace secretly and he had resolved himself to never having to tell Jace, to never having to admit to him he was gay. Alec felt that in admitting to Jace he was gay he was professing to him how he had felt for him all those years. Alec didn't know if he was ready for that.

But then he thought of Magnus. You'll know when it's right. In his heart he felt like it was right, that this was the moment to tell Jace, but his head was screaming at him to make Jace leave and not tell him. But thinking of Magnus and thinking of how he had stood by him and encouraged him to come out, Alec felt a spark light inside of him. He could do it. It felt right. Jace was waiting, listening, and there would be no better chance to tell him. In all honesty, there never was a perfect time and the excuse of waiting for one was just one more way to run and hide, something Alec had grown to be an expert at.

Alec's heart tightened in his chest and he felt like his whole world was spinning around him. Alec had spent six years building up to this moment, to admitting to Jace what he was. And now that the moment was here, Alec felt like the build up of those six years was crashing over top of him, robbing him of the oxygen in his body. Or was that just the result of so many years locked behind a closet door? He didn't know, but still he struggled to fill his lungs with air.

Just say it Alec.

Just say it.

"I'm gay." The words fell from his lips, soft and full of every emotion Alec's heart possessed. It was like he was bearing his soul in those two small words, finally ripping open those doors and facing everything in the world for the first time. The feeling was beautiful. Not frightening or nerve-wracking, but completely and incomparably beautiful. It literally felt like a weight had lifted off of Alec's shoulders, a weight that had barred his soul and held him down through the steps of his life. He let the feeling overpower him, washing through every fibre of his being as he let the realization sink in. He had said it. He had finally said it. He almost felt like he was dreaming, like the world around him was lying to him and he was really still hiding and had never really spoken those two words.

He let the reality of it all set in, and with that reality, came a Titanic size fear of what Jace was going to say. Yeah, it felt damn good to finally say it, to finally speak those two monumental words out loud, but as good as it felt, it still warranted the fear. A fear that now overcame Alec and started drowning all the happiness in his soul. What was he going to say? Would he accept him?

"I know."

He hated him…Wait, what?

"You know?" Alec turned around. He couldn't believe what he had just said and a part of him didn't even want to believe it. Jace knew. How the hell did he know?

But he hadn't said he hated him. That was a start. But there was still a chance. He could still say he hated him. Alec took a deep breath, trying so hard to fill his needy lungs with oxygen. He just needed to breathe, yet somehow, the room seemed to be closing in on him, Jace's words a distant echo in his head. He just wanted to run, that way he wouldn't have to face Jace's judgment. But he couldn't run. He was rooted to the spot, held there by his fear and his need to hear Jace accept him.

"I do." In Jace's eyes Alec saw something. It wasn't hate. It was a mix between surprise, confusion, and what looked like…understanding. Well, that wasn't something Alec had expected. Jace's features shifted in and out of those emotions, but he didn't say anything, and Alec didn't know if that was supposed to be a good thing or not. He wanted Jace to speak, for him to say how he felt. It was so much better than this forced silence that was even more suffocating to Alec's already breathless being.

"How did you find out?"

"I heard you talking to Isabelle last time you were home."

"You were eavesdropping on us?" Of course he was, it was Jace.

Jace laughed softly. "You could call it that. I think of it as observing secretly. Now I want to know why you didn't tell me but instead thought to share that information with Isabelle."

"What?" Okay, so that question Alec was definitely not expecting. But did that mean Jace was okay with it? Did his wanting to have known earlier mean he accepted Alec? God, the questioning in Alec was killing him. It was hard enough to tell Jace but now he just needed to know how Jace felt. He didn't need these questions.

"Why didn't you tell me when you got together? Being an extremely important person I think I deserved to know that my brother and my best friend was dating someone. Now I feel completely left out and that hurts. I'm offended Alec, really." Jace made a sad face, reminiscent of a five year old who was denied a toy at the store.

Alec laughed, the laugh finally letting air into his lungs. The happiness that filled him was euphoric. God, that was even better than he had hoped. Jace was offended that Alec hadn't told him. Offended. This was so much better than anything Alec had ever dreamed. He had expected Jace to not be okay with it, to accept it but not be okay with it, not offended Alec hadn't toldhim. Magnus was right. They were his family, and they'd love him no matter what. He owed this to Magnus. Without Magnus, Alec wouldn't have had the courage to tell Jace, and then he wouldn't feel as wonderful as he did at that moment. Now he just had his parents, which he knew was a completely different story. But right now, he didn't want to think about that. He was happy and he wanted to stay happy for just a little bit longer.

"You're laughing," Jace stated incredulously. "You're freaking laughing. I'm hurting and you're laughing."

Alec sobered up, meeting Jace's gaze. "Sorry. But you're okay with this? With me?" He just needed to make sure. He needed an actual yes.

Jace stood up, clapping Alec on the back. "Of course I am. You're my brother. You could think you were a pink unicorn and could shoot rainbows out of your ass and I would still love you. I'd think you were fucking crazy, but you're my brother, and that doesn't matter."

There. He'd got his yes. "Thank you."

"No problem bro." Jace smiled. "Don't worry, I won't tell Mom and Dad. But it hurts me that you told Isabelle." Jace feigned insult.

"What?"

"I really thought we had a bond and here you tell her before me. Honestly Alec, I thought I meant more to you than that." Jace pouted, sticking out his lower lip playfully.

"We do have a bond Jace. I was just scared to tell you."

"What, did you think I was going to bite? It was only that once, I swear."

Alec laughed. "I was scared of what you would think. Of me."

"Look Alec, as long as you're happy, that's all that matters. Of course, I'm extremely disappointed that I can't tease you about women anymore, but I'm sure I'll find something else."

They both broke eye contact as someone knocked on the door. Alec knew that someone was Magnus. He was done, a half hour on the dot. "One second," Alec called out to Magnus.

Jace looked back at Alec. "I'm glad you told me Alec. And don't worry about Mom and Dad, I'm sure they'll be fine." Jace pulled Alec into a hug, something completely out of character for Jace but it felt nice. Alec felt accepted by Jace, but he still had one fear remaining. Jace might accept that he was gay but how would he react if he ever learned that Alec had been in love with him for most of their childhood? Would he be so accepting then? Alec wagered a guess that he wouldn't. It wasn't like it was everyday that your best friend and brother said he loved you. So Alec wouldn't tell him. But, there was one person who deserved to know that, who Alec felt should know.

Jace pulled away. "Just keep it down in here okay. I'd like to keep my ears in working order."

Alec blushed but still hit Jace playfully. "Shut up."

Jace laughed before turning to leave. He opened the door to Magnus who was standing somewhat impatiently in the doorway. He raised an eyebrow questionably when he saw Jace. Their gazes met and Alec was pretty sure they were having the staring competition of the millennium; both of their gazes could have cut steel.

"You take care of him Magnus or I will come after you and see to it that you die slowly and painfully."

"You know I don't respond well to threats."

"And I don't respond well to people hurting Alec. So watch it." Jace glared at him for a few more seconds before pushing past him out into the hallway. Magnus stood there for a few seconds before walking into the room, closing the door behind him. He raised an eyebrow questionably at Alec.

"I told him."

Magnus smiled, dropping his eyebrow as he crossed the room to where Alec stood. He wrapped his arms around Alec's waist, bringing Alec to him. Alec's body moulded to his, his muscles relaxing into Magnus' arms. He placed his head on Magnus' chest, relishing in just the feeling of having Magnus there, holding him.

"How does it feel?"

"Amazing." Alec looked up to meet Magnus' gaze. He honestly didn't think he could feel any better. His brother accepted him, he had Magnus, and he was one step closer to telling the world he was gay. All in all, it had been a good day so far. Alec just hoped it would stay that way through to that night when he planned on telling his parents.

"I told you it would be okay."

"Yeah, I know. Thank you." Alec bit his lip, his brain finally grabbing onto a thought that had been nagging at him for hours. He had to tell Magnus something. He had to or he was going to go crazy holding it in. "Magnus, can we talk?"

"Yeah, sure. What is it Alec?"

Alec took a deep breath. "You said yesterday that you have nothing to hide from me, and I realized that there is something I've been hiding from you. Something you deserve to know and that I really need to tell you." Alec bit his lip, pausing as he thought of how to word it. He had never voiced it out loud to himself, let alone anyone else. And this was Magnus. This bore more weight to Magnus than anyone else, except for maybe Jace, and Alec wasn't ready to tell Jace and he never really planned on it. "I…Well…Jace…" God he didn't know how to say it. How could he tell Jace he was gay but not tell Magnus this?

Magnus placed a finger to Alec's lips, silencing him. "Shh. I know."

Alec's eyebrows shot up in questioning. "You know?" He knew? God, what was it with everyone knowing what Alec wanted to tell them? That just completely defeated the purpose of him telling them anything.

"I've known for a while actually."

"How?"

"I figured it out before we were together. I saw the way you lit up when he called and the way you talked about him. It was obvious how you felt for him."

"So you got with me knowing the way I felt for Jace?"

"Yes, but I got with you hoping I could make you forget him. Which looking at you now with him, I'd like to think you have."

Alec's blush deepened. If Magnus had picked up on it so easily had Jace figured it out? He knew Isabelle knew, but they didn't really discuss it if Alec could help it. So had Jace caught on? Had he noticed all those small things the way Magnus had? Alec could only hope he hadn't.

The fact that Magnus already knew about Jace made Alec happy. He didn't have to fear Magnus freaking out or getting jealous or leaving him because Alec had been in love with a man that might as well have been his brother. Instead, Magnus had actually known well ahead of getting with Alec, and he had gone through with it knowing Alec had feelings for another man. He had hoped to make Alec forget Jace, and that he had done very well.

"I have. I understand how pointless it all was now, how unrealistic. But I wanted you to know, I felt like you deserved to know. But Jace can't know. He can't."

"Don't worry, I won't tell him." Magnus smiled, pulling Alec closer to him. "You know, I'm proud of you."

"You're proud of me? For what?" What was there to be proud of? Alec hadn't done anything of note, or anything that was worthy of praise.

"For telling your brother. That took a lot Alec, I know. But I knew you could do it. You just had to wait until you were ready." Magnus placed a soft kiss to Alec's forehead. "And one day you'll be ready to tell your parents."

"I want to do it tonight."

Magnus smiled. "Whenever you want. I'll be right here, behind you every step of the way."

"I honestly don't know what I'd do without you." It was true. But he did know he wouldn't have told anyone.

"Crash and burn." A playful glint flickered in Magnus' eyes.

"Well I hope not." Alec smiled, leaning forward to capture Magnus' lips with his. The kiss was short, soft, but meaningful. He pulled away. "Thank-you."

Magnus' face shifted and Alec suddenly got the feeling he'd done something wrong. "That's it?"

"What do you mean?"

"Uh uh. I want more than that. Make me believe that 'thank you.'"

"Make you believe it?"

"Yeah." Magnus pulled Alec flush with his body, his hands lingering under Alec's ass. "Make me believe it," he whispered into Alec's ear, his voice causing a shiver to run down Alec's skin that shot right through to where Magnus intended it to. But damn did Alec like it. It had been a long night without Magnus next to him. He was so used to his firm, warm body up against his and the pillows just didn't do it as replacements. All night he was cold and he missed the feel of Magnus against him. And in the morning, he hadn't woken to Magnus' face, to the clear, beautiful face and luminous eyes that had come to grace him every morning. So to say he had missed Magnus and had wanted him really bad was the understatement of the decade.

Yeah, he'd make him believe it.

Alec captured Magnus' lips, his tongue brushing softly over his lips before separating the thin line to delve his tongue into Magnus' mouth. Magnus moaned against him, the vibration in his throat eliciting a similar response in Alec. His tongue explored each and every corner of Magnus' mouth as his hands travelled to Magnus' neck. Magnus had left his hair down today, as Alec had grown to like it, and his hands moved to entwine themselves in the onyx and blue strands of his hair. He pulled him down closer to him, letting himself get lost in the feel of Magnus against him. Yeah, he had definitely gotten used to this. He was so used to just losing the world and forgetting everything when he was in Magnus' arms. Nothing else mattered with Magnus. Nothing else mattered but him, and the two of them, together.

Alec gasped when Magnus' hands moved under Alec's ass, lifting his legs so they were wrapped around Magnus' waist. He smiled against Alec's mouth as he took the few needed steps to reach Alec's bed. He dropped Alec onto the bed, following shortly after, laying his body over top of Alec's.

Alec's lips separated as Magnus' tongue explored his mouth. He used his legs to pull Magnus' body closer to his, moaning as Magnus' teeth glided across his lower lip, before sucking on it slowly.

"I missed you last night," Magnus said softly, moving to kiss the length of Alec's chin, down his neck, and over his collarbone.

"I missed you too."

"Maybe I should sneak in tonight." He sucked slowly on a spot under Alec's ear; a spot that Magnus knew aroused Alec in all the right ways.

"You'd get caught." Alec said, angling his head for Magnus' mouth to further explore the sensitive skin on his neck.

"No I wouldn't, I'm a ninja." Magnus was now looking down at Alec, his eyes glittering.

"A ninja huh?"

"Yup. Now shut up, you know you love it." He closed the last few inches between their mouths, capturing Alec's lips once again. Love. God, the way that word shot through Alec was enough to send him overboard. He didn't know what it was but something about love and Magnus just sparked something inside of him. Something that started to burn very bright. It was beautiful and it warmed his soul and his heart.

Love.

Why did that word affect him so badly?

Because you're falling in love with him.

Was he? Was he really falling in love with Magnus? It felt like it. His heart had never felt so alive. And what he felt for Magnus was unlike anything he had ever experienced. It was indescribable, and yet, Alec knew that it was so much more than just liking Magnus. It was wanting to hold him and have him for as long as he possibly could. It was feeling like he was finally whole again, like Magnus was that other missing piece of him. He felt like he never wanted to leave him, that his heart would literally break if he lost Magnus. Was it love? Was that what he felt for Magnus?

Alec didn't know, but it was beautiful. And if it was really love, Alec would be perfectly okay with that.

So, there you go. Hope you all liked it. This chapter went through about five drafts before I found the story I wanted to go with, so hopefully it turned out okay. The next chapter will be Alec coming out to his parents. He's finally taking steps. Aren't we all so proud of him? I know I am. Anyway, I am off to go write the next chapter now and hopefully it'll be up by next weekend. If it's not I am sorry. This weekened and next week are crazy for me and I think i'll be away from my computer for three days for the holiday next weekend, so hopefully I can squeeze writing in somewhere. Anyway, I love all of you guys for reading this and for being such amazing people. Thank you so much. Until next time.

Be the change,
Amber