Chapter 23

Unprepared

Hello everyone! So I'm sorry this took a little bit longer but life got crazy and writing time became less available. You can thank my beta for getting it to me as quickly as she did and for being amazing. Also, thank you all so much for the great reviews on the last chapter. They feed the inspiration and I can't thank you guys enough for the words. Anyway, here's Valentine's Day. I hope you all like it. Enjoy!

Songs:

Love-Jon McLaughlin

Love Only Knows-Josh Groban

Alec lay on the couch, his hand brushing at Chairman Meow's fur lazily. Magnus was gone. He had said he had something to do for a class and then he'd be back in time to take them to the movies. It was Valentine's Day. Alec had always hated the holiday. It always made him feel like shit because he thought he'd never be able to celebrate it with someone. But now he had Magnus and things were different. He actually had someone that he cared to spend the day with, and for the first time in his life, he wasn't at home watching some sappy chick flick with a whole tub of ice cream. He was actually going to do something with Magnus. He had skirted around the idea of having dinner, since it was too public for him. He knew it was pathetic, he knew Magnus thought it was pathetic, but it still didn't change anything. After their fight Alec had started thinking more about it. When was he going to be ready? He felt like a coward. Magnus was the proudest person Alec had ever seen and yet Alec had had a problem for years even admitting it to himself. He wanted to come out, but he'd seen what could happen. He saw what Magnus went through every day even if Magnus pretended to not notice it. But he looked at Magnus and saw everything he'd went through, and that gave him courage. Magnus had gone through the worst and Alec was worrying about the simple things. He wanted to do it, he just couldn't bring himself to. But one day. One day he would be able to do it.

There was one other thing that was bugging Alec. Something seemed off about Magnus. Ever since they'd gotten back from the Christmas break, he'd been slightly avoidant and closed off. He had his moments where everything was fine, but sometimes when it got too personal, Magnus would get cold and lock himself away. It wasn't like him to do that. Alec couldn't help but think that it was something he'd done. He knew Magnus wanted to go public with them, but this wasn't the same thing. Magnus just, wasn't Magnus, if that made sense. He was snappy, argumentative, and quick to end conversations that were going in different directions. The fight about going public hadn't been the last one they'd had. They'd fought over little things, things the other did, things that weren't in the right place, just things that turned into bigger fights than they needed to. It hurt. Alec felt like everything he did was becoming a problem. He didn't understand it. One minute they were fine, and it was like overnight, Magnus' mind changed about something. Alec couldn't help but think that maybe the nightmares were coming back. Magnus hadn't been having them for months now, but he could see that Magnus wasn't sleeping and it seemed like a logical explanation.

Now, Alec just hoped they could enjoy their night together. The morning had been lovely, Magnus had bought them breakfast in bed and they had laid there just talking for hours until Magnus had had to go. Hopefully things would be okay.

Alec jumped when his phone vibrated in his pocket. He pulled it out, checking the text message. It was from Magnus.

what r u doing?

nothing. when are you coming back?

im not

what do you mean?

come to the roof

the roof? why?

just come

ok. give me a few minutes.

The roof? Why the hell did Magnus want him to come to the roof? They were supposed to be going out. Alec got up slowly, Chairman Meow jumping off the couch as he moved. Alec grabbed his coat from the closet, slipping it and his shoes on before heading out. He took the two flights of stairs to the roof, stopping at the door when he heard soft music playing on the other side. What had Magnus done?

Alec opened the door, his eyes catching a sight very similar to the hill on their first date. The roof was lit up, strands of lights intertwining here and there. In the middle of the roof was Magnus, standing next to a small table, two long candles alight at its centre. Magnus wore a sparkly purple vest, and black dress pants, very unlike his typical leather ones. His hair wasn't spiked, but hung in glittered, blue and black strands around his face. His make-up was subtle, his eyes outlined in dark kohl and glitter, his lips a soft pink. He held one single red rose in his manicured hands as he smiled at Alec.

Alec didn't know what to think. It was breathtaking and so reminiscent of that first perfect night they'd spent together. Magnus was beautiful, the candlelight dancing off of him in waves, and Alec felt a rush of lust flow through him. He had been expecting a movie and take out dinner, not a candlelit dinner on the roof of their dorm underneath the stars. This was so much more than Alec had expected, but it was so perfect.

Magnus walked over to him, holding out the rose. "Happy Valentine's Day Alec."

Alec took the rose, sniffing it on impulse. Alec easily distinguished the scent of the rose from the scent of Magnus and he let it overtake his senses. "I thought we were going to the movies," Alec said innocently.

Magnus laughed softly. "We can go to the movies any day. I wanted to do something special."

"I noticed. You could have mentioned in your message for me to wear something nice. I feel underdressed."

"Alec, let's face it, that coat's the nicest thing you own. And besides, you look beautiful no matter what you're wearing." Magnus snaked his arms around Alec's waist, pulling him closer.

"Thanks." Alec bit his lip. "You didn't have to do all this for me. I would have been happy with the movie, really."

Magnus placed a finger to Alec's lips to quiet him. "I wanted to Alec. I know I've been a dick lately."

"Not a dick."

"I've been a dick. And I'm sorry. You deserve better than that. I've just had some things on my mind and I've been taking that out on you. I love you Alec, and I wanted to do something today just for you. And, you can geek out on me too if you please." Magnus pointed to the sky as he teased Alec with a smile.

Alec laughed. "I think I'll refrain from geeking out tonight."

"Damn it. You're so cute when you do." They both just smiled, a few seconds passing between them. "Do you like it?"

"I love it." Alec looked up at Magnus. "I love you. Even when you're being a dick."

Magnus grinned. "Yeah, that's because you like my dick."

"Magnus!"

"I'm sorry. That was just too perfect to not say anything." Magnus sobered, meeting Alec's gaze. He placed a soft kiss to his lips before taking his empty hand to lead him over to the table. He pulled out Alec's chair, motioning for him to sit down. Alec sat down as he watched Magnus take the seat across from him. "So we've got spaghetti and..."

"Spaghetti? Really Magnus?"

"What? Don't look at me like that."

"How many more movie fantasies do you have that we're going to have to re-enact?"

Magnus appeared in thought for a few seconds before he answered. "12. Wait, no. There is that other one involving the whip cream. Okay. 13."

Alec groaned at the thought. "I'm not doing them."

"Come on darling. Please? And it's Lady and the Tramp. It's such a classic Disney movie."

"Honestly, I hated the Lady and the Tramp."

"You've really got a thing for Disney movies don't you? You hate Lady and the Tramp, you've always had a crush on Prince Philip, you think the Lion King was an unrealistic interpretation of the essence of Hamlet, you cry during Bambi..."

"You said you'd never mention that again." Alec grew red underneath the candlelight.

"Did I? Oops. I must have forgotten that." Magnus shrugged, faking innocence.

"I hate you."

"Now that's just being mean. I do all of this for you and you say you hate me. I'm offended Alec, really. All I wanted to do was eat a bowl of spaghetti with you where somehow we happened to get the same piece and..."

"Okay, okay. Can we just eat?" Alec rolled his eyes at Magnus, smiling at how comfortable and amazing this felt. They were arguing about Disney movie re-enactments on top of their roof on Valentine's Day. Not too many people could say they'd done that.

"If you insist." Magnus removed the cover from the spaghetti at the centre of the table and at that moment, Alec's stomach growled. He hadn't noticed how hungry he was until that moment and he almost didn't care if by some miracle they repeated the scene from Lady and the Tramp. Alec knew the likelihood that it would happen was slim and he was perfectly okay with that. Magnus' obsession with movie scenes was amusing, to say the least.

Alec and Magnus stood at the edge of the roof, looking out over the campus below them. Magnus' arms were wrapped around Alec's waist, the February air nipping at their skin. It had been warmer earlier that night but the air had grown cold as the hours passed and the night slipped into the next day. The night had been perfect, so much better than Magnus had planned. Unfortunately he hadn't gotten his Lady and the Tramp re-enactment that he'd wanted, but that was the only thing that had gone wrong with the night. They'd talked for hours, topic after topic slipping by with each passing second. They'd held each other, kissed, and just made sure the other knew how much they loved them. Magnus had never been a big fan of Valentine's Day, but now that he had a real reason to celebrate it, well, he wasn't complaining one bit. Being able to spend a night like this with Alec was the kind of thing that lightened his dreams at night. It was knowing that he had Alec to wake up to in the morning that made the thought of getting through the night bearable.

The dreams hadn't gone away. Some nights he saw his father telling him he was going to hurt Alec, other nights he saw himself doing just that. He tried so hard to ignore them, but they plagued each and every hour of his day. He just couldn't bring himself to brush away the fear of hurting Alec, and so he had grown cold to Alec over the past few weeks. There were just certain moments where it became too much. His heart would start beating faster and his lungs would fight for breath. His only way to make it stop was to push Alec away. He didn't want to do it, but he couldn't stop himself. He wanted Alec and he didn't want to mess it up. He just needed time to work out the dreams and the fears, and hopefully it wouldn't take him so long that he pushed Alec too far away. He knew he should probably just tell Alec how he was feeling, but it wasn't that easy. Magnus didn't voice his fears to anyone, hell, he didn't even voice them to himself. He just repressed them until they took him over, like they were doing now.

But Magnus was resolving himself to change. Alec deserved better than what he was getting from him. He had wanted to make this night perfect for Alec. It was the night where he could apologize for what he was doing and a night that they could both just forget about everything else. It was a night where they could just be with each other, no one else, no fears... nothing.

"What are you thinking about?"

"How I always used to hate Valentine's Day."

"And how do you feel about it now?"

Alec looked up into Magnus' eyes. "I've found no reason to complain."

"I'll take it you enjoyed the night."

Alec turned around in Magnus' arms to face the man. "I loved it. And I'm sorry you didn't get your Lady and the Tramp moment."

Magnus shrugged. "There will be hundreds of more times in the future for me to try again." Magnus smiled as he saw a snowflake land on the tip of Alec's nose. "It's snowing."

Alec looked up, another snowflake falling on his bottom lip. Magnus fought the urge to lick it off. Alec placed his hands in the air, letting the snowflakes fall on his upturned palms. He smiled widely and Magnus couldn't help but find Alec's actions completely adorable.

"Thankfully it's not enough for you to drop on my head."

Magnus laughed. "There might be in the morning."

"If you dare."

"Hey, you mentioned it."

Alec groaned as he shivered.

Magnus wrapped his arms tighter around Alec, snuggling their bodies closer together. Magnus had to admit, there was one downside to his idea about the rooftop; it was cold. He didn't know whose bright idea it was to place Valentine's Day in February, but whoever it was was an idiot and lived in a warm climate. Why not May or June or something? Those months forecasted for warmer nights than February did. Magnus wasn't exactly complaining about how close he was to Alec, he was savouring that condition, but nonetheless, he hated the cold. And he knew Alec hated it even more. The boy had a terrible heating and cooling problem. Magnus felt Alec shiver beneath him and he pulled him closer. "What do you say we go back to the dorm before you freeze that cute little ass off?"

Alec blushed a deeper red then his flushed cheeks already were. "Okay. But shouldn't we clean this up?"

"I'll take care of it tomorrow. For now I have an image in my head of you and me naked in a bed and that's all I care about."

Alec just looked at Magnus, which was a first since Magnus typically received a light punch or his name said in an extreme warning when he said anything that even implied sex. Yeah, Magnus would not be complaining one bit if he could end the night with Alec naked underneath him, but the day had been amazing enough for Magnus to just be happy if they fell asleep side by side.

"Magnus..." There was something in Alec's voice that caught Magnus off guard. It wasn't Alec's normal tone and there was something swimming in his eyes, something Magnus couldn't quite figure out.

"Don't say things like that. I got it Alec. I was just kidding," Magnus said lightly.

"I think I'm ready."

"Now come on, before we... what?"

Alec looked up at Magnus through snow-covered eyelashes. "I'm ready." He bit his lip nervously as his hands played with the hem of his coat.

Magnus' heart just about shot out of his chest at that moment. He was ready. Those words were music to Magnus' ears, sparking every nerve and fibre in Magnus' being. He knew sex wasn't everything, but Magnus was a sexual being and he'd been thinking about getting Alec naked since the first moment he'd seen him. And this was a step; a beautiful, lovely, God send of a step. He honestly hadn't thought this night could be any better, but this was the icing on the cake. His need to have Alec was growing almost unbearable and it was getting harder and harder to refrain from jumping him every second of the day. He'd never felt such an attraction to someone as he did for Alec.

"Are you sure?" As much as Magnus wanted to have sex with Alec, he wasn't going to take the boy's virginity if Alec wasn't honestly sure that he was ready. He didn't want Alec to feel pressured or like he had to do it for Magnus. He wanted Alec to do it because he wanted to do it, not because Magnus it.

Alec nodded. "I want to Magnus."

"Alec, I don't want you to feel pressured or..."

"Just shut up."

Magnus did just that.

Alec leaned in closer to Magnus, placing a soft kiss to his lips, flicking out his tongue to lick off a lone snowflake. That small action shot straight to Magnus' centre, setting a fire to Magnus' freezing skin. "I want to make love to you," Alec said softly. "I want you. Every single part of you." He said each word separately, drawing out the sentence so that it tortured Magnus.

"Well fuck, when you put it that way." Magnus grinned, sweeping Alec into his arms.

Alec's arms locked around Magnus' neck. "Magnus what are you doing?"

"As much as I'd love to take you now darling, I've never really liked having sex on rooftops. They're more for the romantic dinner beforehand, not the dirty sexy escapades later on."

"You've had sex on a rooftop?" Alec asked incredulously.

"Well technically no." Magnus laughed at the look in Alec's eyes. "A story for another time." He placed a kiss to Alec's lips before walking off the rooftop, down the steps, and into their dorm room. He dropped Alec lightly on the ground before shutting the door behind him. He turned to look at Alec. There was a fire in his eyes but the boy held himself uncomfortably. Magnus knew just how to make him relax.

...

Magnus pulled Alec into his arms, crushing their lips together. Alec relaxed a bit beneath his hands, leaning deeper into the kiss. Magnus moved his hands to take off Alec's coat as Alec's hands worked the buttons of Magnus' shirt. Alec let Magnus pull his shirt off, letting the warm air sooth his frigid, yet burning skin. Alec slipped Magnus' shirt over his shoulders as Magnus' hands moved to Alec's belt. It was then that a coherent thought finally slipped through Alec's frenzied brain. The reality of everything hit him in that quick second. He had said he was ready. He was. He wanted Magnus as he had never wanted him before. He didn't know what it was that had changed within him but it was something that suddenly sparked this need in him that wouldn't go away. The words had just come out and he hadn't wanted to take them back. He had meant them. He was ready.

But he was scared.

No surprise there. He was always scared.

"Wait."

Magnus looked up at Alec, a look of worry in his eyes. "Am I going too fast? I'm sorry."

Alec let out a deep breath. "I just need to slow down."

"We can do that." Magnus moved his hands away from Alec's belt to his hips, wrapping his hands around Alec's waist, pulling him closer. "Just tell me what you want and I'll do it. If you want me to stop, I'll stop. This is all up to you Alec."

Alec took a deep breath, letting the warm air flow through him. It was then that something inside him just clicked and it all came together. This was his chance to not be a coward with Magnus. This was his chance to not be scared of taking a step, his chance to give something to Magnus.

"I want to do this."

Magnus smiled. "Okay. But this is a big deal Alec. Don't do this if you don't want to."

"I want to." Alec sighed. "I love you and I trust you Magnus. I want to do this with you. I just... I don't know how and I don't want to do something wrong and..."

"Hey, shh. You won't do anything wrong. It's like what I've always told you with this kind of thing. Just do what feels right. We'll take it slow. If it's too much you tell me and I'll stop. I won't do anything you don't like."

"Okay."

"Okay? Does that mean yes you're ready and you'll let me work you over till you're weak and limping..."

Alec laughed, placing a finger to Magnus' lips. "Yes. It means yes."

Magnus smiled, leaning down to take Alec's lips once again, starting off soft before deepening the kiss. He moved his hands back to Alec's belt, slipping it through the loops before undoing the zipper. Alec undid Magnus' zipper, sliding Magnus' pants off of his hips as his own pants and boxers fell to the ground.

Magnus pulled Alec closer, their hips rubbing together. A fiery shiver raced through Alec's nerves and any thoughts of what he was doing went out the window in a mess of incoherent thoughts. He couldn't even think about how scared he was with the way Magnus was holding him, each inch of their bodies in direct contact with each other.

Alec gasped as Magnus's hands grabbed his thighs lifting his legs to wrap around his hips. Magnus took the few steps to the bed, dropping Alec on the covers, his own body following after to lay over top of Alec. Magnus pulled away from Alec's lips, meeting his gaze. "Are you sure you're ready?"

"Yes." Their lips met again as Alec's hands moved to Magnus' neck, his fingers entwining themselves in the long damp strands of Magnus' hair. His heart beat quickly in his chest, he could feel it against his skin beating in line with Magnus' own racing heart. He could feel their bodies mould together, each inch of Alec's being forming an electric connection with Magnus'.

Alec's lips opened, offering entrance to Magnus' tongue, letting it dip into each inch of Alec's mouth, eliciting a moan from him. Alec felt Magnus' hands move down his torso, his long fingers massaging each muscle slowly as they worked their way to Alec's hips and lower. Alec suddenly tensed, knowing perfectly well what came next.

"Baby, relax. It'll hurt more if you tense like this."

Alec nodded, letting his eyes slide shut as he took a deep breath trying to relax his body.

Alec watched as Magnus leaned over to the bedside table, opened the drawer and withdrew a tube of lube. He flipped open the cap, squeezing a small amount onto two of his fingers. He discarded the tube back on the table as he moved back to Alec. Their gazes met and Alec gave himself over to Magnus in that simple little connection. His eyes spoke to Magnus just how much he trusted him and Magnus' eyes spoke all the reassurance and love Alec needed.

He gasped against Magnus' lips as Magnus slid one finger in. It was uncomfortable, a foreign feeling to Alec's body.

"Did I hurt you?" Magnus asked, panicked. "Is it too much?"

"I'm okay," Alec said breathlessly.

Magnus' face softened as he circled his finger around slowly, smoothing out the muscles. Alec couldn't quite describe the feeling. It was foreign but it felt right. It hurt and it felt uncomfortable but there was something about it that gave Alec complete bliss. Alec rolled his hips against Magnus' finger, pushing him in further. Despite the pain, Alec couldn't deny his need for Magnus, a need that was dying to be satisfied. Magnus continued to circle his finger around, eliciting a moan from Alec's lips.

"Magnus... more," Alec said against his lips, trying to form coherent words. He just wanted him. He wanted to take it slow, but his body was aching to feel more of Magnus inside of him.

Magnus inserted another finger, pulling his lips away from Alec's, resting their foreheads together. He circled his two fingers around, loosening Alec's tight muscles. Alec took in another deep intake of breath, the pain intensifying. He bit his lip, his eyes closing. He felt Magnus' other hand on the side of his face, his thumb tracing circles on Alec's skin. "Just breathe. It'll make it easier."

Alec let out another breath, trying to steady his breathing. The pain was unlike anything Alec had experienced before, but it was a good pain, a pain that sent Alec flying. Alec opened his eyes, meeting Magnus'. They swam with the same feeling that pumped through Alec's veins, a feeling of ecstasy and bliss and raw untrained need.

Magnus worked his fingers around for a few minutes, before removing them. Alec let out a sound of protest against the removal but knew the empty feeling wouldn't last long.

Magnus straightened a bit, looking down at Alec. "Are you still okay?"

Alec nodded. He couldn't thank Magnus enough for taking this slow. It was perfect, everything sliding into place just the way it should be.

Magnus grabbed the lube, placing a small amount onto the palm of his hand. He placed the tube back, moving his attention back to Alec. He rubbed his hands together before lathering the liquid onto his erection.

"Baby, just relax. It's okay. Just breathe." He placed a soft kiss to Alec's lips, removing Alec's bottom lip from his teeth, nipping it with his own, before pulling back. Magnus placed a hand under Alec's left knee, pulling Alec's leg up and crooking it over his hip. He placed himself at Alec's entrance, and Alec felt himself clench up. He took a deep breath, trying to relax. He trusted Magnus. Looking in Magnus' eyes he saw everything that they meant to each other and everything that this meant to them. Alec was giving himself over to Magnus, giving him a part of himself that he could never get back. But he loved Magnus and so this whole thing just felt right. Nothing had ever felt so perfect. Magnus and him just fit together and Alec just couldn't see himself where he was with anyone else. It seemed like Magnus was the one he was waiting for his whole life; that this moment was waiting for Magnus.

Alec gasped in pain as he felt Magnus enter him. God, it hurt. It was nothing like Alec had expected, nothing he could have prepared himself for. He tried to breathe like Magnus had said, trying to let the hot air relax his body. In. Out. He tried to let the air work through the pain, smoothing out his muscles.

Alec knew Magnus hadn't even gone an inch or two in when he stopped. Alec felt Magnus' hand caress his face, his thumb tracing over Alec's heated skin.

"Are you okay baby? I won't go any further if you don't want me to."

Alec took a deep breath, waiting a few seconds. "Do it Magnus. Just... go slow. Please."

Alec prepared himself, forcing his muscles to relax around Magnus. It was hard, but he did it.

Magnus pushed in further slowly and Alec clenched his jaw at the pain. Magnus moved slow, taking each inch carefully. Alec's hands wound themselves in Magnus' hair, holding Magnus near to him. Alec's eyes were closed, his body taking in the pain and the experience, letting it fill him up. He felt Magnus's hips hit the back of his thighs. Magnus' length filled him, and an unfamiliar rush shot through him. Sparks lit up behind his eyes, both at the pain and at the pleasure of having Magnus inside him. His breathing was laboured, his eyes shut as he let the feelings envelop every part of his being. The feeling of being completely under Magnus' control, completely consumed by him, was exhilarating.

Magnus leaned down, capturing Alec's lips. Alec let himself finally relax, giving himself completely to Magnus. This was the other side of love-the physical, raw and unhidden side of love where your whole body and soul were laid out naked for the other person to see. This was the side of love Alec had been scared of, but now, now he knew it was beautiful.

Magnus pulled away softly. "Is this okay?"

Alec finally opened his eyes, allowing himself to see Magnus. His hair hung in wet strands around his face and his eyes were wild with the emotion of the situation. But in them was the love he shared for Alec. Alec could see how worried he was that he was going to hurt Alec, that he was going too far. He could see it in his eyes, feel it in his touch, and hear it in his voice, just how much this act meant to him and just how much Alec meant to him. Alec smiled, softly, pushing the pain aside. "It's fine... It's okay."

"Do you want me to stop?"

"No... don't stop. More Magnus. Please." His voice was barely a whisper as Alec got lost in the feeling of Magnus inside of him. He wanted more. He didn't care about the pain, he just wanted Magnus; all of him. Alec rolled his hips against Magnus, a small cry of joy escaping Magnus' lips. Alec met Magnus' eyes. He brushed a wet strand of hair behind Magnus' ear, wanting a closer look at those eyes that he had fallen so in love with. "Make love to me Magnus. I want you…all of you."

"Whatever you want, it's yours." Magnus met Alec's lips, pulling Alec from reality as he lost touch with everything but the feeling of Magnus' body with his. Magnus pulled out slowly, only a few inches, but that was enough. Alec bit his lip as Magnus pulled away from his lips. They just looked at each other. Nothing needed to be said anymore. They just knew.

Magnus pushed back in, letting a wave of lust rush through Alec as their hips rocked together. Magnus pulled out again, just as slowly as before, but this time further. He pushed back in slowly, moulding Alec to him. He continued to do this, each time increasing his pace, until Alec no longer felt the pain but the pleasure of the experience. Alec's hips rocked against Magnus' in his need, asking for more. He heard Magnus moan in pleasure as each thrust grew in strength. Each touch, each movement, was full of passion and love and Alec couldn't have imagined anything more perfect, anyone more perfect.

"Oh God! More Magnus."

Their eyes met and Alec could see it in Magnus' eyes just how much this moment meant to him. His eyes were soft, understanding, and in the connection of their gaze, the feeling of love sparked between them. They didn't need to say it but they both knew it. Alec knew it in each syllable of Magnus' words, in the soft caress of his hands on his skin, and in the way Magnus took this slow, giving the moment over to Alec's control.

Magnus increased his pace as Alec felt himself grow used to the feelings and the actions, moving with Magnus as Magnus moved with him. Their bodies became one, everything moulding together into one perfect, unbreakable piece. Alec knew words were escaping his lips, but he knew nothing of what they were, his thoughts a heated scramble of words.

"Fuck!" Alec screamed out as Magnus hit his prostate rolling his hips into the stroke and sending Alec over the edge. If he thought he was flying before, that was nothing compared to what he was feeling now. His muscles contracted around Magnus, his body shaking as the feeling whipped through him, sending his body into a complete stage of ecstasy. "More... plea-please..." The rest was lost; nothing but Magnus mattering.

Magnus increased his strokes, giving Alec more with each passing second. It felt like hours passed by, each of them drowning in the feel of the other. Alec gave himself over to Magnus, letting him ride him into oblivion.

"Magnus, I'm going to..." The rest was lost in Alec's breathing, slipping off his tongue in a tangled mess. His thoughts were scrambled, lost with each second that passed.

"Me too baby." Magnus captured Alec's lost words with his lips as he pushed in once more, driving in deep just as Alec released, a warm feeling rushing through every part of his body. Magnus released at the same time, driving Alec to an even higher point of ecstasy as he felt Magnus come inside of him. His muscles contracted, his whole body shaking as the pleasure rode through every fibre of his being.

Alec let out a deep breath as his whole body went limp. His heart beat quickly in his chest as he fought to gain control of his breathing. Above him Magnus did the same, his body limp as he tried to support himself on both hands. Alec met Magnus' gaze and they both smiled lazily, laying there in comfortable silence as the rush of the moment passed by and they fought to gain control of reality again.

Minutes passed between them, each of them just staying there trying to regain their breath and the ground beneath their feet. Alec felt Magnus leave him as he moved to lay next to Alec. Alec turned over to face him, their gazes meeting. The love they felt for each other passed between them and the gravity of what just happened finally passed over Alec. He had just had sex with Magnus. He had finally just given in, telling his fears to screw off, while trusting his heart. It felt amazing. Alec had never felt so happy in his life.

"Are you okay?" Magnus asked breathlessly.

"I'm... amazing."

Magnus smiled, moving his hand to brush a stray strand of Alec's hair behind his ear. His hand lingered there, his thumb tracing softly over Alec's skin. "So, was it a good Valentine's Day?"

"Best one I've ever had."

"I would hope so, since all your Valentine's Days have been spent watching chick flicks and eating a tub of ice cream."

Alec laughed. "I like to consider it the first of many amazing days to come."

Magnus smiled. "I think I can work with that."

"I love you Magnus."

"I love you too Alec."

And with that they fell asleep, Alec moving so that Magnus' arms were wrapped around him. They remained that way all night and well into the morning. Alec dreamt of a future with Magnus where he'd faced all his fears and everything was just as perfect as that day had been. Magnus dreamt of nothing. But dreaming of nothing was Magnus' way of dreaming of Alec. Nothing was a reprieve from the nightmares and the memories. Nothing was how Magnus dreamed the beautiful and perfect things in his life.

Nothing was how Magnus dreamed of a life with Alec. A life where he loved him, cared for him and never, ever hurt him.

Nothing was how Magnus dreamed of what could be and what he could have.

Nothing was beautiful.

Nothing in his dreams meant everything to Magnus.

Everything was Alec.

So...how was it? This chapter took me forever to write until it felt right to me, so I hope it came out okay. Alec finally took that step and I think we can all be happy for him here. Review and let me know what you think. But, so you all know, things won't remain so fluffy and happy between our two boys forever. There's still a lot more to come. Anyway, thanks so much for reading and I can't say when the next update will be. I'll try for next week but we'll see what happens since life's pretty crazy right now and I have to start studying for exams next week. Again, thanks for reading and I love you guys.
Be the change,
Amber