Hi people! Sorry about the long wait. I had a major writers block for this chap. But I finally finished it =D. So please, please, please review people. It helps to not cause writers block (well it's helps with inspiration to write it =D) so yea….. Enjoy!
I just stare at Zane not knowing what to say. I see him walk up to me and wrap an arm around me. My leg is still kinda bleeding. "Rikki please tell me what's going on. I wanna help you." Zane tells me. I just wrap my arms around Zane and start to cry. I feel Zane rub my back and whisper into my ear that everything is gonna be okay and some sweet nonsense that he tells me sometimes. After about another half an hour later I stop crying but I still keep my arms wrapped around him. "Rikki please answer me. What's going on?" Zane asks. I just look up into Zane's brown eyes and I feel more tears come to my eyes. I love him and he loves me. I don't know what I'll do if he breaks up with me over this. Maybe I'm overreacting a little but I just don't wanna be yelled at anymore. "Shh. Don't cry love, don't cry. I'm here for you. Please don't cry." Zane tells me to try to calm me down. I love him so much! I explain to him everything that's ever happened to me, especially including the part about my mum being killed by him. I hope my dad isn't listening to this. He'll kill me if he was listening to this. I finish telling him everything and he just stares at me in complete utter shock. I look at him with upset eyes. I'm sure I look horrible right now but I know Zane doesn't care about that. "Rikki why didn't you tell me this before? I could've helped you! Why do you subject yourself to this?" Zane yells at me. I knew he would be mad at me for not telling him sooner. I can't take anymore yelling at me. I just let go of him and burst into tears.
I muttered "I'm so sorry Zane". I just sit there crying and Zane looks extremely pissed at me. Another like 20 minutes later I finally stop crying. "Zane I'm so so so sorry for not telling you sooner. It's just... It's just... hard to explain. There isn't anything I can do to stop it and if I struggle he just hurts me more so I just don't bother with that anymore." I tell him.
"Why don't you call the police?" Zane says extremely annoyed.
"I can't do that Zane. He'll kill me. He told me if I ever told anyone about this and if I ever told about my mum's death he'll kill me. Please, please, please keep this to yourself." I tell him.
"Listen to me if you don't want to call the police I'm not going to okay? But you should tell the others about this. If you don't tell them I will." he tells me while stroking my hair. I don't really want him to tell the others about this because before Zane everyone I ever told that I was abused, even though it was only like 3 people, they always left me because they didn't want to be around a abused person.
"I don't wanna tell them Zane. I'm okay with you telling them but I can't." I tell him. I rest my head against him. I feel him stroke my hair and whisper into my ear
"Can you try to tell them first? If you can't after you tried I'll tell them okay?".
"I guess I can try Zane. I don't know if anything with come out of my mouth when I'm trying to tell them but I guess I can try for you." I tell him with a sigh. I hear my dad moving so he'll probably wake up soon. I know it hasn't been long but sometimes it isn't a long break then after the beating he usually stops for the rest of the night. "Zane can we get out of here before my dad wakes up?" I ask him. I really don't want to be here when he wakes up.
"Sure. We'll go to my place for the night. Want me to get you some clothes for you to change into for tomorrow?" He asks me. I didn't expect to stay over night but it'll work for me.
"Sure Zane just be quick. I have no idea how long he'll stay asleep." I tell him. He whispers okay to to me and walks into my room. I have no idea how he knew the room he chose was mine. About 5 to 10 minutes later I see Zane walk out with a short sleeve shirt, shorts, and then a bra and underwear. Must have been awkward for him to grab a bra but why did he grab a short sleeve shirt and shorts? He walked up to me and kisses my cheek. "Zane why the short sleeve shirt and shorts? I don't need everybody knowing I'm abused." I ask him. He smiles deviously and I suddenly realize why he grabbed what he did. He wants people to know. He wants me to have to admit what's going on. He's so devious sometimes but I love him.
"Have you figured it out already or do I have to explain it?" he asks me with that same devious smile.
"I figured it out Zane. I said I didn't want everyone to know about it." I tell him annoyed. People I don't know will probably ask me what happened and I'll have to make up a ton of lies.
"Well not everybody is gonna ask you what's going on and besides you're attracting more attention wearing long sleeve clothes in like 85 degree weather" Zane tells me. That's probably true. I've noticed a lot of stares at me for wearing long sleeved shirts and long pants but I just tried to ignore them.
"Okay... I'm trusting you Zane." I tell him uneasy. I'm still not sure about this but Zane wouldn't try to make me look bad on purpose.
"Do you need anything else Rikki?" Zane asks me. I see Zane pick up my backpack and put the clothes in it. I walk into my bathroom and grab my toothbrush and a brush. I walk back out and put it into my backpack. I hear my dad stir more.
"Let's go now." I tell him. He just smiles at me and grabs the backpack and sling it onto his back. He walks over to me and picks me up. I giggle and ask
"What are you doing?".
"What does it look like it? I'm carrying you cause I love you." he tells me. I kiss his cheek as a response. I hear my dad start to stir even more like he's gonna wake up soon. Zane opens the door quietly, walks though it and quietly closes the door. Zane carries me down to his car.
"Zane you really didn't have to carry me. I could have walked down here just fine." I tell him with a soft smile.
"It's just easier this way. besides I'm sure your leg hurts anyways." he says while kissing my cheek. I smile a goofy in love smile while he kisses my cheek. He opens the car door and sets me down on the chair.
"Thanks." I say kinda quietly. Zane looks at me with concern and then closes my door, open the one behind me, put my backpack back there and then shut the door. As he walks to his side of the car I hear load shouting that sounds almost like someone is yelling as loud as they can. I know it's my dad and that he's woke up and found out that I'm not there. Zane opens his door, gets in, shuts his door, then smiles at me. "Start the car Zane. My dad is already awake and he knows I'm not there." I tell him worriedly. I don't want him coming after me and Zane. Zane starts the car and drives away from hell aka. the place I'm forced to call home. About 10 to 15 minutes later we get to Zane's house.
"You can stay here tonight. My dad left for some business meeting out of town and isn't gonna be home for a couple of days." Zane tells me softly and gently.
"Zane just cause my dad abuses me doesn't mean you have to treat me like a baby." I tell him annoyed. I hate it when people do stuff like that. I'm not a baby and you don't have to treat me like one when you find things out like this. It bugs me so much!
"Rikki I didn't mean it like that. And if you got that impression I'm so sorry." He tells me. Well least he apologized for making it sound like I need help with everything just cause I'm abused. I walk out of the car and my leg does kinda hurt still. I close the door and start to walk over to Zane. "Does your leg still hurt? Cause if it does I can just carry you unless you don't want that." Zane tells me softly. I love him. He grabs the backpack and walks with me inside. He opens the door and flips on a light. I forgot how nice Zane's house is. Probably cause I'm almost never over at his house.
"Come on. I'll show you were you can stay of the night. Unless you wanna sleep next to me?" Zane asks. I rather not sleep with my boyfriend. It would seem awkward.
"So where am I sleeping?" I ask him. I notice he takes it as I don't wanna sleep with him and he picks me up and carries me to the room where I'm gonna stay. He opens a door next to his room and set me down on the bed. I smile at him and tell him "thanks".
"Anything for you. Now are you hungry or do you just wanna rest?" he asks me. Least not everything in my life is horrible. I have Zane. He isn't much if you think about everything in my life but he's something. Well I have my friends too but they don't know about me being abused right now and Zane is the only one who knows about it.
"Why don't you just spend time with me?" I ask him. I just want Zane to be with me. I don't want him leaving me alone right now. Wow that made me sound like a scared little kid but I do kinda feel that way. Being abused for as long I can remember pretty much makes you feel like this.
"If that's what you want then of course." he tells me while he sit next to me. I feel him pull me close to him and I decided to rest my head on his shoulder. "You've been through a lot haven't you Rikki?" he asks me. Of course I've been through a lot especially when my mum died the way she did.
"Yea. I'm glad I get to be with you though." I tell him with a reassuring smile.
"Well if there is anything you haven't told me and you want to talk about always know that I'll be here for you to talk to." he tells me. I feel him kiss my hair a couple time. He's such a weirdo but he's my weirdo. I start to laugh softly and ask him
"What are you doing you weirdo?". He just laughs and says
"What's it look like I'm doing? I'm loving you cause I love you to death Rikki. Nobody can ever separate me from you". Awwwww that was so sweet of him to say. I know I've heard him say stuff like that before but it was still so sweet of him to say it.
"Awww thanks Zane. You're the sweetest boyfriend" I tell him before pulling him into a kiss. His lips taste good. Although they always do so either he has really good tasting lips or he wears make up which I doubt he does. That would just be weird for a person like Zane to wear make up. I feel Zane wrap his arms around my neck and keep kissing me. That usually mean we're gonna make out and I'm not gonna object to it. He'll stop if I ask him too so there isn't any worry here. I wrap my arms around his neck and start to kiss him more. It's rare that we actually have a decent make out session since it's almost always interrupted by Zane's dad. Why we choose to make out while his dad is home don't ask. About an hour or two later we stop making out.
"You're a amazing kisser you know that?" he asks me. I smile and kiss him again. I pull away and tell him
" I know. You're a amazing kisser too". He smiles at me and kisses my cheek.
"Hungry yet?" he asks me. I actually am hungry. Maybe making out with your boyfriend makes you hungry.
"Yea I am actually." I tell him.
"Then I'll be right back. Don't move love." he tells me then he kisses my cheek. I see him walk out of the room and I start to yawn. Maybe I'll take a nap before he comes back up with the food. I start to fall asleep and before I realized anything I feel completely asleep. So probably about another like 6 hours later I wake up to see a plate of food next to me.
"Why is it so dark in here?" I start to mutter to myself before I noticed the clock. It's apparently 2 am right now. Well apparently napping doesn't work for me since I fell asleep around 8 pm while waiting for Zane to bring up some food and now it's 2 am. I open the door and poke into Zane's room to find him asleep. Why did I decide to go in his room? No idea. Maybe I was hoping he would be awake. I walk up to him and kiss his cheek. He stirs a little but he doesn't wake up. Which is good cause I wasn't aiming to wake him up cause I'm sure he wouldn't like his girlfriend waking him up at 2 am. So I whisper softly into his ear "Thank you for bringing up the food Zane. I love you". I have such a sweet boyfriend. I slip out of Zane's room and back into mine. I sit on the bed and grab the plate of food Zane brought in. I'm glad he left something cause I'm starving. Well I guess it makes sense if you're hungry six hours ago you'd be starving now. Another like 30 minutes later I finish the food and set it back where Zane had put it. I lay down on the bed and pull the blankets over me. Tomorrow is gonna be a rough day for me. Actually it would be today since it's 2 am. I silently laugh to myself as I start to fall asleep.