Hey everybody! Sorry for the long wait on this chap. And all my other chaps. I've done recently. Summer vacation is a very lazy time for me =D . Well I've also had a few distractions. 1.) watching h&a(home and away for anybody who doesn't know that) it's an epic aussie show if you don't know what it is. 2.) I never really found a lot of inspiration to write this summer. But recently I finally found some =D. and 3.) I started a random h2o story out of boredom and then I got addicted to writing that instead of what I should've been writing (this chap. And my WLB chap.) so yea. That's about it. Oh yea go check out me and CheddarFetta's collab fan fiction called What lies beneath. (it's h2o if anybody's curious of where to find it). So yea. Long description. Oh one more thing. Thanks StalkerAngel for your constructive criticism It really helped =D. Now that my long rant is finally done please review =D.
Rikki's P.O.V.
I can't believe I just ran off. I feel like I'm just being a big baby about this. I'm gonna go find Zane and talk to him. Here I am, a strong, feisty rebel, and I ran off practically crying. Sure I'm being abused, this is 2nd time I ever told anybody about it, and I'm seriously scared to death about my dad and what he'll do to me. Especially after he finds out that I'm gonna stay with one of my friends to avoid him. I get up to go look for Zane. After about 5 minutes I find Zane. I walk up and say "Hey. Looking for me?". He turns around and hugs me.
"Rikki! Where did u go? Are you okay? I told the others about what's going on." he says. It's sweet that he's worried. I really do love him. I kiss his cheek and tell him
"I'm fine Zane. I feel so stupid running off like that. How much did u tell? Cause if it's not everything I can tell them the rest". He wraps his arm around me and starts to explain what he said already. Zane covered most of it. He left out the stuff about my mum. He kisses my cheek and I can't help but have that stupid in love smile you see those sappy people with. He rubs my shoulder and we walk back over to the others. I see the others give me sympathetic looks.
"Rikki I can't believe that's happening to you. Why didn't you tell us before? We all wanna help." Cleo said. I smile. It's nice to know my friends are willing to stick with me through what I'm going through.
"I just don't like telling people. It's not something you like telling people. It's not like I can walk up and say 'Hey I'm being abused. isn't that great?' Yea. That wasn't gonna happen." I tell them.
"Has he ever killed anyone with the abuse?" Lewis asked. Leave it to Lewis to ask all the questions. I start to explain how he killed my mum when I was 8,the threats he's been giving me ever since, and everything else Zane didn't mention. They all looked really shocked.
"We're so sorry Rikki. It must be horrible to watch your mum die cause your dad is abusive." Bella says. Yes I did watch a bit of my mum dying. This is what happened, I heard a scream so I ran to my parent's room then I opened my door and I saw my dad beating my mum so I ran away from the door and hid in my closet till the screaming stop. After that I left my closet and went into my parents room. My dad wasn't in it but my mum's eyes were closed and there was so much blood on the bed. So being the 8 year old I was I thought she was sleeping or she passed out. So I went up to the bed and started to shake my mum to see if she would wake up. Then I realized that she was stone cold and that's when I realized that she was murdered by my dad. Then my dad came in, gave me the threat that I'm still scared of to this day, and then proceeded to beat me horribly. I had so many bruises,cuts,and lots of blood spilled after that. If you're wondering my mum did get a funeral. My dad wasn't there cause they told him he would have to be sober if he was to come to the funeral. I went though. It was horribly sad and it was even worse that I couldn't tell anybody about how she died. I just had to sit there and pretend I didn't know anything.
"Earth to Rikki." Zane said while waving his hand in front of my face.
"What Zane?" I asked him. Now that my mind was wrapped around my mum's death I've gotten really depressed about my mum.
"The bell rang we've gotta go to class." Zane said.
"Oh okay. Let's go Zane." I say with a smile. He pulls me closer to him and we walk to class. We hold hands and he kisses my cheek again. Another huge smile appears on my face. Then we walk into class and we walk back over to the others. We all have first period together and we all sit next to each other.
"I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable talking about your mum's death and all." Lewis said. It's not his fault. I think about it sometimes and it does make me sad. It's not uncommon for me to cry. I know that's not how a rebel should be but when you live with a abusive dad, who also violently murdered my mum that's what happens. I'm a rebel but I'm not afraid to cry when I'm in pain which is a lot thanks to my dad.
"It's okay. I do miss her and I wish that event never happened but I can't change the past. Thanks for the support on everything. You guys are great friends." I tell them with a smile. I love them. They're the best friends I could've ever asked for. Class starts before anything else could be said. But that doesn't stop Zane from giving me a quick kiss on my cheek. I smile and give him a kiss on his cheek as well. Just a little thanks for everything kiss. I really do love him and I can't thank him enough for everything that he's done for me. Class went by so slowly. But least I had Zane sitting next to me. After about 40 to 50 minutes I think the bell finally rang. I got up and Zane wrapped his arm around me again. "I love you to death Zane." I tell him. He's the best boyfriend in the whole world.
"I love you to death too Rikki." He tells me as he kisses my cheek. I can't help but giggle and love him more then anything in the world. The school day keeps dragging on and Zane keeps being the sweetest boyfriend in the world. Finally school ends and I'm walking with Zane. The others run up to us.
"Hey guys." I say to them.
"Hey Rikki. My mum said you can come stay with us." Emma says. Thank god I don't have to stay with my dad any longer. Although I'm gonna get severely beaten when he finds me but I'll face that later. Emma gives me a hug and normally I don't take hugs but I hug her back.
"Thanks Emma. I really don't wanna go back to the hell I'm forced to call home. But did you tell your mum why I need to stay there?" I tell/ask her. I don't mind if she told her mum to get me away from the hell hole I'm forced to call home. I just don't want the whole world knowing that I'm abused.
"Yea I told her. Do you want one of us to go get your clothes and stuff so you can stay over at my place for a while." Emma asks. I'd feel weird having them go over and get my stuff. I can do it myself. I just have to time it right so he's out drunk while I get my stuff and leave before he wakes up.
"I can do it myself. I just have to wait till he's passed out drunk so I can get my stuff and leave." I tell them. Zane looks at me worried. I know he thinks I shouldn't do it but I can defend myself. I know my friends are also concerned about me but I can do it myself. I tell Zane that I'm walking back and if I'm not back in about hour to come by and check on me. I walk home and it takes about 10 to 20 minutes. I peek into the window and I see if he's passed out. Thankfully he is so I quietly walk inside. I quietly slip into my room and start to pack my clothes and other stuff I'll need. I slip into the bathroom and grab my toothbrush and brush. I quietly slip into my room and pack them. About another 10 minutes later I finally finish packing and I slip out of my room with my stuff. But of course right as I'm leaving he wakes up.
"Where do you think you're going you little bitch." my dad says in his slurred drunk voice. I just stand up to him and say
"Away from you. I can't stand being abused and I'm getting away from you". He grabs me by the hair and yanks me down. I scream in pain as I'm being yanked down. He starts to punch me and kick me. I'm sure a few of my ribs just broke from where he kicked a few times. I scream loudly in pain and hope he stops soon.
"Stop hurting me!" I yell at him.
"Shut up you stupid little bitch!" my dad yells at me. After I think it was 5 minutes of pure beatings he stopped. I was so hoping that it was cause he passed out drunk. That wasn't the case. He went into the kitchen and grab a knife. He came back over and that's when I saw the knife. I almost whimpered and said "Dad please no! Please!". I feel tears start to fall down my cheek as he forcefully pulls my shirt up and starts to cut my stomach. I scream louder in pain. About another 30 minutes later after I've already been beaten badly, probably have at least half my ribs broken, have huge bruise and cuts all over my body and now adding the huge pain coming from my stomach where he cut it a lot. I think it might say something but I don't know. I'm in way too much pain to care. My dad finally passes out drunk. I'm bleeding a lot. I'm in so much pain! Why does this have to happen to me? Why must I be abused. I feel some tears roll down my cheek. I hate my life! I just lay there in pain while waiting for the blood to stop. Finally the blood stops so I make an effort to get up and leave before he wakes up and beats me again. I feel so much pain while trying to get up all I wanna do is lay back down. I know I can't unless I wanna get beaten again later. I weakly grab my stuff and start to leave my house very slowly. I'm in so much pain but I have to keep moving forward and away from this hell hole. It took me about 30 to 40 minutes to get to Emma's house. I had to stop like every 5 to 10 minutes cause I'm that badly hurt. I walk inside Emma's house. I'm in too much pain to bother knocking. The others must have heard me come in cause they all walked up to the door and saw me. I must look horrible from the beating.
"Rikki what happened?" Emma almost yells out at me.
"I should've never let you go there alone. Please tell me what happened" Zane said nicely and worriedly. I'm surprised he didn't leave to go looking for me. I set down my bag and I suddenly couldn't deal with standing anymore. I suddenly feel everything go black and the last thing I remember was I think everyone yelling out my name. I don't know how much later but I wake up on somebody's bed. I don't know how I got on it.
"Rikki why'd you faint like that? You gave me and everyone else a heart attack!" Zane said extremely worried. So that's what happened but I still don't know how I got on it. One of them must have carried me up onto it.
"I'm sorry Zane. I didn't mean to scare you. I'm just not feeling that well. Sorry." I tell him weakly. I am sorry for scaring everyone the way I must have but I'm actually surprised I got to Emma's house without passing out. Zane leaves the room. Probably to tell everyone I woke up. A few minutes later everyone walks in. And when I say everyone, I mean everyone. Emma,Cleo,Bella,Will,Lewis,Ash,Zane, and Emma's parents all walked in. I feel like I'm under a microscope with them all staring at me.
"Rikki what happened? Why'd you pass out?" Emma's mom said worriedly. I'm still in too much pain to talk so I just don't respond.
"Rikki come on please respond! We need to know what happened." Emma said. I know they're worried about me but I'm just not in the mood to respond. I just tell them that I'll talk about it later and I just wanna sleep. They all leave and I fall asleep again. I don't wanna tell them about what happened but I know I'm gonna have to eventually.