Hi people. I really gotta stop having to apologize for not posting in like 6 months…. School got in the way, then lack of inspiration, then not having the time to write and having to work on the collab fanfic…. Yea….. So I'm so sorry that I haven't posted in like 6 months but I'll try to write more often. So I don't know how many people will bother to read this….. Please review and whoever gets the references in this chap. Gets a virtual cookie (this excludes you cheddarfetta. You're the one who got me into it, so of course you would know the answer). *hint people, it's another aussie tv show =P. so yea. Please review and sorry for the long wait.
I sighed as I was laying against Zane's chest. He was still sleeping but I was wide awake. They already made an appointment for me for this afternoon to go to the doctor's office I can't convince Zane or the others differently. But eventually it became time to leave for the appointment and Zane tells me "Are you ready Rikki?". I'm not ready but I'll never be ready. Ever.
"Not really but do I have a choice in this matter? I don't wanna go but you're gonna make me no matter what." I told him.
"You'll be okay Rikki. I love you." he tells me and kisses the top of my head. I sigh and let Zane take me to the doctor. It's not like I could've persuaded him anyways. Eventually I walk into the clinic with Zane. He kisses my hair and walks over to the front desk to sign in for me. I tried to leave but Zane caught me and said
"You're not leaving missy. I'm gonna make sure you stay and make sure you see a doctor". I sighed. Damn you for caring Zane. I know that's very contradictory but I just don't want to be here but I love that he cares for me so much. I sighed till a nurse called my name. Zane squeezed my hand and let me go in by myself. "You'll be fine Rikki. Don't worry. I'll wait here till you come out. " he told me with a smile on his face. I just sighed and followed the nurse. I'm not gonna like this outcome no matter what. I walk into a room and wait. After like 10 minutes of sitting in there the doctor walks in. I look up and god damn it, he knows me.
"Hello Rikki. Long time no see. Still afraid to tell the police?" he tells me with a slight laugh. I sit there quietly. I don't want to admit anything but I know I have to talk. Least Zane's not here to realize I lied to him about this.
"Yes doctor Walker. Can we just get this over with quickly so I can leave?" I told him with a sigh. He just says sure and continues to look at my bruises and other stuff my dad has inflicted on me.
"How's life been treating you rikki? Well besides the whole abusive dad thing. I'm sure something has to be going right for you. It's been at least 5 years since I've seen you." he told me.
"It's fine. I'm stay with one of my friends because I couldn't stand staying at my house so I left. And my friends and boyfriend were convinced that I should go here. And my boyfriend dragged me here." I told him. This just feels so awkward. I mean he used to look at the abuse patients when I met him and here I am again, still abused and being seen by the same guy that saw me when I was being abused like 5 or more years ago. "OW!" I yell as he puts some stuff on my cuts.
"Sorry. This stuff is gonna burn because these cuts are bad. Anywhere else you want me to look at?" he asked. Well I should mention my ribs which I'm sure are broken. But I don't know.
"Dad, Sasha is on the phone. What should I tell her?" this guy asked. He's got brown hair and brown eyes. He's kinda cute in a kinda geeky way. Like Lewis but a bit cuter the Lewis. But Zane is always gonna be my boyfriend. Always.
"Tell her I'll call her later Dex. I'm busy with a patient right now." he tells this guy, who's name is apparently Dex.
"Alright dad. Bye" Dex says then leaves the room. "
Sorry about that. He's my son and training to be a nurse." he tells me.
"It's alright. I'm having a lot of pain by my rib cage. Can you look at that? It feel like it's broken." I tell him with a slight smile. I actually feel better with doctor walker in the room because at least I don't have to lie to him about happened. He already knows and can treat me better. "
Of course. I'm just curious but is your father getting worse with his abuse because if he is you need to tell someone about this rikki. And by someone, I mean the police." he tells me . I sighed annoyed. I'm pretty sure I told him why I can't tell the police. It's because I'll be killed by the devil himself.
"I don't know really. Sometimes it seems worse and sometimes it seems normal amount I've gotten since it started. But didn't I tell you like 5 or more years ago why I can't go to the police about this?" I asked him. Almost immediately after that I yelled "OW!". The stuff he's using hurts like hell. Probably cause it's not the liquid form. I've always hated it. Which is probably why I didn't have to tell him not to use the liquid form of this medicated stuff to help my cuts.
"Yes you did tell me but you're still afraid of that threat? I still think you should tell them. Because if you don't do that rikki, one day you're gonna be the one dead anyways. Then nobody will be able to tell them he was abusing you for years. Sure your friends and boyfriend know but really who are they more likely to believe, your father or your friends and boyfriend?" he asked in an annoyed tone. The unfortunate part of this is we both know who they would believe. They would believe my dad because he's my "dad". I sighed knowing everything he said was true. But I'm still too afraid to tell the police. "Since I'm assuming both of us already know all those answers. Why don't I take you over to see how badly injured your ribs are. Okay?" he told me. I just nodded my head, too ashamed to speak, and followed him to x-ray room to look at my ribs. If you're wondering about the whole "being too ashamed" part, here's the reasoning. Just look at my situation at home and this doctor's visit , especially the last two things doctor walker said, and you'll realize why. Not explaining it any farther then that. I hate it when he goes all quiet on me. He hasn't spoken a word to me since leaving the room to go take x-rays of my ribs. And for the record we've already taken the x-rays and now I'm just waiting for the results. Well I guess I can't say he hasn't talked to me... He just hasn't talk to me about anything besides telling me what to do in the x-rays and what to do when I got back to the room. So now I'm just waiting for him to come back in and tell me what the x-rays said. "Hi rikki. I'm back with your x-rays" doctor walker said. He put up the x-rays of my ribs. "well. They're diffidently broken. Well least half of them are." he tells me and then proceeded to point out all the broken ribs I have. "Rikki... You have to tell the police about this. I'm not sure how much longer you can live with the life you're living now. I'm sorry but that's the honest truth. No matter how much you try to hide, either by yourself or with your friends and boyfriend, you're not gonna be save from him till you get him arrested. Do you hear me rikki?" he asked me.
All I could do was sigh and respond "Yes doctor walker. It's just..." I sighed again "You know what it is. The police can only do so much to hold him in. He'll find a way out and kill me. I just can't. I rather just hide with my friends and boyfriend". I saw him sigh in slight annoyance while he put a bandage around where my broken ribs are.
"Rikki... In jail your father can't get any alcohol. He'll become less and less drunk and then he'll snap out of it. If you let him stay out here he'll get worse rikki. Think about it that way rikki. Are you really helping anybody by keeping him out of prison when he could get help in there? Just think about it rikki" he told me. I stayed silent. He was right. I hate that he's right about that. I wasn't helping anybody this way. Especially when he's right about my dad getting help for his alcoholic addiction. I didn't respond. I couldn't bring myself to respond. "Well other then your ribs, nothing seems to be broken. I guess I'll let you go. But if you ever need anything, I'm always here rikki. I live about 30 minutes away from here, on farmish type land. Come by any time if you need anything okay?" he told me. I just nodded, I still couldn't bring myself to speak. "Alright ms. Chadwick. You're done" he says with a slight laugh. I laugh slightly too. It's weird being called "ms. Chadwick", especially since he called me Rikki the entire time and then at the end decided to be all formal. I smile at him and let him help me down. He helps me back out to Zane. Zane gets up and gave me a big hug when I came out. Doctor Walker explained everything, well everything medical that is. I just stayed in Zane's hug and relaxed. After doctor Walker explained everything to Zane, he left.
"See? You survived love. Let's get you home so you can rest" Zane told me then he kissed my hair. I still love him with all my heart. We walked back into the car and drove back to Emma's house. We got home and Zane, being the weirdo that he is and that I love, picked me up and carried me inside.
"Zane! What are you doing you weirdo?" I asked him while laughing.
"Is there a problem with carrying my beautiful girlfriend inside?" he said laughing. I love him so much. I rest my head on his shoulder while he's carrying me. Zane sets me down on the couch and I see Emma and her family come over.
"See? You survived going to a doctor Rikki." Emma said with a laugh.
"Shut up Emma. Just leave me alone" I told her. I'm not in the mood to be annoyed. Especially after being guilted by doctor Walker into trying to tell the police about my dad. I know he was trying to help and everything but I'm just not in a good mood.
"Alright then... Somebody's grumpy." Emma said and then walked away. Zane, after noticing my grumpiness, took me upstairs and laid me down on the bed.
"I'll leave you alone for awhile alright? Love you" he told me and then kissed my head. He left me alone after that. Few days after that incident I left to go walking along the beach. My ribs still kinda hurt but not horribly. Two people walked up to me. It was a guy and a girl. The guy was very attractive, sorry Zane but he was, he looked a lot like Will... Which was weird. Maybe I'll tell will about it later. Anyways the girl had black hair, brown eyes, a bikini and some shorts on. The guy, along with looking almost identical to will, was shirtless and wet. It looked like they had gone swimming. Of course my ribs decided to act up and make it almost unbearable to stand. I didn't tell anyone at Emma's house I went down to the beach, well I wrote it down on a note and left. The guy came over and sat down next to me.
"You alright?" he asked me.
"I'm fine. Thanks" I told him. I didn't need the mysterious strangers to try and help me because 1.) I don't need/want help from them and 2.) they're wet! I don't want to turn into a mermaid in front of them!
"Hey Romeo. Who's this?" the black haired girl asked. Guess the Will look-alike's name is Romeo.
"Don't know Sash. She just looked like she needed some help." Romeo responded. I guess the black haired girl's name is Sasha or something... Can't make a lot of names with the nickname Sash. Romeo's pretty hot actually. I would never desert Zane, I love him so damn much, but I can still say guys are hot. "
Alright then," she said, smiling at Romeo. Then she turned to me,
"Why don't you join us? Long as you're not a murderer or something." she said while laughing. My ribs started feeling better, and as long as I stayed away from the water and them touching me till they dried off, I'll be fine.
"Sure. My name's rikki by the way." I told them. I already knew their names and since they seem like nice enough people, might as well tell them my name. Besides they would ask for it later anyways. I got up and smiled at them. My ribs were hurting a little but I'll be fine. Well fine enough to walk with them.
"Interesting name for a girl. Come on" Romeo said. I smiled at them. I spent awhile with them. They're definitely interesting people...
"Are you naturally quiet or do you just have nothing to say?" Sasha asked.
"Well there isn't anything for me to comment on with you guys" I told them.
"Ohhh sorry about that. And if you haven't noticed already we're dating" Romeo said with a laugh.
"It's alright. You look a lot like my friend Will. He's a diver" I told them with a smile. They're nice people to hang around. Maybe I'll try to hang out with them another day, probably when they're not wet.
"Ohh do I now? Well I'm a surfer so I guess we're water bound" he said with a huge laugh. We stood around talking for awhile till Zane showed up.
"Rikki! What are you doing out here? You know you shouldn't be" he told me and then wrapped his arms around me. I know doctor Walker told me to stay in bed for awhile but that gets so boring after awhile...
"Zane, I'm fine. But if you want me to home, I'll go home with you." I told him. I knew he wasn't gonna drop it. I told Romeo and Sasha bye, I told them I'd talk to them later, and walked home with Zane. I hope I don't have to explain to them about what Zane meant and everything.