AN: Alright, so this is a little more in depth back story for ya. I hope you enjoy it. I also want to say thank you to all of my readers and reviewers. Every review encourages me to write more. As does every alert and favourite, but is truly wonderful to hear your opinions on my work, so thank so much.
Disclaimer: SM owns Twilight. But I wouldn't mind being stuck in the middle of Jasper and Edward. =]

"So you remember?"

"Yeah. It's weird though. I remember being so in love with him; he was perfect in my eyes." Jasper flinched a little as I spoke. I ran a hand through his hair, pulling his face to mine and kissing him deeply, throwing all of my love at him. When we broke apart we were both breathing roughly. "What I felt for Edward is nothing compared to what I feel for you, nothing compared to what I felt for you when I was still human. You're not perfect, you're vaguely possessive, smug, old, arrogant at times but you are perfect for me. Okay? So stop getting all insecure on me, you know how I feel about you, and you know I only care for Edward as a brother." I smiled softly, shifting my body slightly closer to his where we lay under the stars in the garden, the stars shimmering above us. Jasper was laid on his side, looking down at me while I lay on my back, his beauty made the stars pale in comparison, but he wasn't too keen on being called beautiful.

"I know Sugar, but a guy can't help but worry when his girl starts remembering how she felt for her former boyfriend, who happens to still live under the same roof as her." He chuckled softly, his laughter warming me inside, I could feel the happiness spreading out from the very core of me. It was great to know that I truly felt more for the delicious cowboy beside me than I had for anyone else, and I knew my feelings wouldn't lessen over the course of eternity, if anything they'd only get stronger.

"Former being the operative word. Besides, said former boyfriend has a very current boyfriend." I laughed, shaking my head a little before running my hand along his neck, cupping his jaw and looking into his golden eyes. I could get lost in them and be content forever. "When's Ethan coming back anyway?"

"I don't know Darlin' but Edward is leaving for New Hampshire in a few days to help him pack and come back." he pressed a kiss to my forehead.

"That's promising. I miss Ethan, now I remember him. He was cool. Funny. Definitely a good influence on Eddie boy." I giggled, wriggling a little as Jaspers hand moved under my shirt and began dancing over my stomach.

A little later we returned to the house, just about managing to remain fully clothed while we were outside, though that didn't mean we didn't have some fun. Only Alice could be seen in the living room. I sat beside her, not disturbing her as she had that look in her eye, the one that gives away when she's getting a vision. I waited while Jasper went to go do something in our room, I not sure what he just told me there was something he wanted to do. I pulled my knees to my chest and waited for my sister. Finally she looked at me and smiled. "Welcome back Ali." I grinned, "See anything interesting?" She nodded, smiling brightly.

"I'm not telling you though." I pouted but shook it off quickly, she always had her reasons. "Edward and Ethan will be back a week after Edward leaves." Alice informed me, pre-empting my next question for her.

"Thanks Al. Wanna watch a movie?"

"Nope." She popped the 'p' in her answer. "I have to go out. Psychic Sister stuff, you understand." She laughed as she jumped from the couch, bounding upstairs.

"No, I really don't." I muttered before taking the opportunity to control the TV and channel hopping for a while before that got boring. My mind was struggling to focus on much except the memories of Edward, though Jasper had been a fine distraction.

The first time I saw Edward Cullen was in the lunchroom at Forks High School. Along with the rest of the Cullens. One of the girls I was sat with told me who they were. I tried to ignore him, but I couldn't, especially not when he turned out to be my lab partner in Biology. He ran away that day, I thought he hated me. Of course I know now he was trying not to eat me, but it really hurt at the time. He saved me from the guys in Port Angeles. They were disgusting creatures, worse than anything we could ever be in my opinion. I learnt about his skill. I figured out what the whole family was, is. I fell in love. We spent time at the meadow. Time in this house. Time at Charlie's. We were talked about at school, everyone sharing gossip, which like all good gossip was nowhere near the truth. I missed him when he went hunting. He slept beside me every night. His kisses always left me frustrated. He said it was too dangerous to do anything. I believed him.

I got a paper cut on my eighteenth birthday. Not a clever thing in a room full of vampires. Even smarter was Edward's idea of throwing me into some glass. Jasper couldn't help but take a snap at me, he had not only his but six other vampires bloodlust to contend with. Edward started pulling away from me after that. I confronted him. We argued. He was insistent that it wasn't safe for me to around his family. I was determined he was not going to dictate my life, or our relationship. I believe I called him a 'conceited, arrogant asshole' at one point. Things changed between us after that, we weren't as affectionate, we fought a lot more often, and a lot more loudly. Alice said she still saw me becoming a vampire. That hadn't changed. I was happy about that because I still wanted to be a part of the family, but I was content to wait until things with Edward were sorted out.

"Bella? I need to talk to you, without shouting."

"Go ahead Edward."

"I think we need to stop this before either of us gets hurt."

"I'm already hurt Edward, but I'll be okay in time. Just tell me something, is there someone else?"

"No, there's no one else, yet. I love you, I do. I've just realised it's not the way you deserve to be loved, I love you, but I'm not in love with you."

"Let me guess, you still want to be friends?"

"I would very much like to still be a part of your life Bella, yes."

"What did you mean when you said, yet?"

"Alice has seen something, someone. Nothing is concrete, the visions flicker, but I need to know."

"I understand. But I don't think I'll be able to be around you for a while Edward." He'd simply nodded, kissed my forehead and left my bedroom. The next day I woke to a note telling me they were all downstairs. Alice had seen something, a reason they needed to leave Forks, they had come to say goodbye. They were gone three days later.

I spent the summer mourning the loss of my family. I felt it so acutely. I hated Edward, blamed him for the family leaving. I believed he'd made Alice say she'd had a vision, just so he could get away from me. I'd become entirely too dependent on Edward, on all of them. I went to college. Dartmouth. Edward had assured me they weren't going to college for a while, but they didn't know where I was. I grew up a lot in my freshman year. I gained back a lot of my independence. I also lost my innocence. My eyes were opened to the real human world, and I found my place in it with my friends. I had fun, I studied hard, I was the poster child for a good college experience.

The second week of my sophomore year I walked into class, and there, in the back row was a familiar shock of bronze hair, and a dazzling pair of golden eyes. I squared my shoulders and took my seat four rows down from my past. After the lecture Edward had caught up with me, tried to talk to me but I hadn't listened, I refused to hear his excuses. It took a couple of months of his persistent badgering for me to agree to talk to him about what had happened. He told me about Ethan, about him falling in love with an amazing guy, and having to come to terms with himself and his sexuality all over again. He told me about Alice and Jasper, they had divorced after a vision Alice had had about them both finding their real mates. Apparently they'd always known they weren't it for each other. Emmett and Rose were off on another honeymoon. Alice was working in New York as an intern at a fashion house, and Jasper was also at Dartmouth, studying history.

I slowly started to forgive Edward and we managed to morph our relationship into a friendship with a side order of sibling rivalry. I started spending a lot of time with the Cullens once again, but I did not neglect my human friends. I found a balance. Jasper and I started talking and discovered we had a lot in common. We became friends quickly. Edward didn't like it, he was still overly protective, but I told him where to shove it. Ethan had found that amusing. I almost went into shock when Jasper asked me to be his date to the Valentines keg party. I agreed, already having developed a major crush on the blonde vampire. Eventually it became a regular thing for Jasper and I to go on 'dates', it wasn't until the fifth 'date' that I finally asked Jasper if he was ever going to fucking kiss me. that was the first night we made out, something that became an even more frequent past time. My human friends loved him in all of his southern country glory. And I came to realise that I loved him, as more than a friend. I introduced Jasper to Charlie as my boyfriend at the start of the summer between my Junior and senior years at college.

The end of that summer was horrific for me; it was the summer Charlie died. I realised my life was too short to hold grudges, so I let go of any lingering resentment towards Edward, and Ethan had removed the stick from his ass, allowing us to become closer than ever. Meanwhile my relationship with Jasper kept getting more and more serious. We talked about my change, if I wanted to be changed. I decided to wait a little, spend more time being human as I'd come to rather enjoy it. After my Graduation I had moved into the Cullens. A week later I had been changed.

"Darlin'?" Jasper startled me; I had been so lost in recalling everything that had happened in the last five and a half years I hadn't noticed him come back downstairs. "You alright?"

"Better than ever." I smiled, and it was true, I had finally reconciled the events in my life that had brought me to this point in regards to Edward and Jasper, something which had been confusing me since the moment I had awoken to this new life.

"Now, what were you doing upstairs?"