A/N: Hi! Yesterday I wrote a one-shot collection thing of haikus. Please read it. It took me a long time to count all of the 5-7-5 syllables. I'm not so good at romance, but I'd like to know what you think of it. It's called Haikus of Silent Love.
Enjoy!
The next three days passed normally. Now it was Friday.
"Hey, Rin. It's Friday, so you want to go somewhere tonight," Mikuo suggested.
Rin stared blankly Mikuo. It took her a few seconds to see Mikuo. "Oh! Um, sure." She rubbed her eyes and tried to clear her head.
"Great. I was thinking we could see a movie, then go a fast food restaurant to eat. How about it?" Mikuo noticed Rin drifting away again.
"Rin!" Mikuo snapped his fingers in front of her face. She blinked, and shook her head.
"I'm sorry, I'm kind of tired." Rin looked up at Mikuo again. "What did you say again?"
Mikuo sighed and repeated what he said.
The movie theatre wasn't far from the school, so Rin and Mikuo walked to it. Mikuo bought a big bag of popcorn. They settled into the comfortable seats in the theatre.
Rin sank down deep in her seat. The lights were all out, the movie theatre was completely dark. I'm so tired, Rin thought, her eyelids drooping.
Her eyes snapped open. No! Don't fall asleep! Rin gripped Mikuo's arm. "Make sure I don't fall asleep," she hissed in his ear.
Mikuo nodded. He offered Rin the bag of popcorn. The popcorn's buttery smell wafted up to Rin's nose and added to the nausea she felt. She quickly pushed the bag away.
After the movie ended, Mikuo told Rin about a fast-food place he loved. They had a special burger that had leeks in it.
Rin listened to Mikuo chatter away about the amazing leek burgers. Rin's ears felt like they were filled with cotton. She could barely hear Mikuo. Her vision blurred for a second. Rin pressed the heels of her hands into her eyes. I really need to sleep. But if I do, then that will come.
Suddenly, a wave of exhaustion crashed over Rin. Her legs buckled. Mikuo grabbed her arm before she fell.
"Sheesh Rin. Don't wear yourself out." He put Rin on his back and turned around, walking towards Len and Rin's house.
Len opened the door to find Mikuo with Rin on his back. Unconcious.
"What did you—"
Mikuo put his hand out. "I did nothing. She just collapsed while we were walking."
Len glared at Mikuo. "Prove yourself."
Mikuo sighed. "I don't know, okay? I don't have any witnesses or anything. Just, trust me."
Len kept glaring at Mikuo. "So if it wasn't you, then who."
"You don't know?" Mikuo asked, surprised. Len shook his head. "Rin hasn't been sleeping. I don't know why, but she's got dark circles under her eyes and I've seen her almost falling asleep."
"She did tell me that her mind keeps replaying…that." Len thought it over. "Whatever. Come in."
"What's that?"
"You don't want to know."
Mikou rolled his eyes. "You know me. Of course I want to know."
"Fine, I'll tell you, but you'll wish you didn't know." Len started recounting what happened at the castle.
Crap! I fell asleep. Argh…
Rin opened her eyes to find herself in a dream. At least it's not—
"Len, you're so cute! That joke's hilarious!"
Rin froze. She knew that voice. Mother…
"I'm so glad you're my son," a deep resonating voice said.
She turned around and saw her parents, each holding one of Len's hands. No! I don't want to see this again.
Five feet behind the three was a younger Rin. She walked with her head down, her feet shuffling.
No! Not this! Anything but this. Rin clapped her hands over her ears, but her parent's voices still infiltrated though.
"I'm happy too! With you as our son, we don't need to have any more children," Rin's mother cried.
"But what about me?" The younger Rin asked. "Aren't I important to you too? You love me too, right?" There was desperation in the young Rin's eyes and voice.
"Len, you handsome devil. When you grow up, every girl out there will fall for you," Father said.
"Oh, you." Mother batted at Father's hand playfully. "But, you're right. Our little Len will become a handsome boy someday." Both parents ignored Rin's questions.
Rin felt her younger self's feelings. She felt rejected, alone, and invisible.
The younger Rin stopped walking. She tried to move her legs, but something kept her in place. Her family kept walking. "Mommy! Daddy! Len!" Rin cried out, but no sounds left her mouth. They were leaving her behind. "Come back! You love me too, right? Right? MOMMY!" Rin screamed, but no one heard.
"But, you know, they don't actually love you," a little voice in Rin's head said. "They don't care about you. You don't even exist in their eyes."
"That's not true! Mommy, Daddy and Len love me very much. They just don't show it…" The more RIn thought about it, the truer the voice was. "No! THEY LOVE ME! I'M NOT WORTH NOTHING! I'M RIN KAGAMINE, THEIR BELOVED DAUGHTER!" By know, tears were streaming down Rin's cheeks.
Rin collapsed on the ground, sobbing. "They do love me. They do."
"Oh, really. If they really loved you, would they treat you like that?" the voice asked.
"No…"
"Exactly." Rin felt a cold hand grab her heart. She clutched her chest. When the hand was gone, her tears were dry. And so were the feelings that had belonged in the well of her heart.
"They don't love me. They never looked back to see if I was okay. They never cared. I'm just Rin Kagamine, the daughter who doesn't exist." Rin stood up, a hard, cold defiance in her eyes. "Yes, that's right. I'm no one. No one in this world loves me."
What Rin didn't know was that Len had looked back.
Rin lost the connection to her younger self. She sucked in a deep breath. That was the day her psychopathy was born. Rin hated remembering all those feelings. I'm better an empty well than a well overflowing with pain and sadness.
Plus, I'm better off now. I know that Len loves me, and that's all I need.
"You're really funny, Len." Rin whipped around. Again?
No. Now Len was the age he was now. At his side was a long blonde haired girl. She had brilliant blue eyes, much like Rin's. She was smiling at Len
"Why, thank you Lily." Len smiled back. There was something in that smile…
"I love you, Len."
"I love you too, Lily." They leaned in and kissed.
When they passed Rin, Lily tapped Len's shoulder and pointed at her. "Look, it's your sister."
Len stared at Rin. His gaze was cold "What about her? I don't need a mirror image with you, Lily." Laughing they walked past her without so much as a second glance.
Rin was frozen. Len doesn't need me anymore? So, he doesn't actually love me? But…
A cold hand gripped her heart, just like with the younger Rin. "See? I'm right. Even your "beloved" brother doesn't actually love you."
Rin grabbed her head. "Shut up! This is just a dream. It's not true. Len loves me, even if no one else in the world does."
"If you say so," the voice replied.
But what if he really didn't…
Rin's eyes snapped open. A concerned Len and Mikuo stood above her. So it was a dream.
Rin sat up and hugged Len. "Say you love me, Len. Say it!"
"I-I love you Rin. I always will, because you're my precious sister."
A/N: No, it's not romance, just sibling-ly love. I didn't really like the ending, but I promise I'll do better in the next chapter.
Thanks for reading!