a/n: hi there. hey look….new chapter. read. review. enjoy. repeat. :) sorry this is such a short update, but i haven't updated in like a bajillion years cuz of finals so i wanted to give you all something.

warning; self harm mention

"Well, Agent Prentiss," the doctor said, walking in with a chart, "Everything is looking very good. The baby is healthy and doing well," he said with a smile, "and you said you wanted to know the sex of your baby?" he asked.

"Please," she nodded with a grin.

"Well, Agent Prentiss, you are having a…" the doctor began pausing for affect, as JJ, Riley and Emily were on the edge of their seats dying to know.

"You're having a girl," the doctor said with a smile, "Congratulations," he said, and then turned to Riley, "You'll make a great big sister," and then he turned back to Emily and JJ, "and you two will make great parents," he said grinning.

"Oh no, we're just friends!" JJ exclaimed.

"That's what they all say. I'm ok with it, don't worry. I have a few same sex couples for patients. I completely support it," he said obliviously, with a smile, "any ways, I'll get your paper work taken care of and I'll be back shortly." With that, he exited the room, leaving JJ completely red and flustered, Riley laughing hysterically, and Emily in her own world, shedding tears of joy. As he exited the room, they heard him mutter, "hell of a lot of estrogen is gonna be going on in that house."

"Do we," JJ began, "Are we," she tried again.

"Apparently you guys just scream lesbian," Riley said laughing.

"If I was a lesbian, I guess I would pick Emily first. Em, would you pick me?" JJ said chuckling.

"Guys….I'm having a baby," she murmured.

"Oh my god, mom," Riley said rolling her eyes.

"C'mere Riley," Emily requested. So Riley stood and went to her mother's side. She hugged her mom tightly.

"I love you mom," Riley said with a chuckle.

"Was I this bad when I was pregnant?" JJ asked with a grin.

"You were worse," Emily said, wiping away her tears, "Anyways, let's get home. I want to spend some quality time with you and Declan," she said looking at Riley.

"Sounds good. I'll go deal with the paper work," JJ offered.

"Thank you," Emily replied graciously. JJ knew how much Emily hated any kind of paperwork. JJ left the room, leaving Riley and Emily alone. Riley sat in the chair JJ had been occupying previously, and stared at her hands, as she played with her fingers.

"Riles?" Emily asked.

"Yeah, mom?" Riley said, looking up slowly.

"Are you okay with this?" She asked quietly.

"With what?" Riley asked confused.

"Me…being pregnant?" Emily said. Riley nodded.

"Yeah." And that was it.

"Why?" Emily asked, still skeptical.

"Because it makes you happy. And I'd rather you be happy," Riley said with a shrug.

.oOo.

"Declan, we're home," Emily called. The young boy ran to the door and threw his arms around Emily.

"Hey, buddy," she said softly.

"Hi…mom," he whispered. Emily smiled.

"How was your day with Uncle Derek?" she asked with a smile when he had let go of her.

"Good. He's sleeping on the couch," Declan said with a shrug. He skipped back into the living room, and resumed his place on the couch, and turned the tv back on.

"Derek," Emily whispered gently in his ear, "Wake up." She shook him gently. He didn't budge.

"Dec, get me a cup of ice?" Emily asked with a wink, and with those words, Derek woke and fell of the couch.

"No need! We're good," he said, his hands up in attack mode.

"Gonna beat up a pregnant lady? She gets grouchy," Riley warned as she walked through the living room with a wink.

"Believe me. I know," He said with a laugh.

"Declan did Derek feed you?" Emily said with a smile.

"Lunch. We had Mac n Cheese," he said grinning happily.

"Are you hungry for dinner now? It's 5:30," Emily told him.

"Ok! Can we get pizza?" He asked.

"Yes sir," Emily said, "But only if I get a hug," she said with her hands on her hips.

He hugged her tightly, "There we go," Emily said chuckling.

"Em, get off your feet, your 6 months pregnant, for Christ's sakes!" Derek said.

"Derek I'm fine!" Emily said stubbornly, but she was no match for Derek Morgan's stubbornness. He took her by the hand and led her to the couch.

"Cheese, Declan?" Derek asked.

"Yes!" He exclaimed.

"Em, any weird cravings for you?" Derek asked with a smile.

"Pickles?" She asked sheepishly, biting her lip.

"You got it," Derek nodded.

"Riles, can you show Derek where the take out menus are?" Emily asked. Riley nodded and led Derek into the kitchen, and found him a menu.

Derek dialed and was put on hold.

"So you and your mom all good again?" He asked, as Riley hopped up onto a stool at the counter.

"Yeah I guess so," Riley said shrugging, "LIke nothing ever happened."

"But something did happen," He reminded her.

"I know," She sighed, "But I want things to go back to normal. So I'll do whatever it takes. And if that means ignoring and forgetting everything that happened, then I'll do it," She said.

"Riley," he began, but was cut of by the pizza man on the other line. He sighed, and while he ordered, Riley left the room, to avoided more confrontation.

She just wanted life to go on, and she wanted to forget.

After dinner was over, Derek left. Emily put Declan to bed and then came into Riley's room. Riley was sitting quietly on her bed with the lights off.

"Hey," Emily whispered.

"Hi," Riley said quietly.

"You ok? You were really quiet at dinner…" Emily said.

"I'm fine. I'm just really tired," she said quietly.

"Alright well…I love you," Emily said.

"Night," Riley said. Emily stared at her for a moment, and then left. Riley fell asleep soon after that.

'As soon as she gives birth, she's dead…you know that right?' Ian told her, 'and so are you,' he said with a devilish grin. He came at her with a knife.

Riley shot up and her eyes flashed open. She was breathing heavily. She had been getting nightmares for the past few nights, but that by far hit too close to home.

"I just want to forget," she whimpered as she jumped out of her bed. She tiptoed down stairs, and into the kitchen. She flipped on a light and opened the cabinet with the liquor in it. She settled for a bottle of Jack Daniels. She pulled the scissors out of the drawer, and popped the bottle open.

She began sipping.

"I just want to forget it all," she cried to herself, as she sipped the bottle. She was sure she had gone through about half of it, though she couldn't tell, because everything was getting blurry. She looked down at her lap and saw the blood, and the scissors were at her side. She wasn't sure exactly when she had cut herself, but it didn't matter now.

She saw a flash. Someone flipped the light on. It was Declan.

"Declan, go away," she slurred.

"MOM!" Declan screamed and ran up the stairs.

"No Dec," Riley called weakly. Emily came down the stairs, as quick as she could and into the kitchen. Declan was crying.

"Jesus Christ, Riley, what did you do?" Emily exclaimed, tears beginning to pool, "Call 9-1-1, Dec," Emily commanded. She grabbed a kitchen towel, a knelt next to Riley, as she heard Declan talking in the background. She began putting pressure on Riley's wounds.

"Riley, what were you thinking?" Emily cried as she saw the half empty bottle of liquor next to the scissors, lying on its side.

"I just wanted to forget," she slurred, as her eyes started to close.

"God damnit, Riley, stay with me!" Emily exclaimed. She put more pressure on Riley's wrists, "no, no. I'm not going to lose you!"

"Stop mom," Riley begged, her eyes fluttering.

"NO RILEY!" Emily screamed.

.oOo.

a/n; cliiiiiif hanger. :) hope you liked. review