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"Emily!" JJ exclaimed and rushed into the waiting room of the hospital. Emily looked up and JJ saw that Emily's eyes were puffy and red rimmed from crying. Declan was sleeping on a row of chairs lined up. She rushed into Emily's arms, "Oh, honey," she murmured and took Emily into her own arms. Emily looked stoic, as if feeling any emotion was impossible at that point. Not in front of anyone, anyways.

"Shh, it's ok, Emmy," JJ murmured, petting her dark hair, and kissing the top of Emily's head.

"God, JJ, there was so much blood, and she drank half my bottle Jack. Whiskey, Jen!" Emily whispered, as to not wake Declan.

"Shh, I know. It's ok to cry, Em, especially in front of me. It's just me," JJ whispered, and then Emily cracked, and sobbed into JJ's chest.

"And poor Declan, he found her…. he looked….he was so scared. God, he shouldn't have seen that. His dad is gone, and now this. Fuck, Jay this is all my fault," Emily whispered.

"Stop it. Do not do that Emily Prentiss. This is not your fault," JJ said firmly. Emily shook her head and pulled away from JJ. She wiped her eyes furiously, until there were no tears visible.

"Hey," JJ said as she saw Hotch and Derek walk in the room.

"Emily, I need to talk to you," Derek said urgently. Emily bit her lip and nodded. She stood, and walked silently out into the hall.

"Em, it's about Riley," Derek said quietly.

"What…about her?" Emily said, her voice cracking. Then Derek recounted his earlier conversation with Riley.

"So you and your mom all good again?" He asked, as Riley hopped up onto a stool at the counter.

"Yeah I guess so," Riley said shrugging, "LIke nothing ever happened."

"But something did happen," He reminded her.

"I know," She sighed, "But I want things to go back to normal. So I'll do whatever it takes. And if that means ignoring and forgetting everything that happened, then I'll do it," She said.

"Em, I had no idea.." Derek began.

"Stop…it's my fault. Not yours. She was just trying to make it normal. And I did nothing to help her. God, I fucked up so bad," Emily curtly.

"Emily, if I had-" Derek began, but was cut off by JJ.

"Em, the doctor is here," JJ said. Emily nodded and left Derek in the hall way.

"Fuck," he muttered and punched a wall.

.oOo.

"Now we're going to keep her here for a while. She'll be on suicide watch, and when she heals up a bit more, we are going to have her talk to a therapist," The doctor explained.

"Fine, that's all fine. I just need to see her!" Emily muttered impatiently.

"I understand, Agent Prentiss, but right now, you need to understand, Riley is in a very fragile state and-" The doctor explained, but Emily cut him off.

"You think I don't know that my daughter is in a FRAGILE state? She tried to fucking kill herself! CLEARLY there's more to it then a FRAGILE state! God damnit I'm a profiler with the BEHAVIOR ANALYSIS UNIT! I know what a FRAGILE state is and I know what's worse! And right now-" Emily was now shouting at the doctor.

"Emily, stop!" JJ said grabbing onto her friend, who was now shaking as sobs wracked her body.

"Aaron," JJ motioned to him and he went out into the hall with the doctor, where they would finish talking.

"Where's Declan?" Emily asked after a few moments of crying.

"He's in the waiting room. C'mon," JJ said, leading Emily into the room. Declan moaned when he heard them come in. He sat up slowly, rubbing his eyes.

"Mom?" He asked, wide eyed with panic when he saw she was crying.

"C'mere, baby," she pleaded and she took him into her arms and held him tightly.

"I'm going to go see Hotch and the doctor. I'll be back, Em," JJ promised.

Emily nodded meekly, "tell him i'm sorry," she requested.

"I will. You're ok, Em," JJ said gently. Emily nodded and held Declan a little tighter as JJ walked away.

.oOo.

"So what you're saying is that this is Emily's fault?" Derek asked the doctor.

"No, not at all. I'm just saying, right now, Riley is blaming Emily…so I don't think Riley seeing her right now is the best idea," the doctor explained. "The therapist talked to her for a few minutes, and told me this, and this is what we think is best," The doctor said.

"Does she want to see any one?" JJ asked.

"She wants to see her brother, Declan," the doctor said.

"Is that a good idea? For Declan…he saw her first," Hotch explained.

"Yes, she told us. That's why she wants to see him," the doctor said nodding.

"To apologize?" Derek asked.

"Most likely," he said nodding.

"Ok," JJ said nodding, "I'll go get him." They watched JJ take a deep breathe and enter the waiting room. They saw from the window Emily's shocked and pained looked, and Declan's fear. Emily reluctantly let go of Declan's hand and he followed JJ into the hall.

"Declan, is it ok if we take you to see Declan?" A new woman asked. The therapist, JJ assumed. She had a sincere and kind face.

"Ok," he said quietly, "JJ," he whispered, "will you come with me?"

"I can walk you there, but Riley might not want to see me, bud," JJ whispered.

"Ok," he nodded. He took her hand and they walked to Riley's room.

.oOo.

"Riley, Declan's here," The therapist whispered.

"Riley, can JJ come in with me," Declan requested quietly. Riley pursed her lips, but nodded.

"Dec," she whispered, "c'mere," she begged. He nodded and let go of JJ's hand, and she leaned against the door frame. Declan walked to the side of Riley's bed, but kept a few inches from her.

"I'm sorry," he said quietly, not looking at her.

"Hey, this isn't your fault…it's all mine. I was being stupid and selfish. I'm sorry, that you had to see that," she told him. He nodded, but still didn't look at her.

"Hey, you don't have to be afraid of me or anything…It's just me," Riley whispered, tears forming. Declan cautiously lifted his arms, and when he received Riley's approval, he hugged her tightly, and cried a little. JJ's heart shattered when he heard the two crying together.

"He scared me too Riley…and I heard him hitting you one time," Declan whispered.

"Oh shit, bud, I'm so sorry you heard all that," Riley told him.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell, but I didn't want him to do worse…I went into the basement..and there were so many guns," Declan murmured.

"I know, buddy. I know," Riley said. She slid over in her bed, and allowed Declan to lie with her. The two of them held each other until Declan fell asleep, soon followed by Riley.

.oOo.

"Hey," JJ murmured walking into the waiting room, where Emily said quietly. She nodded, but said nothing.

"Declan's asleep with Riley," JJ said. Emily again nodded, but remained silent.

"Go home, now, Jennifer," Emily whispered. JJ bit her lip and nodded.

"No," she said firmly, "You're not gonna wall me up and compartmentalize. We are past that. We've been past that for years," JJ reminded her, "now tell me what's running through your head," she requested.

"Stop it. Go home and see Henry and Will," Emily said firmly.

"God damn, Emily! You stop!" JJ exclaimed, growing frustrated.

"I want you to take her! OK? There, I said it!" Emily cried out. JJ shrunk, at those words.

"What?" She asked, disgusted.

"It's not like I don't want her…I just…she hates me. She's disgusted just looking at me, and with this baby, I just feel….that for her sake, it would be better. That's probably what she wants," Emily whispered, brushing the tears away. Tears were forming in JJ's eyes, too.

"That's not what she wants at all. She just wants life to back to the way it was. With you, Emily," JJ whispered, "you."

"We'll talk to her about it later…" Emily said sadly, "I need some air," she said standing, and she walked out of the waiting room, past Derek and Hotch and down the hall, leaving JJ alone