A/N: I know I haven't quite explained Jade's reasoning, but trust me, it's coming up soon [ ;

It'll be a while before I update again. I have finals coming up and need to concentrate on them

Well, hope you enjoy!

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Jade's POV

"I don't hate you," Jade whispered. Long after the red head had run off the look she had stood in the empty classroom staring at the empty doorway. The way the brown eyes had looked at her when they heard the angry words was… it was… it just wasn't right. Cat had told her countless of times how much Tori cried over her. She had not once seen her cry after they broke up. Even on the day she showed up at her place, the girl remained intact. The moment the cry came from the door and the broken brown eyes met the startled blue, Jade knew she had crossed the line. It had been wrong of her to remind the girl of how she had been rejected. It had been so wrong. She had cursed herself the moment the words left her lips on the stage. It had been an acting exercise, but neither of them had been acting. She wanted to chase after Tori when she ran out of the class, but her pride had taken the best of her.

She didn't hate Tori. She couldn't. It had been said in the heat of the moment with Cat and now things had gone from bad to worse. Tori was the last person who should be hurting. Jade didn't mean those words. No she didn't. She had tried desperately to push away the girl, but no matter what she did, the feelings she kept repressing seemed to always try and resurface. She wanted nothing more than to take the girl in her arms and hold her. She wanted to tell her the truth, but it seemed like every time she wanted to give into her feelings the images of her broken hearted mother would pull her back.

Jade struggled with herself. She kicked a couple a chairs in the process before accepting what she had to do. Cat was right, she was the only one who could make things right. She ran along to try and catch up with the young Vega. Despite what she was trying to avoid, it was clear that Jade alone had done more damage to Tori than her father had done to her mother. She was done fighting. She couldn't stand to hurt Tori anymore. It wasn't going to be easy but she wasn't going to give up. Not after all the pain she had put the brunette through. She wanted to be a better person for Tori. As she approached the end of the hall she heard the two girls talking.
Jade had to bite her tongue when she heard the young Vega was leaving. She had really pushed it. What would she do with herself if Tori was no longer around? She listened to the angry cries of the red head and the numb words of the half-Latina. "…the girl I love hates me." Her voice was broken. Jade moved closer in time to see the tan girl's face contort in pain. "I just can't, Cat."

Jade shook her head angrily at herself for making the girl hurt so much. The pained forced smile struck Jade deeply. "I don't hate you," she spoke louder when brown eyes looked up at her.
Cat stared at her in disbelief before stepping aside to allow the dark haired girl access to the brunette. Tori blinked a couple of times. She fidgeted uncomfortably when Jade was close. "I don't hate you, Tori," she said again. Tori was refusing to meet her eyes now. She was wiping at her eyes furiously as she looked to the side.

"I'm sorry," she reached out to touch the girl's moist cheek. The girl tensed before relaxing and turning to look at her. How could she have been so cruel? How could she have hurt the girl so much?

The brown brows knitted together. "Y-You're sorry? Jade, I told you that I loved you and you threw it back in my face! You laughed at me and you said you ha-" her words were lost as she began to cry.

Jade took hold of the girl and hugged her as she cried. "I wanted to hate you! I wanted so much to hate you!" Tori cried. She tried to pull away from the pale girl, but Jade had a firm grip on her. "But I can't because I love you!"

The Goth could only nod as she swallowed a cry. She didn't know how to make this right. What could she possibly say to mend the girl she loved? Yes, she was finally admitting it. Jade West was in love with Tori Vega. "I'm so sorry, Tori. I never meant to hurt you like this."

The brunette pushed herself back from the Goth's hold. She looked at the pale. "I don't understand you. You've been so cold and so hurtful these last couple of weeks why does it suddenly matter to you that you've managed to make me cry once again? Why? Why now?" she cried.

"Because I love you!" Jade cried out. Tori blinked stunned. "I love you, Tori. And I can't handle hurting you any longer." Jade felt ashamed. She felt so stupid. Why would she believe her now?

"You sure have a rotten way of showing it," Tori sniffled.

Jade gave a small sad smile. "It wasn't my intention at all. I wanted to tell you after you said it but then my parents' relationship began to play in my head and I just couldn't stand the idea of you loving me one day and then one day having you hate me." It hadn't been the first time someone had told the Goth they loved her. Beck had told her he loved her. But it had been different with him. She had loved him, but she wasn't in lovewith him. That's what scared her. She was in love with Tori.

Tori stared in confusion. "What do your parents have to do with any of this?"

Jade searched in the brown eyes. Tori knew about Jade's parents and how they had divorced. The memory of her parents wasn't the best. She had been in middle school when they had finally decided to file the papers. All the happy memories she had once had of her parents had been thrown away in the ugly outcome of the divorce. Jade remembered hearing her mother cry herself to sleep every night for almost two years. They had once been so in love and now they looked at each other with pure loath.

Jade didn't want that. "Tori, I just couldn't bear with the idea of our relationship ending like my parents' did. They loved each other so much and now they can't even look each other in the eye. I couldn't bear with the idea of having you hate me after you loved me. I just figured it was best to have you hate me now before I did something stupid that would eventually make you hate me." She dropped her gaze. "I didn't want to break your heart like my father broke my mother's." She looked up with tearful eyes. It was too late though, she thought to herself. She hadbroken Tori's heart. "I'm so sorry. I didn't want to hurt you at all. I didn't want to..." She lost her words and shook her head dropping her gaze. Her hands rolled into tight fists at her side as she cursed herself. "That's no excuse for my behavior. I don't deserve your forgiveness, Tori. I know I don't. I'm such an awful person. I've managed to hurt the one person who means the world to me."

Tori remained silent. She clenched her jaw and sighed. "You're so stupid, Jade."

Jade flinched keeping her eyes down.

"You're stupid for thinking that I could ever hate you," Tori continued. "I know you. I know how you are. You have a mean side but you also have a deeper side of you. A happier side. And I know that is who you really are. I want you for who you are. I don't expect you to change and become Ms. Sunshine. I love you for who you are. You're nothing like your father. And you're right, you don't deserve my forgiveness."

Jade nodded.

"But I just can't see myself without you in my life," Tori gave a small smile when the blues eyes met the brown eyes. "I haven't forgiven you just yet, Jade. You really hurt me and I don't know how long it'll take to heal but if you're willing to give me some time maybe we can make this work."

Jade nodded. "I'll wait however long it takes." She tried not to show the hope she was feeling. She furrowed her brows in concern recalling the earlier conversation between the red head and the brunette. "But you said tomorrow was your last day." The blue eyes began to water. She blinked rapidly trying to keep herself composed.

Tori smiled. "You really think they'll think twice about letting me stay?"

Jade smirked. "Not even a doubt." She cupped the tan cheek and stepped closer. "I don't know what I would do if you weren't here," she whispered. She wanted so much to kiss the girl but she knew it wasn't right. Not yet. "I'm sorry," she whispered. She stroked the tan cheek wiping away the tears before leaning to kiss the cheek tenderly. "I'm so sorry."

A/N Well?

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For some reason I could hear Vulnerable by Secondhand Serenade every time I wrote Tori's POV

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