~ Can't Sleep ~

One Shot (Normal Inazuma Eleven Time)

Normal P.O.V.

''Coach Kudou? Where is coach Hibiki?'' Endou asked.

The whole Inazuma Japan team were gathering on the trainings field in front of the building they've all been before. (A/N: See Inazuma Eleven Episode 70 and further.) It was the building they weren't allowed to leave. They all had their individual rooms over there. Today, they were training for another upcoming tournament and they all gathered on the field in their soccer uniforms. Everybody was there, except coach Hibiki.

''He's picking up somebody.'' Coach Kudou replied.

''Really? Who?'' Midorikawa asked curious.

''A new member of the team.'' Coach Kudou replied.

Everybody started to talk excited to each other and coach Kudou asked for attention.

''However, this new team member has a story.'' He said.

Everybody stopped talking and faced coach Kudou.

''What do you mean, a story?'' Hiroto asked.

''Is the guy special or something?'' Kogure asked.

''First of all, it's not a guy.'' Coach Kudou said.

Everybody looked shocked.

''EEEHHH? It's a girl?'' They asked in union.

Coach Kudou nodded.

''Second fact is, she's not going to play immediately with us.'' He said.

''Why's that?'' Endou asked.

''What's the point of bringing her here then?'' Tobitaka asked.

Coach Kudou sighed.

''I will explain.'' He said.

Everybody looked curious.

''She's very shy and she won't talk a lot. And I already predict that she won't come near to you guys.'' He said.

Everybody looked confused.

''Huh? That's strange.'' Toramaru said.

''Is she traumatized or something?'' Fubuki asked.

''You could say that.'' Coach Kudou replied.

Everybody looked shocked by Fubuki's random guessing.

''What's going on?'' Tsunami asked again.

''She's indeed very traumatized.'' Coach Kudou continued with his story. ''She won't come near people and especially not near boys.''

''But if she's scared for boys, it's impossible for her to be with us on the field, right?'' Kidou asked.

''She won't even be able to play soccer.'' Goenji continued.

Coach Kudou nodded.

''It's a shame, because she's a really good soccer player. In fact, she could become the best player of the team here.'' He said.

Everybody gasped.

''Is she a forward?'' Kurimatsu asked curious.

Coach Kudou nodded.

''Yes. And she's really good. Maybe even better than Goenji.'' He replied.

Everybody gasped again, especially Goenji.

''No way…'' Endou said.

He smiled bright.

''I wanna meet her!'' He said.

''That won't be easy if she won't come near to boys.'' Kazemaru replied.

''But why's that?'' Tachimukai asked.

Coach Kudou sighed.

''When she was little, she's been raped by a big group of boys. Ever since then, she's scared for boys and she won't come near them. Since then, she became a really shy girl and she doesn't speak often. She always played in girls teams so far and she's really talented, but her trauma is growing too big now.'' Coach Kudou explained.

''Wow…'' The team said.

''That's awful…'' Kidou said compassionate.

''She must have had a hard time.'' Endou continued.

''Poor girl…'' Hijikata said with a sad undertone.

Even Fudou didn't say anything and his harsh personality dropped for a moment.

''So that's why she won't come near boys.'' Haruna said breathless.

''She's not scared around girls, is she?'' Aki asked.

Coach Kudou shook his head.

''No, so I guess she will be hanging around you guys a lot.'' He replied.

Fuyuka smiled.

''Let's make her a good friend of ours.'' She said to the two other girls.

They both smiled anime-style.

''Remember, when she's here, don't approach her suddenly and be careful with what you say. She's easily hurt.'' Coach Kudou said.

''Is she really worth all this trouble?'' Fudou asked.

''FUDOU! How can you say that! Of course she is!'' Haruna shouted angry.

Fudou flinched for a moment, making the rest of the group smile a bit.

''Let's give her a warm welcome!'' Aki smiled.

''YEAH!'' The team shouted.

At that point, a big, black, shiny car drove on the way near the field. Coach Hibiki stepped out on the front and opened the door next to him, so the person on the backseat could step out of it.

''Are you ready?'' Coach Hibiki asked the girl.

The girl didn't reply and looked scared because of Hibiki's presence.

''For the thousands time, I'm not gonna hurt you.'' Coach Hibiki said with a smile to her.

She hesitated for a moment, but stepped out of the car.

''There she is.'' Fuyuka said with a smile.

A pretty girl with waist-length, middle brown hair, a fair skin and big, innocent-looking, green eyes stepped out of the car. She walked behind Hibiki towards the soccer field. When they were a few feet away from the team, Hibiki stopped. The girl hid behind his back.

''Everybody, allow me to introduce you our newest member of the team, Izanami Chikara.'' He said with a smile.

The girl showed herself slowly and turned her gaze towards the ground. She didn't make attempts to speak, so Hibiki talked for her.

''She's thirteen years old and she's a forward.'' He said.

''Nice to meet you, Izanami-san.'' Coach Kudou greeted Chikara.

She looked up with a scared look in her eyes.

''He and I are the coach of this team.'' Coach Hibiki explained to her.

She gave a small nod. Coach Kudou nodded towards Endou and beckoned him to come closer. Endou came forward and smiled.

''Hi, I'm Endou Mamoru, the goalkeeper and captain of this team. Nice to meet you.'' He said, while he held out his hand.

Chikara flinched and backed away a bit. Endou looked a bit surprised. Chikara's eyes were big now.

''Don't worry, Chikara-san. He won't harm you. He never harmed anybody in his life.'' Fuyuka said to Chikara.

Chikara looked at her and smiled a bit. She felt comfortable around the purple-haired girl.

''Hi, I'm Kudou Fuyuka, the daughter of that coach.'' She said, while she smiled anime style and pointed at her father.

''Hi…'' Chikara said softly.

Everybody looked surprised. It was the first time they heard Chikara talking. She had a sweet, warm, high voice.

''Hi, I'm Aki!'' Aki introduced herself.

''And I'm Haruna. That's my brother.'' Haruna said happily.

Then, she pointed at Kidou. Chikara followed the finger and started at the goggled guy with the red cape. Strangely, she didn't felt scared. The goggled boy gave her a smile and Chikara smiled back. Coach Hibiki looked shocked at it.

''That's the first time she's been kind to a boy.'' He whispered towards Coach Kudou.

''Let's keep Kidou in the back of our heads for this situation.'' Coach Kudou whispered back.

Coach Hibiki nodded.

''We are the three managers of the soccer club.'' Aki told proudly towards Chikara.

She smiled happily.

''Would you like to watch the soccer practice?'' Haruna asked.

Chikara nodded.

''I would love to.'' She said.

Haruna smiled at her and slowly took her hand. Chikara gave a small gasp and pulled her hand back. Haruna looked shocked.

''Oh, I'm sorry! But I won't harm you, I promise!'' She said with a smile.

Slowly, Chikara gave her hand to Haruna and the blue-haired girl took it with care.

''This way.'' Haruna said with a warm voice, with gave a comfortable feeling towards Chikara.

She led her to the bench they used to watch the practice on.

''Here you have a good view on the field.'' Fuyuka said with a smile.

''We help the guys by filling their water bottles, prepare clean towels and of course, encourage them!'' Aki said enthusiastic.

''I see.'' Chikara replied shy.

She turned her gaze on the field and her eyes met once again with Kidou. Haruna noticed it.

''I don't look a lot like my brother, right?'' She asked with a smile.

Chikara looked at her and looked back at Kidou.

''No, not at all.'' She replied.

Haruna giggled.

''But believe it or not, we're full siblings.'' She said.

Chikara smiled too.

''What's his name?'' She asked.

''Kidou Yuuto.'' Haruna replied.

''Hmm… Kidou-kun, huh?'' Chikara asked.

Haruna smiled bright.

''Yes, that's right!'' She replied.

''Why is he wearing goggles and a cape?'' Chikara asked.

''Long story.'' Haruna said laughing.

They all watched soccer practice with a smile. A couple of days past and the four girls were at the soccer field again, watching the boys train. It was a bright, sunny day.

''Aahh! I love this weather!'' Haruna said, while she stretched herself out.

Fuyuka nodded too.

''Yeah, I love the sun.'' She replied.

Chikara just sat silent on the bench. She slept really bad and the other nights weren't comforting either. She kept having nightmares about the raping and that kind of stuff. She always had since the actual raping. And she was even more scared when she was alone. Normally, when she had a nightmare again, she used to sleep with somebody, who comforted her, so she could fall asleep peacefully with the thought of someone protecting her. But ever since she left the girls team, she had to say goodbye to the girl she trusted the most with sleeping. She sighed and glared at the field with a emotionless expression.

''Watch out!'' Aki suddenly shouted.

A ball whizzed into their direction. Chikara quickly jumped up and kicked it away with immense power. She sighed when the ball flew away.

''Close one.'' She said.

''Wow…'' The three managers said breathless.

The other members were glaring shocked too.

''What?'' Chikara asked nervously.

The blush on her cheeks, which is always there because of her shyness, increased.

''That shot…'' Haruna said.

''It looked so powerful.'' Aki continued.

''Sugoi…'' Fuyuka said.

Chikara blushed.

''That's just a normal shoot.'' She said.

''It was definitely not!'' Aki said.

''You're amazing!'' Haruna shouted out.

Chikara fell silent and sat embarrassed on the bench.

''I hate attention.'' She murmured.

''That was so cool!'' Endou said to her, while he approached her.

Chikara flinched and jumped up from her bench. She backed down.

''Don't worry, it'll be fine.'' He said.

He kept walking. Chikara's eyes turned big and tears formed into her eyes.

''No, don't come near!'' She shouted scared. ''PLEASE DON'T RAPE ME!''

She turned around and started to run away. Endou stopped and looked shocked.

''I'm sorry!'' He shouted, but Chikara already was away.

''I…I didn't mean to…'' Endou stammered at the managers.

''We know.'' Haruna said soft.

''You can't help it.'' Aki continued.

''Poor Chikara.'' Fuyuka said, while she looked at the building Chikara ran in.

Chikara's P.O.V.

I ran inside a bathroom and leaned with my back against the door, while I was still panting. Tears flowed over my cheeks. I didn't want to cry, I didn't want to be scared. But every boy that approached me automatically gains the face of one of the people who raped me. I sobbed and slowly let myself glide on the ground.

''Chikara-san?'' I recognized the voice of Fuyuka.

''Go away please.'' I said sobbing back.

''Please let me through.'' I heard Fuyuka say.

Somehow, I trusted her. I stood up and Fuyuka slowly opened the door. She had a worried expression.

''Chikara-san…'' She said compassionate.

I quickly embraced her and lay my head on her shoulder, while I started to cry again.

''I hate this…'' I said.

Fuyuka rubbed my back.

''Shh… It's okay. Nobody is going to rape you. You'll be fine, really.'' She said.

''I…I know. I know nobody's going to rape me. Bu-But… I stay scared every time.'' I said stammering.

''We're going to help you as much as we can.'' Fuyuka said with a smile.

''Really?'' I asked.

She nodded.

''Of course!'' She said with a smile.

New tears boiled up in my eyes, but this time of happiness.

''Thank you. You're all so kind to me, while the only thing I've been is a bother.'' I said.

''No… We all understand the situation you're in. We all want to help you.'' Fuyuka said.

''Th-Thanks…'' I said.

''Let's head back to the field.'' Fuyuka said with a smile.

I gave a nod and followed her out of the building. When we came outside, I saw that everybody was practicing further. Only the goggled boy, whose name was Kidou if I could remember, was staring concerned at me. I gave him a watery smile. He smiled back and it made me feel happy. I wiped away the last tears on my cheeks and took my place next to the managers. Haruna and Aki smiled at me.

''Are you feeling okay again?'' They asked.

I nodded.

''Yes, I feel fine now. Sorry for the commotion.'' I apologized myself.

''No worries!'' Aki said.

''We understand it.'' Haruna said with a smile.

''Thanks…'' I replied thankful with my well-known blush on my cheeks.

I focused my glare on the practice again and kept watching the boys until the coaches said that practice was over.

''Everybody, that was a great practice! You can all head towards the dressing rooms now.'' Coach Hibiki said.

All the boys left the field. Coach Kudou walked towards me.

''Are you all right?'' He asked.

I smiled a bit.

''Y-Yes.'' I replied.

The strange thing was, I was more scared for teen boys, than for adult men. And I already started to feel comfortable around Coach Kudou.

''Don't worry. I'm sure you'll get used to the presence of this boys. When you get to know them a bit, you'll see that they're really sweet.'' He said.

I just smiled again.

''I hope so…'' I replied shyly.

''Here!'' Coach Kudou suddenly said.

I looked at the package in his hands.

''What's that?'' I asked.

''That's your soccer uniform.'' He said with a smile.

I gasped.

''I'm still not ready to join practice!'' I said.

Coach Hibiki joined the conversation and smiled.

''We know. But you can already have it. Besides, you can train on your own, right? Or maybe one of the managers wants to help you sometimes.'' He said.

I smiled.

''Thanks.'' I said, while I bowed deep.

Two weeks passed and I trained most of the day on my own and sometimes, Fuyuka, Haruna or Aki would help me train. I still couldn't train on the same field as the boys, so I trained on the field who was at the other side of the building. Things went really well and I started to develop my soccer skills. One day, in the evening, we all went towards the dinner room to eat dinner. I sat with the three other girls around the table and glared scared around. All the other boys were sitting so close beside me, it made me feel uncomfortable. I shove my plate away from me and stood up.

''I'm not hungry.'' I said soft.

With mixed emotions, I left the dining room. Tears started to flow again, but now because I was angry at myself.

''You stupid person, why do you always have to act dramatic? Why can't you just normally socialize with everybody! Stop being a bother!'' I scolded at myself.

I walked past the hallway and at a certain point, I sat down on the ground with my back against the wall. I sighed, while I continued sobbing. I felt so depressed that I actually wanted to hurt myself. But I knew that wouldn't solve anything.

''Why don't I just leave this place? The soccer players don't need me. I'm only a bother.'' I said softly to myself.

I decided that it was better for me to leave, until I heard footsteps. I looked up with a scared expression. It was Kidou, the goggled guy.

''Hey.'' He said.

I crawled back with big eyes.

''Don't be scared.'' He said, while he kneeled down.

I was still a few feet away from him, but we were on the same height now. Somehow, his voice soothed me. He gave me a smile and stretched out his arms. In his hands, he held a bowl filled with rice. He also carried a pair of chopsticks.

''Here.'' He said.

I looked at the bowl.

''Is that… for me?'' I asked.

He nodded with a smile. Slowly, I crawled towards him and stopped with only one feet between us. I carefully tried to take the bowl over from him, but when my hands touched his, I quickly pulled them back with a scared expression. My eyes met his and through the glass, I could see how mesmerizing red they were. They stood sweet. My eyes went back to the bowl. I took it again and took the chopsticks.

''Th-Thanks.'' I replied.

I leaned with my back against the wall and Kidou did the same, with still one feet between us. I slowly eat the rice.

''I already thought you were hungry.'' Kidou said to me.

''Really? Why that?'' I asked.

''I saw you leave with a stressed expression. You didn't even touched your plate.'' He said.

''You noticed.'' I said shyly, while I focused my glare back on the ground.

I saw him nod out of my eye corners.

''Thanks again. This is really sweet.'' I said shy.

My blush grew once again. Kidou noticed it.

''Aren't you scared? Do I need to back away more?'' He asked.

I shook my head.

''Strangely… no. You don't.'' I replied.

I looked at him and I saw that he smiled once again. This probably was the first boy I've ever trusted since… My eyes watered again. What am I doing? Sitting so close to a boy? He only needs to stretch out his arms and he's able to touch me… I quickly stood up with a scared expression. The bowl with rice fell onto the ground. I stared scared into his eyes and then turned around and ran away again.

Normal P.O.V.

''Wow, what's going on?'' Kazemaru asked when he entered the hallway.

''Yeah, we heard some loud noises.'' Goenji continued.

The two walked towards Kidou, who was sitting shocked onto the ground and stared at the rice that was spilled on the ground.

''It went so well for a moment. But then, her trauma took over.'' He said.

''You sat next to her?'' Goenji asked shocked.

Kidou nodded.

''So, that means she trusts you a bit.'' Kazemaru nodded.

''I thought so too. But I guess it's all still a bit too early. It's only have been two weeks since she's here.'' He said.

''Sometimes, I hear her scream at night…'' Goenji says soft.

''I guess she has a lot of nightmares.'' Kazemaru replied.

Kidou just sighed.

''I wish I could help her, but I still don't figured out how.'' He said.

Goenji grinned.

''Come on, you're the greatest game strategist in the soccer world. You'll surely find a solution to this problem too.'' He said.

Kidou smiled at him.

''I'll go clean up this mess.'' He said.

Chikara's P.O.V.

I ran towards my room and locked it behind me. I let myself fall onto the bed and cried in my pillow. My thoughts went to Kidou. He was so sweet for me. I'm starting to trust him. But somehow, I always end up running away for boys. Even him. I felt so guilty. I really wanted to be happy and I really wanted to practice normally, but the fear always stayed inside of me.

''I HATE MYSELF!'' I shouted angrily, but the pillow muted my scream.

I sighed and rolled on my back. I stared at the ceiling and thought about the sleepless night that was lying in front of me. I already knew that nightmares would keep me awake. I wished that my best friend on the girls team was here, so I could sleep peacefully.

''Now I have to do everything alone…'' I said with a teary voice.

Tears rolled down my cheeks again.

''I hate to be alone…'' I whispered. ''Alone means you're weak and have no back up. People can easily grab you and do mean things to you…''

I sobbed.

''Don't leave me alone.'' I talked into the void.

I knew I was slowly turning mad. I threw my pillow against the wall.

''DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE!'' I shouted frustrated.

The tears doubled and the sobbing fastened.

''DON'T LEAVE ME FREAKING ALONE WHERE I CAN BE RAPED!'' I shouted.

I threw another pillow and started to turn insane. Then, I noticed the small glass shard on the desk in my room. I slowly rose up and took it into my hands. It felt sharp and a smile appeared on my face. I rolled up my left sleeve and stretched my left arm in front of me. I took the glass shard in my right hand.

''Sweet little precious girl needs to be punished for what she has done.'' I talked to myself.

I carefully putted the sharp point of the glass shard on the top of my underarm and putted pressure on it, while I dragged it down. A big, red stripe, mingled with blood appeared on my arm. I felt my skin burn, but I ignored it. Somehow, it felt good. I giggled. I finally found a way to punish myself for being a bother. I made another bloody line on my arm. And another. And another one. Soon, there were fifteen, deep, bloody cuts in my left underarm and I looked at it with a smile.

''That should do it for today.'' I said with a smile.

I cleaned the glass shard and hid it underneath my pillow. Then, I got dressed into my pajamas, turned off the lights and crawled into my bed.

''Good night, you dirty brat.'' I talked to myself with a smile, before closing my eyes.

A dream quickly appeared. I was sitting on a bench in the woods. Suddenly, a big group of boys appeared. I started to look scared and look to my left to find some help, but I noticed I was all alone. The boys grabbed me and started to slowly take off my clothes. I screamed, kicked and tried to break free, but it was helpless. I slowly was getting raped and I felt every inch of my body hurt. 'No!' I screamed in my dream. 'No!'

''NOOOOOOO!'' I shouted on the top of my voice.

Normal P.O.V.

Kidou lay on his bed with his glare focused on the sealing. He couldn't sleep. He was too busy thinking about a way to help Chikara. He sighed. It couldn't be helped. At that point, he heard the high-pitched scream. He knew Chikara was lying in the room next to him. He didn't hesitate and stepped out of his bed. He opened the door of his room, stepped outside in the hallway and opened Chikara's.

''CHIKARA!'' He shouted.

He saw her spacing out in her bed, while she kept screaming. Kidou ran towards her and shook her shoulders until she woke up. Her eyes were completely widened and teary.

''Chikara, it's okay. Don't worry!'' Kidou kept saying.

The only thing Chikara could do was crying.

''Shhh…'' Kidou said soothing to her.

Chikara stopped sobbing and kept looking with completely widened, teary eyes at Kidou.

''It's okay. You're safe.'' Kidou said with a warm voice.

''I'm not getting raped?'' Chikara asked with big eyes.

Kidou shook his head.

''Of course not. We'll all protect you.'' He said.

The word 'Protect' kept hanging around in Chikara's head.

''Protect…'' She said.

Kidou smiled and nodded. Chikara started to cry again.

''I don't want to be alone…'' She whispered. ''The dreams will come back. Somebody needs to protect me.''

Kidou smiled. He knew what he could do right now, but he didn't know for sure if it was okay with Chikara. He decided to ignore his doubts and to do it. He grabbed her left underarm.

''KYAA!'' Chikara shouted out of pain, while she winced and closed her eyes.

Kidou looked shocked. He let go off her arm and then noticed the fifteen bloody stripes on her arm. His eyes widened.

''Chikara… don't tell me you…'' He said shocked.

Chikara turned his gaze away from him. She was too embarrassed to face him now.

''I'm sorry…'' She whispered.

Kidou's desire to work out his plan only grew stronger. He knew this precious girl needed to be protected. He didn't hesitate anymore and slowly grabbed her left upper. He made sure that she needed to step out of her bed. Chikara looked shocked, but didn't pull back either. She stepped out of her bed and Kidou slowly pulled her arm, which indicated she had to follow him. They left Chikara's room and Kidou pulled her towards his room. Chikara's eyes widened and she tried to break out of Kidou's escape.

''NO!'' She said scared with widened eyes.

''Shhh….'' Kidou said. ''I'm not gonna rape you. I swear!''

Chikara stopped freaking out and looked with big eyes at him. Kidou just smiled. Chikara followed him into his room and Kidou pointed at his bed. Chikara looked confused at him.

''I need to…?'' She asked.

Kidou nodded. Chikara did what she was told and crawled into Kidou's bed. Kidou laid the blankets over her body and lay down on the bed too, only he lay on top of the blankets, so Chikara would feel more safe. Kidou pulled Chikara into an embrace and laid his chin on her head. Chikara laid her head on Kidou's chest and she heard his heartbeat, which soothed her. Kidou slowly stroked the back of her hair and kept doing that until he heard Chikara's regular breathing. He carefully let go off her and looked at her face. Her eyes were closed and a smile was on her lips, while she kept on breathing regularly. Kidou knew she was asleep. He slowly pulled her a bit closer and pressed a kiss on her forehead. He looked shocked when he found out that Chikara's eyes were opened now. He looked down at her with a blush. Chikara didn't looked scared at all. Instead, her smile increased.

''Thanks for protecting me.'' She whispered.

Kidou smiled at her.

''Girls like you just need to be protected.'' He said.

''I know, but I'm glad it's you who is protecting me.'' Chikara said.

Kidou glared at her and saw a giant blush on her cheeks.

''Chikara?'' Kidou asked.

''Yes?'' She replied.

''May I…'' He asked hesitating.

''Kiss me?'' She finished his sentence with a blush.

Kidou blushed heavily too.

''Yes.'' He said.

''Yes, you may.'' Chikara replied with a giant blush.

She closed her eyes and waited for Kidou to approach. Kidou cupped his hands around her face and leaned forwards. Then, he carefully and gently placed his lips on Chikara's and waited for a reaction to follow. But nothing happened. Instead, Chikara pulled him closer and deepened the kiss. Kidou looked surprised, but didn't back down either.

''I love you…'' Chikara whispered when she let go, while she buried her head in his chest again. ''Please protect me.''

''I love you too…'' Kidou whispered back. ''And I'll do anything to keep you safe, my precious girl.''

He carefully waited for her breathing to become regular again. After a while, he surely knew Chikara was asleep. He carefully pressed another kiss on her lips and then, he closed his eyes too. From now on, he had found a new goal. Protecting Chikara, his only concern at the moment.

~ End of Story! ~