Nothing But The Fire In My Heart

Chapter 1:

New Beginnings

Nothing can describe the pain I have endured. From the moment my first true love abandoned me,to the moment my life ended. It's been over fifty years since my life changed even more drastically then it normally was. This is what happens when you mix yourself up in the world of the supernatural. I should have known my life was going to end when I first found out the Cullens were vampires,but my heart was blinded by love. So I stayed in the life of on edge danger and near death experiences. How stupid was I?

Edward Cullen was his name. He was my knight in shining armor,with his bronze colored hair and golden eyes. He was perfect. I should have listened to Jacob when he told me Edward wasn't as perfect as I thought he was. But,of course,I didn't listen to a thing my friend said.

So when Edward took me into the woods to talk,I didn't expect what was about to happen. He told me he didn't love me,didn't want me,and didn't care about me. I was a pet to him. A toy for him to play with for when he was bored. He wanted to feel human for only a moment,and that's why he loured me in. Then,just like that,he threw me away to nothing.

For months,I moped around the house. I distanced myself from my friends and didn't talk to anyone. When Charlie threatened to ship me off to Renee's,I didn't care. I told him to go ahead and do it. See if I care. So,that's what Charlie did. It broke his heart more then it did mine for me to board that plane to Florida. I couldn't blame Charlie,I mean...who would want to be around me anyway? The Cullens abandoned me,now my own father was shooing me away to my moms. Ha! Like that would have done any better.

When Renee saw me walk off the terminal,her eyes teared up. "Oh,baby..."She whispered,walking over to me. She hugged me tightly and cried softly. "What happened to you?" I knew what she was referring to. My appearance looked worse then ever before. I had dark circles under my eyes from the nightmares I have been getting every night,my skin was paler then usual from my lack of out doors activities,and because I never really ate anything but a few bites of food,my weight had decreased drastically.

The months that followed only got worse. It was like a black hole was trying to swallow me whole from deep within my chest. Renee tried everything to cheer me up. She tried to get me to go out with some of the local kids around the neighborhood,only I refused and stayed inside. I think me telling her no was her breaking point. She had hoped I would get better being away from Forks,but it was only making things worse for me. So Renee did the only other thing possible...She put me in the looney bin hospital,saying she feared for my life.

I was in the hospital until I turned 20. That was when my life ended. I had a visitor,which was unusual since nobody ever came and saw me. Renee stopped visiting after she found out she was pregnant with another little girl. Lucky her...

I recognized the visitor instantly. Red,fiery hair that flowed beautifully everywhere around her head,making her red eyes pop out more threatening. She sat down opposite me and smiled with a smug expression on her face. I simply stared at her,not knowing what to say. So Victoria started first.

"So,this is where you've been hiding all this time. I must say,you were truly hard to detect once you left Forks."Victoria sat back and crossed her one leg over her other. A smirk formed on her perfect,pale face. "Do you want to get out of here?"She had asked. My first thought was she had to be playing a sick joke on me.

"What do you want Victoria?"I had asked in a whisper. I barely spoke within the last year of me staying in the hospital. After all,I was 'suicidal' and probably 'crazy'.

Victoria faked being hurt. "Bella,I'm shocked you would ask such a thing."She laughed and leaned forward,acting like she was having a private conversation with me. We both were well aware of the cameras that were instantly watching our every move,probably to make sure I caused Victoria no harm. Ha! If only they knew.

I leaned forward and narrowed my eyes at the woman in front of me. "We both know why you're here. You want to kill me. You want to end me. You want revenge for what Edward did to James. So excuse me for mistaking your kindness for a smart ass remark."

When Victoria laughed at my words,I jumped a little. She sat back in her chair and sighed. "I must say Bella,I see great promise in you."She said. "I'll tell you what." Victoria said,thinking some things over in her mind,I suppose. "I won't kill you. In fact,I'll free you from this place while I'm at it."She smirked. "And I'll offer you so much more then what this lousy life of yours can offer."

I don't know what it was about her offer I liked,but every part of my mind was telling me no. To stay in the safe haven of the white walls I now lived in 24/7. But my mouth answered something so very different then what I was thinking. "You'll turn me?" I should have known better.

Victoria gave me a creepy sincere smile. "Of course Bella. You'll be free of everything."

I should have said no. Should have declined. But how could I? Anything was better then living this life of pain. This life where the black hole was basically sucking the life out of me. But I couldn't help but ask, "What's the catch?"

Victoria simply shrugged. "A simple little request."I knew there was something she wanted in return if she didn't want me dead. "For you to serve me. Together we can reign against anyone who poses a threat to us. And if you refuse,I'll just leave you here in your cell to rot."

Right then and there I knew my life from now on was going to be living hell. She wanted me to obey her every command. To basically be her slave. But what could I do? I could either accept her offer or decline it. Either way there was a down side.

"Of course,if you accept it. You'll get freedom. You'll be able to do as you wish,when not following my little...'To Do' list."Victoria smirked.

"Fine."The words escaped my lips without a second thought. "I'll do anything you ask...just don't leave me here Victoria." I wanted the pain to stop. If I was a vampire,I may be able to keep the pain from over powering me,couldn't I?Like an on and off switch on a wall for a light. I'll just turn it off.

Victoria smiled. "Good choice Bella. Stay here. Grab anything you wish to keep. I'll get you some new clothes once I get you out of here."She looked up at the camera. "I know people in high places."She simply said,then left the room for me to ponder what I had just done. I just agreed to be Victoria's pet for Immortality. But I didn't care. I was a changed Isabella Swan. The worse thing that would happen is,I would die during the transformation or something. And death didn't seem so bad now that I went through this hell you call life.

That night,after the nurses went around giving out the sleeping pills to the patients,my door unlocked. I only decided to carry a picture of my family with me. Renee,Charlie and myself when I was a baby. I wanted to remember them for who they were. It was only fitting that it was the only thing I wanted to keep from my human life. Everything else could be replaced,but pictures held too much meaning to me to throw away. I folded the picture and placed it in my pant pocket.

Inside stepped a tall figure with dark brown hair,red eyes and a white lab coat. "Isabella."He nodded in my direction and scanned me over. I could basically feel his thirst radiate off of him. "Come with me."He turned and began to walk down the dense white hallway. I looked up above,at the ceiling,and noticed all the cameras were actually ripped from their stands. "Victoria asked me to get you to the hotel."

When we got to the hotel,Victoria was waiting for me. She changed me there. It's where I woke up to this new life I knew so much about from my previous boyfriend,Edward,and his family. My eyes were a deep,crimson red. My skin,pale as snow,but hard and cold like ice. My hair had grown to my waist,making it a more rich chocolate color. Victoria said I would be perfect to lour men in for her army that she planned to make. I didn't question it.

And that's how my new life started. For the last fifty years,I've loured men to Victoria,changed them,trained them,killed them,fed from them. She wanted men. Only men for some reason. She said it made her and I look superior. The only thing I didn't approve of,was Victoria gave rewards to the men who did the best for the week. The reward...was me. I had to endure so much with Victoria that I'm just sick of it. I've had enough. But Victoria trusts me more then she's ever trusted anyone.

I brushed out my hair with the brush Victoria had bought me years ago. The camps were set up just like they were in the military camps in the 1800 and 1900s. Red tents covered the forest in a hundred mile radius. Only Victoria and myself got our own tents. The boys had to share in groups of 7. If they can get along that is. For years, Victoria's asked me to stay close to the camp,in fear of losing me. She won't admit it,but she needs me to keep the camp running under control.

Victoria walked through the flaps of my tent with an envelope in hand. She watched me for a moment through my vanity mirror as I brushed out my hair. "Well you look as lovely as ever Isabella."I raised an eyebrow at her sudden compliment. I ditched the 'Bella' name when I turned into a vampire. Nobody dares call me that here in the camp for fear of me ripping a limb off their bodies. I wasn't one to mess with in the camp I grew to form basically on my own by Victoria's order.

"What do you want,Vicky?"I asked with a sigh. I pulled my hair half up with a clip and brushed out the hair that was still down my back. "It's surprising that you came to my tent. Normally you call one of your man whores to fetch me." I eyed the envelope in her hands,knowing she probably had my assignments inside.

Victoria walked over to the vanity and leaned against it. "I know,but I figured you'd like a visit from an old friend today. After all,where I'm sending you,you might actually enjoy it."She smirked and placed the envelope in front of me. "Consider this your...vacation from work."And with that,she left the tent. I put the brush down on the dark wooden vanity and picked up the envelope. Somehow,I knew this wasn't a good thing. Victoria visiting for a brief moment just proved the facts.

I slowly opened the seal and pulled out the papers. Inside was a one way ticket to...Forks. My heart instantly sank. She knew I dreaded that place. She knew I could never go back! I began to read the papers and frowned instantly. I was to start making her an army in the Seattle district. So much for vacation...

Forks...I wondered if people would recognize me? Mike,Angela...Jacob. Oh,how I missed his warm smiles that seemed to make me melt and feel safe. A smile formed on my own face just thinking about it. I already knew Charlie wouldn't be there living out his life like I had hoped. He died on duty about twenty years ago,only weeks away from retiring. I might visit his grave while I'm there...no harm in it.

I sighed and grabbed my bags. The papers said that Victoria bought a house on the outskirts of Forks for me to live in while I'm doing everything. For a nomad,she's pretty well off in the financial department. Probably from stealing the money from her victims. I looked at the mirror one last time and stared at my crimson eyes. Fifty years and my fears are still at the surface about returning 'home'.

And so,I began to pack my things for the trip back to Forks...where anything can happen.

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