Hey everybody, this is the final installment of the fic! I hope you have liked it. I have some other fics that I am working on/finishing that I will shamelessly encourage you to take a look at. I also have a twitter account if you want updates on my stories (since I am a notoriously long updater) or give me suggestions.
Anyway, here is the final installment. Hop you all enjoyed it and please, leave me a review!
Disclaimers: No mine, if it was, the show wouldn't have made Blaine and Kurt have a stupid thing happen.
Warnings: Angst, as always.
"We might not have it all together, but together we have it all."
~Unknown
He had done it. He had found the Whitney Houston song that said everything that he felt. Blaine was his everything, and he needed him to know that. Kurt had made a mistake, a huge mistake, but he also knew that the song was not enough. He was going to have to talk to Blaine. They both owed each other an apology for their respective actions in this.
Hopefully Blaine would forgive him, but by the subtle tears in his eyes, Kurt already had a feeling he would. There will probably have to be some groveling though.
The glee club began to file out of the choir room, congratulating Kurt on a job well done as they exited. He smiled at Joe as he placed a hand on his shoulder. "Good job, Kurt. It was perfect."
"Thanks," he said as the barefoot boy waved goodbye. He turned his attention back to the chairs on the risers, noticing only Blaine remained. He looked torn, as if he was questioning if staying back was a good idea. Kurt walked forward and stopped in front of the chairs in the first row. Blain turned his attention to Kurt who gave him a weak smile, but Blaine didn't return it.
"Kurt," started Blaine, his voice shaky. "I…"
"I'm so sorry, Blaine," said Kurt, knowing he needed to be the one who apologized first. He may have felt that Blaine had done the first wrong, but he knew he was the first retaliation. In other words, Kurt blamed Blaine for placing the boulder on top of the hill, but he knew he was the one who pushed it over the ledge. "I shouldn't have started texting Chandler, even if I did feel like you were pulling away. It was wrong and I promise it will never happen again."
"I…I'm sorry too, Kurt," said Blaine, remaining in his seat but looking straight into Kurt's eyes. Tears had begun to form in both of the young men's eyes as the seriousness of the situation began to sink in. This was their turning point. "I was so angry, the only way I could think of getting it out was to sing."
"That's how you express yourself," said Kurt. "I know that about you."
"But I shouldn't have sung that song in front of the glee club. Like you said, they aren't the Warblers and it didn't say what really happened. I'm sorry I made people think you were seeing someone else, but I won't apologize for being mad, Kurt. You can't be angry at me for that," said Blaine, an angry edge in his voice.
"I'm not mad because you're upset with me," said Kurt consciously keeping the edge out of his own voice. "You have every right to be mad about what happened. I'm upset that you don't see the parallel between what happened with you and Sebastian and what happened between Chandler and I."
"And I am upset because you don't see the difference," said Blaine, finally standing. "You never saw the messages between Sebastian and I."
"I'm not trying to make this a competition of whose text messages were worse, Blaine," said Kurt, hearing the edge in his voice beginning to come out. He took a second to pull himself back in before continuing. "I'm just saying that when I told you that it bothered me that you texted Sebastian, you didn't stop and said it was no big deal. I do the same thing and you it's wrong. I'm not saying that what I did was okay because you did something similar. What I did was stupid, end of story, but I just don't appreciate the dual standards."
"I didn't respond to Sebastian's flirty messages other than to tell him that I was dating you and nothing was going to change that," said Blaine stepping down to be on the same level as Kurt. "But I can see where you're coming from."
"I want you to know, though, that I know that what happened between you and Sebastian doesn't make what I did more or less acceptable."
"No it doesn't," said Blaine plainly, "but I can see how my reaction upset you in lieu of it."
"I still don't think you should have sung that song though Blaine," said Kurt, his voice a little harder. "We should have worked out our problem between us and looked for outside help if we needed it. I didn't appreciate you getting the whole glee club involved, especially after what happened with Sam at the end of last year."
"I see that now too, but it was the only way I could think of getting it out so I didn't explode. Believe it or not, I thought it would be better to let my anger out in the song before I talked to you so I wouldn't lash out too harshly when we tried to work this out. I didn't want to lose you over this, but what you did was bad, Kurt. It's not right."
"It wasn't right," said Kurt, his voice shaking, "but we'll work through this. Nothing can break what we have, remember? We will be okay."
"I just wish you would have told me you were unhappy," said Blaine, placing his hand on Kurt's upper arm.
"I know, I should have come to you" said Kurt, taking in the comfort that Blaine was giving him. He knew he was about to say something that may upset his boyfriend and he was worried it would start a whole new argument. He steeled himself and remembered what they had agreed on: a relationship based on honesty. So it was time to be honest despite the fear in his heart. "But you were pulling away and… and I was scared if I said something…" He couldn't even finish the thought. He knew how close it had come to being a reality even if the catalyst wasn't what Kurt had expected.
"You were scared I would leave?" asked Blaine a little put off. Kurt was a little taken aback when Blaine removed his hand.
"I know you wouldn't, but I also never thought you would pull away from me either," he said no longer able to look the gelled man in the face. "I thought maybe if I got some kind words from someone else, maybe I could make it through this slump with you without pushing you farther away. I swear, Blaine, I never planned on ever meeting up with him. He just… He said nice things to me."
The tears began to cascade down Kurt's face and he felt Blaine pull him into a tight embrace. "Shhh, Kurt. It's okay," said Blaine.
Kurt wrapped his arms around Blaine and held him tight, afraid that if he loosened his grip even a little bit, that he would slip away. "No it's not. We need to fix this. I don't want to lose you!"
"I don't want to lose you either," said Blaine, his voice thick as tears began falling down his cheeks as well. "I'm not going to lie, Kurt. I'm still mad about what you did. It's gonna take a little while to get back to where we were, but we are going to fix this. I promise."
Kurt gently pulled away from Blaine and backed up a couple steps. He still didn't feel he had the right to hold Blaine like that, not after what had happened. He needed to earn that back. Kurt say Blaine scratch the back of his head, obviously thinking the same thing about himself. "I set something up with Ms. Pillsbury. Will…will you come with me?"
"Yeah, let's go." The two boys walked side by side down the hall, neither getting too close to the other, ashamed of their own actions and upset by the other's. Their problems were not yet fixed. They were not right at the moment, but in time, they'd be okay.
So there it is! It took everything I had not to make this too long. When I make long chapters, my updates take much longer. Anyway, I hope you all enjoyed it. Thank you to everyone who gave me feedback, whether it wa encouragement, constructive criticism or a combination of that. I use reviews to make my writing better, so thanks to everyone! Shoot me a review and let me know how I did.
