A/N- Okay so I was bored and felt the urge to update yet again! :D there will probably only be another few more chapters until this story come to an end :( but i promise to make it a really good ending :O also if i make any spelling or grammar errors please just ignore that and I use this site to practice my language and writing skills and also for my own creative-ness ;D I plan to write more detailed and emotional, and if my constant reference to alexs greif annoys you, im sorry, im just making the story as emotionally real as possible. Thanks to all that review, i really appreciate it, and you are the reason I continue to update! :) so please just drop a review everyone when you read an update, it only takes a minute to give your feedback! 3

I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE SILENT HILL'S.

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Noone Loves You.

The Shepherd rose slowly from his seat, knowing all too well what he was about to cop.
He stepped quietly down the stairs, his father awaited him at the bottom, his expression alone warned Alex of what was to come.

"I just spoke to Margaret Holloway. She told me that you were at the lake earlier engaging in some rather strange behaviour."

Alex kept still at the bottom of the stairs, he didn't want to appear weak infront of his father anymore. He wanted be strong, like the soldier daddy had always wanted him to be.

"She doesn't know what she's talking about..."
Adam scoffed. "I'm tired of all this crap, Alex, start explaining."
"I can't-"
"Adam don't barate him like this, please give him time!" Lillian interveined, her eyes staring into her sons. Alex was utterly suprised at his mothers sudden defense for him, his whole life he had always felt unloved, he wanted nothing more than to be hugged by his mother the way Joshua had his whole life. Sometimes when Alex was a child, he would sit alone on the swing set in the backyard and sob, he told no one, not even Joshua.

"Lillian, stay out of this!" Adam snapped, causing the woman to look down at the ground and step back.

Alex looked his mother, he could see the compassion she held within her heart, and for that he was grateful.
Adam urged his son further. "Well?"

He swallowed before responding. "I went to the lake...for Joshua."
Adam glared at him for a moment, as he was trying to process what had just been said. Alex looked over at Lillian; her eyes welling with years worth of unshed tears.

"Why must you continue to burden us like this Alex?" Adam sighed.
"It was bad enough you killed Joshua, and now I can't even leave you alone for five minutes because you can't be trusted by yourself!"

Alex felt his hands begin to shake, he realised how deeply he had hurt his parents, and there was no changing it.

"You just give me no choice..." Adam trailed off.
Lillian's eyes widened slightly. "No! I won't let you. I've already lost one son, I refuse to lose another!"
Alex felt slightly lost at this point, the conversation had somewhat drifted off to a topic that he was rather unaware of.

"He's no good here Lillian, he's a bad seed." Adam continued much to his wifes dismay.
She gasped. "Don't say that! You may not want to help him, but I do, and sending him away again will only tear us all apart even more!"

Alex started to make sense of the conversation now, his father was planning to send him away to the Psychiatric Hospital again.

"Mom, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for everything I've done, for what I did to Josh. I only hope you can forgive me..."

He could see his mother and father staring at him. He couldn't go away again, he needed to leave this house, and try to fix some of this.

"Alex wait." Lillian pleaded quietly as her son quickly exited the front door of the house.
Adam tried to chase after him, but Alex was too quick, and soon the young Shepherd found himself running through the woods surrounding Toluca Lake.

Eventually Alex stopped to catch his breath. He hadn't focused on where he was running, he just wanted to escape and ensure he was not taken away again. He noticed that he was not in the usual half of the woods he and Joshua used to play in frequently, this part was darker and there were strange symbols calved into the trunks of numerous trees. Alex kept walking through the woods slowly but came to a stop when he noticed a building in the distance.

Alex sprinted over to the structure and noticed how it resembled a small church.
It took quite a bit of effort to open the heavy entrance door, but finally Alex was able to push the rusted slab open.
The spacious room was light purely by candle light, large shadows cast themselves in various areas of the chapel, giving a haunting sort of effect.
He let his eyes wander around the sacred space, his mind in awe of the large crimson coloured curtains that hung from the walls, and a large gold organ at the very front wall; it's pipes so high they could touch the heavens and sing to the Gods.
Alex had never considered himself religious, but he was not one to say he didn't believe. After his various visits from his deceased brother, he was now frankly open to any kind of paranormal.
Alex walked up the isle in the middle of the Chapel, the only sound audible was his boots tapping on the wooden flooring. The teen noticed a table at the end of the isle, it had that same book Margaret was holding earlier that morning. Carefully he picked the book up, his fingers traced lightly over the ornate edging. The cover was rather bare, aside from the gold trimmings there were no images, just the title written in gold which read: The Order.

Alex flicked quickly throught he book, he noted the various images of demonic creatures, and a particular picture which seemed to stand out of a girl holding a baby with dead children laid all around her feet. There was a caption under the image which said:

The Lord shall always be appeased for she needs our children in order to deliver paradise.

A feeling of ice shot through Alex's gut as he read the caption. He shut the book and placed it back on the table, becoming increasingly uneasy in this strange chapel.
Alex turned and prepared to exit the small building.

"Leaving so soon?" A girls voice called from beneath the shadows.
The Shepherd looked around warily for the source of the voice. "Who are you?"

"I would like to think you would remeber someone as unique as myself." Alessa stated while stepping out from the shadow casted by one of the large curtains.

Her blood caked face and chalk white skin made Alex shudder.
"I never thought I'd be so glad to see you..." Alex sighed.

The child tilted her head slightly. "And why is that?"
"I need a second chance to get Josh back, would you allow that?"

Alex watched as the short girl pondered for a moment.
"I will need some time to consider this, but for now I have other plans for you." Alessa said lowly as she slowly stepped toward the brown haired youth.

He wasn't sure what she was going to do, but instead of backing away and showing fear, Alex stood his ground and watched as the child laced her deathly cold arms around his waist.

Alex remained rigid as the demon child appeared to be embracing him. Without warning he felt as though all warmth had been sucked out of his body, he watched as the child seemed to almost melt away into his body, quickly merging into one.

Alex began coughing uncontrollably. He could not comprehend what had just happened. The little girl had somehow merged her body into his; he was in pure shock.

Slowly he made his way out of the Church. He was about to shut the door behind him when he was met with a 44. Magnum staring him right in the face.

"Hold it right there, Shepherd." Curtis Ackers order calmly whilst pointing the gun directly at a very disorented Alex.

"Are you planning to take me to my Dad?"

Alex watched as Curtis lowered the gun and smiled darkly.
"I always knew you were a royal fuck up, kid. And now I want to help the Order fix all of the town's mistakes."

Before Alex could respond Curtis grabbed a pair of handcuffs he had in his back pocket, and forced the younger male to turn around and allow his hands to be secured in the cuffs.

Alex knew he would have to comply, it would either be that or he would be shot dead on the spot. He couldn't die, atleast not yet, not until he got Josh back. Curtis then quickly led Alex up to his rusty old red truck.

Once they were both inside the middle aged man then began driving. The two were silent. Alex couldn't help but stare out the window and watch the blur of green as the truck passed row after row of trees.

Alex soon realised where he was being taken, this area of the woods was all too familiar.

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A/N- okay so im trying to stretch this as far as i can now haha but next chapter will most likely be the last :'( BUT I have an AMAZING ending planned for you guys, and it will be a long update too! :) i was nearly going to write more in this update but i dont want to give too much away for the next chapter. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW! since the story is so close to coming to an end i would really like some more reviews, mainly because im concerned that there arent many reader anymore :/ and im not sure what you are all thinking at this point, but thanks heaps to all that do take the time to review 3