I'd like to thank Hydrostatic for pointing out a few loose ends in my fic ^^;

Sort of pathetic for me to not notice, but still~

Can't let a story stay unfinished, can I ?

10.

Allen was gone when I awoke the next morning, though I somehow couldn't bring myself to worry about it. I'd slept in, like normal which probably meant that the bottomless pit couldn't contain his growling stomach anymore and went down to satisfy it. The emptiness of the room left me stretching out in the bed, and letting out a large, satisfied yawn. I didn't understand how I could be tired so often, especially when I slept as much as I did.

There wasn't much to do in my room, I'll admit – so after showering I decided to venture down to the dining hall where I knew Allen would be. It was about time for lunch now, so the cafeteria was packed. Finders and exorcists alike inhabited the room, filling it with chatter and uproarious laughter. I swiveled my head around, trying to stop Allen's white haired self, but wasn't able to make him out anywhere. I took note of the tall, lanky looking man standing at the counter that I identified as Krory. I jogged up to him, and patted him on the back softly, so as not to frighten the timid, strange man.

"Hey, Krory. What's up, have you seen Allen around?"

Krory turned away from the window, and smiled weakly at me.

"Hi Lavi, haven't seen much of you lately."

"The old panda has me working to the bone shelving books! Anyways, Allen?"

I responded, hoping to keep him on track of where I wished for the conversation to lead.

"Oh, Allen? I haven't really seen him. Maybe if you were to ask…Kanda? He's been in here longer than I have."
I thanked him, and quickly set off to find Yuu in this mess of people. I must have searched every single table before I finally found him, sandwiched between two finders and looking very agitated as always. I pressed my hands on to his shoulders, and it was almost as if hatred seeped out of his clothing.

"Hey, Yuu."

I smiled nervously, sticking my face close to his. A slight growl was audible, emitting from his throat.

"What do you want?"

"Well, I was wondering if you'd seen Allen anywhere? He's nowhere to be seen."

I farced a fake look of over dramatic concern, and he grimaced, standing up and walking away with his tray still full of food. I hurried after him, stumbling over my own two feet.

"Stop following me. He isn't with me, that stupid bean sprout left the dining hall with Lenalee a while ago."

Just the mention of her name was enough to send my day soaring from great to horrible in a matter of seconds. I didn't bother thanking Kanda, because he wasn't all that helpful in the first place. I decided to wander around, in hopes to find them. Though, what I was likely to find frightened me. What if last night didn't really mean anything, it could have just been a moment of weakness for Allen. Well if it was, he certainly got what he had wanted…

I heard it;

The laugh that never ceased to make my blood boil. I marched around the corner to find her entangled around Allen, who was leaning against the wall. She seemed all too happy to be pressed tightly against him, and he couldn't have been more pleased. I had to furrow my brows in confusion, because I wasn't entirely too sure as to what was going on here. As Allen leaned forward and planted a soft kiss on her lips, I was pretty sure I got the message.

I didn't bother to state my presence, but rather high tailed it back to my bedroom. I planned to sulk the entire night, and not do much of anything else. Obviously, Bookman had other plans for me. Just as I was approaching my door, I found the old geezer planted against the wall, waiting for my arrival. I wasn't sure how to evade him, seeing as how the hallway was just straight. I stood there at first, not moving, and trying to be as silent as I possibly could. He didn't take notice of me, so I reversed, and quickly fled from the hallway.

There was no way in hell that I'd be shelving books for him today, especially after what I had just been forced to watch. I say forced, but it wasn't necessarily forced on to me, was it? It was more like I knew what was going to happen, but still needed to verify with my own eyes. I needed to know that Allen didn't mean what he did last night. That he wasn't going to be true to me. I couldn't really blame him though, I felt like an idiot for believing that what happened last night was true.

Yet I still had trouble getting those lips, and those eyes out of my mind. He felt so perfect, and his gaze was so real…perhaps what happened was all a lie? Maybe he didn't mean it at all. I suppose that's how it's supposed to go though, I'm a future bookman. I'm not supposed to partake in relationships. It was foolish to even get close to Allen as I had, considering him my friend. It would likely be best if I were to just cut all losses, and give up on him all together. But that just wasn't like me; I couldn't give up on something that I truly wanted with all my soul.

I decided to stake out Allen's room; since the position at mine was already taken. It was silent in the order today, which was a major change for once. So when I heard the footsteps approaching, I nearly fell over due to the shock. They were loud in comparison to the silence.

"Lavi, what are you doing sitting outside my room…?"

I didn't think I'd be able to bring myself to meet his curious gaze, because all I could feel was the ultimate betrayal. I'd only just settled on denying myself of feelings and shutting everyone out as I should have done in the first place, but seeing his face set me straight back to square one.

"Um, I was waiting for you. Allen, we need to talk."

Allen's face fell slightly, as he opened the door to his room. I followed him in, before taking a seat on his bed. He stood in front of me, and I still refused to lock eyes. My fingers traced small designs in the material of the bed, and trying to take my mind off of the awkward situation I'd been thrust in to.

"Are you going to tell me what's wrong? Lavi, you seem really down."

I slammed my fist in to the mattress, and finally met his gaze. His eyes were wide, and obviously clueless.

"Allen. Last night – er what happened… didn't it sort of mean something to you?"

Allen was quiet for a minute, before taking a seat next to me on the bed.

"Lavi, I have no idea what you're talking about. I was here last night… I don't remember doing anything particularly important."

Anger seemed to course through me the instant that those words left his lips. I turned abruptly; facing him, I took a tight grip on his shoulders and forced him down to the mattress.

"Stop playing around Allen. This isn't a joke. Last night. You know what happened!"

Allen struggled with the grip I had on him, it was evident that he was trying to break free. The worst part was he looked extremely uncomfortable.

"Lavi, I'm not joking at all. Honestly, I was here all night."

"You got to be KIDDING me."

I growled, before swooping down and capturing his lips in a rough kiss. It was as if I were taking out my anger in this physical act. Though, this time Allen's lips didn't move against mine. They were timid and frozen in place, until he began to struggle. His mouth opened trying to gasp for air, I quickly took the advantage I had and slipped my tongue inside his mouth. It was as if I were caught off guard though, because his hands that were against my chest shoved me roughly off him. So rough in fact that I'd lost my balance and fell completely off the bed.

"What's your problem Lavi?"

He cried, panting loudly on the bed. I sat up on the hard ground, glaring at him through the dizzy haze.

"No Allen; what's your problem? Why were you kissing Lenalee?"

Allen moved to the edge of the bed, and rubbed his neck – refusing to look at me.

"Look Lavi, that isn't really your business, but we're kind of a thing. I think you're just very confused. Maybe you should get some rest."

I didn't bother to look back at him when I left. He was trying to make me believe that last night never happened? If he wanted to deny that anything had ever happened between us, why would he have done it in the first place? There was no use asking myself; and asking Allen would only result in more denial. I didn't have much of a choice in the matter.

I'd have to forget.

okay, so I'm not sure if this chapter will make much sense.

But I'm continuing. Lol.

I hope you guys don't mind. ^^;