Kurt was sitting in the Glee-club Wednesday, as Will walked in and smiled at them all.
„So Glee-clubbers!" He said and smacked his hands together. Blaine stood up, as Will was about to continue.
„Mr. Schue?" He said and walked up to him. „I'll be singing Cough Syrup, remember?" Will smiled at him and put a hand on his shoulder.
„Of course." He removed his hand and walked over to the others, sat down on a chair and made a sign to Blaine to tell him to start. Blaine turned to the 'band' and nodded and smiled at them before they started playing.
10 seconds or so went by with only music playing, and the second the first sentence left Blaine's lips Kurt felt spellbound. Kurt sat looking fascinated at Blaine, listening to his beautiful and soft voice, singing this song. Blaine had pulled Tina up from her seat, and soon other joined them, dancing. Kurt kept sitting on his seat with Santana to his left. They were the only two who didn't join the group and started dancing. Even Puck, Mike and Sam did. Kurt was looking at Mike dancing as he realised how good a dancer he actually was. He looked at Blaine as the song stopped, and couldn't help but smile. Will stood up while clapping, and patting some of the members on the back, as they walked back to their seat. Blaine sat down in front of Kurt, and Kurt watched him as he laughed at something Rory had just said. He could see that he was full of energy from the performance, and Kurt wanted to say something to him, or hug him or something as simple as that, but instead he just kept sitting there looking at Blaine's dark messy, curly hair.
As the class was over Kurt stood up and walked down to Blaine.
„So what did you think?" Blaine asked and smiled expectantly at Kurt.
„I loved it." Kurt said and they started walking out of the room. „I had no idea you had such a great voice."
„Thanks!" Blaine said and laughed. „You should sing some day too." He said and opened the door for Kurt who made a stifled chuckle.
„I don't think so."
„Why not? You have a voice like no other."
„I don't think it's a good idea." He said and smiled nervously at Blaine. „Besides I wouldn't know what to sing…"
„Just pick something." Blaine said put his hands in his pockets. „Your favourite song. Come on, you'd be great!" Kurt sighed and shook his head.
„I don't know, Blaine…"
„Think about it..." Blaine said. Kurt nodded slowly and remembered the few days he had sung at Cheerio practice. That had gone well, and people had complimented him afterwards. But it was different in Glee Club somehow. Blaine looked down in the ground as they walked through the front door. „Speaking of thinking…" He quickly looked up and looked warily at Kurt. „Are you planning on telling me how you became the head cheerleader anytime soon?" Kurt scoffed and looked away.
„What does that have to do with thinking?" He asked, trying to avoid the question.
„Are you?" Blaine asked again.
„I don't get why you want to know so badly." Kurt said and tried in his head desperately to find some other reason he could tell, instead of the actual one. I've already tried with the practice-harder-reason. He thought and barely heard what Blaine said.
„Well it's obviously something about me." I need to say something else. But apparently I'm an "awful liar"... Kurt shrugged and felt his mouth getting dry as he considered telling the truth.
„Why won't you just let it go?" Kurt said and chuckled calmly.
„Why won't you just tell me?" Blaine said. „There must be a reason."
„Because…" Kurt started. He sighed deeply and ran his hand through his hair. „I don't want to." He laughed nervously before looking cagy at Blaine. „You will just get… Mad or something." He looked at Blaine who looked really concentrated.
Blaine thought every thing it could be through, before talking again.
„When did she offer the spot?" He asked, and watched as Kurt began to look more and more frustrated.
„I don't know. A month ago?" it was obvious Kurt regretted saying that. He looked at Blaine in a way as if he was hoping he hadn't heard it. A month? Blaine thought and closed his eyes for a few seconds while all the pieces started to fall into place.
„Tell me the truth now, or you'll just make it worse." Blaine said emotionless. Kurt took a deep breath, and wrinkled his eyebrows.
„Well… Remember that day you were watching the Cheerios practice?" Blaine nodded, then shook his head.
„I've watched them a lot of times." Kurt saw and grabbed his chance of changing the subject for a while.
„I know, I noticed. How come?" Kurt asked and continued, as Blaine didn't answer. „I mean, I wouldn't mind now, but back then I found it quite… Odd."
„Why?" Blaine asked.
„Well you always sat with your notepad, and us doing our routines and Coach Sylvester shouting isn't exactly the best thing to help concentrate." He said and smiled. Blaine looked down in the ground while chuckling.
„You know, Kurt…" He looked up, still avoiding eye contact as he continued. „I used to have a huge crush on you." Kurt failed to hold back a smile as he answered.
„Really?" Blaine nodded, slightly blushing. „So that's why you were watching us practice so much?" Blaine nodded again.
„I hated it, because of you being popular and throwing slushies at pretty much all of us every week. I had to pretend to hate you all the time." Blaine felt surprisingly good by saying this, after all that time he had held it as a secret.
„Why didn't you want to talk to me at first, then?" Kurt asked, still smiling. Blaine shrugged.
„As I said, I had to pretend to hate you. Plus I couldn't help but think you had some sort of evil plan by doing it, I mean why would you talk to me?" He looked as if he had just remembered something, and he quickly continued saying: „By the way… Why did you start talking to me? I know I've asked before… But I would really like an answer." He sounded genuinely upset, and Kurt had a big inner fight with himself before deciding to tell the truth.
„Ehm, well… At one of the Cheerio practices, I asked Quinn what I had to do, to get the spot as head cheerleader." He cleared his throat before continuing. „And I remember… Her looking at you and… Asking me if I knew who you was." His answer from back then went through his head „That's Blaine. The biggest nerd of all times." „And I told her I did, and she said I had to…" „Get him in bed." Quinn's voice said in his head as he kept talking. „Date you."
Blaine felt more and more despondent as Kurt kept talking.
„So really, the only reason you started talking to me was because you wanted to be head cheerleader?" Blaine said, and sounded like he didn't believe it. Kurt nodded.
„But hey, see where it's brought us." He was about to take one of Blaine's hands as he put them back in his pockets. „Look, Blaine I'm sorry. But just forget about it, it's all turned out good."
„I guess I should've thought of that before." Blaine said quiet, more to himself than to Kurt.
„Thought of what?" Kurt asked.
„I mean… Who was I to believe that you did it because you actually wanted to?" He scoffed and shook his head. „For how long did you pretend to like me?" He asked and went more serious as he didn't get an answer. „For how long?"
„I don't know." Wrong answer. A voice in Kurt's head said to him. „Not for long! Only a few days!" Blaine took a shaky breath and took a step back.
„Right…"
„Blaine, don't think so much of it. I'm with you now, aren't I? And not because I have to, but because I want to!" Blaine stared out in the air and Kurt wasn't even sure he had just heard what he said. Blaine felt the dejection tighten its grip around him as he thought of all the things Kurt had said, the things they had done together. How much of it had been pretending? Our first kiss. Blaine thought and looked at Kurt in despair.
Kurt felt like Blaine's look was burning him up from the inside and out. He didn't know what to say. Neither of them did. They just stood there looking at each other.
„Kurt I…" Blaine started, but didn't get to finish the sentence.
„Look Blaine. I love you." Kurt said.
„Really?" Blaine said doubtfully. „Because I don't know if it's the truth."
„Why would I tell you if I didn't? I got the spot. I have no reason to still be with you, if I didn't want to." Kurt said, feeling slightly annoyed by Blaine.
„I don't know." Blaine said.
„Maybe you should just…" Kurt said and put his hand on his forehead. „Go home and think it through. It's really not as bad as you think it is." They looked at each other for a moment before Blaine shook his head and turned around to go home.
Kurt looked around the practically empty schoolyard. The only persons left was that new kid on the Cheerios; Tristan, and Brittany.