I'm so sorry that's it's been so long since my last update, but I've been so stressed out because of my exams! Sorry! I'll update the next chapter as soon as possible!
Blaine had been walking to the auditorium with his sister to practice a duet, as they had walked inside the room to see Kurt and the new kid Tristan kissing. Blaine had slowly walked out of the auditorium afterwards, leaving Rachel alone in there. He still had that feeling in his stomach. No, not just in his stomach, in his whole body. In one second, one tiny second, Blaine had just felt like he was slowly falling apart. Like his whole world was falling apart, stumbling down in front of him. He knew he wasn't completely over Kurt yet, but he had never expected this to happen. To see him kissing with someone else had hurt him more than every bad thing he had memories of. The truth about how they started talking, how Kurt had almost kissed Sebastian, everything. Nothing had been as bad as this. He felt like hitting something, and wished his punching bag were just around the corner. Instead he ended up staring out in the air, not actually looking at anything as he suddenly stopped up and sat down in the hallway. It was late after school so it was completely empty. He wrinkled his eyebrows and felt extremely lost. He had no idea what to do now. He barely knew how he was feeling, or why he was feeling it. I'm not mad. What would I be mad about? He thought and felt like all his emotions was going through his whole body, making him feel restless, frustrated, upset… Sad. He got pulled out of his thoughts the second he heard footsteps approaching. Who…?
„Rachel?" He said with a low voice.
„Blaine?" He stood up as he heard his sister's voice.
„Yeah, I'm here." Blaine said and tried to think of every possible excuse, except for the truth, for why he had left the auditorium.
„Why'd you leave?" Rachel asked worried with a soft voice as she appeared. Blaine shook his head gently and tried his hardest on smiling.
„Do you even need to ask?" He said and sat down again. Rachel didn't say anything; she just looked compassionate at her brother and sat down besides him.
„We've never really talked about it…"
„There's nothing to talk about." Blaine said quickly.
„Apparently there is." Rachel said. She turned around to face Blaine, as he didn't answer straight away. „I know how miserable you are, Blaine." She rapidly continued as she saw he was about to protest. „Don't pretend it's not true. I can see it. Others might not, but we both know how well I know you. And I don't think you've talked to anyone about this."
„Rachel…" Blaine said and felt like he could only remember half of his vocabulary. „It's okay. I broke up with him. I'll get over it."
„Blaine I've talked to Finn." Rachel said. Blaine looked surprised at her.
„I didn't know you guys talked." He said suspiciously.
„Quinn is really good friends with him… They're together quite much. Sometimes he comes over when I'm with her…" She said and hesitated. „We've become quite good friends, really." She said and chuckled nervously. When Blaine looked uninterested at her, she took a deep breath and smiled uncertainly at him. „Sometimes… Sometimes we talk about you."
„Me?" Blaine asked as if he thought she was lying.
„You and Kurt you know. Finn is his brother after all… I promised not to tell you, but you know… I kind of-"
„Is this getting somewhere?" Blaine asked and didn't know where this sudden irritation came from.
„Kurt is miserable, too." Rachel said and felt satisfied as she saw Blaine lighten up a little bit.
„What?"
„He is. Finn told me. He is good at hiding it at school – kind of like you – but as soon as he get home he's like a total different person. At least that's what Finn said."
„Really?"
„Why don't you talk to him about it?"
„Finn?" Blaine asked puzzled.
„No, not Finn. Kurt." Rachel said. „Talk to Kurt about this. If Finn is right, Kurt misses you too." Blaine looked at her in disbelief, before she talked again. „I still don't get why you broke up with him. If it was just because of that deal he made with Quinn, it's nothing, really. I have even talked to her about it and she sort of regrets-"
„It's not just because of that." Blaine said cold. „It just wouldn't have worked out. We're too different, you know."
„It's not that." Rachel said and stood up. „There's something else. You might not want to tell me, but if you ever feel like it, please do. I don't get it. You obviously like the guy, why would you break up?" She sighed and looked at him. „I know it's none of my business, but it just seems weird to me, you know…" She looked at him one last time before saying: „please talk to him." Before starting to walk away.
„Rachel." Blaine said soft but certain. „I had to break up with him before he broke up with me." He said and looked down in the ground.
„Why do you think he would break up with you?" Rachel asked, walked back and slowly sat down in front of him.
„He's popular, or at least used to. He's still funny, smart and really attractive though. We all know he can get every guy he wants. It was only a matter of time before he would get tired of me."
„But, Blaine…" Rachel started, but Blaine interrupted her.
„I know it's ridiculous! And I can see that now, but it made sense back then. I feel so stupid." Rachel stroked his left arm as he frustrated clenched his hand.
„Talk to him, Blaine."
„It won't help. You saw them too."
„Them?" Blaine looked at Rachel as if she had just said something exceptionally stupid.
„Tristan and Kurt. He's obviously over me." Rachel looked worried at her brother before talking again.
Kurt watched, as Rachel looked disorientated around the auditorium before she went out the door, probably going after Blaine. Kurt turned around to face Tristan.
„Well that was awkwa-" Kurt started, but Tristan quickly interrupted him.
„What the hell just happened?" He said and sounded both confused and sort of panicky.
„Rachel came in and-"
„You know what I mean." Tristan said and looked seriously at Kurt. „That kiss. What happened?" Kurt wrinkled his eyebrows and tried to think of an answer, but the only thing he could think about was Blaine. Had he left because he saw it?
„I need to go check something…" Kurt said and turned around to go down from the stage as he felt Tristan grabbing his hand. He turned his head and looked at him. „We can talk about it later."
„I'm really confused. I'm not… I'm not gay." He said, almost whispering. Kurt couldn't help but smile at Tristan's confused, yet cute face expression.
„Well you did-" He stopped himself as his thoughts wandered back to Blaine. „We'll talk later. I have to go check this." Tristan slowly let his hand go, and Kurt smiled at him before walking down from the stage, and up the stairs till he reached the door. He walked down the hallway until he heard some muffled voices. He walked a bit closer and recognized first Blaine's soft, warm familiar voice, then Rachel's. He was about to walk around the corner and say something as he heard Rachel say his name. He stopped up and listened carefully.
„You and Kurt you know…" He heard her say. She said something about Finn before Blaine interrupted her rudely. „Kurt is miserable too." She said and Kurt was close to protesting, but Blaine's answer, which sounded slightly optimistic, made him stop.
He listened through the whole conversation without making himself noticeable. As he could feel the conversation come to an end he regretted listening to it. Standing there like a creeper, listening to other people's conversations. Blaine had been totally honest to Rachel, and he had genuinely thought that no one had heard it. „It was only a matter of time before he would get tired of me." Blaine's voice ran through his head saying all the things he had confided to Rachel. „He's obviously over me." Kurt smirked at his ignorance. Rachel had even directly told him that Kurt wasn't over him, and yet he didn't believe it. Rachel was currently telling him for the 100th time to talk to Kurt about it all. I wish he would. He got tired of standing there listening to their conversation, he felt stupid. He felt like a douche.
„Blaine?"