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Blaine was trying to ignore his sister telling him once again to talk to Kurt as he heard a familiar, light, comfortable voice.
„Blaine?" He didn't know whether to smile or not by the sound of Kurt's voice. He watched as he appeared from the corner.
„How long have you been standing there?" He asked. Kurt shrugged and smirked.
Kurt stood by the corner looking at Blaine's hazel eyes, feeling Rachel's look on him. All the things he had wanted to say through their conversation was gone the second he stepped up. He wanted to tell him he missed him. That he wanted him back. That the kiss between him and Tristan didn't mean anything. Except it did… He felt himself tremble over the words as he opened his mouth.
„The auditorium is available." He finally said and looked at Blaine as if he wished he'd say something to react on.
„Thanks." Blaine said and made a small nod. There was silence for a long time before someone spoke.
„Oh come on!" Rachel said and put her brown, soft hair behind her ear before pulling Blaine up from the floor. Blaine looked at Rachel, and she sighed deeply. „Talk!" Kurt opened his mouth to say something a couple of times before closing it again.
„I should get back…" Say something. He said to himself as he turned around. He had wanted to say so much, but nothing sounded right in his head.
„So..." Blaine said quite loud, and Kurt stopped up. „Are you an Tristan a thing now or?" Kurt hid a small smile before turning around, meeting Blaine's inexpressive look. He shrugged and chuckled faintly.
„Maybe. Does that bother you?" He asked carefully.
„No…" Blaine answered and looked down at the ground.
„Good… So… I'll just leave now." Kurt said and turned around and started walking away once again.
„The break up was a mistake!" Blaine yelled after him. Kurt felt his heart racing suddenly faster as he heard that. He automatically stopped walking, waiting to see if Blaine was going to say more. „It's the stupidest thing I've done in… A very long time." He said and laughed nervously.
„Yeah I know. It was weird. You totally overreacted on some stupid innocent things." Kurt said and felt suddenly very aware of that Rachel was still with them. He looked at her and then at Blaine. „Doesn't matter." He said and tried to smile. „Talk to you later."
He walked inside of the auditorium to find it empty. He walked out again and out of the school to find Tristan sitting by the swings on the ground playing with some sand. He looked thoughtful. Letting the sand run through his fingers. One hand on his cheek, supporting his head, the other one covered in sand. Kurt walked slowly up to him and sat down in front of him.
„Hey." Tristan looked up, he didn't seem to have noticed Kurt walking up to him.
„Hey…" He said and threw the remaining sand in his hand away. He looked up and the confused and upset look in his normally calm, blue eyes surprised Kurt.
„You okay?" He asked.
„Dude… It's so confusing." He looked at Kurt and clenched his hand in the sand. „On one side I want to forget about earlier, I want to just pretend it never happened you know… And on the other side I just…" He took a deep breath and chuckled nervously. „I just want to kiss you, you know." Kurt made that cute surprised expression only he could do and looked down in the ground.
„So which one are you going to choose?" He asked. They looked at each other for a while before Tristan moved. Kurt felt suddenly nervous as Tristan slowly leaned in and placed his lips on his own. Only one second after he pulled back and looked embarrassed down, making his blonde hair cover for his eyes.
„I…" He said and looked as if he was trying to find the right words. „I want to be with you." Kurt laughed awkwardly without smiling.
„What?" He was still a bit bewildered by the kiss, but he knew that this wasn't a good idea.
„I think we should be together."
„Trist, no… I'm sorry. But Blaine-"
„I know you have feelings for him, but… You obviously have feelings for me too, and that's good enough for me." He said and smiled.
„You deserve better… You know I… I love Blaine and I can't do that to you." Kurt said, though he somehow hoped Tristan would keep fighting for this.
„But if you wanted to be with him, you'd be with him." Tristan said. „Something's stopping you. You'll just always have a weak spot for him… I can live with that." He said and chuckled nervously.
„Are you sure?" Kurt said unsure. „I want to be with you, but…"
„I'm sure." Tristan answered and grabbed Kurt's hand. „What do you say?" Kurt smiled at him and squeezed his hand before nodding slowly. And even though he knew he was supposed to feel as happy as ever he couldn't help comparing it to the time Blaine had told him that he wanted to be his boyfriend. It wasn't the same at all. The feelings were different back then. He had been as happy as ever, he had barely been able to restrain himself, he had jumped with happiness. Right now he was just… Pleased. This was a mistake, he was well aware of that. He knew he needed to be with Blaine, yet being with Tristan would be a big comfort. He could really use this. And he did like Tristan. He's just not Blaine… Kurt thought before he decided his answer.
„Okay."