"I'm sorry," you said, gloved hands outstretched, your eyes searching mine almost pleadingly as if begging me to understand. "I'm so, so sorry. It's just—"You paused to look down, scrunching your face into a mask of guilt. "You aren't the one for me."
And then, in a blur of green, you were gone, leaving a vacant seat on the couch.
I sat still for a moment, unsure of what to do. In the end I decided to just hug my knees. It seemed like the most appropriate physical display of my emotions, which were, well, not what I would have anticipated.
Rather than hurt, jealousy, anger, and all those other crazy emotions any other girl would've felt if they'd been in my place, I instead felt a hollow sense of relief, trailed by just a hint of loss. I'd been expecting the breakup for a long time. I was even a bit shocked it took so long; remind me to add shock to my list of off-kilter breakup emotions.
I guess I was just tired of having the tension between Raven and I. Though her emotions would normally be held under lock and key behind that ever-stoic face of hers, lately she'd been like an open book. And it had been obvious to me for a long time that you'd loved Raven in return. It just took you a bit longer to figure it out for yourself.
I tucked a stray golden hair behind my ear and rested my cheek on my knee, letting a small sigh escape my lips. Finally I can sleep peacefully, I thought, looking on the bright side. Is it late enough to sleep yet?
I lifted my head off my knee and squinted towards the small digital clock below the TV. The red numbers glared 8:57pm. Yeah, I guess it's late enough.
I unwound my arms from around my knees and stood up with a huge stretch. I exited the common room and began making my way towards my own room—the one that used to belong to Silky.
I decided my sleep would have to wait, however, when I heard voices. They sounded like they came just around the corner I was about to turn, yet I couldn't make out what they were saying.
I slid against the wall on the inside of the turn and slowly peeked around the corner.
You were there with Raven. I couldn't hear exactly what you were saying, but I assumed from your nervous expression and twitchy ears—something I knew happened when you were scared—that you were finally telling her what needed to be said.
And then I saw you two kiss each other. I slid back against the wall, allowing my eyes to well up just a little; finally, a normal reaction to something. Yet at the same time, I felt my lips curl into a smile. I was surprisingly happy for just having come out of a breakup, albeit a long-anticipated one. I was happy for you. I was happy for Raven. I knew, too, that the atmosphere in the tower would shift away from the blanket of uneasiness that I felt had settled. I was happy about that, as I'm sure everyone else would be.
There's a girl I know…
I turned to walk back the way I had come. I could just ride a rock around to my window and go in that way. Not only would it spare the three of us an extremely awkward—or awkward for you two at least—moment, but I'd be able to get some fresh air as well.
He loves her so…
Once again I felt myself smiling. I knew I would be smiling as long as you two were happy. It was a promise I'd made with myself long ago, and it was one I intended to keep.
I'm not that girl.
THE END.
This is Terra's POV by the way. Just in case you didn't figure that out x)
Ha! I did it! My first fanfic— well, songfic. But it still counts!
Anyway thank you for your continued support. I really hope you enjoyed the story and I beg your forgiveness for having such a big gap between the 4th chapter and this final one.
I hope to have another story up soon but I'm lazy and really bad at coming up with ideas . So, yeah. Thanks again!
~Pinkiekeen
