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SHIKI

Chapter 11: Love

Like waking up from a nightmare I bolted straight up. Breathing hard I tried to remember what happened.

The alarm clock said it was 5:38 but I wasn't sure if it was daylight or not since the room's drapes were all down.

How long had I been asleep? Rubbing my eyes I looked around the room before I noticed all of Rokoru's stuff was gone.

And then it all hit me.

Rima had drank my blood. She drank it and when everything seemed to be going perfect, she suddenly got up and left after leaving me unconscious.

I had to find her. She said that Kaori had told her what happened, yet why did she stop? Could it be true that she really loved him?

Running a hand through my hair I remembered the feeling of total loss and heart ache when I saw the ring on her finger.

And the unbearable feeling I had when I heard her say that she was going to marry him.

That it was her decision.

I wondered exactly what Kaori had told her.

Angrily getting up I got ready for the day that lay ahead.

I found myself at the modeling agency in no time. It was where Rima and I both worked.

"Senri-sama, did you have a shoot scheduled for today?" asked Irina, my manager.

"No. I came to see if Rima was here" I stated.

"Didn't she tell you?" she asked me confused. Her gray eyes a big contrast to her dark brown hair.

I looked at her wanting to know what she meant.

"She made a contract with another modeling agency, out of the country. I thought she would have told you seeing as you two seemed to be very close."

"You didn't do anything to her, did you?" she asked looking at me carefully.

I couldn't believe that she was gone. That she just left.

I couldn't let it end, I wouldn't. I loved her too much to give her to anyone. I would comb the world for her.

Remembering the taste of her blood I knew that I could never let her go. Her blood had filled my thirst. It was proof that she was my one and only. The one I would spend my endless life with.

I wasn't going to let her disappear.

"Where is the new agency?" I asked.

"I'm sorry but we cant tell you that, you know confidentiality and stuff" she said waving her hand in the air to dismiss it.

She was right. All models information was kept confidential unless it was for another agency, and no one was an exception to that rule, the most important one.

"Thanxs" I said before walking out.

"Don't forget you have a shoot coming up soon!" she called after me.

Once I was back on school grounds I decided to find Kaori.

She was the cause for this and I was going to make her tell me if she knew where Rima was.

And If she didn't know, I would kill her.

I didn't have to go far to find her.

Instead she found me by the round stoned fountain.

"You're angry" she said calmly looking at me with her green eyes.

Though it was night they shone brighter than they did in the day light. Truly a nocturnal being.

I tired to keep myself calm enough to listen before going in to rip her to shreds.

"You got what you wanted and I, what I wanted" she stated.

"Where is she?" I growled at her clenching my fists.

"I don't know. But before you kill me, I'll tell you how you got what you wanted."

"I didn't get what I wanted, if I had she would be here with me now."

"But you did. You had thought that it was her that you wanted and you were right. That is, until Rokoru came. What you wanted most was to know what you meant to her. The desire you had to want her all to yourself started only when Rokoru showed up. Before that you never had to rival anyone to keep her with you. But for many countless years you wanted more than anything was to know how she felt about you." she explained.

"That desire won over the sudden one to have her all for yourself. Even when you thought that you knew what you wanted, the truth was that you didn't. The stronger desire you seeked for over many years, the truth you wanted, you got." she added looking me in the eye.

She was calm, level headed.

"Do you want me to tell you what she said before she left you in the room?'' she asked. Looking at her I couldn't tell what it was she was feeling. She looked calm, too calm.

"She whispered in your ear, 'Good-bye my love, Shiki' as she held you in her arms." she said before I could talk.

"So now you know what you meant to her."

"You said that you got what you wanted. What was that?" I questioned her.

"I never met a forgetful vampire. You seem to really have forgotten."

"What are you talking about? You keep saying that I have truly forgotten so why don't you tell me what exactly that is?"

She stayed quiet for a moment. The only sound was the fountains water running.

"You may think I'm this bitchy mean girl, but I was never like this." she stated with a faint smile.

"But now all I seem to have is hate. I wanted Rima gone, and she is. She went far away" she said.

"It was long ago. We were both still children. You met me once. We met because we were arranged to be married. Though you were of pureblood lineage my mother and father pulled some strings, made a few calls and soon it was settled. You and I were to be married."

I couldn't be sure if she was lying or not but the look in her eyes told me that she wasn't.

"When she told me about it, I was more than happy. From the moment I looked at you I wanted to be with you." she went on looking away seeming embarrassed to be admitting this for the first time to me.

"So as I went on growing up I dreamed of spending my life with you. My parents kept telling me to do my best so that you would love me back. They made me the heir to the family above my sisters telling me that I was their pride and joy and was going to bring good to the family if I married you, you of pureblood blood."

Her eyes became glassy, like this was a secret that she never told anyone before.

"I became their golden child. Until...." I heard her swallow hard before she went on.

"Until they came home one day. It was the day right before we were to meet again. They came home angry. Calling me into my room they told me what happened. That the marriage was to be canceled. That your mother refused it once she saw how close you and Rima had become. That it was clear that you didn't want anyone other than her." By now she was crying, not really caring to stop the tears.

She looked like she was watching everything again rather than telling it to someone.

"Mother.....mother was very mad....she wouldn't speak to me. Father renamed an heir and they shunned me!"

I watched her as she fell to her knee's and openly cried covering her face with her hands.

"They said that I wasn't good enough for you. That I had disgraced the family" she cried.

Not wanting to comfort her I stood there watching her cry in silence.

The only thing I was able to feel was the wind around us picking up.

"Shall I show you?" she asked more calmed after a long silence.

I looked at her questioning what she meant.

She got up and walked right over to me until we were face to face.

"I'll show you what our lives would have been like......together..." she said before she took my face in her hands and kissed me. Before I could stop her I felt myself go numb.

I awoke on a large bed, in a strange dark room that I never saw before. I was able to tell it was a room of an aristocrat by looking at the design of the room around me.

Sitting up on the strange comfortable bed I heard someone coming in.

"Are you awake?" came a high attractive female voice letting in light from the other side as she walked in.

Looking at her I was able to see it was Kaori.

My love.

Closing the door behind her she made her way to my side.

"You're always so tired" she laughed.

"Won't you come eat some breakfast?" she asked sweetly with a beautiful smile.

"That's not fair" I said caressing the side of her face.

"What's not fair?"

"Asking while making such a face. It's hardly fair" I explained looking at her.

Placing her hand on mine she sweetly smiled.

"Let's go eat" she said.

"I hate human food. It's not like blood." I complained lightly.

"You always say that" she laughed.

"I'm never hungry when I drink your blood." I said pulling her close to me.

"Nor am I"

"Give me some blood. Just a little."

"You're so greedy, but only if you promise not to take a lot."

"I promise" I agreed.

"Alright." Moving her long blond hair from her neck she let me drink her blood. The blood that I loved, the blood that always filled my thirst.

"There. Now let's go and eat some breakfast" she said lightly pulling away from me after several minutes.

"You have blood on you." she smiled.

Reaching over she licked the blood off my lips and chin.

"I'll be waiting downstairs" she said before leaving with a soft smile.

Getting up off the bed I was brought right back down with a sudden headache.

I was seeing what must have been the past. Flashes of Kaori and I ran through my head like a movie.

Her beautiful smile, the first time we went out together.

Our first kiss.

The first time she drank my blood and I drank hers.

The day I met her family.

The summers spent together under trees hiding from the sun.

The winters were we held each other though we didn't really feel the cold.

The rainy days when we loved to play lovers games.

Springs were we watched flowers blossom.

The day I asked her if she would spend eternity with me.

Things I never thought I'd do.

It seemed that she was able to make me do things that I never would have done, bring out a side of me that I never knew I had.

I watched as so many years we spent together played in my head. How in love we both were. I didn't want anyone other than her.

"Did you see? Our life together?" she whispered.

I awoke to the sound of Kaori's voice. I must have passed out right after she kissed me since I was on the ground in her arms.

"I showed you through my eyes" she said softly smiling at me.

"What happened?" I asked.

"You tried to run away from me" she answered as tears ran down her face. I was confused.

"I did?"

"You don't remember anything?"

"….no…. I don't…" I admitted.

What had happened?

"It's okay. It was only a fight." she said holding me tighter.

I wondered if what I did to her really hurt her that much. How could I have hurt the one I loved the most?

"I'm sorry. I wont ever leave you again" I apologized reaching up to wipe away her tears........

Two months had passed. I awoke everyday feeling like something was missing, but I didn't know what it was.

The thorn like feeling that was always picking at me but I couldn't tell what it was. It had started three days back after Kaori and I had gotten back together.

"Shiki, I see you're okay now." Ichijo said before class one day.

"I miss her too."

"Miss who?" I asked.

"Rima. Who else. Remember she left like three days ago." he explained confused by my question.

"Who's Rima?" I asked again.

"I know you miss her, but this isn't the way to try and forget about her you know" he seemed to get a bit mad at my attitude though I didn't who or what he was talking about.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I said again.

That was when the feeling that something was missing started to pull at me. Something was out of place, wrong.

I could tell he was about to explain himself when Kaname stopped him.

"Ichijo, can I talk to you in private?" he calmly asked him.

Though he was also a pureblood he was kind, always asking never telling or demanding. He was a rare pureblood. He Didn't want to be king, just create a peace between humans and vampires. It never did fail to amaze me just how kind he was.

I don't know what was said between the two but whatever it was he never asked me about the girl named Rima after that. But I became curious. Who was she? Had I been close to her?

Thinking about that name of the unknown girl I felt something inside me trying to remember, but every time I tried, I never remembered anything.

Maybe there was nothing to remember in the first place.

The time I asked Kaori about her she looked at me, lost before telling me that she never met anyone by that name. She seemed to be mad that I would ask for another girl, so I never brought it up after that. I didn't want to hurt her feelings again.

But I felt that there was something very wrong. No one seemed to ask me about her aside from Ichijo.

Dreaming at night I would see glimpses of a girl but they were too blurry to see anything clearly. Was this mysterious girl Rima?

"Honey, are you alright?" came the voice of Kaori interrupting my chain of thoughts. I was so wrapped up in them that I didn't notice class was over and the room was pretty much emptied of vampire students.

"I'm just tired" I lied.

I didn't want her to know that this had been bothering me for almost three months now.

"You're always so tired" she smiled as she walked right beside me.

Taking my hand in hers she seemed very pleased.

It struck me strange that everything we did together always made her very happy, too happy. Like it was the first time.

Was it always like this when in love?

Thinking back on our relationship I felt guilty knowing that I was letting the mysterious girl take control of my mind, but there was something that felt almost wrong now whenever I was with Kaori.

Though I had too many memories with her at times I felt like I didn't know her.

"Try to sleep tonight, alright?" she instructed at the dorm entrance.

"Yea" I said as I kissed her the usual goodnight kiss.

"See you in class" she smiled before going the other way to the female side of the rooms.

In bed I tried not to think about the girl, but at the same time I couldn't help but hope that something more clearer was going to show in what I was going to dream.

~I'll show you another sweet dream~