1 - I don't own NCIS or any of it's characters. Just using them as inspiration for some fanfictions.
2 - I'm NOT a native english speaker. So there may have mistakes (it certainly have). I'm sorry. My english is not 100%. But it's good. I'm trying hard to let it easy to understand what I tell.
3 - I'm not expert in medicine so I'm sorry if there is something wrong about the medical parts.
4 - Note: Most part of this chapter is an Abby's speech. Of course I couldn't put everything together. I had to put some pauses. You'll know when someone else get to speak.
As soon she entered the room she stood by his bed side and even having a lot of thing on her mind, she started to talk without minding if that would get a bit confusing.
- C'mon Timmy! Wake up. It's your last chance. You have no idea what they are about do to you. Cause if you had you'd be awake long ago. I haven't seen your family but they must be somewhere around the hospital. The doctors want to switch off the machines which are giving you support. And I was just told they were authorized to do so. So I believe that even your family doesn't think you can pull through.
- I guess I'm the only one who have faith on you. It has been a hard journey. But I kept being strong for you. All of this days I kept by your side. Because I know it's not your ending. You still have a lot of life to live. So I have to stop them from switching off the machines. But I can't do this on my own. I need you. Give us some signal that you'll be ok. What they want to do is just like sacrifice you. Please don't. Don't let them do this. They're acting hastily. They should wait longer before doing that.
- You don't deserve to die. You're a victim from that coward. It' not your time yet. So please keep holding on my friend. Do it for all the ones that love you. For me. I'm not asking too much. I want my friend back. I've been through it all until now by your side and I'll be whenever you need and want me to stay. I don't wanna anything else in return unless seeing you perfectly healthy again. I want to carry you home. And I can see this day happening.
- I know you don't have much choice but please I beg you don't give in so easily. We can win this battle. The Timmy I know would fight with all your strenght. The same strenght that I'm having right now. We almost lost Ducky so it means we can't loose you. I know Gibbs, Tony and Ziva believed in your recovery at first but you gave us some scary moments that they may have lost their little faith. And this pisses me off so much. Is like, don't they know you? I know they can see reality better than me but that isn't an excuse. I guess I'm the only one who are standing with you along this all.
- You're only on your middle 30's years old. It means you have a lot to live. You still can find a good woman for you and build a family. I'm sure you'd a great dad. Remember Fisher? My best friend's nephew who I asked you to help on Christmas two years ago. I never told you but seeing your attention towards the little boy got me confused. For a moment I tought he was your son. Weird, no? I'm not kidding. You were so sweet with him. That's why I can loose my favorite Santa. I also loved the cheek kisses we exchanged. That was a lovely day. That's why I love Christmas.
- I guess I talked too much already but I'm not even close to finish. Crazy huh? There's not much time left. So if you wanna fight for your life you need to react now. I promise to never leave your side. You can make it Tim. Help me prove them wrong. Show them that this lion's heart can make it. Prove me I'm not wrong. That I haven't stood by your side in vain. C'mon McGee! Do it. React!
Abby waited a few minutes in silence watching him. But for ther sadness nothing seemed to have changed. She then knelt by his bed and hold his hand.
- I'm not giving up on you - her voice started to get trembling as the tears came down her face - However it's not my choice. It's selfish to ask you to withstand all of this pain or whatever it may be your sequels just because of me. If it's too much to bear, it is ok. No it's not ok. Not at all. But I'll understand eventually.
- If you think it's time to let go and rest - now she was saying word by word as she begun burst into heavy tears and sobbings - I'll be ripped into pieces but I... I.. What can I do? Gibbs said something to me. And you know he is always right. About you suffering with the consequences. I don't wanna loose you. I really don't. But I don't think I can handle see you suffering.
- Like if it wasn't enough having to loose Kate, Jenny and Mike. But to lose you is the worst. If you die I know a part of me will die too. And then we are equal. I'll suffer the most with your death. And you will suffer wherever you are, seeing the mess I'll become. I'll never be the same Abby again. I'm nothing without you. My heart will be in pieces and I'll never be able to put them together again because there will be missing parts.
- But if you think there's not other way. And the best for you is to rest in peace... Oh Gosh... This is so hard... Then do as you want it. I want you healthy and not suffering. I don't know what is going to become of me but I promisse I'll feel better one day.
- Before it's all over I need to tell you somethings. First of all: thank you for everything. Everything you've been and done for me. It's just too much to be thankful for. My life wouldn't be as great as it is if I hadn't met you. Believe you make a tremendous difference. Thank you for the geeks talks, the nights out, the lunchs together, thanks for your friendship, for your protection and for being always there when I needed. And of course I could never forget: sex in my coffin. Thanks so much for that. You were awesome. Well you didn't know that that place was a coffin but I'm sure it were more fun that way. Thank you for being part of my life.
- Second: I'm so sorry. I'm sorry that I broke up with you back then. It was too soon. We weren't ready. I'm sorry for not giving it another try lately. But I guess this mistake was from both of us. It doesn't matter now. But I'm sorry for disobeying your order when I was at your apartment and opened the door when you told me not to do so. Allowing Mikel to get closer to me and sorry for having broke your typewriter. Sorry for making you taking Jethro, the dog, against your will. Sorry for taking the bus without you when I was looking for the victim's teacher. Sorry if I let you down. And I lied when I told you that Amy and McGregor couldn't get together because they were different and wrong for each other. I actually loved that even after that, you kept them both together.
- I hate myself for not trying again. Because I know that someday that would work. But it sounds stupid think about it now and regreting it only when you're like this. We should had made a move before. I know you'd do that if I had given you clues that I'd be on again for a relantionship. A serious one this time. I lost this opportunity back then however a won a special friend. I'm not ready for it to be over. Not at all. I can't accept this. It's impossible.
- Before you leave me I want you to know that I.. I love you. I've loved you all along. I'll miss you forever if you... you know... I'll be in pain for the rest of my life if you die. I wonder if life is worth without you around. I don't think I can live without you. Imagine waking up every day knowing that I will never see your face, your smile, hear your voice, your geek words anymore. I can't. I just can't. I keep dreaming everything is going to be right and you'll never go.
- From the bottom of my heart Tim. I'm too in love to let go of you. I beg you to stay. Then I can tell so you can hear how much I love you. I know I should have told you before but it's never too late.
- If the best for you is to rest in peace... Oh. Hell no! No way. Please. Time is running out. If you want my help then come back. I promisse to be here for you for everything. I'm so used having you around almost all the time that I'm not prepared for this to have an end.
- You're leaving me in a tough decision. A hinky one that I rather not have to do. Part of me, like 95%, doesn't want to lose you. But the other 5% says I need to respect if your time on this world is over. So do as you want. It's your decision. I'm afraid I can't help you much other than pray for you to stay and get better. C'mon big man. What is it going to be?
- It seems like there's no other way around, huh? I don't like this but at least don't go without knowing how grateful I'm for all the days that I was blessed by your presence. I love you so much.. so much... It's shattering my heart having to say goodbye.
- But you know what? This is not a goodbye. I'm still waiting for a miracle to happen and they do happen. But it's now or never. So c'mon make this happen.
She kept looking him but nothing seemed to happen. She then got on her feet and still holding his hand, she leaned closer to his face and with the other hand she stroked lightly his face. Following this she kissed his forehead. She kept like that longer than a normal time for a kiss. She was crying so hard that she barely realised her hand, that was holding his, was being slightly squeezed.
When she got back to just stand beside the bed was the moment she felt the small pressure that was being made on her hand. She was confused and thought it was because she was shaking while crying. She kept looking from his hand to his face. Suddenly she started smiling when she felt the pressure being made again. She couldn't believe it.
- YES! YES! YES! YES! - She was jumping of hapiness seeing what seemed to be a small reaction. She was right. He was strong and it was not over - I knew it Tim! Thank you so much for listening to me! I can see you're not giving up. I'm so relieved. But you know you need to show it to the doctors. I'll try, no better, I'll definitely persuade them into waiting more time. Let's make a deal! I'll talk them into at least a week and you can start showing them your reaction as soon as possible so them can see you're not a lost case. If it works, I promise you can ask me anything. I'll do everything you want. And when I say everything, I mean everything at all.
- I guess I'm hearing some footsteps no far away. So c'mon heart of a lion. You know how well we work together. Now it isn't any different.
It didn't take long until the door was opened by a doctor followed by a nurse. Abby caught a glimpse of his family that we're standing on the hall.
- Ms Sciuto right? I was asked to wait until you could say your goodbye to the patient. Are you done? We're about to switch off the machines. We need to hurry the procedure. - the doctor said
- To hurry? Are you nuts? What the hell are you people from this hospital thinking? Do you want to murder him? Because that's exactly what you're going to be doing if you proceed with this.
- As you can see his condition haven't got any improviment and continues severe. We haven't had almost no reaction from him and believe me when I say that we've tried everything.
- You said it well. "Almost" which is better than nothing at all. You act like he's already dead. But his eyes shows he still got reaction. What kind of doctor are you? Do you like loosing your patients this easy? It has been only three weeks and this isn't enough time for you to get to such a complex decision as it is.
- Usually we take more time but the patients in this case show more reactions than what he has showed up to now.
- I should be mad at you for not caring the way you should about your patient. Better. I'm mad. But let's get it to the point. I think he still has a chance. Just give him some more time. - Abby said
- It wouldn't change anything.
- Yes it would. Just so you know. While I was talking to him and holding his hand I'm sure I felt him squeezing my hand. A few minutes ago.
- I can see you're emotionally shaken. You could have been mistaken. Or even have imaginated this.
- No way! I didn't! And I swear I'm not lying! - she said. The doctor and the nurse looked to her with a strange look - And also I'm not a witch. So I didn't cast a spell or charm on him. I'm just telling what happened.
- This is impossible since...
-Not it isn't! I don't know how but he did. Please. I beg you. Don't switch off the machines now. Give him at least one more week. I do whatever it needs. You can send the hospital bill to me. I agree to pay for it if you give him more time.
- It's not that simple. The family needs to agree with it.
- Then I guess it won't be a problem - Abby turned her attention to his family - Do you mind if I ask for one more week? - His sister and parents waved their head negatively - See doctor? Please don't do it. Otherwise...
Abby was speaking but had to stop when suddenly his heart monitor started to beep. All of them looked to the monitor. McGee's heart, that had been beating really slow since the blast, somehow started to beat in a nomal frequency. They were all incredulous. Even Abby didn't see this one coming.
- It's not possible... - the doctor was saying while checking the monitor
- THIS! - Abby said ponting to the monitor and looking to the doctor. A smile began to grow on her face after what seemed to ages of sad moments - Or we're all crazy on this room, or I really wasn't imagining things. Which I'm sure I wasn't! He only needs some more time. He's starting to react. Just take care of him please.
- It's not much yet but we'll see what we can do.
The doctor and the nurse left the room. Abby exchanged some words with his family before heading to the waiting room. She always believed in his recovery but seeing it happening in the last minute could be a bit umbelievable. She just couldn't hide her hapiness for what had just happened.
Ziva, Tony and Gibbs were still sitting on the chair. In silence. All of them lost on their own thoughts. They could hear from afar the sound of Abbys' boots. Gibbs stood preparing himself to comfort her for what was about to happen. When she appeared there he saw that she had her eyes red from crying. And that was odd. Since she also had a big smile on her face.
- Weren't they going to switch off the machines? - Gibbs asked. She just kept smiling.
- Jesus, Abby. Let us know what happened - Tony said
- A miracle! That's what happened. The one I told you were about to see and you didn't even believed me. I always knew miracles were real. Why people still can't believe them? It's such a...
- Is he awake? - Ziva asked interrupting Abby's speak otherwise she would talk a lot without getting to the main point.
- That would be ask to much seeing his condition. I was talking with the doctor and suddenly his heart got back to the normal beat. After being weak ever since the explosion. He is finally reacting. And I swear you that while I was talking alone with him, he just squeezed my hand at a moment.
- What the doctor said about it? - Gibbs asked
- They will reassess his condition. And wait more time for his reactions. I'm a bit mad at you guys for your lack of faith on Tim. But I could never hate you. I know the lack of reaction is worring and I confess that it started to get me into despair. I just never gave up and now the whole thing is seeming to get better. After so long I'm finally feeling relieved. This has been so hard... - Abby was saying.
- Don't worry - Gibbs said hugging her - Everything is going to be ok.
The best thing about hugging Gibbs is that he always could bring her some confort. No matter the situation. It'd always make her believe that everything would be alright.
Chapter 4 is up. A little shorter than the previous 2 chapters. I guess I wrote too much on them. I decided to take it easy on this one. As you saw Abby kept holding on for him and hoping he could do the same. She expressed a bit about her feelings towards him and now he finally showed signals of improvement, small but it mean something.
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