James was woken up be somebody shaking his shoulder. It seemed like he had just fallen asleep, it can't be time to get up yet.

Forcing his eyes open, hazel met brown.

"Time to get up buddy," Logan said as he rubbed James shoulder trying to get the boy to wake up. He had seemed dead to the world when they found him, and it scared all of them.

"M'kay, what time is it?"

"9:00 bud, visiting hours starts in half an hour."

That is when everything started to rush back into James head. Kendall callousing, his broken voice, and the ambulance ride. James didn't respond to Logan, he just got up and headed to his room, but he stopped at the door.

He shared a room with Kendall. Half of it was full of everything and anything that reminded James of the broken boy. Even half of the stuff on his side reminded him of Kendall.

What if James hadn't insisted on going to that addition to be famous back at Minnesota. Kendall wouldn't of found a way to get all four of the boys to the addition, he would still be playing his favorite sport almost 24/7 going after that scholarship they all knew that he was going to get, and not in a hospital bed on the brick of death.

Okay, that was a little over board but still, he wouldn't be in a elevator.

Jumping out of his daze, James slowly walked to his side of the room without looking at anything that could possibly remind him of the beloved blond.

Everybody waited down in the kitchen for James to come join them. When he finally did come down, nobody thought it was actually the James they all knew and loved.

The person that was walking towards them was a complete opposite of him.

Uncombed hair, beanie on, baggy jeans, old t-shirt from high-school, and his rarely used glasses on.

After standing there for about fifteen minutes James spoke up.

"What?"

"Lets go," Mama Knight said jumping out of her own state and heading towards the door. Katie was at her heals, and Logan and Carlos stood there for a little longer staring at their life long friend.

"Please don't beat your self up over this James," Carlos said before walking out of the apartment. Logan and James were left standing.

"I don't look that bad!" His tone was even wrong, choppy and broken. With a sigh of defeat, James slumped out of the apartment to meat up with everybody else, Logan shut the door behind them.

~Line break~

The car ride was uneventful. Nobody spoke and nobody even looked at each other.

Once they arrived at the hospital James stayed back in the waiting room claiming that he needed to us the bathroom.

He didn't know if her was going to be able to walk into Kendall's room without breaking down. Slowly, after a 20 minute bathroom break, James slowly made his way towards his hell.

Not five feet from the door, Logan came out.

"There you are," taking just one look towards James Logan walked forward and dragged him in a hug, "We are going to make it threw this."

It took a moment but James hugged his life long friend back. It felt good but his heart was still split, right down the middle.

"Thanks Logie."

"Anytime buddy." The smart boy led James into the room where they found Mama Knight holding a sleeping Katie and Carlos starring at the back wall. James looked towards the bed in the room, there were so many mechanisms hooked up to the poor boy. The tube that was placed down his throat last night was gone and replace by a little tube going around his head and up his nose.

The heart monitor, that made James nervous, was beeping steadily, and about four more that James couldn't place.

The boy in the bed didn't look like the boy that he fell in love with, he looked like a stranger.

Slowly, James made it to the open seat by Kendal's bed. Sitting down, James grabbed one of Kendall's hands before closing his eyes.

This was not happening.