It has been days since they last heard Kendall talk any kind of words. That is what is felt like to James. A thousand sleepless days waiting to hear the blond speak.

The nurses had told them that during the night he is up all the time, but when they get there during the day he fain sleep.

Three days.

That is how long he had been in the hospital. That is how long since James last looked into a mirror, Carlos put his helmet on, and Logan even mutter a single word about anything school related.

On the second day, James was at the hospital with Carlos, Mama Knight, and Katie went to go get something to eat.

When James was coming back from the bathroom he heard Kendall talk to Logan.

"I can't talk to him Logan. Not to any one, just leave me alone."

"Kendall, you need to quit hiding and open up, we want to help. Did you know how hard everyone is taking this? James won't even touch a cuda product let alone look in a mirror, Carlos hasn't acted all hyper or even put on his helmet, Katie isn't even that little mature girl we know and love, Mama Knight won't talk to anybody, and you know how I am taking it."

"Logan, I can't talk about it! Okay? I... if I told you guys.. you would hate me."

"Kendall all of us have been friends since we were in diapers, I am sure that what ever is bothering you won't make us hate you.''

Kendall was silent.

Since that day James has been trying to get Logan to tell him how he got Kendall to talk to him, but the smart boy refused.

Right now, it was just Mama Knight and James at the hospital. The doctor said that Kendall still isn't stable enough to go home, but it should be soon.

Walking down to the cafeteria, Mama Knight turned on James.

"James, out of all the boys you have known Kendall the best. I know how hard you are taking this and I want you to stay tonight. See if you can get him to talk. I have tried but he refuses to talk to me."

James saw the tear stains on her cheeks and how sunk in her eyes looked. She had stayed here so many nights that it didn't even look like she knew what sleep was.

"Okay, go home and get some sleep."

"Please, just go easy on him."

James nodded as he led her to her car. Quick, with a hug and kiss, Mama Knight drove off and to a much needed bed.

As James was walking back into the hospital, he couldn't help but think about that ambulance ride. Keeping the part about the flat lining out of his mind, James concentrated on trying to figure out what Kendall had said to him.

That stupid air mask kept him from hearing his friend, and he wished he would of known what he had said.

Entering the room, he noticed the way Kendall's eyes quickly closed. With a heavy sigh, James sat across from the blonds bed.

"Kendall, I know you aren't going to respond to me and that you are up so just listen. Whatever is bugging you, just please know that you can open up to anyone. It doesn't have to be me, it could be your sister, Carlos, Logan, or Mama Knight, but you need to know that we all care for you. We all want to see you back up on your feet and the doctor said you can't do that unless you find a way to calm down your stress level." Without even thinking about the next sentence James said, "Kenny, I have known you my whole life. You are not the kind of person to box himself up. You told me everything, and I don't want you to stop just because of one thing that you think is going to make me hate you. I could never hate the person that I lo-"

James cut himself off before he could get it out, that wasn't even suppose to be on his mind.

Kendall's eyes flew open as he looked towards James. Starring at each other, James paled and Kendall tried to look for words to say.

"What were you going to say?" those were the very first words that he has heard out of the blond in almost four days. It felt good but yet horrifying at the same time.

"N-nothing."

"James-"

"Kendall! I am the one trying to get you to talk, not the other way around. Before I tell you what I was about to say you have to tell me what you told me during the ambulance ride."

Kendall's face hardened a little and James thought that maybe he stepped over the wrong line. He couldn't afford to do that now, not after he just got him talking.

"I didn't say anything James."

"Yes you did, I heard you, but I couldn't understand because of the oxygen tube they were trying to send down your throat!" James couldn't help but choke on those last few words. They were suicide to come out of his mouth.

Kendall noticed, and his face softened almost right away.

"I said,... you are going to hate me for this."

"I could never hate you Kendall!" James tried, but tears were starting to form at the corners of his eyes.

"I said that I love you." Kendall dropped James gaze and added, "I can change though, I can get over it okay!"

"Kendall-"

"No! I said I can change and that is what I am going to do, it has just been hard since Jo left okay!"

"Kendall-"

"James! Just leave okay,... leave"

"God dammit Kendall, would you ever let me get a word in?" Looking up Kendall saw that James was now a foot away from his face on the bed. "I love you too, can't you see that? I have been a wreck during this whole thing thinking that the one person I have truly loved is going to die because he has been too stressed trying to make my dream come true! I love you Kendall and if coming here is going to put you in danger of your life then we won't be here any more."

James got off of the bed, turning his back to Kendall.

"I can't see you get hurt for me."

"Jamie, this isn't because of you. I have had too much on my plate since the beginning, what with my dad gone, my supermarket job, hockey, and school. Getting to know you was the best thing in my life that could happen to me. I came here so we could spend more time together. Please, look at me."

James turned and looked at the boy he had fallen in love with in 9th grade.

"I love you." With that tears sprang to Kendall's eyes as if they were in there for years just building up pressure.

James ran forward and engulfed Kendall in a hug.

"I love you too Kenny."

Together, James let silent tears fall while Kendall just sobbed into James' shirt, gripping it as if it was his life line. Only to pull apart when James' phone rang and a nurse to came in and check on Kendall saying that he was too stressed.

"Hello?" James asked as he walked out of the room to get away from the glare the nurse sent him.

"James?" it was Logan.

"Hey Logan," James' voice was shaking and he had a hard time trying to control it.

"Are you okay? Is Kendall okay?"

"Yeah, just a little shaken, I got him to talk."

The line was silent on the other end.

"Logan?"

"How! How did you get him to talk!"

"I just started to talk to him when he tried to look like he was sleeping. It worked and he opened up to me."

"James, this is awesome, what did he say?"

James froze, he didn't know if he was going to be able to tell Logan or anybody about how Kendall felt for him, look were he is at. Sighing James turned and started to walk down the hall way.

"James? Are you okay? You sound as if you are about to have a heart attack and if you do Carlos an I are going to strap you and Kendall to beds until you guys tell us what is going the heck on."

"Logan, I can't really tell you what he said because I don't know if he wants anybody to know yet. I want to respect that okay? Since I finally got him to talk it wouldn't be a very smart move to just tell you something that he probably thought I would keep to myself."

"Okay, but Carlos and I are coming over first thing in the morning. No if's, and's, or but's about it."

James chuckled, "Okay, see you guys then." James hung up and walked back towards Kendall's room. The nurse was still in there but she was giving Kendall a very scary lecture.

"Um.. what is this about?" James asked.

"Will, since his heart rate got going faster than needed he almost had another heart attack mister. I told you and your family that he needed to stay relaxed until the doctor told him he could leave, and if you make his heart rate go up one more time you are out of here." The nurse walked out after that and James turned to a laughing Kendall. God it felt good to hear him laugh.

"Okay, she told you."

"Hey, she probably yelled at you more before I even got in here!" James pulled up a chair next to Kendall's bed. "Since you are suppose to relax and keep your heart rate at a certain pace, we are going to watch TV."

"Okay, but no hair shows or anything stupid." James pretended to be offended but he was just too happy to have Kendall talking to him once more.

Turning the tube to Criminal Minds, the two sat in silence for a while. Kendall was the one to break that.

"James, what does this make us?"

James had been wondering about that too, but he didn't want to bring it up just in case it hurt Kendall.

"What do you want it to be?"

"I love you, ever since 9th grade I can't get that to go away."

"Wait, so you have had a thing for me since 9th grade?" James said trying to be surprised, but when Kendall blushed he couldn't hold it in. "Kenny, I have liked you since then too."

"Really?" Kendall's face lite up with a love struck smile. He reached forward and grabbed James arms to pull him into a huge hug.

"Kenny, will you be my boyfriend?"

Kendall pulled back and looked into James' eyes.

"Yes."

James smiled, he sworn he would of kissed the boy but the nurse came back in... uh oh. Apparently the news was too much for Kendall to handle at the moment. (James talked to the doctor before he headed home, the nurse was a perfectionist that had to have everything at a certain point. If not then it is wrong and somebody could die.)

So James call Carlos and let him know what was going on. After getting scolded by Logan, Carlos took James' place and stayed with Kendall. By the time he was there though Kendall was already asleep.

The next day, when Logan and James went over to the hospital, Carlos and Kendall were laughing about something. James found it offending when he saw the same nurse in there laughing with them. What about his heart rate?

"Will, my shift is over, see you later Carlos, Kendall." as she was leaving she gave James a cold look just causing Kendall to laugh even harder.

"Okay, that is not fair!" James said as he went over and gave Kendall a hug. They held on longer than normal but nobody seemed to notice.

Logan was next, giving Kendall a huge hug, also giving the blond a knowing look that caused him to blush. James was a little worried about that but didn't say anything. He just sat next to Kendall pulling the chair as close as he could get it.

"So, how was your guys' night?" James asked. His hand twitched in his lap, he wanted to just grab Kendall's hand and hold it.

"Will, sick-o over there slept for the most part of it and I got to know the nurse while she kept giving him some medication. Why does she hate you so much?"

"James, apparently, was bad for my stress level so he gt kicked out. The first time I could see me getting worked up but the second time I didn't... so I think she is just jealous that she doesn't have the hair he does."

While everybody laughed, Kendall faced pained while his hands went to his side. Noticing right away Logan called the nurses, Carlos freaked, and James wasn't ready to watch this scene all over again.

uh-oh what is suppose to happen now! Review and then you will get your wish to know!