He had no dreams that night, or so because he can't seem to remember anything. The strong wine may do its job as his head throbbing slightly. He opened up his eyes then he frowned as morning sunlight almost pierced straight into his eyes. 'Where am I?' he thought. Then he can smelled Zero's scents all over the bed. 'Oh, right, I might have drunk last night and Zero just had to bring him over to his apartment' he felt really grateful to have him and he can trust him with all his might. Zero will never leave or abandon him on his weakness or so he felt. Yes, more that he would know, Zero absolutely will never do it instead he will always be there and if possible protect him from anything that might hurt him. "ugh.." he groaned. His hand flew to his eyes as if to block the sunlight and also to massage a his headache away. Thanks to last night drinks he felt a little distracted to that kind of thought. The one that caused his life so much pain and miserable. But of course it comes with a little price. The damn headache. Well, they say no pain no gain.

Zero already woke up not too early that morning but still even had time to prepare a simple breakfast for him and Kaname. He just chopped potatoes into cubes, sprinkled it with salts and seasonings then he heated it in a microwave for five minutes. He also boiled some water and just as the kittle whisthled to indicate that it is boiled that he had heard it. It's not loud enough but using his vampire senses he can heard Kaname's groaned. "oh, he's already awake" he mutterd to himself. I better checked on him.

"Ohayo.." he peeked as he opened his room's door. Kaname already know that Zero was coming but still not moving from his current position. "Ohayo, Zero" just as Kaname reply his greeting that he only come closer to his bed. "Kaname, how are you feeling?" he asked in concened. "I'm fine apart from my head that feel like shit right now" he frowned but smiled a bit. Zero laughed a little too. "I'll make you a cup of tea for your head. So come to kitchen for a breakfast." he gave his smiled to Kaname before walked out from his bedroom. "mm..'kay" Kaname mumbled. He needed to used bathroom first before take his breakfast. He smelled like an alcohol that he decided to take a quicked shower. He didn't bring any clothings with him other that the one he was wearing as this is not a planned sleepover. Well, he didn't mind wearing Zero's and Zero won't mind either. They have been bestfriends that on the best term for years now, they have used each other things, borrowing and lending. He opened up Zero's wardrobe, there's not much cloths as his massive wardrobe are but there's still plenty of it to choose. He picked a simple red shirt and a black checked boxer.

He felt fresh and smelled good and the cool shower subsided his hammering headache. He came to the kitchen and walked towards a jug of water on the benchtops. He poured it into a glass full. "Here takes some honey. It'll help." Zero handed over a small jar of honey. Honey contains quite enough of fructose which speed up the metabolism of alcohol. He took a spoonful of honey, licked his lips to clean the remaining sweet taste. He then drank the water that he poured, he doesn't even matter to mind his good manner in font of Zero as the water dripped from the corner of his mouth. Zero didn't realised that he was staring at Kaname. He finds it kinda handsomely sexy when he saw Kaname with his still damp hairs and added by the water that leaked from his mouth. His heart burning with love just how the apple-red shirt that Kaname's wearing. He can't helped it when Kaname just so damn inhumanly beautiful. His mind drooling over it. " There's something on my face?" Kaname asked. Just now that he snapped back to his reality and he blushed a bit. But his mind was also quicked to make up for the answer. "Yes...Th-there's water dripping..Seriously Kaname the others will be surprised when they saw you like this." he stuterred but his tone was somewhat a bit serious.(A/N: well just how he really was in anime). "but right now there's only you and me" Kaname felt amused by Zero's statement. "Riiiight.." and Zero turned his back on Kaname to take the potatoes out of the microwave. 'tch.. how can he say that "but right now there's only you and me"' he tought. Unintentionally it will only caused Zero's heart screamed in pain for it to be true. Wish that Kaname really see only him.

They ate their breakfast as they waiting for Seiren to come and bring Kaname's suits for him to go to his work. After Kaname left, Zero also left his home and went to hunters headquarter to write his report on last mission.

One week.

Two weeks.

Three weeks.

A month. A month had pass. In the past his mood swing only last a few days. But the depression become more worst with each new attack. And this time it was almost unbearable. Kaname gets sleeping disorder. Whether in the morning, afternoon or at night he can't get the sleep he wanted so much. Even if he managed to sleep he'll be waking up in an hour or less. Then he will be tossing over the bed to find the peace to fall into slumber again. He didn't get enough rest for his body and mind.

Some other people, when under great pressure or stress, they might consumed as many food as they can just to forget the sadness. But not with Kaname, he didn't has any appetite to eat. He just ate only a little bit to keep him going like one quarter of the meal he usually had and once a day when he normally take three course of meals. It was like he got a digestive disorder sometimes, because even when he felt hungry, he could not seem to settle the food down in his stomach. He feels nausea sometimes when he ate a little bit more. Therefore he was accustomed with a little food intake when in reality his body was weakening.

Somehow even in state he was in, he still managed to get himself into work. But he always daydreaming, unfocused almost all the time, his mind blanked at some time, he only barely made it. Thanks to Yuuki sometimes take over more of his work and with his always by his side and as efficient as ever Seiren, things at Ku Ran Cooperation was doing good as always.

Yuuki can see that this time it was really wrong to let him be. She was beyond worried about her nii-sama well being. He looks so weak with his body frame went thinner, he's losing his weight a lot in a month. No matter how many time she tried to help him, Kaname will declined or just shoved her off. She was fed up now that she decided to call Zero for help. She took out her phone and dialled the number. It only took the third ringings when Zero voice's was heard on the other end of line, "hello?" he greeted. "Zero! It's me." Yuuki called his name with a little bit of hurried in her tone. "oh, you Yuuki, what do you need?" he asked knowing that Yuuki always asked for his help on whatever things that she might need. "Are you busy?" Yuuki enquired first. "Not at the moment, I just turn in my report in the HA. So what do you called for?" he said. "it's Kaname niisama-" not letting she finished her sentence Zero interrupted, "Kaname?! What's with him?" his tone a bit worked up upon hearing his precious friend. " emm.. it's like his depression is getting worst that his well being is deterioting too, I'm so worried, he don't want me to help not with Aidou or Takuma either. So i think you might want to help him he may listened to you. Please, just take him out and talk to him, make him out of this mess." her voice's were almost on the burst of tears. Even without her neediness, he will do it absolutely. He'll do it for himself, for his precious sister and also his childhood bestfriend, but most of all it was for his beloved friend that he love so much. "hey, shhh.. it's okay I'll do it, you know how much I love him right. I'll call him later, so don't worry, everything will be alright. I'll promise okay?" he assured her. "Okay, thank you Zero". "hey, no need to thanks me i'll do whatever I can even without you telling me to." Zero told her. After a couple of exchanged words they bid their goodbye over the phone.

Just after he hung up on Yuuki, he quickly dialled Kaname's number. Zero invited Kaname to his home that night. Luckily without any rejection or whatsoever that he might say to the others.

Actually Kaname didn't think much about it, he accepted it on the whim. He want to enjoy some times hopefully. He tired of everything now. He was exhausted physically and mentally. Pain was always there. Never in second did the pain stop. The burning in his heart and his mind. It was worser at night, maybe the darkness of the night added more the dark pain in his heart. He had no rest, his chest tighten and he felt like he couldn't breathe sometimes.

Everytime he close his eyes he see Allen in front of him. He can still hear his voice calling out his name. And he remember all the stories he told him. He miss the time he was around, miss him so badly.

But he'd got to stop the tears, keep his faith and be strong. He'll try to take it all even though it's so hard. He see him in his dream but when he wake up he were gone.

Night and day, he still feel he was close to him. But life is not the same and it would never be the same without him. There were days when he had no strength to go on. He felt so weak and he just couldn't help asking why.

Love hurts when it was unrequited. But love hurts the most when you were left after in a relationship. There was no way you can handle it alone after you taste the happiness being together in love with your partner. It's killing him slowly. He's drowning in the sea of broken heart. He want to scream and cry it out, but now no more tears will be able be drawn because it hurts too much.

The night came. Zero was almost done preparing the dinner enough to feed four person even though it was only for both Kaname and him. Zero like to eat a lot but he still looks fit with all the missions going on, his body balance it out. And then the door bell rang, "Ding Dong!". "Coming~" Zero called out. He ran to get the door and opened it. Smile was on his face, "Kaname". "Hye, it's been a while now" he too smiled at Zero. But something was off, everything about him was dull like there's never been colours in his life. "Wow, you look... worst. Well, come in I just need to heat up mushroom soups and then we dine in." He walked back to his mini kitchen but full of everyday's need. "Cool, I'm really hungry now that I smell the food you're making." Kaname remarked as he closed the door behind him. True, Kaname was really hungry. Despite the simple food that Zero made will be very very tasty, Zero's cooking is his favorite all the time. He sat at one of the stools at the kitchen bench that was already serve with a bottle of red wine, spaghetti, garlic breads, chicken wings, and the coming mushroom soups. They were all mouth-watering. When Zero settled on his seat they begin their meal. "Let's dig in." Zero said before he curling the spaghetti on his fork.

Kaname ate a bit slower in pace. Zero noticed this, "something wrong with my cooking?"he asked. "uh, no, they were as good as always. It just that I'm easily full recently." kaname replied. "Tch, you're the one who said that you were hungry, but you only a little, you better eat some more, no wonder you look thinner." he was worried actually, but said it in worked up tone. Kaname managed to eat more than he can take usually on these days.

After dinner, they sat on the couch and watched an action movie. They talked about many thing at the beginning of the movie but went quiet when the plot thicken. But Kaname didn't really into it at the moment, he was developing a heading since the morning, and his mind wandered off from the tv screen. Again he was reminiscing of the past when he and his ex-lover watching movie, the first time they were holding hands was on their second date in the dark cinema yet romantic in their on world. Pain spreading in his heart to his soul, he felt really really sad at the memory. A memory that seems like an illusion by now. His face may don't show how he suffers at the time, but his hand showed it when he accidently broke the glass on his palm. "Kaname!" Zero was suprised at the crushing of the glass break, but what really worried him was when the smell of blood dripping down hit the air. Not just any other blood , but his source of life, his beloved's blood. "Are you okay?" he asked in concern. "huh? oh. Yeah.." Kaname didn't seem to registered what was going on, what he knows was the pain in his heart not on his hand. Some of the glass pieces were stucked in his palm. "let me get that out" Zero pointed them on his hand. He was healing but blood still drawing out where the glass pieces were. The blood was rushing out at a fast rate. That's what really worried Zero. Zero's not really need the blood right now but the smells really appetizing. But he can control it well right now. He's not going to attack at his weakened friend. He got all the pieces out and cleaned Kaname's hand with a damp towel. When he finished doing it, he saw that Kaname's body slump on the couch, "Kaname, you're okay?". No respond. He tried again, "Kaname". The same.

Kaname's head became more dizzily and he couldn't see nor he heard Zero clearly. He's gone into a catatonic state, he don't have any strenght to reply a word to Zero. He felt cold at the blood loss. His eyelids feel heavy that he wanted to sleep.

His vision blackened.

The darkness consumed him completely.

And he passed out.

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