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Zero put him to his bed and tucked him in till under his chin. Kaname's body felt cold maybe dueto the blood lost. Sleeping might help him to restore his blood count. But unknown to him, Kaname have not been able to take enough blood tablets. He only took one when he should taken at least two tablets on every healthy meals and once a day for the worst as he keeps skipping his meal. He felt nausea just like it did when he ate too much. Zero brushed Kaname's bangs to the sides and kissed lightly on his forehead. "sleep well, kaname". Hopefully.

His phone ringings, that Zero went out of his beddroom to answer his call. "hello? Oh, master. What's up?" he enquired. "hye, Zero, Kaien asked for your present tomorrow." Yagari responded. " what? What for? I already turn in the report." Zero protested. "Yeah, you submitted it without seeing him. I guess he just wanted to see you. Haha." Yagari teased his former student. "Huuuh, okay, okay. And I have something to tell him too." he sighed but gave in or Kaien will keep pestering him to come over and see him.

Zero swept the floor where the glass broke before just to make sure there was no remaining glass. Once cleaned, Zero slump over the couch. He was tired from the missions. He is going to take a break. Maybe a long one, and that is what he need to tell Kaien tomorrow. He wants to spend some time with Kaname, he don't want to let him alone at this moment of weakness. He wants to be always be there for him, for him to count on me. That' how a friend should be, and a lover should be.

As he lied on the couch his mind wonder off to think about Kaname. Whenever he sleepover here, Kaname always slept on the couch where he was on. While he take the couch on the other side. But today, he put him on the bed wishing a comfy goodnight rest for Kaname. He can saw the darkened panda eyes under his eyes. He wondered when was the last time Kaname get a proper full good sleep. Zero fall into a deep sleep not too long after that, as his body need the rest from a tiring day.

On the other side of the room, unknown to the silverette, Kaname was fussing over the bed. Another bad dream had occur to him again. The dream doesn't need to be exactly the same way it happened in the past but, almost the same conversations with the same person. Only the places or surrounding was different, maybe it was the combination from his memory and his illusion, the unspoken words that he keep deep in his heart or the feelings that he never had chance to express. He was the type to go on with whatever his lover wanted just to ensure he was happy with him in a relationship.

"No, no.. not this, you said everything is gonna be alright, and there's nothing for me to pressure or worry about. I know some terrible things happenend, and you're ex-girlfriend wanted to go back with you. And you wanted some time to think of the solution, I gave you on don't be like this, I thought you had figure it out. But in the you have come to this? You are going to leave me? You're a liar. I know you promised her to be always waiting for her even though she's gone with another man. But you also had promise me on that December night to never leave my side, to never betrayed me. She already had her chances but she lost it. This should be my turn now. Why did you bother to keep the old promises and have to break ours. She doesn't deserve you and I don't deserve to be treat like this not after I saved you from what she did to you. This is wrong, you are all that I wanted." Kaname never really cried in front of him, only tears that threatening to fall but, his voices showed how his heart was crying all over his words.

Yeah, he was not crying in the dream, back in reality when he came to consciousness he found tears streaming down his face. He was definitely crying.

I embraced the words that I want to express from the very bottom of my my heart...

Why can't I honestly tell them to you?

I love you, is the most I want say.

Why do my tears spill over like this?

How I wish you came to know these tears as well.

I know you're not gone, you just can't be gone.

He closed his eyes as if to stop the tears from running down. He can't deceived himself, he know the best that he is gone. He sighed a long big sigh. He looked at the watch on his arm, it was half past two in the morning, it was a long way for the sun to rise. He won't be able to sleep now that his mind can't relax. Even if he does he still woke up after twenty minute for the most, it was hard to fall back to sleep. It was like he was also afraid to fall asleep again when there's a chance for him to be present in his dreams again.

That morning Zero was awoken by a buzz vibrate plus message tone. He groggily took his mobile phone on the side table where he put it last night. He read it and groaned in annoyance. The message was from his master reminding him to come over to headquarter to see the president. 'As if I would forgot' he thought. He just threw his phone slightly to his side not bothering to send a reply. He walked towards his bedroom to check on Kaname. He opened the door and saw that Kaname was still asleep. He went back to his kitchen to make breakfast before he go to see Kaien. He want to go there and back as fast as he can. He want to be with Kaname when he's awake.

Actually Kaname had only been asleep for about twenty minutes. Sometimes only when the sun rises then he can get a little bit of peaceful sleep. Well he is a vampire to begin with, but accustomed to human living lifestyle in order to blend into their society. Kaname woke up again as if he was having another bad dream but he can't remember anything, just the pain remain in his heart. 'Morning had come and I need to go to work' he thought. He rose from the bed and stand to walk but before he can take a step foward his vision became blackened by a sudden movement. He fell off backward to the bed. He waited for his vision to coming back again before he tried to stand again and slowly this time. When it subsided, he realised that he had a headache and much more tired than last night. But he just ignored it and went out of the room.

Zero was startled from the sound of a door clicked open. "Oh, Kaname you're up." Zero eyed him from head to toes. He looked more tired than usual, " why don't you sleep in a bit more" he added.

"Ohayo, Zero. Nah, I ha-'uhhum'-ve to attend my business." his voice cracked as if not using it for a while. His throat felt dried and a bit itchy. Zero poured a glass-full of water and handed it to Kaname, "here". "thanks" he muttered. "heh.., but you don't look that well to me. Maybe you should take a day rest." Zero suggested and above all he was just worried about his friend well-being. "No, works are waiting for me." Kaname reasoned. " They can wait" Zero tried to protest. "No, I have to attend a meeting later" he countered. "..." Zero just look at him, he keep quiet but not in defeat but just trying to accept things that against his will, "fine" he ended the debate.

"But eat your breakfast before you go." he offered but take no rejection as an option. "'kay" Kaname agreed not to offend him any more than their debate before.

They ate their breakfast silently, not an awkward but a comfortable silent. After a while Zero chose to break the calmity. "By the way, I'm going to hunter association to see Kaien later." he waited for Kaname to listen attentively before he continued, "and I'm taking days off. So, maybe I will drop by to your offce for lunch?" he told Kaname. "Oh, yeah, sure you are welcome." Kaname smiled heartily. He was glad that Zero still want to spend his time with him even though they just had a little disagreement earlier. No matter what Zero never walk away from him. "and send my regard to Kaien then."

Zero went to the headquarter as promised that day. He went straight to see the hunter president. He opened the door and saw his foster father looked up at him from his big desk. "Zero-kuuun~~" he whined, he then ran towards him and in attempt to hug his so-called son but failed as Zero avoided skillfully and ended up hugging the thin air instead. "so what do you call me about?" Zero asked a bit irritetedly. "aah, why are mad about, you submitted your report without seeing me. I want to see you~, don't you missed me too?~" . "not really..". Kaien cut his words and whined " huu... Zero is so cold~~ Yagariiiii Zero's being a meanie~" His master showed up just before he can finished his sentence. Yagari eyed him with an eyebrow up. Zero just looked at them innocently. He sighed. Kaien has always been the childish chairman of Cross academy whenever he's around them. Only with the present of other fellow hunter did he masked it with a serious hunter mode. "Zero, would you like to have lunch with us later?" the eyepatch master asked. "Yeah.., why don't you join us?" the chairman added with glistening eyes. "No, I already have my plan." Zero rejected firmly. "Huh? Since when do you have plan? You'll only stuck up in your bedroom sleeping." Yagari eyed him suspiciously. "I really do, I wanna have lunch with Kaname later." he defenced. "Oh, how is he doing?" Kaien asked. "Not really goood at the moment, so I don't wanna let him be alone. And he sent you a regard." he told them. "Okay then, go to your vampire boyfriend." his master teased. Yagari don't really hate the Kurans but he's not fonds of them either. "He's not. We're just a goodfriend. Anyway, I want to tell you that I'm taking a week break." he said to both of them. "oh, okay since you rarely taking days off." the hunter president approved. Zero then left them and walked his way out.

Kaname went to his office that day. He really felt tired but managed to convince Zero that he's okay. Seiren accompanied his master to his office. She noticed his worsened state, "Kaname-sama are you okay?". Kaname didn't pay much attention about his surrounding. "Kaname-sama?" she was worried. Kaname heard it and somehow registered what she's asking about "Yes, I'm fine.". She knew he was lying but just let it passed. When Kaname settled at his huge armchair, he felt dizzy and a bit cold now. He closed his eyes, Seiren took the files on his desk, "Kaname-sama, would you like me to revised this again before you sign it?" she asked, this way she helped his master a bit. "Yes,you may do. And get me a cup of coffee." he ordered.

Takuma visited that day to tell Kaname messages from the Vampire Council and some profitable bussiness that Kaname might interested on. Takuma is also inherited bussiness that his grandfather built up since they were the most highest family of the vampire aristocrats below the Purebloods families. And to his grandfather great influenced Takuma is also a member of Vampire Council despite the young age. But again, because he is young often the elderlies sometimes look little on his opinion. After talking enough bussiness with Kaname, he turned into the childhood friend of Kaname. He was well concerned of Kaname since the moment he came to his office room. Kaname sometimes pinching his temple while talking before, and he is doing it again now. "Kaname, how are your feeling? Do you need some rest?" he asked worried. "I'm fine, it's just a headache." Kaname told him. But not just a simple headache like the moment he woke up that morning. Now it developed into a massive one. It pounding hard on his head shell. It's really annoying. Feels like he want to smash his head to stop the pain.

It was almost lunch time, when Zero came to Kaname huge building of Ku Ran Cooperation. He walked in straight into Kaname office ignoring some of the stares on him that maybe out of envy on why he is such a level D is an important to their lord. Some may just smile on him respecting him and all. Well he didn't care much to what people think of him. He realised another presence beside Kaname inside the room. He tried to listened what they might talked about, he don't want to walked in if they were in the middle of business. But door went opened at Kaname will as he sensed Zero outside. "You come." Kaname looked at him. "of course I come, I did tell you this morning" Zero answered then his eyes wondered off to the other vampire, "oh, hello Ichijo". Takuma smiles at him "hey, Kiryu, it's been a while". "I am just going to get Kaname out of his work and have lunch that he seems to forget lately" he eyed at Kaname teasily then back to Takuma, "why don't you join us if you dont have any other things to do". Kaname smiles and shook his hate at Zero comment on his poorly eating time. Takuma also smiles and broke into a little laugh "well I'm glad to join".

They all went to the cafeteria and onto a special seats and table that giving them privacy away from the other workers. It was only be used by Kaname when he was having lunch with them or other friends or Yuuki. Kaname prefer to eat at his room when he was alone though. They were chattering about this and that while enjoying their meal. Except for Kaname. He ate really slow and in small portion on his spoon. He don't feel like eating and in addition to his headache, he felt nauseous. Zero noticed that Kaname looked kinda pale and tired from before. He should really tried hard to get him rest that morn ing. "What is it, kaname? Is it not suit your taste?" he asked. "no, it's fine. It's just that I don't feel like eating.". Takuma listened to this attentively since he also worrisome. "But you still need to eat." Zero insisted. "I know, but I can't force it down either" Kaname just played with his food he can't take it in anymore. "hey, are you feeling okay?" Zero was really worried. "I'm fine." yeah, he still can managed this. A little bit more.

To be continue...

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