Chapter four: saying goodbye

EPOV

I never got to say anything to Bella. I thought that if I waited for her to come out of the bathroom it would seem uncharacteristic of me or like a stalker. Everyone had heard the past rumours about Bella and me and I didn't want to encourage them so I went to class.

She never turned up to class. I thought that I would tell her that I wanted to be friends again when she got home from school. I had a speech all planned out in my head except she was tied up with her dad and friends to even think about saying goodbye to me. I thought she would definitely say goodbye to my sister, Alice because they were best friends. But to my surprise she never came over. Alice must have gone over there. I knew Bella was leaving with her mum early in the morning so she would not have anytime to say any goodbyes apart from tonight. I talked to my older brother Emmett about life in general. He brought up the topic of Bella and I just told him that I didn't want to talk about it.

Then Alice walked in and I asked her where she had been.

"Just over at Bella's helping her pack and stuff" she replied. My heart leapt maybe I could get Alice to make Bella see me. But Alice just walked off not saying anything about Bella. This was our custom though, why I thought it would be different this time I will never know. Once Bella and I had stopped being friends Alice and I had an unspoken agreement to not talk about her to each other. I thought that because Bella was leaving this pact would be redundant but I was wrong.

I never got to say goodbye to Bella, and I wish that I had. I wish that I had told her what she meant to me instead of being some scared young boy.

BPOV

I was glad that I broke up with that asshole Mike. I was glad that I would be moving away. I had wasted too many tears over Mike Newton and had decided that tomorrow I start my new life; tomorrow I would no longer be the shy Bella Swan but the new and improved Bella. Tomorrow my life would begin.

I had asked Alice over to help me pack and asked her for her advice on a change. We both had decided to keep in contact and I told her she could come see me anytime.

"Of course I will silly," Alice had told me. "We are going to be friends forever."

I knew however that I could never come back to Fawks. There were too many bad memories. Mike and Edward were the main reasons, Mike especially. I wasn't sure how to feel about Edward. I had talked to Alice about it but she was no help.

"I can see he misses you Bella," she told me.

"I don't think he's capable of missing people Al."

"You don't live with him, he's been a mess since Monday," she responded. "He told me that he's thinking of breaking up with Tanya."

My heart stopped. I don't know why but I felt a tingling feeling throughout my body. Why would he be breaking up with Tanya? They seemed to be getting along fine. Every time I saw them together they would have their tongues down each other's throats. It made me sick every time I walked passed them together. I decided to change the topic and told Alice I was thinking of changing my look. She squealed and hugged me and told me that I could not leave without her help first. So we spent the rest of the night going through my wardrobe and planning things I should buy. She told me what my image should be and made a list of brands I should buy.

It was finally time for Alice to leave, it was time to say goodbye. We both hugged each other and told the other that we would stay in touch. She told me to call her anytime I was shopping to get her advice. I laugher and then we said our goodbyes.

My thoughts then went to Edward, I wanted to say goodbye to him but thought that too much time had passed between us and that our friendship could not be mended. I looked next door; all the lights were off, meaning everyone was asleep. Thus my mind was made up, I was not going to say goodbye to my ex-best friend. I dwelled on my decision but never got enough courage to walk over there and tell Edward that I wanted to be friends again and to keep in touch. I knew that I would indirectly know what he was up to through Alice but it didn't stop that horrible feeling.

I decided to go to bed; I would be travelling tomorrow and needed the rest. Just as I was about to go to sleep I whispered "goodbye Edward, I will miss you."

EPOV

I whispered as I drifted off to sleep, "Bye Bella, till we meet again."

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