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Chapter 5: the move part one

BPOV

Alice would come and visit me every summer. We were always in contact with each other. It was great to see her, I realised how much I missed my life back in Forks. I even missed Edward. He was my best friend and my relationship with Mike tore us apart. I didn't know exactly why Edward didn't like Mike, I guessed that it was because he thought I could do better. This turned out to be true once I found out that Mike had been cheating on me for the most part of our relationship. I didn't understand why he would cheat on me, and I would ask myself everyday. Was I not pretty enough? Was I not skinny enough? Was it because I wouldn't give him what he wanted? Did he just want me for sex and because I wouldn't give it to him he decided to go elsewhere?

It was a horrible feeling, finding out your boyfriend had been with someone else for the nearly the entire time we were together. I knew that Edward was different, he would have never had done something like that. I had always seen a gentleman in Edward, even when he was with Tanya. But I had never thought of Edward romantically. We had nearly kissed one night when we were 13 but Alice interrupted. It's funny but I still remember that night.

I was sleeping over at the Cullen's house and Edward, Alice and I decided to camp out in their lounge room. We had 3 blown up beds in front of the television and I was in the middle. We were in sleeping bags and before we got comfortable Alice decided to go to the bathroom leaving Edward and I alone. It was normal for us to be alone, we were best friends but something was different that night, there was static in the air that made the hairs on my arms stand up. I still remember the tingling feeling throughout my body.

I decided to zip up my sleeping bag but it got caught. As I was trying to untangle it Edward gabbed it and fixed it. I didn't realise how close we were, I could feel his breath on my face. I looked up at him and our faces were inches apart. I saw him look at my lips then back to my eyes, before I knew it we were both leaning towards each other and just when we were mere centre metres from each other we heard Alice walking towards the room asking us what we wanted to watch on television. Edward and I had separated instantly but I never forgot the feeling I had from being in such close proximity to him. I had never had that feeling before and now that I look back I have never had that feeling again. Edward and I acted as if nothing happened, we were best friends and neither of us was going to ruin it over a near kiss. We never spoke of that day again.

Alice and I had decided not to talk about Edward after one of her visits. One summer when we were 16, Alice was staying over and we were getting ready for a party. I had asked how everything was at home and she gave me an exasperated look. I inquired what the look was about and she said it was a long story.

"Really Bella its nothing, it's just hard to live with Edward sometimes" she had said.

"Come on Alice I know something is wrong just tell me."

"Ok but you're not going to like it."

She had told me that since I left Edward had changed. He had dumped Tanya right after I left, which I already knew, but after that he never really dated anyone. He had been having girls over at the house and they would wake the whole family in the middle of the night. I could only conclude as to what they were doing, Alice never actually said the words. It sounded as if Edward had become a whole different person. The Edward that was my best friend would never do something like this. Now he had his whole family hating him. She went on about his conquests until I stopped her and told her I didn't want to hear about Edward again. That was the last time that I had heard about his life.

Alice continued to stay during the summer and we would catch up on our lives but we would never mentioned Edward. I had told her about my boyfriend Jacob when we were 18 but that didn't last through college. Jacob and I had fun but it was never really anything serious, I was still a little scarred from Mike. Every time I went out with a guy I would think that they would cheat one me. I would doubt myself all the time, until I told Alice one day of my fears. She set me straight.

"Mike is a loser that will never make it" she had reassured me. "He isn't even going to go to college. He's going to stay in Forks all his life and work at the store. Mike will never move on with his life, he will always be that same 14 year old boy that cheated on one of the kindest, caring, beautiful girls." I felt so much better after Alice had set me straight. That let me open up and I started to date again.

First they would be just to see if I could take it, but then I met Jacob. He was tall and good-looking. We started dating when I was 17. We had a lot of fun together. He made me have more faith in men. I was attracted to him, but there was never a spark between us, I never had a feeling in my heart that he was the one. Once I started college and he started working at a garage as a mechanic, we would see less and less of each other. It was then that we decided that it was better if we let go of each other. It was fun while it lasted but I knew that he was not my soul mate.

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