Chapter 6: the move part two

EPOV

It had been a few years since Bella had moved away and I felt empty. It was like I was lost but the only problem was that I had no idea why I had this feeling. It was new to me and I didn't know what to make of it. I had asked my brother Emmett but he had just shrugged it off as teen drama.

After Bella had left I broke up with Tanya and to be serious I never saw a future with her, we had a lot of fun but it was just a high school fling. I didn't really care for her. Sure we had made out in front of the whole school but that was just a show. I knew that Tanya was just using me to get to Mike so I wasn't surprised that as soon as we were over she became the new notch on Mike Newton's bedpost. I thought that it was strange that I didn't even feel anything when I had found out that she had moved on so fast. Even when I saw them together I had no reaction, I just kept living like it was any other day. I just kept telling myself that it meant that I never really had feelings for her. I also thought about how I felt when I found out that Mike was cheating on Bella, I didn't know what to make of it. I felt nothing when Tanya moved on but when Bella was cheated on I felt angry. I just shrugged it off.

Alice and I had grown closer over time. Every summer Alice would visit Bella and every time she would come back with a smile. It was as if she knew something that I didn't- like a secret. She would never tell me what happened whenever she would see Bella- our agreement was still in force. It gave me a sad feeling that I couldn't know how Bella was doing and what was going on in her life. But I guess my right to that went when we stopped being friends. I never really realised how much I really missed her.

After a couple of years I decided that I couldn't live anymore with this empty feeling. That is when I changed my life for the worse. I had hit on most of the girls at school. I knew the effect I had on women and flaunted it. I had multiple one-night stands but nothing would ever get rid of the empty feeling. It was when Alice stopped talking to me that I decided to change back.

One summer she had gone to visit Bella and didn't even say goodbye. We were about 18 at the time and about to enter college. I knew that Alice would tell Bella about me and was ashamed that she would find out what I had become – a man whore and it had to stop. When Alice came home from Bella's she wouldn't even look me in the eye and then a few nights latter she cracked.

"What are you thinking Edward?" she had asked. "This is not the real you!" she yelled.

"I know," I whispered.

"I told Bella about your exploits" that was the moment when my heart stopped- Bella actually knew about my bad behaviour and that had set me into action. However Alice continued on with her rant.

"She doesn't want to hear anything about you again," she told me. I hadn't even realised that Alice and Bella would talk about me. I had thought that they had a similar agreement to Alice and I with regards to talking about her.

I had begun making a plan in my head of how to change back to the boy I was when I was Bella's best friend, the only difference now was that I was a man.

The next day I set my plan into motion. I severed all ties with my regular one-night a week girls. I had looked at myself from an outsider view and didn't like what I saw. I was like the main character in that movie 'Made of Honour'. I had a girl for every night, but I didn't have a best friend to talk to and spend my Sundays with. Just remembering that film made me feel sick. I felt sick for two reasons. First was because I looked at what I had become and hated myself for it and secondly was that I could actually remember one of the films Alice had dragged me to.

I decided that I would be a new man by the time I started college. I had decided that I would stay away from girls for a while until I was ready to have a real relationship, one that lasted beyond a night.

My summer went by quickly. I had hardly seen any of my 'friends.' Some of the girls would call me up and beg me to come over to their place but I refused. I wasn't going to give in, I didn't like who I had become and didn't want to revert back to it. Most of my summer was spent preparing for college. Alice and I had decided to go to Harvard. We both had always dreamed of going there and once our acceptance letters came in the mail we were packing our bags. Our dad was very proud of us. He had gone to Harvard and received his medical degree there. He wanted me to follow in his footsteps but I didn't have the passion for medicine. Alice also didn't have the passion for medicine but decided to have a career in her pet love- fashion. Alice had decided that she wanted to design and own a label that everyone would want to wear. Alice had an eye for fashion so I knew that she would succeed.

We had decided to live off campus in a flat about a five-minute drive to the campus. Dad had decided to buy us both a car for a graduation present. I had remembered that he had done the same thing with Emmett the previous year so I wasn't really surprised when he said our cars would be waiting for us at college. Both Alice and I however had no idea what sort of car we would be getting.

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