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"Darcy," Clare asked hesitantly as she tried to get her sister's attention, " Can you drive me over to Adam's for the weekend?"
Darcy hesitated because she honestly wasn't sure if her little sister should be away from home for the entire weekend. Clare was starving herself and her older sister knew but how could she approach her, that was the hard part. " I guess I can Clare-Bear. I just want us to talk when you get back alright?"
" Sure." Clare smiled softly.
Adam had gotten everything ready for Clare's weekend stay. The pullout couch was made up of warm blankets and soft pillows and there were DVDs everywhere, but no food as of right now because he didn't want to freak his best friend out.
" What are you doing dude?" Drew asked when he saw the basement.
Adam rolled his eyes because Drew's memory sucked, " Clare's spending the weekend here and you are going to be on your best behavior."
Drew scrunched his face up at Adam because he had never once been rude to Clare, he barely even talked to her at all. " I promise to hide in my bedroom all night alright?"
Clare got out of Darcy's car, carrying her huge bag as she went up to the Torres House.
"So glad to have you Clare." Adam smiled happily as he pulled his small friend into his arms. "We're going to occupy the basement , Drew refuses to leave."
They cuddled onto the couch Adam holding Clare close. " Can I ask you something?"
Clare bit her bottom lip, nervous as to what her best friend was going to tell her but nodded all the same.
"Have you been starving yourself?" Adam asked softly, looking into the deep blue eyes. " You can tell me the truth I promise I will never judge you Clare."
It wasn't about him judging her because she'd been judging herself more harshly than anyone else ever could. If she didn't tell someone what was going on with her soon she was going to crash and burn and she couldn't do that, not now. " I never meant for it to go this far Adam. "
"Just try to make me understand Clare."
" Everything in my life was falling apart and I didn't understand what was happening around me. I just wanted to be in control of something, but now it has control of me."
Adam knew what the need for control was like, probably better than anyone else, when he was Gracie he would always resort to burning himself. Clare wasn't supposed to have the emotional scars like he did. Clare was good, Clare was pure, Clare would never intentionally hurt any person but she would hurt herself.
" Listen to me Clare Edwards," Adam grabbed her by the shoulders and looked into the ice blue eyes "you told me that I was good enough, that I didn't have to change. I love you Clare and I wish you could see what I did ,that you are so incredibly beautiful."
Clare wiped her eyes and looked into the hazel eyes in front of her, " Adam I don't want to do this anymore."
If Clare was asking for help Adam wasn't going to deny her but he had no idea how to help her, he was after all a fifteen year old boy. " Do you want to speak to a therapist about it or maybe that guidance counselor at school?"
" I can't talk about it to anyone but you A-" Clare froze as she was speaking with Adam, she had just remember an old friend of her sister's who had suffered from anorexia. " I know who I can talk to Adam."
"That's good Clare, that's really good."
Clare smiled and squeezed his hand gently, " I have to apologize to Eli. I was a little rude and I think I hurt his feelings Adam but I didn't mean to."
Clare was like a little sister and Adam couldn't help but ruffle her hair. " We've been talking for a while he isn't mad just worried ClareBear, we both are."
Clare smiled for what felt like the first time in weeks, "What do you want to do right now?"
"Do you want to get something to eat? If you don't want to it's okay but I'm really hungry."
Eating was scary, giving up that control she had been holding on to was absolutely terrifying but she had to try something. " I can't make any promises but I'll try to eat something."
The friends walked up to the kitchen and Clare was slightly nervous when she saw Drew sitting there eating. Adam seemed to be babbling about some kind of chicken his mother had made and something about a pasta salad but Clare couldn't pay attention when Drew was looking at her like he was.
" Clare are you even listening to me!?" Adam huffed " Drew quit staring at her. Clare do you want Grilled Chicken and Pasta salad ?"
" Sure Adam."
Drew was watching her as she started to poke her food with the fork ,it looked appetizing but she was so afraid to gain weight or to lose the very little bit of perfection she thought she had.
"Are you going to eat that or just poke at it?" Drew asked, finally speaking to her.
Adam glared at his brother but gave his best friend an encouraging nod.
For the first time in weeks Clare ate a meal and she was surprised when her world didn't crash down all around her. The problems she had were not cured she still didn't feel good about eating a meal and not purging , but she did feel stronger and she would get through this.
Adam was snoring and Clare could not sleep. The girl found Drew in the living room watching tv and eating what appeared to be a ginormous bowl of ice cream. "Do you mind if I sit here with you, Adam is snoring."
Drew let out a chuckle but motioned for her to sit next to him on the large sofa. He turned to look at his brother's best friend, " The titanic is on and I'm watching so don't tell anybody."
"I won't." She whispered leaning her head back to get more comfortable.
The y watched the movie in comfortable silence for a while before a commercial cam on and Drew hit mute, turning to look at Clare." So do you really not think you're not beautiful?" he asked looking her directly in the eyes, this was a serious question and he wanted a serious answer.
"No, girls like my older sister and Alli are pretty girls."
Drew looked at her deeply " I think you're crazy. I think you're one of the prettiest girls at Degrassi. I think you're the type of girl that doesn't need to wear mini skirts or a lot of makeup to be beautiful because you just are. I really like Alli and she's beautiful but you're a quiet kind of beauty like a sunset."
Clare couldn't help but blush even if she didn't believe what Drew had to say, "That's really nice Drew."
Drew smirked at her and reached over to ruffle her auburn curls, "It's the truth kiddo."
" I'm only a year younger than you and Adam 's in the same grade."
" Adam considers you his little sister so by association that makes you my little sister."
Maybe Alli had been so wrong about Drew after all. Drew was a straightforward person and didn't care if he offended anyone, that was a trait that Clare did not have and certainly wished she could possess.
They talked for a few hours and Drew promised to be the best older brother that she never had and she was incredibly grateful. They both fell asleep on the sofa with Clare's feet near Drew's chest and Drew's feet near Clare's face.
When they woke up in the morning Clare said she would be gone for a few hours but she promised to be back that night. The boys were reluctant to let her go but they wanted her to speak with whoever it was that would help her overcome her disease.
The house was charming with it's blue shutters and bright red door it felt like a home and Clare couldn't help but feel happy for the couple that lived inside. Hesitantly she knocked on the door biting her nails and hopping that her sister's old acquaintance would be willing to help her.
" Little Clare Edwards can that be you?" A familiar voice asked pulling open the door to get a good look at the little Edwards.