Releasing myself from Eli's embrace I felt slightly better but, still very broken. Not once did Billy leave my mind but, I knew I had to move on no matter what the cost was. "I'll see you tomorrow Jane and remember if you ever need a shoulder to cry on or anything I am here for you." I couldn't help but, smile Eli was sweet and was being so kind to me when I felt the world was a cruel place. "I'll definitely remember that, see you tomorrow goodnight Eli." I turned around not sure of how I was feeling.

After what felt like forever I was finally home and getting ready to crawl under the sheets and never come out. I saw that Ben wanted to talk about what was bothering me but, I wasn't up to it. So many thoughts were going through my mind. I wasn't sure why I felt this way there was no doubt in my mind I was in love with Billy but, maybe Eli could be my distraction. Just as I was about to turn my light off and close my eyes I heard a slight tap on my window.

"Jane, open up." Why was Billy here with me instead of Zoe and wasn't the cast party still going on? This huge unsettling pit formed in my stomach and the tears were back but, this time seeing him I wasn't sure if I could hold them back any longer. I slowly unsurely opened up my window letting Billy in and not sure how to end this.

"Why aren't you at the cast party, I was sure you would be there celebrating with "your cinderella" Billy sensed my un comfort. i noticed him tense up a little bit and I could also, see in his eyes he was hurt. "Tell, me Jane when were you going to tell me more about Eli?" I couldn't believe this he was interrogating me about Eli at a moment like this.

"What about Eli Billy I'm sorry I didn't get the memo that you needed to know about him." I was gaining an attitude and at this point I couldn't care less I was hurt and furious.

"I saw you! You guys were together in the parking lot just tell me one thing are you guys together?" I just can't believe this. "No, he's my friend nothing more plus, he slept with India while we were together and I just I only want to be friends with him." Being face to face with Billy I realized my feelings for Eli were long gone. "Is that what you came here for? You left the cast party and Zoe just to find out if i was secretly hooking up with Eli behind your back?" He was getting frustrated. "When did you become so distant Janey?" That hurt because little did he know that he was the one pulling away from our friendship. "Really because last time I checked we were just friends so i shouldn't have to get your permission to see anyone."

I needed him to leave I couldn't deal with this. The tears were starting to flow and my hands were shaking. "Janey, I'm sorry I just.. I care about you.. I never meant to get you this upset.." I was later going to regret this but, "Just leave Billy, it's best for the both of us if we just take some time apart. You have Zoe now and I need to start figuring out more about myself." Now he was the one with the tears pouring out. "What are you saying?" He said with a shaky voice through his tears. "I can't... be around you right now.. please just leave."

Billy knew that begging was pointless and headed out into the night turning around once more looking devastated and a complete wreck with pleading eyes he looked away and vanished... What had I done?

xxxxx Couldn't help myself so I decided to post chapter 2. Enjoy :)