Jane's P.O.V
I wasn't sure what was worse not knowing about my past with Billy or knowing.. I had my chance with him and I blew it. All I kept hearing in my head was "It's you Janey." At least now I know my feelings with him were real and justifiable. I was so confused at the moment I wanted to push Billy away because I couldn't deal with the pain of not being romantically involved with him, but then look where that got me last time. My memory wasn't fully back but for some odd reason all my memories of Billy were restored. From the day we met in third grade to me confessing I love him at his doorstep. He must really love that other girl because he didn't say I love you back or even chase after me. Ugh I feel like this is one long nightmare that I can't seem to wake up from. At least Ben would keep Billy away from the house tonight so I would have time to pull myself together.
Billy's P.O.V
God I missed Janey.. The way her eyes would twinkle when she laughed or how she would lightly blush every time she received a compliment. Why was she pushing me away? I wanted to help and she knows that I would do anything to help her. I proved it since seeing her in the hospital. Everything is just so confusing. I keep thinking back to when I saw her on my doorstep before her accident. The pain evident all over her face and her rushed I love you. Oh what I would give to redo that moment and run after her in the rain and tell her I loved her too and then we would've lived happily ever after instead of in this tragic nightmare. When Ben told me Jane didn't want to see me it was like a knife had stabbed my heart a million times. No matter how bad things were with me and Jane she never actually requested for me to stay away. I wanted so badly to just ignore her request and go take care of her but what good would that do when she obviously isn't interested in anything I have to stay. I guess I'll make sure to keep my distance no matter how hard it is. They say when you love something you should set it free and if it comes back to you then it was meant to be. I'm not sure if I wanted to apply that to our situation but it was the only thing to do. I love Janey so I need to let her go. I would never stop caring about her though. I would always protect her no matter what but this time just from a distance. I didn't even realize it but I had started to break down. I ran to the nearest janitor's closet and collapsed to the ground sobbing. I needed her.
Jane's P.O.V
The stars filled the sky as I stared out my window watching the beautiful nighttime unfold. I'm lost without him and I just feel so alone. I wished he would come to my window and sweep me away just like in those fairytale movies but I had forbidden him to come to my rescue. I was debating to just not tell him about remembering everything. What's the point? I mean it's great that my memory is coming back but none of those memories matter because it's all the past. I was reminded of Billy in everything I looked at. My room smelt of his cologne that he was wearing earlier this morning. It's funny how you can try so hard to get your memory back and when you finally do you wish it could be gone again. I didn't even have work right now to distract me because I was given vacation time. What a nice "vacation" I'm having. I wondered what Billy was doing right now as I noticed a shooting star fly across the sky. I know it's cheesy but I made a wish. I wished for Billy to be happy even if it meant we weren't ever going to be together. He meant the world to me and I was going to need to set him free in order for him to be happy. I didn't know if I could truly do it though. I guess our timing is just always off.
Billy's P.O.V
I felt broken and alone.. I had tearstains all over my white shirt and my eyes were all red from nonstop crying. I took a seat right by my bedroom window and got lost in the beauty of the nighttime sky. Ugh… it shouldn't be this difficult to love someone but nothing is ever simple with Janey and me. Just then a shooting star raced across the sky. I took this chance to make a wish. I wished that Jane would be happy again like she used to be. I wished that whatever was bothering her would just go away and that she would be able to move past it. Little did I know that that wish was the complete opposite of what I wanted to happen…
xxx It makes me so happy to hear that you guys are liking the story. I'm going to try to post a few more chapters but the updates may be a little slow for the next few days. I move into college tomorrow so I'm going to be busy unpacking and getting settled in and I think there may be some activities planned so I won't really be around my computer but I promise as soon as I am online I will post chapters. This story means a lot to me so I will try my best to write at least one chapter a day. Thank you for all your kind reviews! :)