Billy's P.O.V
They say driving takes your mind off of things. Well, that wasn't the case with me. Now I know how Jane must've felt seeing Zoe and me together. I didn't want to come off like a hypocrite but I was wasn't I? It really sucks when you know you are a huge screw up and that there's not one thing you can do to fix it. I can understand completely why Jane didn't automatically want to be with me. I did so many things to hurt her and I was too stupid to realize it. Why couldn't there be a time machine that could help me fix all of this. I thought about how better Jane's life would be if I wasn't there to mess everything up. I really hated myself at the moment. I know I'm definitely not in the right frame of mind. I just couldn't help thinking of me being with Zoe and how I would see Jane looking hurt and upset. Even when I was at the play she came up to me and didn't really say what she needed to say. She ran off. I'm an idiot. I should've realized what me being with Zoe was doing to her but I didn't. I didn't deserve someone as beautiful, smart, funny, talented.. amazing as her and I knew it. I wasn't paying attention to the road and tears started to blur my vision as I thought about how worthless I was. All of a sudden my car was in the direct path heading forward into a collision with oncoming traffic….
xxx I'm so sorry about late update. I've been having roommate problems and stuff and am not having the best week. Thank you all for continuing to read the story. :)