It was evening when James finally returned to 2J. He had been sure that at this time all occupants of the apartment were there so he would not have to face Logan alone. He had been spending his day in the gym and then tanning at the pool without talking to anyone. All day his thoughts had been about Logan and the kiss.

James had felt great during their kiss, Logan was a good kisser and there had been a spark he hadn't felt with anyone before. But he still wasn't completely sure that Logan was really into him. Maybe he really just wanted James to teach him. It was part of Logan's character to pay a lot of attention to the person teaching him. He always was so focused on his teachers in school he never realized the other boys were doing all kinds of stuff to annoy one another or even the teachers.

But then again Carlos had said that it was a possibility that Logan might really like James. And Carlos knew Logan as well as the other boy. This was a mess. And now James had to return to the flat and be confronted with the whole situation again. This would be so strange. On the one hand he thought it would be better if he could just talk to Logan alone and figure this out but on the other hand he really wanted to avoid the conversation. There were too many open questions and too much embarrassing secrets to confess. No, it was a lot better to avoid the situation as long as he could.

Unfortunately for the pretty boy Logan wasn't as opposed to having a clearing conversation. He had spent the better part of the day with Carlos, enjoying a fun day without having to think about his problem. This was one of the reasons he liked Carlos so much, he would always make sure everyone had fun and could relax.

But not only had Carlos helped him to relax for some time but he also made him realize that the smart and the pretty boy should talk. There was too much tension now to avoid this conversation any longer. And he had at least Carlos on his side if things would blow up big time. It wasn't just that he had to confess to being gay but also being in love with his best friend whom he had kissed today. He wasn't sure how James was seeing their whole situation. Had he really kissed him because the pretty member of Big Time Rush had developed feelings for him? Or did he just kiss him because he was teaching Logan how to impress someone?

To make sure Logan and James would have enough time and privacy to clear this situation up Carlos had once again been the good friend and had made the rest of the habitants of 2J go out to the mall with him. Watching a movie, playing some games, eating out, the whole program. Logan really was thankful for this. But now he also had to wait in the apartment alone and this was slowly killing him. Why couldn't James come home already? This couldn't mean anything good if he wasn't even willing to come into his own home anymore. Especially because it was getting chilly outside and James had left in only his board shorts. So when the door finally opened and James appeared Logan was nervous beyond belief.

James walked into 2J expecting loud noises, people talking, the TV on, maybe someone cleaning up the kitchen. But there was nothing. Only Logan sitting silently on the couch and watching him come home. James took a deep breath and started talking. "Okay, look, I know we need to talk but I would really like doing this with more clothes on. Can you wait for me to take a shower?" Logan looked as if this was something he really did not like but then he nodded. "Go on, shower. But please come back here right after, okay? It's killing me to wait here. Please, James" The small boy on the couch was nearly whispering with such a begging tone James felt bad for his avoidance tactic. But he wasn't willing to dive right into this conversation. He tried to smile encouragingly at Logan but then nearly sprinted away. Logan sighed. Now he was pretty sure that this could only end badly. There was no way James was feeling the same for him if he couldn't even stay in the same room. However, he could understand James need for more clothes. It would help Logan, too, because this half naked body was distracting. James was too gorgeous for his own good.

It felt like an eternity to Logan but was only 15 minutes till James returned to the couch, freshly showered, hair still slightly wet but arranged perfectly. He was dressed now in jeans and a white v-neck, looking exceptionally good. Logan wasn't sure how he could be even hotter than before when he had been nearly naked. This did nothing for his concentration and all rational thoughts of talks flew right out of his mind. The only thing the smaller boy wanted was to make out with this hot person who was his best friend. Oh, there were the terrifying thoughts again. Good. Logan took a deep breath and looked at James face. He saw a slight smile on it, and felt his own face get red. Once again he had embarrassed himself by checking out his best friend.

James, however, was feeling better with the attention that Logan had paid his body. It showed him that Logan was at least attracted to him. This was working in his favor. The freshly showered boy sat next to Logan, not wanting to intimidate him with his height advantage and then cleared his throat. "So, I think we need to talk." This came out a lot less confident and slightly more raspy than James had wanted it to. James was sure he had never been so afraid of a conversation. Logan looked up from his lap. "Yeah, probably." Then they were both silent again. Nobody wanted to start the confessing. But then Logan finally found some courage. At least he knew that Carlos thought it a high possibility James might like him back.

"I like you. You were the one I wanted to impress and seduce." Then Logan was silent again. James nodded. "I think I figured that one out last night after I talked with Carlos. I really hope you're not mad at me for talking with Carlos." "No, that's okay I talked with him, too. Told him everything. He was the one to convince everyone to leave the apartment tonight." And once again the silence settled in. Both boys were fidgeting on the couch, their hands in their laps, not sure how to continue. James knew, he should say something.

"When I helped you I realized that I was maybe having a little crush on you. I didn't like the thought of you paying more attention to anyone that wasn't me. That scared me." James had looked at his hands, still in his lap when he confessed this part to Logan. He was pleasantly surprised when a third hand sneaked into his field of vision and laid down on his. He opened his hands, taking Logan's hand in between his and looked up. Logan was looking at him smiling. "I really liked the kiss." confessed Logan. James smiled. "Me too." "I wouldn't be opposed to doing it again, you know." Now James laughed. "Sure, who wouldn't? You got to kiss James Diamond, you better enjoyed it." This was the cocky James everyone knew and Logan was so thankful that James was finally relaxed enough to joke again.

"Yeah, well, there have to be some advantages of being your friend, don't you think?" asked Logan, laughing lightly. "Hey, there are plenty of advantages to being my friend." James acted like he was pissed, let go of Logan's hand and boxed him on the arm. "Better be nice to me or I won't let you kiss me. Or sleep in my bed. Or do anything you so badly want to do with me." While James still talked Logan leant forward and finally kissed James again.

Partly to shut him up but also because he had been dying to do that again. James also was happy. He pulled Logan into his lap and deepened the kiss. This was what both of them had wanted for some time but had been afraid to admit to each other. "Now I can do that whenever I want" though Logan happily. Then he stopped. Could he really? He tried to push James away a little but stayed seated in his lap. James looked startled by Logan's reaction. What was now? They were getting into a make out session and Logan stopped? "What is it?" He asked the smart boy. "What is this? Us? I mean, are we … a couple? Or do you want this to be something casual? Do we tell the others?"

James realized that Logan was at the verge of a panic attack. He only now seemed to think all of this through. "Logan, shh. Stop. I would like for you to be my boyfriend." Now Logan looked a lot more relaxed. "Good." "Good. Can we kiss now some more?" "No." James pouted. "Why not? I wanna kiss my boyfriend." This made Logan smile brightly and he leaned in and started kissing James again for a few minutes.

But then he stopped again. "What are we gonna tell Kendall and Carlos? And Mama Knight and Katie and Gustavo and our fans?" Would it be bad for our reputation as a band?" "Logan, don't worry so much. I say we tell the people we live with and Kelly and Gustavo. But for the rest we still keep it secret for now. Are you okay with that?" Logan nodded. "This is okay." "Good. Any more questions or can we now use the free time to make out?" "I'm good. We can ma…" But Logan didn't even get the chance to finish his sentence because James was back to kissing him and Logan sure wasn't complaining. He now had what he had dreamed about for the last few months.