Ugh! Why do people have to be so impatient? I can only get to the door so fast. Can't even give a guy a chance to throw a shirt on. Sam marches frustrated to the front door, unlocks it and opens it. Before him stands an equally frustrated looking Finn.
Oh God, no! Why is he here? Why didn't I put on a shirt? He's gonna see the bruises. Oh God, Finn, baby please don't figure it out. Please be your usual dubious self that I love so much. Please. Sam forces his tears to stay back.
Finn's face changes when he takes in the sight before him. Sam can see his boyfriend's heart breaking right in front of him as tears form in Finn's eyes.
"Oh God, Sam." Finn says with a sob. Sam can see that there's no hiding it anymore. Finn knows just from seeing the damage to Sam's body.
Sam gestures for Finn to come inside. His brother and sister are out with their mother so they have a few hours. They walk in silence over to the couch in the living room. Finn tries to hold Sam's hand but he pulls it away.
God, why did he come? I wish he'd stayed at home. Now he knows everything. He's never going to see me the same way again. I'm going to lose him over this. God, what if he thinks I wanted it. What if he thinks I'm just some slut that'll just give it up to any guy that takes his cock out? I can't lose him. I need him. God he's staring at me again….No I can't hide this from him. You can't have a relationship built on lies.
"You didn't slip in the shower did you?" Finn's voice is shallow and heavy at the same time. Sam can see that he's barely holding himself together. He reaches over and takes Finn by the hand scooting himself closer.
"No Finn I didn't. I….I was….r...I was..." Sam can barely speak. His body is trembling, almost convulsing, vibrating next to Finn.
Finn shushes his love and pulls him into his arms. "It's ok baby, I know."
"I… I didn't want to Finn, I swear I didn't! Ryan….he forced me." Sam looks up at Finn with tear-filled eyes, praying that Finn will believe him.
"Shhhh, Sammy I know baby." Finn tilts Sam's chin upward, leans down and gently kisses him.
"I'm sorry I lied to you." Sam says pulling away.
"Sam I'm not mad. I just want you to be safe, and I'm gonna do everything to keep it that way. We're gonna put this guy in jail for the rest of his life. I promise Sam, I'm gonna take care of you." Sam nods a quick yes and Finn just holds him for a while. The two just enjoy holding each other in the safeness of being in each other's' arms.
After an hour or so Sam breaks the silence. "I was scared you wouldn't love me anymore."
"What?" Finn says surprised.
"I was scared that you'd see me as damaged goods and wouldn't want me anymore. I was scared you might think I asked for it." Sam is about to continue, but Finn presses a finger to his lips.
"Don't ever think that way again, Sam Evans. I love you more than anything in this world. You are my everything and nothing can change that. Do you understand me?" Sam nods, "Good, now why don't we go lie down in your bed and I'm gonna hold you 'til you fall asleep in my arms."
Sam starts to get up but Finn scoops him up into his arms. "My boyfriend is hurt. I shall do all the walking."
"My hero." Sam says blushing as he kisses Finn's cheek.
Finn carries Sam up the stairs and into Sam's room. He gently lays his boyfriend down. He kicks off his shoes, climbs into bed with Sam on top of the covers and pulls Sam's body against his. Sam smiles when he feels Finn's heartbeat against his back. It's the first time he's smiled since he was raped. His eyes close and he drifts into a peaceful slumber, knowing that only good dreams would come. But, they don't.
Sam thrashes in Finn' arms crying out for help. Finn shushes him and gently kisses the back of Sam's neck, letting him know who's holding him. Sam calms down and hi breathing becomes steady, but tears still fall from his eyes. Finn wipes them away gently so as not to wake Sam.
"I'm here Sam. I've got you. You're safe now." Finn whispers before he himself falls asleep.
Sam now only has dreams on Finn. The two are back in the barn where they had their first time together. Only this time, Puck isn't there, and its not heated horny sex. Its sensual, and perfect. Finn is on top, gently kissing Sam's neck. They're in perfect sync. "I love you." Sam whispers.
"I love you forever." Finn whispers pressing their foreheads together as they smile.
The two kiss. Its soft at first. But it quickly becomes more intense. They separate their lips and Finn collapses onto Sam. A few more thrusts and they finish together. Finn moans into Sam's neck and Sam cries out in pure ecstasy, tears of joy streaming down his face. Finn lifts himself upwards and kisses Sam once more.
"That was perfect." Sam says happily.
"You're perfect." Finn says smiling back at his lover.
A ringing sound causes Sam to awaken from his perfect dream. He opens his eyes to see Finn answering his phone. Sam's own phone was buzzing on the nightstand next to him. He reaches over and picks it up. A new text message is flashing on the screen. He opens it quickly while trying to listen to Finn. Sounds like something bad has happened.
The text on his phone is from Blaine. I DID SOMETHING STUPID. I'M SO SORRY SAM!
What was Blaine sorry for? Had he told Finn, or Kurt, or someone what had happened? Sam didn't care, Finn now knew and he still loved him all the same as he had before. No matter what Blaine had done that was stupid, Sam had already forgiven him for it.
Finn hangs up his phone and sets it down next to Sam's. Sam can see a look of sadness on his boyfriend's face. He reaches over and grabs Finn's hand.
"Finn what is it?" Sam's voice is shaky.
Finn remains frozen, sitting up in Sam's bed. Two tears fall from his eyes and run down his cheeks. Sam knows that something bad has happened. He shakes Finn to wake him up.
"Finn, baby what happened. Finn, you're starting to scare me. Please just tell me what's going on." Finn shakes his head and wipes away his tears.
"I'm sorry Sam. I wanted you to be able to put that guy in prison. At least now you and Kurt will be safe." Finn's eyes are drifting away again.
"Finn what happened to Ryan!" Sam practically screams out.
"Blaine killed him." Finn says barely breathing.