It's been almost a month and Christmas is drawing near. Finn has undergone three rounds of chemo and surprisingly hasn't yet lost his hair. He knows it won't be long, but he's being a trooper about it. Though Burt had to fire him so he'd stay home and rest, but the big lug gave him a new job of book keeping for the tire shop, and he's found that he's pretty good at it…so long as Kurt helps him out with some of the hard stuff. Sam has stepped up and done everything for Finn aside from eating, breathing, and using the bathroom for him. Finn feels physically weak sometimes, but Sam always makes him feel like he can do anything. Sam is his motivation to get through everything.
Sam is sitting in afterschool Glee practice. His leg is shaking impatiently as they've just won sectionals, and Blaine is belting out a solo. Sam and Blaine are sharing the Captainships of the team. They've built the team up to nearly twenty members. In a surprising turn of events the Warblers knocked out Vocal Adrenaline during their sectionals.
Blaine finishes his solo and everyone applauds. Will gives them the usual speech about caroling to raise money for regionals and nationals. After the speech Will dismisses the group for the day and Sam asks Kurt to go shopping.
"Doesn't Finn have a chemo treatment today?" Kurt asks quietly.
"Carole's with him and Blaine is picking him up from your parents' house. Besides I'm shopping for Finn and I kind of need your advice on something important. So will you help me?" Sam says giving Kurt his best puppy dog eyed look.
"OK, just let me tell Mr. Schuester and see if he's cool with me leaving early." Will has overheard everything.
"Go ahead Kurt; you've been busting your butt for the past couple of months. So go take a break and have some fun." Will yells out from his office.
"Thanks boss man!" Kurt and Sam take off and Sam picks the first stop.
"A jewelry store?" Kurt feels confused. Finn doesn't really where jewelry, except for that time Rachel bought him that hideous necklace that turned his neck green for almost a month one summer.
"Yeah this is what I need your advice on, and I kinda want your blessing for this because I've been thinking about this for a while and I kinda think Finn has too. I want to know if I can have your permission to marry Finn." Sam holds his breath, fully prepared for Kurt to flat out tell him no and that he's way too young to get married.
"Are you serious? You want to marry my brother? They guy with cancer? The very same guy who could die young, and leave you broken and bitter for the rest of your life?" Sam nods yes at each of Kurt's questions.
"Then you have my blessing. You can marry Finn as long as he say yes." Kurt says calmly.
Kurt suddenly changes his demeanor and screams and hugs Sam tightly. When Finn had proposed to Rachel he could just feel that there would be something down the line that would tear them apart, but he's never questioned Finn and Sam's relationship. The only relationship he knows to be just as solid is his dad's marriage to Carole.
Sam and Kurt go inside and check out multiple rings that would be perfect for Finn. Sam wanted to get himself one too and his dad was supportive and gave him his blessing. He even gave Sam enough money to get two rings. Kurt helps him find the perfect rings. Both are platinum with a ring of Onyx in the middle. Sam even comments that it looks like a gunmetal Oreo with a chocolate center. Sam pays for the rings in full with his father's credit card and he and Kurt go out to eat.
At breadsticks they chat but Kurt only has one question on their mind. Sam keeps dodging it. The older waitress takes their order and brings them their drinks. Kurt continues to press Sam.
"So how are you going to ask him? Are you gonna sing him a song and then propose, cause he kinda did that with Rachel." Kurt says sipping his water with lemon.
"Don't worry about when or how Kurt, just know I'm gonna be simple with it. Romantic, but simple." Sam says just as the waitress brings them their food.
They eat and Kurt dotes on Sam about how good he is for Finn. He tells him how happy he is they found each other. Sam blushes as he's not used to Kurt telling him all of these nice things. He's used to Kurt being Kurt, telling him how to dress, and what he was having for dinner. He was enjoying it. He'd worried things would be awkward between him and Kurt, along with Finn, Blaine, and Puck. But, it actually made things better. Blaine could finally relax and so he started sleeping through the night, Kurt too. Sam himself was even feeling better. He finished therapy and isn't afraid to enter the locker room anymore. He joined the basketball team and even made captain. Finn was the only thing Sam worried about. Blaine helped him with his homework and he was finally making all A's in school. Life was close to perfect, all he wanted to for Finn to make it through his next few rounds of chemo and then he'd have surgery and be all better.
Sam gets home and Finn is sore from his treatment. He's in good spirits though. He smiles happily at Sam when he sees his boyfriend walk through the front door. Finn's lost a lot of weight and his eyes have a sort of sunken look to them. Sam can tell he's exhausted. He tells Finn to stay where he his, but Finn doesn't listen. He stands up and walks over to Sam. He throws his arms around the blonde boy and squeezes him tightly.
"I missed you. I love you." Finn whispers into Sam's ear.
Sam wants to cry, but he just smiles and kisses Finn's cheek softly. Kurt goes over to Blaine who is downing a milkshake while watching an action movie. Kurt leads Blaine into their bedroom to give Sam and Finn some privacy. Sam shuts off the TV and he and Finn go into their room.
Finn flops down onto the bed patting it three times. Sam smirks and walks over to the bathroom door. "I wanna clean up before bed. You wanna join me in the tub?"
"Always." Finn says softly.
"Ok, you wait here and I'll get the water running." Sam goes into the bathroom and starts a bath. He's thankful Finn got the room with the really big tub instead of Kurt's tiny one that if Finn were to get in it he'd have to contort his body to fit even remotely comfortable. Sure Blaine and Kurt can share it, but they're basically munchkins, no way could Sam let alone Finn fit in it. Sam takes the rings out of his pocket and hides them under a bowel by the tub so Finn won't find them.
When the water is just right and the bubbles are perfect Sam goes to get Finn. Finn is still sitting in the same spot with a blank expression. Sam knows how tired he's been lately. Their bath times are the highlight of the day for Finn though. It's when they spend the most time awake together since Sam has so many different practices in the afternoons and his mom is always checking on him during the day.
You can do this Sam. Finn loves you. You love him. You want to be with him forever. It's just one question, three words, fourteen letters, and five syllables, you can do this. Sam is nervous, but he's ready to commit himself to Finn forever.
Sam goes over to Finn and removes the taller boy's shoes and socks before standing back up. "Tubs ready." Sam says taking Finn by the hand to help him up.
Finn hugs Sam and kisses him gently on the lips. "Mmmm I love how you taste. Did I tell you how much I missed you today? Or how much I love you?"
"You did, but that doesn't mean I don't want to not hear it again." Sam say removing Finn's shirt, then his own. Sam help Finn out of his pants before taking off his own.
"I wish you'd let me do some of the work." Finn says just before Sam scoops him up into his arms.
"My boyfriend's sick. I shall do all the walking." Sam says stealing Finn's line from when Sam had been raped and Finn carried him up to his bedroom where he held him for hours.
"My hero." Finn says quoting Sam before kissing him on the cheek.
Sam carefully places Finn in the bathtub. Finn moans as a sign of enjoyment. The warm water feels good on his skin, but he knows that later he'll be going from hot to cold and was thankful Sam would help him through it. Finn scoots himself forward to let Sam in behind him.
Sam takes a blue scrubby luffa thingy and lathers it up with soap. He rubs it slowly across Finn's back, starting with his shoulders, then his middle and lower back. Next he does Finn's neck and arms, then chest. Finn scrubs is privates and his legs and feet. Sam takes a cup and dips it into the water. Finn closes his eyes and tilts his head back. As water runs over Finn's scalp a clump of hair falls with it. Sam catches the hair in his hand and shakes it off onto the floor.
I'll clean it up later. First things first.
Sam finishes cleaning Finn's hair and Finn leans back against Sam. He can feel Sam's chest rising and falling beneath him and the subtle beat of Sam's heart makes him smile. Then he hears Sam moving something He wants to turn but something tells him to stay as he is. He closes his eyes and he can feel Sam taking his left hand. He feels Sam put something on his finger. He opens his eyes slowly and sees the ring. He wants to speak but Sam leans forward. Finn can feel his lover's lips close to his ear.
"Finn Hudson, will you marry me?" Sam softly whispers before kissing Finn's neck softly.
Finn turns his head so he can see Sam's amazing smile. "Yes." It's the only word he can bring himself to say before Sam kisses him passionately.
The two dry off and get dressed. Sam points out the bald spot on his lover's head and so they shave Finn's head. Sam wants to shave his too, but Finn tells him no. He want's something to grab and he knows how much Sam loves his hair to be pulled during sex. So Sam agrees to keep his golden locks.
Finn notices Sam is holding the same ring he's wearing. Sam hands it to him and Finn knows what Sam wants him to do with it. Finn takes Sam's left hand and slides the ring onto his ring finger and the two kiss once again before going to tell Kurt and Blaine the good news.
Kurt and Blaine are overjoyed for the happy couple and they have quick late night celebration. Finn starts to fall asleep at the kitchen bar and Sam helps him to bed. Sam knows Finn is about to go through the roughness that comes with chemo.
Finn is out the moment his head hits the pillow. Sam holds him through a thirty minute chill and when he feels Finn getting too warm he pulls the blankets off and lets go. He puts on his shoes and grabs his wallet and keys. He walks down to his car and goes for a quick drive. He only does this on nights when he can't hold it in anymore and he's afraid Finn will hear him. He pulls over at an empty roadside park and parks his car. Sam gets out and walks over to one of the picnic tables, leaving the car running. He lies down on his back and looks up at the stars. His emotions take over and he cries uncontrollably. Waves of tears fill his eyes and cover his face. With a deep sob he simply looks up and says, "God, please don't take him from me."