Sam sits on the edge of the table dangling his feet. He's sitting in the roadside park praying to God that Finn will make it through his surgery and beat this cancer. A second pair of headlights brightens the area and Sam knows who the driver is. The car parks and Sam watches with tear-filled eyes as the driver gets out and walks over to him.
Noah Puckerman walks over to his friend and takes a seat. Sam had texted him when he left the apartment earlier. He puts an arm around Sam's shoulders and Sam rests his head on Puck's chest. Puck shushes Sam, reminding him that Finn's going to be fine. The scent of Puck's cologne is relaxing to Sam and he slowly begins to calm.
"Hey, he's gonna make it." Puck says softly.
Sam suppresses his tears and holds back a sob. "I know, but I am terrified all the time Puck. Finn is always smiling and telling me how happy he is, how thankful he is for every day he has with me, and all I want to do is break down and cry."
"Why don't you?" Puck asks rubbing his friends back.
"He's being so brave through all of this and I don't want him to see me like this. Like some sad sap that can't hold it together for the guy he loves when things are scary." Sam wipes tears from his eyes.
"Dude, doesn't he ask you how you're doing in all this? I mean if you two are gonna get married it's kinda important to tell each other when you're scared or sad, or whatever." Puck's words ring true with Sam.
"Come to think of it I've had this brave face on ever since we left the hospital that I don't think I've given him a reason to question whether or not I'm doing ok." Sam can't cry anymore and he's calmed down.
"Finn's tuff and I bet he knows you've been putting on a happy face to make him feel better. Hell, I bet he's doing the same thing for you." Puck pats Sam's pack and tells him to go home to his man.
Sam gives Puck a quick hug and thanks him for always willing to meet him in the middle of nowhere to let Sam vent about his fears and problems. Puck drives off and Sam gets into his car. The air conditioner is blowing hard and Sam smells Puck's cologne again. It must've rubbed off on him. The scent wasn't strong and Sam was sleepy. He drives home and sneaks back inside. He looks at the clock it's just past four in the morning. He strips off his shirt and pants and gets into bed with Finn. He's careful so he doesn't wake his fiancé. Sam wraps his arms around Finn and drifts into a deep sleep.
As Sam sleeps Finn opens his eyes. He'd been pretending to sleep when Sam had climbed into bed. He smells the cologne of another man on him and he recognizes the scent. He knows Sam has been with Puck.
This is the seventh time he's snuck out in the middle of the night. Where is he going? Why is he meeting up with Puck? The other day I caught him talking to Puck on the phone and he was talking quietly and being really shady. He hung up the second he saw me and pretended he was talking to his dad about something. After this past evening I thought he was just working out how to propose, but now I'm worried something else is going on. We haven't had sex in a while and every time we've tried I can't take the stress. Maybe he's getting something from Puck that I can't give to him right now. Maybe after I'm better he'll come back to me and we'll go back to how things were before he was raped, before Kurt was attack, before Blaine killed Ryan, and before I got sick. I want us to be how we're meant to be. Sam is the best thing to ever happen to me. I was off and on with two girls and then one game of spin the bottle changed my whole way of thinking. I…I just want Sam. Please God, take these thoughts away from me. I don't want to believe that he's cheating on me. But I sort of do.
Finn falls asleep with a tear running down his face. He awakens in the morning. It's a Saturday so Kurt has the day off, but Blaine and Sam have to work. They both head off to their jobs at the mall, Blaine at American Eagle and Sam at Abercrombie. Finn loves visiting Sam at work because he's always shirtless.
Finn wraps himself in his robe and goes into the living room to watch cartoons with Kurt. He finds his stepbrother watching reruns of old school Pokémon eating a huge bowl of Captain Crunch. "Dude, you're such a kid." Finn says laughing.
"Your bowl is on the counter, just add milk." Kurt says pointing at the open kitchen.
Finn smiles big, "Oh goodie, I get to have rainbow vomit later."
"Finn you have to eat something. You've lost like thirty pounds since you started chemo. You need to build up your strength for when you have surgery in a couple of weeks." Kurt says getting up and pouring the milk for Finn. He makes Finn take a seat on the couch, hands him a paper towel and then sits down next to his brother.
"Kurt can I ask you something?" Finn asks trying to hold back the urge to vomit.
"Well you see Finn, when a man and a woman fall madly in love, or get really drunk,…or two gay guys hire a surrogate…" Kurt is going to continue his story of how babies are made.
"That's not what I'm talking about Kurt." Finn says putting a hand over Kurt's mouth.
"I wanted to ask if you thought Sam could ever cheat on me." Kurt's eyes are wide with surprise this was something he never thought Finn would say.
"NEVER! Sam loves you more than anything!" Kurt says feeling like he's stepped into an alternative reality.
He calms himself down. "Why would you think Sam would cheat?"
"He's been sneaking out at night and when he comes back he always smells like Puck's cologne. He's been really shady when I catch him talking on the phone and I read a couple of texts that were to and from Puck." Finn says feeling like he's betraying Sam for even thinking of this being a possibility.
"What did the texts say?" Kurt asks.
"Some of them were like, 'I'll see you tonight. Try not to wake Finn up, I don't want him to know about this.' Um, oh there was one from Puck that said, 'You were great last night. I feel so much better thanks to you.' Kurt please tell me I'm crazy for thinking like this." Finn sits his cereal down and slumps back into the couch.
"Finn I think you're probably misreading those texts." Kurt says hoping Finn with get this idea out of his head.
"We haven't had sex in like forever." Finn says adding that to the list of his reasons for being suspicious.
"How long is forever?" Kurt asks trying to get a more feasible answer.
"Since I started chemo. We've tried a couple of times, but I just can't take it, or give it. It hurts to try. It's like my whole body is on fire and I can't breathe, so we end up stopping. Maybe Puck is just taking care of him sexually." Finn stares at the coffee table feeling disconnected from the rest of the world.
Kurt takes him by the chin and makes him look him in the eyes. "Finn, I really don't believe that Sam is cheating on you with Puck. For one thing he just proposed to you, and two you haven't got a shred of concrete evidence to prove he actually is cheating, and third you should talk to him. Maybe Puck is just being a good friend and letting Sam talk things out with him, because he's scared to talk to you about how scared he is. I heard him crying in the choir room the other day and he was on the phone with Puck. I think they're just helping each other through all this. I mean its kind of obvious that he's faking being constantly happy." Kurt turns and pauses the tv with the DVR remote.
Finn thinks for a moment. "I hope you're right Kurt 'cause this feeling sucks. And if you are right why wouldn't he talk to me about how he's been feeling?"
"Maybe because he's scared you'll get worse." Kurt says.
"Well will you take Blaine out late so I can talk to him when he gets home?" Finn asks.
"Sure, we could use a good date night." Kurt says smiling.
Finn sits there thinking about Sam and what he hopes will be their future together. Sam is his whole world. Sam has been his rock throughout him getting sick, but he questions whether or not he's been Sam's rock since he got diagnosed. He hoped this was the reason, but if Sam was sleeping with Puck, he would find a way to work it out with him.