A/N Not that good about writing love scenes but I still hope you like it.

The afternoon the next morning

John walked into his home and was about to go upstairs when he heard the TV so he went to the living room. "Hey Randy."

Randy looked back at John and stood up. "Hi, I didn't hear you come in."

John nodded "You can lock the door on your way out." He turned to leave.

"I won't say anything." Randy said looking down.

John turned to him again. "Why?"

Randy looked back up. "Because I know how hard it is for you. I use to be just like you."

"What did you do?" John asked walking over to him and sitting down.

"At first I chose not to accept it. I started living a life that I hated just to make others happy." Randy sat down "That all changed when I turned eighteen. My friends took me to this gay club and it was my first one. I met this guy and we started seeing each other but we were in the closet about it so it was hard."

"What happened?" John asked.

"One day we almost got caught and that was the day he broke up with me." Randy sighed "But when I was with I was happy. I've never felt that way about any girl."

"When did it get better?" John asked looking down at his hands.

"When I stopped pretending to be someone I'm not." Randy looked over at John. "If you keep lying to yourself John you will never be happy."

John looked over at Randy "You're the first guy who ever made me feel this way. I feel like I can be myself around you. I even sometimes feel more comfortable when I'm with you and it's freaking me out a little."

"Well if you ever need someone to talk to I'm here." Randy said.

John nodded "Do you have to leave right now?" he asked leaning in closer.

Randy shook his head. "No I'm off tonight." He leant in as well but stopped.

John made the final move and closed the space between him and Randy. He felt like his whole body was on fire as he kissed Randy. He felt Randy grab the back of his head and pull him closer. Finally pulling apart John smiled. "I'm starting to feel something for you." He sat back "Which is bad."

Randy looked down. "I'm sorry."

John shook his head. "NO it's not you it's me. I'm the one who kissed you anyway."

Randy smiled "You're probably just curious."

"No." John said looking Randy in the eyes. "I wanted to kiss you; in fact I wanted to do so much more with you." He rubbed his face. "But Kelly."

"Maybe I should quit." Randy said.

"Why?" John asked.

"Because Kelly really loves you and I know you don't want to hurt her." Randy sighed "But I really like you John."

John looked down "I like you too but I still don't want you to quit."

"Maybe it's for the best." Randy said getting up. "I better go."

John grabbed his hand. "Did you mean what you said before, that you'll help me?"

Randy nodded "Yeah I did."

John let go of Randy's hand and watched him go.

Later that night John got a phone call from Kelly saying she will be home tomorrow so he decided to go for a drive. He ended up driving to Randy's apartment building. Sitting in the parking lot he thought about leaving but couldn't bring himself to pull out of the parking lot. Taking a deep breath he got out and made his way inside.

OOO

Randy was just getting out of the showers when he heard someone knocking at the door. He pulled on a pair of sweats and answered it. "John."

John walked into the apartment and closed the door behind him. Before Randy could say anything else John kissed him. By the time they made it to the bedroom they were both naked. Randy pushed John onto the bed.

"Are you sure about this?" Randy asked.

John pulled Randy down on top of him and pulled his face close to his own. "Yes I'm sure."

As they kissed Randy slipped on a condom he got from his dresser. After preparing him Randy slowly slid into John's warm body. John winced once Randy was fully inside so Randy waited for him to get use to him.

"Are you okay?" Randy asked.

John's eyes were closed. "Just give me a minute."

Randy smiled "John relax and open your eyes." John opened his eyes. "Breathe." John nodded and began to slowly move in and out. John pulled Randy into another kiss. This one slower and more passionate. John's nails dug into Randy's back begging for more. Randy knew he wasn't going to last long and before he knew it John was Cumming all over his chest. Feeling that he was also close he pulled out of John and came all over his chest. He dropped down on the bed next to him.

"Wow that was a lot better than I thought it would be." John said.

Randy looked over at him. "Are you okay?"

John smiled "Oh me I'm awesome."

Randy chuckled "You can jump in the shower if you want. I'll wait until you're finish."

John slowly sat up. "You can join me if you want."

OOO

An hour later

John was lying on the bed staring at Randy who was sitting crisscrossed next to him. "So what happened?" Randy asked.

John sighed "Kelly called and said her friend was sick or something and she was going to stay the night with her. I really wanted to see you so I came here."

Randy looked down "What about Kelly?"

John shrugged "I'm just really confused right now and I don't know what to do."

"Well until you figure everything out this can't happen again." Randy said.

John sat up "You're right but it's hard when I can't stop thinking about you. I even see you in my dreams now." He laid back down. "This is so hard."

Randy went over and laid next to him. "I know but like I said." He took John's hand. "I'm here for you."

John smiled "Please don't quit."

Randy sighed and looked away.

"I'm going to tell Kelly but I just don't know when. Besides if you quit she might think I did something to you." John looked down and their hands that were still intertwined.

"So what's going to happen then?" Randy asked.

"I don't know but all I do know is how I feel about you." John said looking up at Randy.

"You should get home." Randy said smiling.

"Will you be there tomorrow?" John asked.

"Yeah I'll be there."

John got up and got dressed. Once he was done he walked back over to Randy and kissed him. "Bye."

Randy smiled "Bye."

OOO

John was once again sitting in his car in the parking lot of Randy's apartment building. He just couldn't get the smile off his face. He had just had sex with a man and he loved it but thinking about that made him think of Kelly. He really did love her and he felt bad for sleeping with Randy but at the same time it was like he couldn't control his feelings. He didn't feel the attraction to Kelly that he did for Randy. One thing he knew was that he had to sort out his feelings soon because he really did hate lying to Kelly.

A/N Please leave a review and I hoped you've enjoyed this chapter. The next chapter will be up soon, probably next Tuesday so be ready. :)