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Warning: Contains M/M slash and male pregnancy.

Chapter Eleven

"I always come back and I never contemplate how much of an annoyance you two make of these supernatural creatures until now." Gabriel paused seeing the blood still on the beds and winced. "Do you think that from now on you could I don't know, keep from giving me the equivalence to a human heart attack? I mean not being able to feel the bond was bad enough and then I found out that you two were shot and brought back to heaven where Zachy was being such a pain in the ass. That's it, I'm hitting Zachy in the gonads the next time I see him!"

"STOP TALKING!" Dean finally shouted. "You angels give me a fricking headache. I haven't even been alive for ten minutes now and you are giving lectures already. I'm fine, Sam's fine, and hell for some miraculous reason; his baby is kicking up a storm! I'm glad we're all alright but for whatever reason I don't need to hear you talk for the next hour on bonds and why we should contact you."

Gabriel huffed and left with a flap of his wings leaving them alone. Dean gave a sigh of relief that did nothing to make Sam happy knowing that his brother chased the angel away who was only worried for their well-being and for once was bringing up that fact. He kept his mouth shut though knowing it would only provoke Dean who was still mad about the things he saw in heaven. He couldn't have realized though that those weren't his best memories. He liked being normal for the time that he was but those weren't the best memories he had and Dean didn't realize that. What he saw in heaven didn't change though and Sam was willing to make it up to him until Dean realized that himself.

"So is there anything else you need or do I need another reminder of how you wished you led a normal life?" Dean asked rather sarcastically when Sam went to open his mouth and comment on something.

He quickly closed it and let out a yelp when he felt a surprisingly strong kick as though there was some kind of warning. He quickly sat at the edge of the bed, still mindful of the hour before when they had been shot. He shook his head wondering if it had been an hour since then or technically more. He just paused when another thunderous kick made him groan. He couldn't help feeling worried. He was only twenty two weeks and the baby's grace was not enough to sustain outside in the world, it was too soon.

"You okay?" Dean asked still a little too gruffly.

Sam nodded, calming down when the baby seemed to have settled down some. Cas showed up soon after and just looked at Sam as though he grew a second head. He didn't address the concerns and instead turned to Dean and addressed him like he usually did, ignoring Sam since it was obvious there wasn't anything concerning with what he saw.

"What did Joshua say?"

Dean looked at him for a moment before replying.

"It's a bust Cas, God doesn't care about the apocalypse. I don't think he ever did," he added making Cas nod in sadness.

"Here's your pendent back. It's worthless."

Dean didn't seem to disagree and Sam waited in bated breath as Dean seemed to wait until Cas was done talking, holding it like it was the most vile thing possible. Cas did turn around and faced Sam with a curious look that not even Dean ignored anymore.

"Something you find interesting about my brother?"

"The baby survived is weird enough," Cas told him. "He wasn't shot in the stomach and since he was returned from heaven I guess the baby would of course be okay. The thing I find weird now is that there is now swirls of blue and gold along with the white we've first seen when Sam found out about the pregnancy. It's not a normal pregnancy by any means but this, this is impossible. Not even an archangel nephilim could reach this level, only the really special could and it hasn't happened. It may have been possible but this isn't the first child that Gabriel has made with someone either. It's what we see with the innocent first child of an archangel. Your child isn't Gabriel's first nor is it special. Therefore I shouldn't be seeing those colors."

"You mean he didn't lie when he talked about a previous abortion attempt that killed mother and baby?" Sam asked bewildered.

Cas looked bewildered just at the fact alone that Gabriel told Sam that.

"Yeah, he loved that girl and didn't want her dying. She actually wanted to be with him and didn't think to become useless to save their child," he admitted making Sam feel worse than he had been.

"I don't get it," Sam finally said finding his voice. "You are angels and you should value life even if it's not the idealist thing for you, it's still an innocent life. I thought you angels would have been pro-life."

"Gabriel doesn't want to lose you. I think if he was so concerned he should have never slept with you," Cas continued as though Sam didn't say anything. "Of course he probably thought you wouldn't ever like him like that and since it takes love to make an angel baby, he didn't bother thinking straight. A Heart's desires are there way before a person is aware anyhow."

Sam just sighed and decided not to reply to that. If that was Cas's way of blaming him for making everyone else's lives miserable, he wasn't going to be baited into an argument. Who cared about the colored aura of his unborn child anyways? He saw it as an innocent child who was going to have life and feeling the kid move made him happier than he ever believed.

"I need to go," Cas suddenly told them and before they could even say anything else, he left as well. Dean sighed and looked at the amulet as though it was something he hated with a passion.

Sam wondered if he remembered that Sam had given it to him and calculatively held his breath when he saw Dean throw the reminder into the trash can on the way out. He tried to keep himself from making a big deal of it and waited until he couldn't spot Dean before fishing it out himself. He almost yelped when it felt a little hot in his hand and quickly snatched it by the nylon instead, refusing to let any part of the amulet come into contact with his skin again.

He was almost happy when he remembered that it always burnt hot when in the presence of God and openly gaped. Did that mean…He paused eying his outstretched stomach. God wouldn't condone anything like this, he thought wildly. But the amulet was burning bright and Cas even said the aura was different….he paused again and let out a small smile. This alone made him realize what he was fighting everyone for when it came to his baby. It was this special baby that was only special because it showed how much love he had for Gabriel that it created their son.

And if there was any clue that he had for doing the right thing by keeping him, this was another indicator that he was doing it right. He placed the amulet in his pocket and jumping at the blast of the horn, he quickly shut the door behind him.

God didn't abandon them.

He still very much believed in humanity and this as much was his proof enough.

It was up to humans whether they believed.

Sending a quick prayer of thanks, he rushed out to meet Dean less he decided to stop being patient and drive off.

Sometimes Sam wished he could drink.

Dean was drinking plenty whilst being under lock and key since he decided it was okay to say yes to being a vessel. Cas drinking a whole liquor store was the only hilarious thing about the last four weeks. Being twenty six weeks shouldn't have mattered much but Sam was beginning to feel as though he would need more clothes that would fit more snuggly before he started losing buttons. Dean snorted when he told him as much and walked off to get another beer. He came back and tried to offer one to Sam who refused and simply stuck to the juice he had been sipping. Dean snorted and ignored him after that.

That wasn't the only surprising thing.

Apparently the angels thought that Dean wasn't going to say yes and had brought Adam back hoping he would. Sam was just glad that Cas gotten to him first and he was here and just as annoying as Dean was. He didn't seem to be surprised when he found that Sam was almost seven months pregnant and instead pointedly ignored him just like Dean was.

Sam just had enough and told them so.

"Everything is getting too much and something you can't handle, I understand that. You just want your mom back and I could understand that," Sam said and continued on although he could tell that they were raising their eyebrows like they thought that he couldn't honestly understand them. "And Dean there is no way I'm gonna say yes to that SOB. I won't-"

"And when you're no longer pregnant, Lucifer would probably have an empty vessel to use anyways," Dean interrupted with a snap. "You think this is gonna end pretty? I don't want to lose you Sam and maybe Michael could find a way to help."

"Michael can't help just like Gabriel and Cas can't," Sam quickly told him softly. He ignored Adam's eyes and fisted the warmth of the amulet beneath his fingers. It wasn't as hot as it had been the first time he had picked it up but it was still warm. As long as he had proof of God, it meant that his years of prayer going on nothing but faith were worth it.

"Well you don't know that," Dean quickly replied standing up and sighing when he saw that Cas was watching his every move. "I can't get a beer without you watching, great. Maybe I should just call Lisa! At least she gives a damn!"

"That's not fair Dean, stop that!" Dean may not have seen the angel flinch but Sam sure did and he wouldn't stand for that. "Cas-"

"Don't Sam, it isn't worth it and Dean is just angry." Cas reassured.

Sam nodded.

"Besides he is too clueless and stupid to realize anything that doesn't have to do with him." Dean whirled around and glared at Gabriel.

"Like I'm the only one," Dean snapped. "You and Sam-"

"-Had hot sexy intercourse more than once." Gabriel interrupted with a smug grin. "Of course it only happened after he reassured me that our son wouldn't feel anything nor would he be hurt in any way if I penetrated him."

"I need brain bleach," Dean mumbled and then glared as though Gabriel was the one at fault. "Thanks for that."

"You're welcome," Gabriel replied ignoring the sarcasm. He smirked and then saw that Bobby was glaring at each and every one of them whilst they argued and bickered somewhat like little kids. He didn't care much for the arguing himself but Bobby seemed to be honestly put out with it and needed a break.

"You really need to let me sit in the wheelchair sometime," Gabriel said instead. "I mean, you sit in it twenty four seven and I haven't gotten a chance to play with it. I thought you shared your things.

"Bobby is paralyzed you dick!" Dean snapped once more but Gabriel snapped his fingers and pointed it to Dean as though he was going to do something if he said another word.

"That's much better. Adam I'm sorry you are in the middle of all this drama." Adam just shrugged as though it was expected.

"What could anyone do? I'm here until Zachariah comes to get me or I decide that this side is fighting for the right reasons and actually help out. I still think I should be a vessel so…" he trailed off and Gabriel nodded sympathetically. Of all the things he was learning from Sam.

"So out of the wheelchair old man, I want to play," he continued much to their chagrin.

"You listen here ya idjit," Bobby started. "You may demand respect because you are some archangel but I-"

Gabriel was already bored with the conversation and with a snap of his fingers, Bobby appeared right beside Cas and Dean leaving Gabriel free to sit down on the wheelchair himself.

"Now this is fun," he admitted with a small grin.

Bobby was about to yell when he realized he was standing on his own two feet. Sam ignored all of them realizing that Gabriel must have felt for the elder hunter. He probably didn't ignore the way Bobby was depressed at what he had lost and helped him in his own way. He could have done without the display though. Sam rolled his eyes and looked back at Bobby with a small smile.

Bobby himself was impressed and thought for an instant that it was another of his pranks until he took a step and realized that he had the use of his legs back. Turning to the former trickster now archangel, he opened his mouth to reply but Gabriel beat him to it.

"If you were smart you could have gave me a call a couple of days ago to try this baby out. I mean you could've walked days ago but you were just so stubborn and refused to operate on the faith that you keep saying you had at one point."

"GABRIEL!" Sam snapped pinching the bridge of his nose. "We don't do things like that, it's considered rude."

"I'm not the baby Sammy so you can't tell me what to do," Gabriel just admonished. He frowned after a moment as though he realized what he was saying. "I think I'm spending too much time here, I'm actually looking forward to our brat and raising it together which will never happen. I think I will bring the wheel chair with. You think that the general population will pity me if they think I'm paralyzed?"

Before Sam could get anything in, Gabriel was gone and he had taken the wheelchair with him.

"That idjit has a funny way of showing he cares," Bobby said gruffly but Sam knew he was touched that the archangel had felt Bobby was good enough to cure his paralyzed legs, even though he used the guise of having fun on the wheelchair Bobby had been confined to for many months. "I think you should let him have a moment Sam. He does care for you. I think he hasn't had time to realize he will be a parent is all. Nobody knows what kind of parent they will make and it's obvious that there's no handbook when it comes to becoming one."

"I figured he's still upset with the you know, once he's born my heart stops beating thing." Sam brought up much to his chagrin.

"Which is why you shouldn't talk about it," Dean told him angrily.

"You bring it up all the time, don't tell me to avoid talking about when it's going to happen in less than five months," Sam added as an afterthought. "You keep avoiding talking about it and you worry that I'm going to say yes and let Lucifer in. It's not going to happen-"

"I hope not since you care about the baby," Cas said ignoring Dean's heated glare. "You are not only putting the world in danger but the baby's and yours as well now. Saying yes could instantly kill the baby and him if he were to accept you as a vessel now. Of course there's the birth of the baby taking your life but it would make you unable to accept any host after the fact no matter if you would have said yes or not. Lucifer isn't that dumb and if he knew he would probably try to have the fetus killed."

Sam looked more hopeful and turned to Dean.

"It doesn't change the fact I'm losing a brother," Dean snapped and Sam rolled his eyes for what seemed like the millionth time.

"Right and you are not going to accept Zachariah's offer and become Michael's bitch," Sam quickly told him.

"I could if I want!" Dean yelled. "I can do whatever I want and besides you may not be Lucifer's bitch but you sure are Gabriel's. He is the same dick if not more of one that Lucifer is and it doesn't make a difference if you aren't his vessel, I'm still losing you!"

"All of a sudden this is my fault?" Sam asked. "I'm just going by my heart and it hasn't led me wrong yet."

"And the matter with Ruby?" Dean quickly quipped. "Or the time you thought it was right to go after Lilith even though Cas told you it wasn't you that had to kill her, it was me? Going by your heart makes everything so much worse and you don't even realize it. You can't and I can't stand that. Maybe you should have realized all this in the beginning and all we would have to deal with now is the fact that you are pregnant with an archangel's baby! Maybe not even that!"

"It's my choice Dean and if I had to go back and do it all over again, the baby is the one thing I wouldn't regret because I love Gabriel and therefore the love I have for him created this baby. I don't regret this baby Dean; this is the one thing I didn't get wrong. I fucked up with Ruby and I messed up with Lilith but this baby, he is something I will never take back. If I would have gotten rid of it like Gabriel had wanted in the beginning, I know that I would have regretted it years to come and I wouldn't have ever forgotten about it. I wouldn't forgive myself ever for taking a human life and it's not just anything, it's my baby."

"Sam I know that and I know that you love the baby and for some reason Gabriel too. He's just annoying and a dick but you can tolerate so good for you but this isn't just about some baby and the love of your life. This is about the end of your life. And believe it or not, it's not going to be four months to a year without you, it's going to be eternity of wishing that you being here and having that never going to happen." Dean paused and licked his lips before nodding to himself. "Name one thing this baby did and I won't be such a grouch anymore that I go on about it. I won't bring it up anymore."

"One thing," Sam repeated for a moment and Cas seemed to be watching this as though he was watching a ping-pong match. Adam himself seemed to be losing interest though, not like he could honestly blame him though and he quickly tried to think of one thing about the baby that Dean would accept. "Besides the fact that the baby is innocent and that he is inherently good, the baby is my life Dean. He's my whole world besides you and I can't lose that, not now and not ever."

The baby was his love and his life as well as his future.

He just hoped Dean would come to realize that. And at Dean's look, he seemed resigned. He nodded but he knew that Dean would never forget. Not when faced with what was to come and he hoped he could someday come to realize why Sam was doing what he did.