Later that night we were all laying around in the living room talking laughing and just being together. We hadn't done to much of that since Rose passed.

"Tomarrow we totally have to go shopping, I need some clothes to wear in this rainy town!" Bella said looking at Alice

"Oh appsoultly we will head out tomarrow about 9:15 how does that sound?" Alice asked

"Great" Bella said

"I went and saw Rose today" Carlisle said in a loud voice to get everyones attention, and boy did that do it everyone suddenly got very quite and stared at him.

"I went to the cemetary and put out new flowers the others were starting to get old" he said kind of like he was defending himself.

"What?" Paisley asked standing up suddenly everyones eyes were on her, she looked around at everyone and ran out the back door. I had a feeling I knew were she was going so I stood up and went to follow her.

Jasper also stood up "I'll go" was all he said and he started jogging out the back door after Paisley.

"I didn't mean to make anyone upset" Carlisle said refering to Paisley

"I know, shes just sencitive about the whole subject, you didn't do anything anyone else would have, she will be okay" I said only because I knew he felt bad but the truth was everyone knew not to talk about going to Rose's grave in front of her she hated when people did. Only because right then she had to face yet again that her mother was no longer her mother she was dead. And that alone was enough to put any person into a pit of hell.

I knew it was going to be a while so I put my head back while everyone was talking and closed my eyes, my mind wondered to the most dreaded night of my life, the night I got the phone call.

Flash Back

It had been raining all day, which was the usual here but it was still a bummer. Rose was about to go pick up Paisley, who had been at a sleep over since last night.

"Bye Em, I'll be back in a little bit," She said handing me a three year old Payton. "Paige is already asleep in her crib, I should be back in time to feed her again but if I'm not her bottle's in the frige, I love you" she said leaning down to give me a kiss.

"Love you too Babe, Please be careful, are you sure you don't want me to go get her or we all go together?" I asked it was pooring down rain out there and to be honest I had this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach like something bad was going to happen, I just didn't know what it was.

"yes Em I'm sure, I'll be okay baby" she said once again kissing Payton on the forhead. Then she grabed her keys on the counter and headed to the door

"LOVE YOU" I shouted before she walked out the door one more time.

"LOVE YOU TOO" she said one last time before shutting the door behind her.

I looked down at Payton and she looked at me "well kid what do you wanna watch?" I asked already knowing the answer so I turned to to Dora and Payton went to town watching, but soon she fell asleep so I put her in her big girl bed and went into Paige's room to check on her, she was out cold and wouldn't be up for awhile so I went into our room and layed down to wait for Rose and Paisley to come back.

I guess I was tired because I fell asleep. I woke up to my phone ringing on the night stand beside the bed. I turned to look at the clock at the same time I picked up my phone it was 11:24PM someong better have a damn good reason for calling at this hour.

"Hello?" I asked into my phone.

"Hello, I need to speak with Emmett McCarthy, its urgent" the woman on the other end said.

"This is Emmett, may I ask what this is concerning?" I asked. Urgent? what could be wrong? I sat up in bed and pulled the covers off and I happend to look at Rose's side of the bed. Empty.

"Your wife, she was in a fatil car accident and is at Seattle Grace hospital" She said

I had already jumped out of the bed when she said the word 'Wife' "I'll be there as soon as I can" I said breathless I hung up the phone threw on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt and ran out the door. Esme was in the kitchen at looked up when she heard me running down.

"Emmett what on earth is the matter with you?" she asked in her motherly way

"Its Rose I gotta go to the hospital, watch the girls," I said grabbing my keys, wait the lady didn't say anything about Paisely so maybe she hadn't picked her up yet "Get Paisley shes still at Kailey's" I shouted out the door as I closed it, I valgly heard her shout "be careful!" before I jumped in to the jeep and peeled out of the drive way. That drive to the hospital was the longest thing I have ever done in my entire life! I parked the jeep and took off running in to the hospital as fast as I could, I didn't want to think about what she looked like I didn't want to think about how I almost lost the love of my life.

When I got up to the frount desk the lady asked "Who are you here to see Sir?"

"My Wife, Please can you tell me were she is Rosalie McCarthy?" I asked out of breath

"Shes in surgery at the moment would you like to have a seat in the waiting room the Doctor will be out as soon as he can" she said. I looked to were she had motioned and nodded my head. It couldn't be to bad right?

I had been sitting in the waiting room for about an hour when Carlisle, Jasper, and Rose and Jasper's parents walked in, I had my head in my hands so I didn't notice them until Jasper walked over and sat down beside me and Rose's mom Scarlette on my other side.

"Shes going to be fine Emmett, Shes a fighter" Scarlette said in my ear as she patted my back. I looked up at my dad silently asking about the girls.

"Esme went and picked up Paisley, Alice is with Paige and Payton, there fine and have no idea whats going on" he said I was glad they didn't know it was for the better right now.

"Thank you" was all I said and he just nodded.

"So whats going on right now?" Rose's dad asked sitting down by my dad.

"Shes in surgery, the Doctor will come talk to me when shes out" I said

"So she was in a car accident?" He asked

"Yes, she was going to pick up Paisley" I said

"It should have been you" he said looking at me. Everyone in the room gasped.

"Hey now, I know were all upset up that-" My dad started but I cut in

"Your right it should have been me, I wish it was me" I said tears coming to my eyes, I wished nothing more than for me to be laying in the hospital bed, not her she could take care of the girls better than me! It should be me in there not her! Not her.

"No it shouldn't have been anyone, not Emmett, not Rose, no one" Scarlette said looking at her husband with hate in her eyes.

Just then the Doctor walked into the room "Emmett McCarthy?" he asked looking around at the family so I stand up

"Your Emmett?" the Doctor asks

"Yes Sir" I say

"I'm Dr. Hunt, I was just doing surgery on your wife, and we did all we could-" was all he could get out before everyone gasped

"DAMN IT NO! NO!" I yelled bending down my tears were flowing now and I couldn't make them stop.

"I'm sorry but your Wife is-" He started and I couldn't hear it

"No damn it don't you say it, don't you say that word she is not, she is not DEAD, she isn't she has to be alive she has to, please, she has to" I was sobbing now, no grown man ever thinks they are going to sob in frount of people but here I was, standing in an hospital, my one and only true love gone. All because I wasn't good enough to keep her alive.

"I'm sorry Mr. McCarthy" Dr. Hunt said looking at me with sad eyes. I couldn't take it I looked back and saw Rose's mom with her dad crying and my dad consoling Jasper so I ran out, I had to get as far away from here as I possably could.