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Ch.4*I Don't Know What To Think*

Kurt's POV

"The gardens are definitely prettiest in the spring!",Kurt thought as he strolled around the rosebushes.

He had been in the West garden for about fifteen minutes or so and was surprised that no one, especially Sebastian, had come looking for him yet. Lately it seemed as if he couldn't get a moments peace. He suddenly heard the sound of heels clicking on the cooblestone pathway,"I knew it would not last.",Kurt sighed,"I certainly hope it is not him! I am not ready to have this conversation quite yet." Just as he was about to make a run for it and hide in the maze, he heard a voice that was much too feminine and soothing to be Sebastian.

"Kurt? Kurt are you out here?" The voice belonged to his beloved twin sister, Katherine, who had just come around the corner. The moment her eyes fell upon him, her face broke out into a sunny smile and she walked up to him. "There you are! What are you doing out here?"

Kurt couldn't help but smile back at her, her smile had always been contagious,"Just taking a stroll. I needed some air."

She nodded,"You seem to be needing a lot of air lately. A lot of alone time as well. Are you allright, Kurt? How long have you been out here today?"

Kurt sighed, leave it to Katherine to notice that something was bothering him,"Yes, Kat, i'm allright and i've only been out here for about twenty minutes. Why do you ask?"

"It's just that you have been so distant, so quiet and reserved lately. I've been worried about you! You spend hours locked away in your room or out here in one of the gardens. You busy yourself with extra studies or trips into town. You avoid everyone lately, especially Prince Sebastian, which leads me to wonder if something happened between you two. You usually tell me everything, Kurt, but lately you have not which only worries me more. Please tell me what is bothering you my dear brother."

Kurt couldn't help but wince at the worried expression on her face. He knew that she was right for he hadn't been himself lately and he does really want to talk to someone about it. "Oh, Kat! I am so sorry! The last thing I wanted to do was to worry you! I have been wanting to talk to you about this but I had thought it a small matter that I should not concern you with. You are planning your wedding after all! This is a busy and stressful time for you! But I will tell you now. Three days ago, here in this garden, Sebastian and I were taking a stroll when he began mentioning me seeing the gardens of his home in Cincinatti. But he was not talking about seeing them on a visit! He was talking about me seeing them whenever I like because they would be mine as well as his! It shook me to my core to hear him say that to me, Kat! I had been hoping beyond hope that he would never mention marriage or a future between us but he did!"

Katherine's brow furrowed in confusion,"Kurt, I do not understand why this is such a horrible thing. Sebastian is a wonderful man who cares about you deeply. Of course, the fact that he is handsome, smart, courageous, funny, and kind helps, as well. Sometimes I wonder if you are all he can think of both when he is with you and away from you. Kurt, he would make a perfect husband for you! That man would go to the ends of the Earth just to make you happy! Besides, you must remember that marrying you is why he is here. He wants the two of you to have a future together! No one forced him to come here and seek your affection and no one is forcing him to stay. He chooses to be here because he wants to be your husband! So, why is what he said so wrong?"

Kurt sat in silence simply processing everything that she had said. She was completely right! In fact, everything she was saying was exactly what he had been telling himself. He honestly didn't know what was wrong with him. He should be happy that he was so lucky to have a man like, Prince Sebastian Smythe, who wanted to marry him, who cared about him, but it still didn't feel like enough.

"It still does not feel like enough though. I mean, of course, I want to marry Sebastian! I do care about him and he would make me happy. It would be the perfect marriage for me, one mother and father have always wanted for the both of us. One both you and Finn are about to be in! One I have always wanted! The difference is that you are in love with Noah and Finn is in love with Quinn. I am not in love with Sebastian! I do fancy and care for him but it is not like you and Noah. You have been together, albeit on and off, for three years and you know each other inside and out. You are sure that you love one another and that this is what you both want. It happened naturally and on your own time and terms. There is passion between you two! When he looks at you, Kat, your heart skips a beat. When he holds your hand, you get butterflies in your stomach. When he says your name, your breath catches in your chest. When he kisses you, you feel as if you could fly. The thought of being without him, even for the smallest amount of time, makes you feel as if you could die. No one else compares! You do not find yourself doubting anything when you are with him. You never think to yourself,"Who or what else could be out there?" or"Is this it?" Noah makes you feel safe, wanted, important, special, loved,...",he trailed off, not realizing that he had stood up and had been pacing harshly in front of, Katherine, who had remained calm the entire time.

He slowly sunk back down onto the bench next to her before continuing,"It just never feels that way with Sebastian. I believe that marriage should include the things that you and Noah have. I know that that is what I have always dreamed of! I want to be in love when I get married, Kat! I am trying to be with Sebastian. I keep telling myself that maybe those feelings will come after we've been married and living together for awhile. Maybe if I see him at his home and with his family and friends then I will realize that I love him. But i'm terrified that I will not and then I will forever be stuck in a loveless and miserable marriage."

Katherine took his hand,"Kurt, I understand what you are saying. When Noah and I first got engaged I had those fears as well. I was afraid that I had only thought that I loved him and that he was not the man that I was meant to spend the rest of my life with. But then over time I realized that I do love him and I do want to marry him. That it was simply the stress and anxiety that was making me doubt what I knew was best for me. Perhaps that is what is happening with you, as well. I know that father and Viceroy William have been pestering you to marry soon and that your last couple of suitors have been less than satisfactory, which makes you nervous that maybe Sebastian has a dark side that he has not shown yet. You are worried that he will show it to you too late and you will spend the rest of your life regretting your decision to marry him, if you do choose that. But, Kurt, hear me now. He is different then all of them! I am not saying to ignore your feelings or to rush into anything, for you still have plenty of time to get to know him and decide, but maybe you are not giving Sebastian a chance due to your worries. Perhaps you should try opening up a little more. You are always so inside yourself and reserved, which I know comes from you always feeling like you must hide who you are because of your sexuality. I know that that is not what people have expected from you, but that does not matter because you are yourself and that is all that matters. But with Sebastian you do not have to be reserved. You can be yourself which is something you should embrace because that is very important in a partner as well."

Kurt felt her squeeze his hand in love and support and it was in that moment that he knew what he was going to do," I have made my decision."

Katherine looked surprised,"What have you decided? Because you know that you do not have to decide anything right now, Kurt! I do not want you to rush anything or to feel pressured. I want your decision to be exactly what you want after you have thought long and hard about it. We are talking about the rest of your life after all! Once you have made your decision and announced it to everyone, there is no going back!"

Kurt nodded,"I know that, Kat. But my decision still stands."

Katherine nodded,"What is it then?"

Kurt took a deep breath before looking her right in the eye, this was it,"I am going to marry Prince Sebastian Smythe!"

Blaine's POV

Blaine, Wes, and David were standing outside of a small shop in the marketplace of Lima called, Rhodes Liquor and Things, with which Rachel had just come out of. "Here is the lowdown boys! Sebastian is pursuing Prince Kurt who it turns out is the crown prince. However, due to his sexuality and lack of masculinity, the throne is now being decided between his stepbrother and his sisters fiancee. Sebastian has been here for two months with no luck of getting the Prince to accept his offer and that the Prince has had the misfortune of having horrible suitors before. It seems that he has had a good many of them in the past year or so and that none of them could measure up until Sebastian. It seems that although the Prince has not yet accepted, he has been warming up to Sebastian more and more and is closer to saying yes everyday. Sebastian it seems is quite infatuated with Kurt and is doing pretty much anything to win his hand and heart. That April lady in there says that the whole kingdom has been waiting for days to hear the engagement announcement. It could be any day now she says." Blaine simply sat on his horse and processed this newfound and important information,"So Sebastian is actually taken with Prince Kurt? Possibly in love with him! This is very useful indeed!" Blaine looked up at his friends who were all looking at him expectantly." I now know exactly how I am going to get revenge on Sebastian! I am going to go to the castle and tell King Burt that I am interested in pursuing his son for marriage. Then I will woe Kurt and marry him. Sebastian will be so heartbroken and insecure, as he watches me take Kurt to live as my husband in Westerville, that he won't know what to do! Besides, my parents have been pestering me to be married so I can just kill two birds with one stone. They will be happy that I am going to marry a royal! My mother has this thing about how royals should only marry royals and blah! blah! blah! Father has been looking to make an alliance with Lima, as well, so this would be perfect! Cincinatti, Carmel, and Columbus have been stirring up trouble for Westerville and Lima would be perfect to have as an alliance. Westerville and the GAP can't handle those three countries alone! The knights and army of Lima are second only to Westerville and we need them if it turns into war. But if Kurt marries Sebastian then that's where Lima's allegiance will go due to the marriage. So me marrying Kurt is for more then revenge, it is for the survival of Westerville and the GAP."

Wes and David let their agreement be known but only Rachel spoke a bit of reason,"I understand that Blaine! Both the revenge and the business parts of it but there is one huge factor to this that you must remember and that is Kurt! He is innocent and it's his heart, his feelings, his life that you must also take into account. Just whatever you do, please try not to hurt him! I don't want this young man's life ruined on account of a school rivalry between you and Sebastion or the rivalry between Cincinatti and Westerville! Just be careful Blaine! Besides, whether or not you destroy Sebastian all depends on if Kurt chooses you or not. You heard what that saleslady told me! Sebastian has been here for awhile and Kurt is close to accepting him. He is going to have an advantage over you when it comes to Kurt. You also have to hope that Kurt accepts you as a suitor. You have to convince Kurt to like you more then Sebastian and from what I was told, that is not going to be easy to do!"

Blaine looked at Rachel, who was always the voice of reason between the four of them it seemed, as he thought about what she said. She had this annoying habit of speaking her mind and usually being right which is how it had always been ever since they were kids. Rachel is the daughter of two Baron's and a live-in surrogate mother named Shelby. Shelby was only the "donor" though not a mother and was only a live-in because she is a member of the royal family of Westerville and it would have ruined her if everyone thought of her as only a whore who gives her body for the baron's babies. So, Baron Hiram Berry-Abrams and Baron Leroy Berry-Abrams let her live in their estate as their "lady" but she was not to be a mother in any way to either Rachel or her older brother, Arthur, who preferred to be called Artie, or else she would be forced to leave.

Shelby was Blaine's father's sister, his aunt, but she did not like the life of a royal nor did she want to be married, which is how Rachel and Blaine are related. Rachel was not a typical young woman. In fact, she was more of a man then a woman and always had been. Rachel had been Blaine's first real friend because they were always so much alike. Rachel used to be scolded by her father's for playing in the mud, wrestling the boys, and refusing to ride horses side saddle. To this day she still refuses to act, talk, or dress like a lady. While all of the other girls were going to finishing school, Rachel Berry-Abrams was going to Dalton Academy for Royals, Knights, and Nobility. Dalton has never had the words "this is a school for boys only" written in stone and Rachel knew that. She definitely fought her way in and once she was there she proved herself quickly.

From the start she was treated like an outsider by everyone, except for Blaine, Wes, and David, until she beat them all in every class, sport, and arm wrestling contest. Rachel was known as "The Monster" at Dalton Academy and she was damn proud of it. Needless to say, Rachel quickly became one of the top and higher respected guys at Dalton. She was smart, strong, loyal, and fun as hell to have around and Blaine loved her for it.

Blaine laughed,"Don't worry, Rach! How could Kurt like Sebastian more then me? I mean look at me!", he motioned toward himself,"and look at Sebastian! Kurt will not be able to resist once he sees me. I'm going to walk into that palace and he will completely forget who Sebastian even is. He will be begging to marry me!" He, Wes, and David all exchanged smug high fives and laughter while Rachel simply rolled her eyes.

"For your sake, Blaine, I hope you're right, but I will laugh when you're not.",with that Rachel mounted her horse and took off toward the castle.

Blaine frowned before mounting his own horse, Wes and David did the same,"To the castle!", he said, with a sarcastically deep voice, before the three of them sped off after her.