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We got rid of the stunned death eater easily, just erasing his memory and then making him smaller, shipped him to Dumbledore, and that was that. The girl was another problem. Her parents had died, and no one really knew what to do with her, but Dumbledore said erasing her memory wouldn't do much good, she would still be traumatized and have no idea why, so he decided to take her to Hogwarts to be Madame Pomfrey's assistant. She didn't much like the idea of leaving us, the people she had just grown to know, but she left anyway. That took about five minutes. James and I apparated back to our house quickly, concerned about our injuries. I knew that my eye was still filled with blood from the cut on my forehead, not to mention right under my chest there was a growing bruise that hurt to breath, but I just felt sore all helped clean up the bruise on my forehead, washing it off with a rag the muggle way before putting dittany on it to heal it, and then reciting a spell that would leave no scar. After that I took off my shirt so he could help with my cut on my left rib, which was turning out to be more of a bruise. He did what he could, which wasn't much but was still helpful.

"How's your leg?" I asked him, remembering how he had grimaced.

"What? Oh, that was just a paper cut sort of thing, I'm perfectly fine." he said, seeming to be distracted slightly.

"You sure?" I asked.

"Yes, I'm fine." he responded. "Now let's go get cleaned up. You can shower first." He scooped me up gently, ignoring my protests and carried me up the stairs.

"We could just shower together, save time." I said slyly, eyes downcast so he wouldn't see my face.

"That probably wouldn't be a good idea." he said and trailed off. "I'm already a little out of it and wouldn't want to do anything out of hand."

"Yes, I suppose you're right." I said and sighed.

He laughed lightly. "It'll happen, I promise. Just wait til we're married love."

"I suppose you're right." I repeated. "I just hope everyone's all right. I can't help but think we failed. I mean, Benjy blown to bits. And who knows if Caradoc and Amelia made it out alive. I just-"

But he cut me off with a quick kiss. "Don't think those things now okay? We just need to keep looking forward. Look on the positive side, we're alive, and so is Remus and Sirius. We're healthy and safe. I know that's selfish, but I don't know what I would do if you had been hurt, hurt more I should say, so I call it a successful mission."

"Thank you James." I said and he looked at me, slightly confused.

"For what?"

"For loving me, all of me."

"You're welcome." he whispered and lowered his lips to mine. They had just brushed against mine when I fell to the ground.

I sat up, slightly annoyed to shove James. "Did you seriously drop me!" But what I saw almost made me fall again.

James was lying in a crumpled heap, seizing. He was shaking uncontrollably, his glasses had fallen off, making his eyes crazed and spinning, and his leg was moving in almost impossible directions.

"James!" I shouted and rushed over to him. There was a slowly creeping puddle of blood seeping from his pant leg that I slid into when I sat on my knees next to him. "James, James, please be ok, you have to be ok." I kept murmuring words to him, trying to keep myself calm. "Help, help, I need help." I pulled out my wand.

"Diffindo!" His pants split open, right at his hip and I pulled off the leg of the jeans he was wearing. I almost fainted at the sight. He had a jagged hole at the very top, inside of his thigh. The edges were frayed and pink, blood seeping from the wound. Congealed blood had dried in his leg hair, making his leg look like raw meat.

I choked down a sob and raised my wand. "Accio dittany!" From the closet near the stairs a tiny bottle came flying towards me and I got it. It took me a second to uncork the glass, and I leaned over his leg, carefully trying not to hurt him even more. He had grown still, no longer seizing, which scared me even more. From the dittany I allowed three small drops into the wound, which immediately began to smoke. Blood poured out of it even more but once to smoke began to clear I saw that his hole was a small scar now.

"James, james, wake up." I pleaded, crawling up to where his head was. I put his head in my lap, frightened that he wasn't moving and his eyes were closed. By this time there wasn't a part of me that wasn't covered in blood. I grabbed my wand once more.

"Accio mirror." I whispered, and from James' room came a simple mirror.

Flashback

"Here." James said. I looked up from my book to see him leaning over me. I patted the seat next to me on the couch and he took it, wrapping his arms around me.

"Here what?" I asked. He handed me a small mirror with silver edgings. "It's beautiful, but you know I have the full ba-"

"It's not for beauty. Just in case anything ever happens to me, get this from my room. Look into it and say Sirius. He has the twin mirror. You can contact him and he'll be able to help."

"James I do-"

"Just know that its here. Okay?" I agreed and he leaned down, placing his lips on my neck. And the mirror was soon forgotten.

End Flashback

"S-Sirius." I said, looking straight into the mirror. It started vibrating in my hands and then Sirius appeared, or at least his head.

"Lily Flower! What a surprise. I'm glad you mirrored, I was beginning to get wo-"

"Sirius, you have to come over, quickly. James is hurt! He's not waking up and I'm frightened. Please, help me." I said, sobbing freely now.

"I'll be right there." It was strange to see how quickly Sirius could lose the spark in his eyes whenever he got upset. He vanished from view and I jumped when I heard a pop behind me.

"Lily! Are you all right? You're covered in blood!"

"It's not mine," I said, sobbing. "It's J-james."

Sirius paled and walked over to where James was laying. His blood was soaking the carpet still, but the bleeding had finally stopped. He took out his wand and muttered a spell, cursed, and then muttered another. He stood over James for ten minutes, flourishing his wand and muttering, his curses getting louder and louder after each spell.

"I-I don't know what to do. All of those should have woken him up. H-he isn't moving." Sirius said, turning towards me.

Seeing the panic and fear in his eyes, I immediately burst into tears.

"No! NO! He has to be alright! Please, oh Merlin, please." I rushed at James but Sirius grabbed my hand.

"Lily, there's nothing you can do." he looked into my eyes and I could see he truly believed that. I sank to the ground. "I'm going to contact the healers. I'll be right back." He left the room. I sat their, rocking back and forth. I was still there staring at James, when he disappeared.

"SIRIUS!" I screamed, hysterical. He came running into the room and looked to me and then the ground.

"It's the healers, they're transporting him to the hospital. It's alright."

"IT'S NOT ALRIGHT. James c-can't, he c-can't be d-de" but I couldn't continue. I burst into another round of tears and sank into my knees, closing my eyes.

Strong arms wrapped around me, pulling me to a chest. It wasn't the arms I wanted, but I couldn't face this alone. I turned my face into Sirius' chest and sobbed. His arms came around me completely and I buried myself into him. He smelled good, and I was shocked into realizing I would notice something like that. His chest was harder than James, and was slightly wider, making me swallowed up into his arms. He held me for a long time. He held me when the tears turned into hysterics, when I was so numb I couldn't breath, and finally when the crying stopped, he held me too.

"Please, just take me to bed." I whispered.

"Ok." he gently lifted me up, bridal style, with my head still in his chest, and carried me to James' room. He tenderly set me on the bed. "Pajamas?"

"James." I whispered, and he seemed to understand. Grabbing a pair of James' t-shirts and boxers he came over to me.

"Uhm, do you-"

"Just do it." I said. He carefully took off my clothes and put on James', never revealing an inch of skin. He tucked me in to the bed softly, resting my head on his pillow.

"Will you be ok here?" he whispered.

"Sirius, please, stay." I whispered back. I couldn't bear being alone. For I knew that if I was alone, I might never be fully present ever again, could not let myself think of the possibilities of being alone. Never alone.

Sirius crawled into bed with me, changing into a pair of James' running shorts. He sat up for a moment and leaned over me. "It'll be ok Lily. I promise." he kissed my forehead and then laid back down in the bed besides me. I somehow managed to fall asleep, thankful for the breathing next to me.

Sometime in the night, my hand had found his because when I awoke, they were still intertwined.

A/N: I AM SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SORRY. i have been an awful author. you should be able to boil me alive for what i've done, but i couldn't help it. My life has been so hectic that i have completely forgotten about writing until like two minutes ago. I thought this was a good ender though, so this chapter is split into two parts. I've just been so busy, that i apologize. I know you don't care, but i'm going to tell you the five top things that have been keeping me from writing.

1. SWIMMING- im on my high school swim team, we have practice over break five and a half hours a day

2. FAMILY

3. BREAKING THREE TOES YESTERDAY

4. SCHOOL

5. SLEEP-or lack there of.

mmkay, that is all. i PROMISE i'll update faster. enjoy!