Chapter 17

Loren climbed off Eddie and cleared off that table, Eddie helped. She washed the dishes as he dried and once more the moment felt perfect. It felt as if this was how it was meant to be for the rest of their lives.

"Eddie, can I talk to you?" Ian called from upstairs.

Eddie and Loren exchanged a look. He kissed her and went upstairs to Ian's room, "What?" Eddie said walking though the door.

"Couldn't help but notice your wet dream about Loren was about to come true."

"Dude, stop." Eddie said closing the door.

"What?"

"We just got together yesterday; we're not going to be having sex for a while."

"The way you two make out you'll be having sex tonight."

"I don't think she's ready."

"Well, if she is," Ian removed something from his pocket and tossed it to Eddie, "don't forget to use this. We don't need another Duran running around here for a while."

Eddie looked down at the condom and tossed it back, "I have some if I need it, which I won't."

Ian held up his hands in surrender and laid on the bed. Eddie walked downstairs, he saw Loren in her pink bikini putting on sunscreen. She wasn't ready, but he couldn't wait until she was.

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Eddie walked upstairs and Loren finished the dishes.

"Hello, Mrs. Duran." Mel said walking in, eating an apple.

Loren shook her head, "Hello, Mrs.… I don't know Ian's last name."

"Neither do I." Mel said with a puzzling look.

"Okay, well, I'm going to put on my bikini, so follow me to my room if you want to talk about… stuff."

"Well, I want to talk about your stuff. You and Eddie are getting really intense." Mel said sitting on Loren's bed.

"I know!"

"So are you going to…?"

"I don't think I'm ready."

"Really? Lo, you two are always one kiss away from ripping each other's pants off."

"Mel!"

"You can't say it's not true!"

Loren walked out of the bathroom, "Mel, I am SO attracted to Eddie, and trust me when I say I don't know if I'm not ready because I think I'm too young or I'm afraid…"

"That he'll leave you? Lo-"

"I know. Eddie would never do that, but how do you know that?"

"Because the way Eddie looks at you, he is in love Loren. He's been there for you for everything; he's always going to be there. It's your insecurities that are holding you back."

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Loren was putting on sunscreen when she turned and saw Eddie looking at her. She smiled, "Can you put sunscreen on my back?"

"Ye-Yeah" Eddie stumbled. He walked over and started putting sunscreen on her back. She wanted to bring up the 'sex' conversation, but didn't know how.

"Done" he said, he wanted to bring it up too, but he didn't want to upset her.

"Thanks." They stood there awkwardly, "I'm going for a swim, coming?"

"Yeah, in a sec." he smiled and kissed her cheek.

She walked out and headed toward the beach. He watched her leave, well he watched her ass. He couldn't help himself. She was everything he wanted; her looks were just an extra feature. Her personality is what turns him on not her looks. He wanted to tell her that he'll wait till she's ready but he didn't know how. This was the most frustrating thing in the world. 'It could be worse,' he thought, 'she could have been a slut and given it up right away.'

She was lying out on the beach when Eddie sat next to her. Mel and Ian were flirting in the ocean and Max and Nora went inside 'to take a nap.' They seemed to be taking naps a lot this trip. Eddie looked down at Loren who was writing. He laid on his stomach like she was and kissed her head, "Whatcha writin'?" he asked.

"A song." she smiled, inching closer.

"Can I hear it?"

"No."

"Why not?" he said smiling.

"Because it's not finished." She said nudging him.

He let the subject go, "Loren?"

"Yes?"

"We've been very… intense lately."

She sighed, "I know."

"I just want you to know," he said leaning in closer, "I don't care when we do it, as long as you're ready."

She smiled, "Thank you."

"And I want you to know it's not your looks that… um."

"Turn you on?" she smiled.

"Yeah, it's your personality."

"Wait what?" She said sitting up.

"No! I didn't mean it like you're not hot, cause you are, you really are, I just meant-" Eddie started but Loren interrupted him with a kiss.

"Don't get so worked up all the time. I didn't take it the wrong way." She smiled.

"Good, but seriously Loren. When you are ready is when I'll be." he kissed her once more. Her head was spinning.

"It's not that I'm not ready it's I don't know why I'm not ready. I am really attracted to you and trust me, I've thought about it, it's just I think-"

"Loren do you think I'm going to sleep with you then leave you?" He said trying to hide the hurt in his tone.

She looked down, "I guess my insecurities about you being a rock star intensify with this subject." She started to play with the sand with her finger.

He smiled at her, placed a finger under her chin and lifted her head up to she could look him in the eyes, "Loren Tate, I love you. I am always going to love you. If we have sex, I will stay around forever. I love you and I'm not going anywhere."

She smiled at him, "I love you so much. I just want it to be romantic."

"It won't matter where or when we do it. As long as I'm with you, it will be romantic and the best moment of my life."

Review please. School gives me a ton of work that's why I don't post during the week, it's not that I'm not writing any chapters. I will try and update faster.