Double Update!

Logan's giggling filled the kitchen as Mrs. Knight turned to see her two beautiful sons, along with her precious daughter sitting at the table. She had such a wonderful family, and for that, she was truly thankful. Mama Knight couldn't contain her excitement…she knew Logan would be ecstatic when he finds out about the adoption.

"Morning, mommy." Logan wrapped his tiny arms around Mama Knight's waist.

"Good morning, Logie Bear…can you sit down at the table, we need to talk to you." She replied.

Logan hesitated, tears leaking from his eyes, "I-I'm sorry…d-did I-I d-do something…I-I'm sorry i-if I d-d-disappointed y-you."

"No, sweetie pie…you're not in trouble!" Mrs. Knight assured. Logan nodded and proceeded to the table; sitting next to Katie and watching Kendall and Mama Knight join them. His eyes followed their hands as they grasped a few pieces of paper.

"W-what d-do you w-want to ta-talk about?" Logan tried to steady his breathing.

"Honey, would it be ok with you if Kendall, Katie, and I adopted you?" Mrs. Knight asked softly.

"I-I really like that." Logan almost didn't believe a word they had said.

Mrs. Knight placed the papers in front of her new official son with a big smile. It couldn't be true. He had to be dreaming, right?

"T-this i-i-isn't t-t-true…i-it c-can't b-be…w-why d-d-do y-you w-want m-me?" Logan tried to calm down a little; he could feel panic, being confused and worried. He couldn't grasp his emotions…too much was going on for him to handle.

"Sweetie." Mrs. Knight's voice got higher, "Don't ever feel that way; of course we want you!"

"R-really?" Logan stuttered.

"Yes! We love you, Logie Bear." Mama Knight said, Kendall and Katie joining in.

Logan couldn't take it anymore. He couldn't go through with this. The second you become relaxed, the more vulnerable you be. He wanted so bad to trust the Knight's, but he couldn't. It was impossible. Being left all the time by loved ones was etched into his mind. He'd never forget about what his parents did. All of those times they'd tell him that they loved him, but then still starve him. Or they'd be so nice all week, but on Saturday he'd get the worst beating he'd ever had. What if that happened again? He couldn't go through it a second time. Logan felt smothered and overwhelmed. With tears streaking down his face he dashed upstairs. Each footstep felt like a hundred. His legs were weak from being sick. He didn't deserve to be cared for. He should leave. In his mind, he felt like he should just go back to being alone…he deserved something more like that.

Why did this feel wrong? Oh right…it was. Logan needed people to care for him like that, and he wanted that too. But trusting someone just means you'll have a better chance of getting hurt. He dashed into Kendall's room and found his old sweater. Without thinking he pulled over himself and grabbed his raggedy sneakers, putting them over his 'sockless' feet. Before continuing out the door, before he could leave…Kendall's tall body towered over him. He looked sympathetic, but a little upset and nervous at the same time. The tiny brunette couldn't keep it in. He collapsed to the floor and rested his head into his hands, sobbing hysterically. Kendall dropped down to his level and pulled his baby brother's limpness body onto his lap.

"Shhh…shhh…shhh…" Kendall cooed, "Do you want to talk about it?"

Logan shook his head, more whimpering following after, he hugged Kendall tighter. Moments of silence passed, just the sound of small whines echoed around the room. Logan finally spoke up in a small voice.

"C-can I s-still stay here?" Logan whispered.

"Of course…are you sure you don't wanna talk?"

"…I-I don't w-wanna b-be left a-again."

Kendall didn't want to push the subject too much, "We're not going anywhere, I promise…I love you too much to do that."

"N-nobody h-has ever s-said that they l-loved me and m-meant it before..." Logan sighed.

Kendall kissed Logan's forehead, "I love you so much, baby…you mean the world to me, and I won't let anyone hurt you anymore."

Logan snuggled up on Kendall lap, "I love you too."

From downstairs you could hear Mama Knight on the phone, and followed after was the sound her coming upstairs.

"Logan, baby, can you get dressed…I want to take you somewhere."

"W-where?"

"We're going to see someone named Laura Snow." She smiled.

Logan nodded before hugging his mom along with Kendall for the second time.

After managing to find Logan some of Kendall's old clothes, they set off for the clinic. The outfit that Logan was wearing was from when Kendall was 6 years old and surprisingly and worringly, Logan fit into it, with them even being baggy. Mama Knight knew she needed to go out and get him some new clothes soon. Tomorrow, she decided. They headed out the door, Kendall going with them. Katie had gone to a friends house, so it was just them three for the day. Mama Knight found a booster seat in the garage and sat Logan on it, strapping him into the back seat next to Kendall. Logan had never been in a car and so he squealed in delight when it started to move, the scenery outside whizzing past them. Logan swung his legs and pressed his face as close as he could to the window. When they parked outside the large, white building, he tried to figure out how to unstrap himself, after all, he had never seen a seatbelt before. Mama Knight and Kendall chuckled at the little boy's adorableness. Kendall unbuckled Logan, who then did it up again just so he could undo it himself. He then hopped out of the car and held onto Kendall's hand as they entered the building.

Inside was so much different to the outside. The walls were painted a nice, happy colour of yellow, with many colourful pictures hanging on them. It was light and airy and instead of hospital chairs, they had different coloured sofas. There were lots of smiley faces painted on the walls and paw prints were painted on the wooden floor. After signing in at the reception desk, they sat down on a sofa. But Logan was off immediatley. Because, right in the centre of the room was a massive space filled with different toys, books and gadgets. There were boys toys, girls toys, electronic toys, books, interactive toys. It was toys galore! Logan found a set of cars and stated playing races with them. After a few minutes, whilst he was occupied, a woman with blonde hair and small glasses came out, holding a clipboard. She sat down on the purple sofa in front of their blue one and smiled.

"Hello, I'm Dr. Snow, but you can call me Laura. You're here with Logan?" she asked as she looked at some files in her arms. They nodded in response.

"Good. Well, ever since you've arrived, I have been observing Logan from afar. He seems quite an intelligent boy of the things he's aware of. However, I'm guessing some things he has no idea about?"

"No, he hadn't ever been in a car until today" Mama Knight explained.

"Ok then, would you like to get Logan and we can go into my office and discuss what we're going to do. Then Logan can start his session."

She told them, standing up and waiting until Logan had been called over. When the little boy noticed the unfamiliar woman standing in front of them, he hid behind Mama Knight, clinging to her jeans in fright. Laura smiled at him kindly when he peeked round and led them to her office. The office itself was big and spacious, black leather sofas and a black leather chair, with a desk and a laptop. There was a box of toys in the corner and Logan slowly made his way over to them, glancing back as if asking if he was allowed to use them. When Laura nodded at him, he pulled out some Bob The Builder figures and started making them dig and build. The two adults and Kendall started to talk about what would be done for Logan.

"Now, from what I can gather, Logan has many issues deriving from being neglected, abused and bullied. He has no confidence or self-esteem, he has trust issues, anxiety and panic issues, he's unsure of most things he doesn't know of, paranoia, he can't understand things like love or care, he's scared of a lot of things, I'm guessing he has nightmares and to be quite honest, I think Logan may have a form of child depression." Laura informed them slowly, so they could take it all in.

"Child depression?" Mama Knight asked.

"Yes. It develops from trauma, being neglected eccetera and can make the child unsure of whether people are tricking them, that they will suddenly dissapear and generally makes them afraid and upset. Logan, from all the clinging and hiding, I can tell has stage 3 child depression." she replied solemnly.

"How-how can you help then?" Kendall wondered, looking over to his little brother who had found some marbles. He watched as Logan inspected the small, red and blue things, before raising them to his mouth and-

"Logie! They're not to eat, they're things to play with!" Kendall rushed over and stopped the confused youngster. Kendall gently took them away from the small boy and dug out a few teddies, deeming these the safest for him to play with. Once he was sure Logan wasn't going to eat anything, he settled back next to his mother. The adults had been watching the whole time.

"As I was saying, Logan can't be forced to do anything, he's too fragile. I'm first going to work on building a bond with him so that I can make some progress. This first session will be making this bond. From then, I'm going to start out on his emotions. He seems very unsure of them, so I'm thinking through play and interactive activities, I shall be able to find out what he is feeling. Then we will work on trust, confidence and his panic attacks and nightmares. I would like to see him three times a week, on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays like today. The first session will help me get an idea of how long they will last, but I should think the longest would be 2 hours. As for how long he will have to continue seeing me...Logan is an extremely damaged boy...it's going to take a long time for him to become...well, better. You are welcome to read any books in here, go home or get drinks whilst I work with Logan. Our sessions will take place through that door." she pointed to a door in the corner of the room. "That's what we call my therapy room. If you have any problems, just knock and pop your head round the door." She smiled and went over to the door, turning to face Logan.

"Logan" the little boy's head swung round, his eyes opening wider as he realised the strange woman was talking to him. Laura, noticing his nervousness, kneeled down so she was at his level. Logan slowly approached her, feeling braver now she was his height.

"Would you like to come with me? There's lots more toys in there" she told him softly. Logan looked at the door curiously at the mention of more toys. He looked back to his mom and Kendall, biting his lip.

"Go on Logie, go with Laura, she's really nice" Kendall encouraged.

"Can you come with me?" Logan asked timidly, fiddling with his top. Kendall smiled sadly.

"Me and mommy have to say here, but you'll have fun and we'll be right here when you get back, ok? You can trust Laura, Logie." Logan looked at the smiling woman again, before nodding at Kendall and walking through the open door.

"He'll be ok" Laura told them as she walked in and closed the door behind her, ready to start Logan's session.

Sarah and I have more chapters...anyone want me to post them?

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